The Rest of My Fabulous Life Challenge

[Barb]

Have kept the cals very low so far today so pleased; just 435 all day. So even if I swap Saturday and today and use my float I can still 'spend' up to 1465 without messing up my plan!!

I will aim at sticking to tandoori/tikka prawns, boiled rice and salad. Some vino as well but that shouldn't be a prob.

 

[Barb]

Just read the above and nearly died laughing at myself! Who am I trying to kid!

Went out, having kept the cals low, two large glasses of vino and I was completely trolleyed! Had a starter and a main, can't remember the main at all! Then thought (apparently) that an irish coffee would be a top idea! Wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't remember coming home, vaguely remember being sick. Woke up feeling like death. SERVES ME RIGHT!

Why do I do it? I am such a twit. I know I can't cope with wine on an empty tummy, but I had it anyway.

Oh well, too late now. Got to get on with the day and be sensible from now on!!

Feel very lazy so that is probably what i will be.

 

[Barb]

In recovery! Hurray!

Haven't done much but do feel a lot better. There is hope!

Going to be a very, very good Barb from now on.

 

[Barb]

No hangover!!

Good day yesterday, bit of comfort food but not too much. Still feel slightly fragile so want to get in plenty of healthy food today. I wasn't in the mood for fruit and stuff yesterday but will make up for that today. Did a rough calc of cals yesterday and came in at about 1500, so pleased with that.

Its a 1200 day today and I am assuming I have decimated this weeks float with my bad behaviour on Friday!

 

[Russiandoll]

Barb, you are such a party animal!! lol

It's good that you're taking these events in your stride though and not seeing the odd 'over-indulgence' as a reason to go into a tailspin. Well done you - glad you're recovering

 

[Barb]

Well thanks Debbie, but I think your faith in me may not be too well deserved. I'm just slipping about a lot. Haven't cal counted 'properly' since Friday. Feel down on myself and cross with myself. I know I will have put on a lb or if I'm incredibly lucky STS. Yet I don't feel as bothered as I should. It's like all my knowledge/enthusiasm/faith has been nicked over night and I just feel tired and pissed off.

I know it is my choice - that I can knuckle down or not, but I just can't seem to care sufficiently. I've got to be careful, I don't want to slip backwards. It's not like I've been stuffing myself or anything. Just let the rules relax a little. Which I cannot afford to do.

So today I am going to aim at a restrained but not overly strict day. Weigh tomorrow, whatever it si live with it and then get back on the cal counting properly from then.

I do wonder if subconsciously I am thinking that we already have 5 nights out booked for Feb, including a dinner, bed and breakfast for valentines weekend, so I know losing in Feb is going to be difficult. If i accept that and go for damage limitation that has to be better than nothing i guess.

I don't know,i'm in a right kerfuffle.

 

[Russiandoll]

Morning Barb
If you've seen my diary thread then you'll know I'm in much the same place as you ... maybe it's something in the 'Southern water' or the weather - I don't know but I feel royally FED UP.

It's like I just can't cope ... or, more accurately, I just don't WANT to. I feel totally disinterested in anything and can't conjure up the enthusiasm to even think about doing all the stuff I know I have to do. It's like I've had all the life-force sucked out of me: I function from day to day but everything seems like a slog (even the stuff that is supposed to be pleasurable). Does that make sense?

Anyway, just thought I'd send you my support because I know how you're feeling right now.
Diet wise ... I'm hanging on - and under the circumstances that's the best I can do for now. Sounds like you're doing much the same. So lets just keep 'haning on' together until we're out of the doldrums

 

[Barb]

Oh Debbie, sometimes we are so similar it is scary. The way you describe how you feel; you could be describing me.

I do think the weather/time of year has an impact. I looked out at the grotty weather this morning and just felt like going back to bed! I aslo think that makes it hard to be deprived of 'comfort' food. I really think the way you are sticking with your plan is fantastic and I just don't know how you do it.
It is such a shame that you have to be without Steve all week too - that must be so hard.

I'm sending you a great big hug and telling BOTH of us to hang in there. We can do this Debbie, we have to.

 

[Russiandoll]

It certainly makes a difference knowing you're not alone in how you feel doesn't it.

Hang on in there - the sun will be with us soon xx

 

[htpink]

Both of you hang in there!! Of course you are feeling grotty - you are both going through crappy times without the comfort of your best friend - food!

This is all part of the learning curve (believe me i've been/am there!) and you will come out the other side feeling stronger for having coped with horrid times without using food to numb it.

TBH it doesn't matter if you've had a positive day or a negative day as long as the end result is the same and that's - stayed with the programme!!

Keep at it you two - you can do it!

 

[Barb]

Thanks Hels - from me and Debbie! You are right of course, we are both going through very difficult times and slipping off the diet and feeling fed up about that is not going to help.

I'm going to do the best I can. I'm not gonna beat myself up if I'm not perfect, but I will be very cross with myself if I stop trying!

 

[Russiandoll]

I'm going to do the best I can. I'm not gonna beat myself up if I'm not perfect, but I will be very cross with myself if I stop trying!

A fantastic ethos!!!

 

[Barb]

Thanks Debbie!

 

[Barb]

Well weigh in and a lb on. Not surprised but weirdly not upset either. In fact feel quite positive about it. It's only a lb, soon knock that off again and really after the excess of the weekend and the pancakes yesterday(!) I reckon I've got off lightly!

 

[Russiandoll]

The general trend is downwards so the occasional tiny upward blip isn't that important.... as you say, you'll soon put that right.

 

[Barb]

Had a total meltdown last night. Not a dieting one, an emotional one. Feel a bit flattened this morning but not too bad. Think everything just caught up with me and then my girls wound me up and I SNAPPED!

Dietwise yesterday was good, I just wasn't hungry really. We were going out to dinner but I didn't want to with red eyes! So I made a pizza, OH ate 4/5ths of it and we had some wine. Doubt I topped 1000cals for the day.

See what today brings.

 

[Barb]

Hmm, that was 2 days ago. Still feeling frail emotionally but have NOT been turning to food. Hopped on scales and that lb has dropped off again so I'm pleased about that. I haven't cal counted this week in a formal way; I just haven't felt that committed, but i've tended to 'repeat' days from the week before so I know roughly what i've had.

I just can't cope with any pressure at the moment, so i'm recognising that and instead of falling of 'the diet' in a big way I am tweaking. I am sure my urge to count every cal will be back but at the moment it isn't and thats fine.

Very busy day today, dinner party for 8 tonight so lots of cooking to do. I prepared a lot yesterday so shouldn't be too bad.

 

[Russiandoll]

I think 'treading water' is a good description for both of us right now Barb. With such major demands on our emotions, we can't be expected to pull miracles out of the hat. You're doing great - well done on reversing that little 1lb blip.

Enjoy your dinner party tonight.

Hugs xx

 

[Barb]

Debs it's lovely of you to put me in the same camp as you but you are doing very, very much better than me. You have lost every week, you have not gained at all and you're 16lbs lighter whilst I am less that half of that.

I had a lovely, lovely time last night. I cooked a really fantastic meal ( look I know it's boasting but I don't care, I know when I've done a top job and last night I really did) had a great time with really good friends and did all the clearing up before we went to bed. Amazingly no hangover to contend with, so all good.

Goodness knows how many cals i consumed; not going to worry, it was worth it for such a super night.

 

[Russiandoll]

Some meals warrant the calorie extravagance; you had a lovely evening so it was worth the splurge. It's when we consume loads of cals on things we didnt even like or want that it becomes a problem.

I'm GLAD you had a relaxing, pleasant, indulgent evening - you deserve it.