The diary of a (not so-Little)Sausage

[LittleSausage]

Feeling really weird. Since Monday, in fact. Randomly tearful. Ugh. * week has been and gone, so I can't blame that. Maybe it's stress related. Dammit.
Today's food so far:

Breakfast:
Banana, satsuma, Shape zero yoghurt
3 coffees with skimmed milk (HEa or 1.5 syns - may decide to change it later so I can cry in to my Mini Babybel Lights this evening)

Lunch:
Kedgeree from last night (2 syns for a half portion) with a large portion of roasted veg.
Activia fat free cherry yoghurt

Supper:
Butternut squash, sweet potato and spinach curry with rice
3 slices WW Danish brown bread (HEb)

Small glass of champagne and one vodka with slimline tonic (8 syns)

Total syns: 10

 

[Maverick]

I have times like that. Usually when I'm in the car on my own, and something on the radio, or a random thought can give me a lump in my throat. Unless you have a reason to feel sad I don't think it's anything to worry about xxx

 

[Pinkie1973]

Thank you so much, Gail It's so nice to have someone who has been so incredibly successful say such kind words. The kedgeree was lovely. I can post the recipe if you're interested?

It helps that I really enjoy the plan, and the planning! I think that when all else seems absolutely beyond my control, I now have quite a tight leash on what I put in my mouth. This makes a huge difference - before, I would eat when I was happy or sad or stressed, and then to congratulate myself or commiserate or because I was bored. Now, I am so conscious of what I put in my mouth, to the point where I get stressed out when I lose that control. I suppose that's something else I'll have to deal with... but it just makes me realise how important losing weight has become to me. I have been overweight for as long as I can remember, but Slimming World and going to a group has really given me a goal. Fortunately, I don't have any work trips until June/July-ish. I reckon that after 6 months on-plan I should be experienced enough to relax a little, and know where problems lie and how to make the best of situations that are less than favourable.

Weigh in is on a Monday, but I couldn't go this week. My scales (dangerous, I know!) showed a loss of almost 3lb, but I don't know what that will mean next Monday (when I will weigh in officially). I am really hoping for a good loss next week.
x

That said - you have shown that when you have been away on business, you have actually lost weight anyway - so I think you should give yourself more credit!

Is that kedgeree with noodles? I thought that was rice, or am I missing something. Either way - yes please, could you post the recipe!

I'm going to see Warhorse in a couple of weeks (did I already mention that elsewhere?). Mid week trip too, that will be 2 mid week nights out this month - get me miss daredevil! ;-)

 

[Pinkie1973]

Feeling really weird. Since Monday, in fact. Randomly tearful. Ugh. * week has been and gone, so I can't blame that. Maybe it's stress related. Dammit.
Today's food so far:

Breakfast:
Banana, satsuma, Shape zero yoghurt
3 coffees with skimmed milk (HEa or 1.5 syns - may decide to change it later so I can cry in to my Mini Babybel Lights this evening)

Lunch:
Kedgeree from last night with a large portion of roasted veg.
Activia fat free cherry yoghurt

Supper:
No idea yet.

Aw sausage - we all have times like that. Have a little cry and do what you need to - then pick yourself back up again. My * week is all over the place sometimes. I think it's now sort of regular enough - but one month I had pains a week before and nothing at the time. Others pain afterwards, before - bloating all over the shop. I do have PCOS, and I have noticed in the past it has all settled into more of a predictable routine as I've lost weight. So maybe although * week has passed it is still hormones. Either way - comforting hugs coming from Pinkieland!

 

[funcurls]

Aww Sausage! You are indeed normal! Go with the flow, let it out and you'll soon feel better! I tend to go through these ups and downs that aren't always cycle related! Stress can definitely do it! Keep focused on the weight losses- that will make u feel good! And try and take time to do little things u enjoy whether it may be taking a bath, losing yourself I'm a book, watching a film etc etc XxX

 

[LittleSausage]

Thanks, guys! Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's just stress related... weird.

Ok, so here's the recipe for the kedgeree - and Pinkie: it is with rice!

Kedgeree (serves 4-5 generously)
1 x 3" piece of ginger, peeled and grated
4 x garlic cloves, finely chopped/grated
2 x onions, finely chopped
4 x large tomatoes, deseeded and chopped
3-4 tbsp mild curry powder
1tbsp mustard seeds
4-5 fillets of smoked fish (I used smoked mackerel)
2 1/2 cups of basmati rice, cooked (you can also use 3 packets of microwave rice)
Juice of 2 lemons
4 hard boiled eggs

With some frylight, soften the onions. Add some water if they start to go brown. Add garlic and ginger and allow to cook. Add curry powder, mustard seeds and lemon juice. The mixture should be quite paste-like - add water if it's too dry.
Put in the fish (broken in to chunks) and rice and warm through. Quarter the eggs and arrange on top.

2 lemons may be too much for some people, but I really like the fresh flavour. Also, if you're not using precooked fish, I would recommend cooking the fish on the stove top with a little frylight, as opposed to poaching. The dish is meant to be quite dry, and I find that poaching it makes it all a bit soggy.

This is a typical breakfast dish and, alternatively, is really good with a poached egg on top.

 

[funcurls]

Mmmm the kedgeree does sound lovely! And the only syns are I'm the smoked mackerel! Fab! I'll be making this very soon! X

 

[funcurls]

Sorry 'in' not 'I'm' ! Blinking modern phones! X

 

[Pinkie1973]

Now I never knew kedgeree was a breakfast dish..... learn something new everyday.

 

[LittleSausage]

Ha! Yes, that's right - I had forgotten to syn the mackerel last night. I recon for the amount I used, it's about 4 syns per portion. Having half a portion for lunch with veg. To remove the syns, you'd just replace it with smoked haddock!

 

[LittleSausage]

Have just realised that you can have 3 slices of the Weight Watchers Brown Danish loaf as a HEb. Annoying to think that I've only just now realised that.

 

[Pinkie1973]

Are you a bread fiend then?

 

[LittleSausage]

Are you a bread fiend then?

I was! Not so much now... it's just annoying as it means I didn't look properly!

 

[Pinkie1973]

Ooh - what else did you miss????

I use mine every day on my branflakes, which is cool. Though I haven't had a fry up yet - which was the day I would have had two alpen lights, but I've ditched them for Lent. Eek!! I could have a pitta bread though coudln't i?

Not had bread since well before Xmas, bairn has wraps instead.

 

[funcurls]

Ha! Yes, that's right - I had forgotten to syn the mackerel last night. I recon for the amount I used, it's about 4 syns per portion. Having half a portion for lunch with veg. To remove the syns, you'd just replace it with smoked haddock!

It's 1 syn per 28g (but I think you knew that!!) I'd like to try it with smoked mackerel all the same!x

 

[Pinkie1973]

How are you feeling now?

 

[Red Riding Hood]

I get that randomly tearful thing too. It probably is stress. Anyway I hope you are ok. You're diary looks brilliant - it always does and you are making such lovely things. I love kedgeree and I've never tried it with smoked makerel - must have a go.

Did you post that aubergine cake thing recipe? Or did I miss it? I'd really like to try it.

Anyway I predict a great loss for you next week at weigh in and I am hugely impressed that you stayed on plan going out for a meal. I love musicals too - all this musical talk xxx

 

[gl12282]

Thank you so much, Gail It's so nice to have someone who has been so incredibly successful say such kind words. The kedgeree was lovely. I can post the recipe if you're interested?

It helps that I really enjoy the plan, and the planning! I think that when all else seems absolutely beyond my control, I now have quite a tight leash on what I put in my mouth. This makes a huge difference - before, I would eat when I was happy or sad or stressed, and then to congratulate myself or commiserate or because I was bored. Now, I am so conscious of what I put in my mouth, to the point where I get stressed out when I lose that control. I suppose that's something else I'll have to deal with... but it just makes me realise how important losing weight has become to me. I have been overweight for as long as I can remember, but Slimming World and going to a group has really given me a goal. Fortunately, I don't have any work trips until June/July-ish. I reckon that after 6 months on-plan I should be experienced enough to relax a little, and know where problems lie and how to make the best of situations that are less than favourable.

Weigh in is on a Monday, but I couldn't go this week. My scales (dangerous, I know!) showed a loss of almost 3lb, but I don't know what that will mean next Monday (when I will weigh in officially). I am really hoping for a good loss next week.
x

Thanks for your comments. I can really relate to much of what you say. I think you are doing really well and I understand why the thing that makes you feel good is as much to do with what you're doing as to how far you've come so far. I feel good more because I feel in control in relation to food for the first time in so long than what I've achieved (although obviously that helps and makes me feel great too !).

Feeling really weird. Since Monday, in fact. Randomly tearful. Ugh. * week has been and gone, so I can't blame that. Maybe it's stress related. Dammit.

Again, I think many of us can relate to this too. Don't feel bad for feeling this way. Sometimes you just do. The important thing is not to let it put you off, but if you do eat something you didn't intend, just get straight back on the plan. Hope you feel better soon. Big hugs.

Gail x

P.S. thanks for the recipe. I am going to try it soon. Possibly with smoked haddock to start with (although I love smoked mackerel too I try to save my syns for chocolate etc !!!)

 

[Pinkie1973]

Thanks for your comments. I can really relate to much of what you say. I think you are doing really well and I understand why the thing that makes you feel good is as much to do with what you're doing as to how far you've come so far. I feel good more because I feel in control in relation to food for the first time in so long than what I've achieved (although obviously that helps and makes me feel great too !).

I think there is a lot to be said for that feeling of control. Looking back over my life - and again, I'm one who has been overweight my whole adult life (though funnily enough, when I said that to my Dad - who is particularly self centered it must be said - he was really surprised and didn't think I had been - the way we see ourselves isn't always the way others see us eh?). Anyway, I have struggled to get control over food my whole adult life at least - and let it get the better of me. I don't think this is purely down to the diet - I think it is also because due to a lot of hard work elsewhere I'm mentally in a better place, where I feel I can regain that control. This diet I think is a fantastic tool to help me do that.

If any of that made sense at all.... lol

 

[LittleSausage]

Thanks all of you for your kind messages. I think it's just a culmination of stresses that have messed with me. Just got home from work and immediately got more phone calls. Now it's 9pm and I hope it's all sorted til tomorrow! Had some leftover butternut squash, sweet potato and spinach curry with a little rice and 3 slices of a WW Danish brown loaf. Am so ready for bed now!

Red, I haven't posted the chocolate aubergine cake recipe but will do so soon. I want to tweak it again this weekend, so will post it soon.