Hey everyone!
so big news is that I'm down to 234lbs! Given I started at somewhere between 241-244lbs, that's at least half a stone but probably more as I didn't want to admit just how heavy I was to start with!
Clothes are starting to feel looser and I'm bulging less over the top of my jeans so really really happy. My issue has always been that my face doesn't put on that much weight so I look in the small mirror and still feel pretty but squeeze into clothes and don't!
That said, I haven't had the most successful two days - probably ate closer to 1500 cals yesterday and today have had:
bread roll for breakfast (200 cals)
weightwatchers meal for lunch (288 cals)
Large chicken breast and potato gratin for dinner (600 cals)
4 biscuits (150 cals) - this is why I don't keep this stuff in my flat in London!
I've had my 2nd teeth whitening treatment today and am so pleased with how they look. No tea for 2 days is going to near kill me though!
so I've been thinking a lot over the last few days about what happened with guy before Christmas and why he hasn't made any move since. There could be a couple of reasons...
I actually thought he was married (he talked about his kid) when we went out as part of the group which is why I wasn't more responsive when he very gently came onto me (I have to emphasise how out of character it was for him to say what he said - he's a very professional person at work with clear boundaries which is why it took me by such surprise). I hadn't realised he was divorced and single or I would have taken him a lot more seriously and not just thought he was being a charmer.
Secondly I have an awful feeling that I picked the wrong words just before he walked off (without saying goodbye) he told me again about the effect I had on him and I replied "you're not the only one" meaning it was mutual - as in I felt the same....but thinking about his response - he laughed wryly and walked off...maybe he thought I meant men told me that all the time! Now putting aside that he is supremely confident at work, he is older than me and quite stocky, so not necessarily someone that women throw themselves at all the time. So maybe he isn't that confident in thinking of course she fancies me back...and is now embarrassed that he came onto me without me being very forthcoming in response. If I went around telling people that he'd tried to ask me out, it would be disastrous for him at work.
it wasn't just the compliments he gave me - we'd spent the whole evening in really intense debate about all sorts of intellectual topics and books and stuff and he kept saying things like "wow you are amazing, I never thought you'd be so interesting to talk to" and "I am just loving this conversation we are having - it's incredible". So there was a real connection.
So I'd like to ask him out for drinks or dinner but I can't ever seem to turn the discussion at work from work to personal. The irony is he'd probably say yes, unless it was a no on the grounds of it's too improper for a work perspective - in which case I wouldn't feel too embarrassed but I just can't bring myself to take this risk!
Sorry this has been more guy-ramblings than weight loss.