Hi hun. Sorry to hear things are so difficult at the moment. Hope you don't mind me asking, but what do you think will get and keep you back on track? Might sound a ridiculous and patronising question and it's not meant to be, but unless you find the answer...you're going to keep falling off the wagon.
Also...how important is this last stone right now? I guess it's a case of being kind and compassionate with yourself. Is it worth the stress of trying to lose that extra stone whilst everything else is going on (and possibly ending up gaining in the process) or is it best to try and maintain til you're in a better place? I guess it's a question of how much difference that stone will make in reality...
I promise I'm not trying to put you off or say I don't think it's worth it...I guess I'm just trying to challenge your thinking a bit, as things aren't working for you at the mo. hope it doesn't offend...like I said I don't mean to but I know when I'm 'stuck' sometimes I need to think of things from a totally different perspective.
Do you read back through your own diaries? As so many of them find you inspirational it might work!
Like I said...not meant to offend or patronise.
Kate xx
Kate xx
11 weeks in...53lbs down...33 to go!
No offence taken! I think my problem is that perhaps I am being too lenient on myself, 6 months ago I would have sat at a colleagues leaving lunch with a bar - well i did in fact at nando's! Not a pizza and an eton mess that's for sure, I'm not strict enough on myself any more, and then I feel disappointed in myself that i could have been there by now if it weren't for all the messing around this past month! I honestly don't know where the weeks have gone either.
Nice advice
. Sometimes you definitely have to take a step back and look at thing's differently
Very true, and thanks for posting your losses on your diary, it's really helpful, just one last question though, do you know what weights you were when you went to step 2, 3, 4? I know you said you think you left it too long so it'd be great to compare and make sure i don't do the same (if I haven't already)
Hi Ria
Sounds to me a bit like you're not making enough time to look after yourself. The reason I think that is cos I've just come through a similar phase! I realised I'm just too lazy to get the food in I need - not saying that you're the same! - but the joy of SS-ing is that you don't have to think ahead too much, just stick your hand in your box of Cambridge goodies and pull out a packet. I was supposed to be following Rosemary Conley - enrolled in a class and everything, LOL - but after a week of preparing meals from scratch I too went on the biscuits and ice cream diet instead. Don't think the hot weather's helped either though, to be honest. Or the fact that Rana's going. That must be tough to deal with. :hug99:
So, you need a plan. What works for you best? Which step are you going to get back on? Maybe a bit of straightforward 810-ing for a week or two?
YUP! spot on, I know I just said it, but I'll say it again, I don't know where time is going! it's like I'm leaking time somewhere if that makes sense?
And yeah, that's kinda why I like SSing too, I'm just stuck in that awkward situation where it's not enough for my body anymore and I have to face the reality or being organised and eating more normally again. I don't like it but I can't be on cambridge forever hey!
And yeah, It gets me every time, every year I think I'm stronger then the time creeps away and soon enough he's going again - Jeez we've had more airport goodbyes than hot dinners, but I've only managed not to be really upset about it once - funnily enough i think he was crying that time! Just looking at a calendar and seeing august so close makes my stomach turn, the next time I see him is the last time we get quality time together, the time after that will be a brief goodbye. It's pretty shitty, but hey that's life! but yeah, it's probably not helping matters in the slightest.
Yup, step 2 for me, today is done, had a bit of an issue at dinner - i always end up scraping together whatever is available (theres the planning thing) dinner ended up being a can of chick peas with some spinach, a chilli and some curry powder, it was bland but it was food and according to plan - this only came around since i didnt have enough quorn and someones finished the eggs! I have however ordered some turkey breast mince to make some sort of turkey burgers with.
Spent the atfernoon having a major ebay sesh - i literally have clothes everywhere that i dont want/don't fit and I need rid of them, If I can de-clutter my living space I'm sure itll help my mind too - I always run better when my room is tidy - but it always gets messy when i feel like this - vicious circle hey! but 89 listings later, job done for today..
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