charl_young
Gold Member
I think my problem is I actually love me, that sounds weird, but I really like who I am, and how I am, and the way I see the world, and I think I'm already a great mum and achieving things, I never thought I'd be any good at higher education, but I've proved to myself I can achieve things, by leaving work and going back to school, passing college and gettinng into uni etc.. I just really really dislike how I look. And I get paranoid, and oversensitive about it. I always thought once I lose weight I'd be happy with how I look, but its weird, I think I see myself differently to everyone else, as other people always comment on me being pretty and not looking at all how much i weigh but I don't see it, i see a huge ugly whale. its an odd thing, my boyfriend gets angry as he thinks I think so badly of myself when I shouldn't and i've always thought losing the weight (i've never lost it properly yet, the closest was about a size 14 when I was 19) I will be happy and those feelings will go away, so I can totally understand the anxious feelings. I'd love to just go into reiss and pick up an amazing dress and it look nice on. It would be awesome, but I wonder if what i saw in the mirror will ever really change, do you's know what i mean? sorry for the ramble! x