Thanks everyone for your kind words, but I'm just not feeling it at the moment. Don't get me wrong, I had a fantastic weekend and thoroughly enjoyed myself. But on the Slimming World side of things I feel like a total let down.
I'm going to be honest and say that on this very very rare occasion I'm actually going to dodge group tomorrow night! I've already text my consultant and let her know. I just can't bare 3 gains running. Lord knows what it would do to me! I would be full of hell and certainly wouldn't offer anything to the group, so I think it's best for myself (and consultant and other members!!) if I don't go.
My plan is to spend tonight with Warren again. His next four shifts start again tomorrow (Tues & Weds days, Thurs & Fri nights) so we're going to have a "last supper" tonight. Finish off all of the goodies and get them out of my house. And then for the rest of the week I won't even see him, so I should be able to get myself back on track. She says! So although my new weeks don't technically start until a Wednesday, I'm making the decision to climb back aboard the wagon tomorrow morning. That will give me 8 full days on plan before next Tuesday to undo as much of this horrible damage I've caused as possible.
I've also just said to Warren that I'm going to knock the consultants thing on the head too. There's an opening coming up in our area, and my consultant really wants me to go for it. She's also an area manager and is really pushing for me to go for it, but I really just don't feel up to it now. The opportunities event is 24th of this month, and even though I have already been to one I was going to go again and ask for them to put my name forward. I've also been told fees are going up again soon, so now is the best time to go for it. But I just don't feel inspiring or motivating in the slightest. And lets face it, if I can't even keep myself in line and on plan then how on Earth will I encourage other people to do so!?!? It's not just that. Also a worry about time / money. I already have very little time to myself. Even less time to spend with Warren. And I do wonder where I would get the money from for the start up costs. I think these last few weeks have been the big deciding factor for me. I just don't think it's meant to be. Certainly not right now anyway, maybe later in the future!
I promise you all I will be back with a bang tomorrow morning. Please feel free to stalk the life out of me (FB and IG if I do a runner from Mini's) and give me plenty of backside kickings if you even suspect I have stepped even my baby toe out of line.