Right there with you Ria! I'm thinking counsellor in a specialised area is the way forward! Training our brains is key Xxx
Well, I've mailed but she asked me to call and arrange a free consultation, so will add that to the to-do list!
Hey hun good to see you back. I know its easy for me to say being at goal and I hope you don't think I'm preaching but it never really clicked for me until I got to goal... I know that doesnt help you get to your goal but I was exactly the same... a complete beinge eater, always eating my feelings; any excuse to eat... if I was happy, sad, celebrating, commiserating. Then id feel terrible guilt after that would lead to self loathing then more comfort eating. Over eating is completely underestimated and like you say an addiction that cant be overcome in the ways other addictions are. I still have the urge to beinge and have came to terms with the fact that I probably always will have these urges however I seem to have replaced my beingeing habbits with obsession. I'm now petrified to go over my goal weight, to the extent that I sometimes think im developing issues. I still have the odd biscuit and things but will then be going crazy mad at the gym after. I need to do a certain amount of classes a week or in creeps the guilt. I guess the feelings/emotions we have when beinging will still be there skinny. Your right CWP isnt the answer we all thought it might have been. Don't get me wrong im so great full for it and wouldn't be where I am now with out it but having a bit of a hard time myself I certainly feel something is missing when im not able to comfort myself with copious amounts of chocolate digestives. I hope you feel better soon hun. Do you think having a break might help? Stopping cambridge until your back from your holiday? I know your miserable ans want to keep at it but maybe a break will help you find your love for it again? Chin up... we love you xxx
Thanks Lynne, see it looks like you have turned that energy towards exercise, I turned mine to shopping for a while, but for me it always goes back to food, so really hoping a therapist can help me address this somehow!
I can't bring myself to be off plan, I'm feeling so bad about my body, and really feeling the extra weight I'm lugging around, so for now I'm resorting to a few days of quick fixing SSing, only 3 days really since i won't manage it Wednesday with a 12hr day and conference, Thursday I can't turn down my hilton breakky, leaving Friday maybe, if I can shed a couple if lbs I'll be happy, I just got way too close to 11st for comfort.
All or nothing for me as well :-( whats worse is that before I started the Cambridge Diet my wife and I would be telling each other the healthy eating starts on Monday but then say we reach Friday and get tempted if we give in we enjoy the whole weekend as..."we might as well start again on Monday right...?". We were in a vicious cycle and my big worry is how to prevent that when we lose the weight. We are still on the SS+ step so a long way to go. Good luck! Sent from my LT26i using MiniMins.com mobile app
See that also sucks, I know if someone you are dieting with gives in, it's almost like permission for you to do it too, or if you're both feeling week you crumble together. But on the flip side you can also support each other.
If I find the answer to a normal healthy future i will certainly share!
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time
but aft least you're back here with people that are super supportive and having that space to vent you're thoughts is real helpful. You have done so well. Have you considered speaking with a councillor, maybe it's an underlying issue? It's seems you are stoping you're self from reaching goal food addiction may not be it. As for the hypno thing you can only give it a go, I know a lady that quit smoking with it
everyone that has read you're diary has been rooting for you, you are an inspirational lady don't forget that
best of luck xx 13.3 start weight 11.2 right now and going inwards and onwards! x
The lady I have contacted does all sorts of therapy do hopefully she might help me get to the bottom of this.
I wouldn't say I'm stopping myself, I just kinda feel like I should be over this, finished already, so just struggle with the motivation for it all now, just want to start being normal, guess I feel a bit hard done by, but then I still need to learn what normal is first right!
I know exactly how you feel, i am coming up to 25 and all my adult life i have ranged from 12stone to 14 stone and i just WANT TO BE 10 STONE, confident able to wear size 10 jeans and not worry about the muffin top hanging over ha ha!!! I have tried the cambridge before and lost weight, i loved the fact it eliminates temptation and you feel clean and in control. I seem to have the same cycle of being really good and then binging for 3 days!!! I dont want to be that person were food is always an issue, today i have started the cambridge again and determined to reach my goal!!!!!!
Good luck! Don't get bored and give up - part if my problem!! Know what you mean, I live the flat empty tummy feeling, but I guess it's never meant to be forever!
Ria/CD, just wanted to say don't stress about the eating for now, concentrate on the trip to India and being reunited with your lovely man - he loved you when you were a lot bigger than you are now! - and his family will love you too. Don't worry about the impression you are making on them, just be the Ria that we all know and love from this site, and all will be well. Bon voyage, sweetheart, and hope all your dreams come true - you deserve it ! xxxxx
Very true, I guess I'm just really aware of how judgemental people there are, there's no shyness about weight, an aunty I had just met was asking me last year if I'm dieting!
Can't wait to relax and enjoy the lovely food. And if course seeing him too.
Thank you for your lovely words
Xxx
