Hiya thank you everyone.....warning long post
I had a lovely long chat with my best friend yesterday and I realised that my problem sticking to a 'diet' isn't really about the plan I'm following but more what is going on in my head
I've been living with a high stress levels but this week I just couldn't cope mentally.
My life generally is fast paced (which i usually love) I have 2 very strong character daughters who are both going through a challenging stage, my hubby has a stressful job which takes him away and I'm a PA to a very busy boss. Along with juggling family visits, shool homework, the housework and dieting. I don't really slow down both physically and mentally.
I can usually balance it all; but things have built up and what with my childminder announcing her retirement well that was my tipping point
It just sent my brain into a spin. I had look at new arrangements; weigh up all the options, then life just started running away with its self what work agreeing to let me go term time so quickly (within 2 days) then getting told my youngest has got an new place at the schools preschool. I just can't cope.
Dieting is just one more thing to think about and take up space in my crowded head. To have limitations of weighing, counting or even planning which day I'm on (Green, Red or Extra Easy) just makes me weep.
I'm too mentally exhausted by the end of the day to bother cooking from scratch every day. I dish up quick oven cooked dinners for the girls then once they're in bed I'm too tired to do anything bar throw chips into the airfryer. By the late evening I've got 1000 odd calories (ive been good during the day) and I spend it on cr@p which I eat then feel terrible.
I don't want to weigh everyday, I don't want to count every calorie on Myfitnesspal and as much as I love SW but I don't want to have to live within the restrictions of Healthy Extra B's and the day type I'm on. (I'm happy with the syns limitation) These all add stress that I choose to put myself through.
Yet if I don't do something I'll easily gain