Thanks Claire
Pah.
It was such a nice text as well - not too "in your face" asking out, sweet, flattering. I can't believe he'd just leave it hanging there. Maybe he's thinking it through for a few days - after all I have had like 4 weeks to muse on what to do!! I only had the courage to do it because it felt like I wasn't the one making the first move - that he'd done that on the night out (and I hadn't been THAT encouraging merely because it took me so much by surprise that he liked me too and actually said it!) So from his perspective he'd already made a move and it kind of hadn't worked so it could be quite embarrassing if he tried again - so it was my turn.
It was a weird day at work all round actually - one of my friends (who is the level above me in my team) told me he'd resigned that day. He's been at a pretty senior grade for over 10 years now and wants to go off and work part time for himself. So there's a huge opportunity for me to take on his unfinished work and show that I should be promoted over the next 12-18 months as the gap is there (not easy, big challenge but makes my plans for the next 2 years easier). Ironically although he has worked as a consultant for guy on guy's clients for the last 10 years, he's never found him easy to work with (and had warned me he'd be a tough nut to crack) but in the last 6 weeks, guy has exclusively consulted me on anything to do with our specialism...and not used my senior at all hahaha. My friend has raised an eyebrow at this as it is very unlike guy.
Ok, so here's the plan. Don't be embarrassed - I am a modern woman and it is the age of equality. I will hold my head high. If I want to ask someone out, I should and if the offer isn't taken up then ce la'vie. Be professional - show that nothing outside the office affects how I am in the office. Look good (men can resist everything but temptation).
On that note, down to 233lbs on the apartment scales this morning (the lowest I've ever been on them) so I think that's around 230-231lbs on the scales at home. I FEEL THE 220s are beckoning! I won't know until getting up on Saturday morning! I'm trying to remember at what lbs I was what size...at 180lbs I was a 14, I think 195lbs I was a 16, 210-215lb I was an 18 so I must have been moving into size 20 from around 225 upwards. Which makes sense because at 240lbs I was definitely struggling with size 20 but now at 232lbs it fits. Although I am in some of my Next size 18 jeans (the lift and sculpt ones) but no size 18 tops yet - blooming boobs. I am definitely starting to feel better about myself in the mirror and a lady friend at work noticed the other day that I'd lost weight. The tummy rolls are sticking out less and less - I can't wait to wear more fitted tops as I am a firm believer that baggy might hide things but it makes you look so much bigger overall. At size 16-18 I had a rounded but not roll-full midriff so I could wear more tailored stuff and I felt quite neat in it.
Oh and hillariously....I got carded at Tesco last night buying a bottle of wine (not for me to drink!). It's been more than a DECADE since I was under 25 and yet the lady at the till was insistent that I prove it hahahaha. Made my day.
I've been rubbish at diaries this week which is terrible as I really really appreciate the support I get in here so should be giving that to all of you as well. Will have a good look at what you are all up to on the train tonight!
Big hugs!
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Pah.
It was such a nice text as well - not too "in your face" asking out, sweet, flattering. I can't believe he'd just leave it hanging there. Maybe he's thinking it through for a few days - after all I have had like 4 weeks to muse on what to do!! I only had the courage to do it because it felt like I wasn't the one making the first move - that he'd done that on the night out (and I hadn't been THAT encouraging merely because it took me so much by surprise that he liked me too and actually said it!) So from his perspective he'd already made a move and it kind of hadn't worked so it could be quite embarrassing if he tried again - so it was my turn.
It was a weird day at work all round actually - one of my friends (who is the level above me in my team) told me he'd resigned that day. He's been at a pretty senior grade for over 10 years now and wants to go off and work part time for himself. So there's a huge opportunity for me to take on his unfinished work and show that I should be promoted over the next 12-18 months as the gap is there (not easy, big challenge but makes my plans for the next 2 years easier). Ironically although he has worked as a consultant for guy on guy's clients for the last 10 years, he's never found him easy to work with (and had warned me he'd be a tough nut to crack) but in the last 6 weeks, guy has exclusively consulted me on anything to do with our specialism...and not used my senior at all hahaha. My friend has raised an eyebrow at this as it is very unlike guy.
Ok, so here's the plan. Don't be embarrassed - I am a modern woman and it is the age of equality. I will hold my head high. If I want to ask someone out, I should and if the offer isn't taken up then ce la'vie. Be professional - show that nothing outside the office affects how I am in the office. Look good (men can resist everything but temptation).
On that note, down to 233lbs on the apartment scales this morning (the lowest I've ever been on them) so I think that's around 230-231lbs on the scales at home. I FEEL THE 220s are beckoning! I won't know until getting up on Saturday morning! I'm trying to remember at what lbs I was what size...at 180lbs I was a 14, I think 195lbs I was a 16, 210-215lb I was an 18 so I must have been moving into size 20 from around 225 upwards. Which makes sense because at 240lbs I was definitely struggling with size 20 but now at 232lbs it fits. Although I am in some of my Next size 18 jeans (the lift and sculpt ones) but no size 18 tops yet - blooming boobs. I am definitely starting to feel better about myself in the mirror and a lady friend at work noticed the other day that I'd lost weight. The tummy rolls are sticking out less and less - I can't wait to wear more fitted tops as I am a firm believer that baggy might hide things but it makes you look so much bigger overall. At size 16-18 I had a rounded but not roll-full midriff so I could wear more tailored stuff and I felt quite neat in it.
Oh and hillariously....I got carded at Tesco last night buying a bottle of wine (not for me to drink!). It's been more than a DECADE since I was under 25 and yet the lady at the till was insistent that I prove it hahahaha. Made my day.
I've been rubbish at diaries this week which is terrible as I really really appreciate the support I get in here so should be giving that to all of you as well. Will have a good look at what you are all up to on the train tonight!
Big hugs!
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