OK, Beck day 23.... this is rather apt timing - unfairness. I'm sure part of my behaviour yesterday was that it didn't seem fair that the others could eat some of the things while we were away, like jelly beans, chocolate cake and apple crumble. Which is daft really, as most of those I wouldn't have chosen to eat anyway even if I wasn't on this diet! Anyway, there's a really good sentence in the day today, which I'm trying to imprint in my brain:
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I can accept the fact that dieting isn't fair and move on, continuing to do what I have to do to lose weight. I'm freely choosing this option.'
This really resonates with me, as it's slowly starting to sink in that this is all about choices really. And what I'm trying to change is that my choice is now for what is going to make me feel healthy and well. For the time being that choice means Exante, to lose the extra weight. Once I reach my goal that choice means moderation, lower carbohydrate, and sensible choices. It feels exciting to me today to remember that this is a choice for me, it's not a life sentence, a punishment, or anything... I can freely choose to eat all the random things that I see and crave, and also be big, overweight and unfit... but that will be a choice that I've made. Right now, I know that's not the choice I want to make, my advantages to losing weight really outweigh those other choices.
Now here's the line
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Tomorrow, I'm going to carry on with my choice to follow this diet, to get to a healthy weight and to get on with the rest of my life as a fit, healthy person!
I'm quite excited today, looking at my watch, which only has 2 holes tighter left to go, to realise that actually my body really never was designed to carry the weight that I've been carrying around, and liberated to feel that I'm actually releasing my body to be the best it can be, and convinced that will help me generally to feel a lot more well & healthy.
Time for bed for me, and a new day in the morning