lindseydodd408
Gold Member
Ha ha ha ha ha ha!!! Loving the determination from J!!! Loving even more that you are all going out to enjoy the sunshine, have a lovely day. x
Tina's diary of hopefull optimism!
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Today............epic fail on every front.
980 cals over and really wasn't worth it. But I know why I ended up on a 35 min binge. I'm not happy about it but let's just see what tomorrow brings I guess.
Just got pushed to my limits with J and feel like I'm failing my other kids. And myself. Not sure where we go from here but it can't really get worse eh? And it was only one slip up. I just wish it had been a controlled slip! Not a stupid pointless exercise in self sabotage.
Off to have a good cry in the bath an hopefully a cuddle with the OH. And get back in the saddle tomoz!!
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980 cals over and really wasn't worth it. But I know why I ended up on a 35 min binge. I'm not happy about it but let's just see what tomorrow brings I guess.
Just got pushed to my limits with J and feel like I'm failing my other kids. And myself. Not sure where we go from here but it can't really get worse eh? And it was only one slip up. I just wish it had been a controlled slip! Not a stupid pointless exercise in self sabotage.
Off to have a good cry in the bath an hopefully a cuddle with the OH. And get back in the saddle tomoz!!
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lindseydodd408
Gold Member
Don't panic, tomorrow is another day, 980 cals is nothing compared to binges I used to have when I was a proper chunky monkey! Don't be surprised to see an initial "sodium and heaviness of food in stomach gain", be good and drink loads of water and it will soon go.
Where your children are concerned... The fact that you care and this bothers you means you are a fabulous and caring parent. Yes the others may suffer sometimes because of J, but I have no doubt that you try and make up for it whenever you get the opportunity. Your other children are more likely to grow up to be tolerant and patient adults because of J, and that can't be a bad thing. I work with young offenders and trust me, from what I've read so far on your diary you are million miles more caring and supportive than the majority of parents I have to work with. Don't cry, just take a deep breath and maybe plan for your other children to have a bit of quality time soon... if you asked them they may not even mind if J is a part of it, in fact your kids may think you're a much better mum than you are giving yourself credit for!!! x
Where your children are concerned... The fact that you care and this bothers you means you are a fabulous and caring parent. Yes the others may suffer sometimes because of J, but I have no doubt that you try and make up for it whenever you get the opportunity. Your other children are more likely to grow up to be tolerant and patient adults because of J, and that can't be a bad thing. I work with young offenders and trust me, from what I've read so far on your diary you are million miles more caring and supportive than the majority of parents I have to work with. Don't cry, just take a deep breath and maybe plan for your other children to have a bit of quality time soon... if you asked them they may not even mind if J is a part of it, in fact your kids may think you're a much better mum than you are giving yourself credit for!!! x
The Moog
Silver Member
It's an impossible balance to create. Just hang onto the fact that you're doing a GOOD job in incredibly challenging circumstances - and that applies to the diet too.
I'd start thinking ahead about what distraction techniques you can use on yourself next time. I quite enjoy a bit of eBay browsing or even (if hubby's home) getting out of the house for a bit. Anything to keep you away from the fridge! It won't always work because of the stress levels, but even if it works sometimes, it means you'll have one less thing to beat yourself up about
And siblings of autistic children are often the nicest people, it does have to be said.
I'd start thinking ahead about what distraction techniques you can use on yourself next time. I quite enjoy a bit of eBay browsing or even (if hubby's home) getting out of the house for a bit. Anything to keep you away from the fridge! It won't always work because of the stress levels, but even if it works sometimes, it means you'll have one less thing to beat yourself up about
And siblings of autistic children are often the nicest people, it does have to be said.
Thanks all. I'm just feeling a bit self pitying coz of school hols haha. I don't really have any family left now who can pitch in and OH works for a theme park so doesnt get in till after 9 during the hols!! I get a bit frazzled by day 7 lol. Just wait till the 6 weeks one!! I'm usually ready for a padded cell by week 4
But hubby is off today hooray and schools are back tomoz so we are done for another few weeks!
We used to cope well with school hols. There used to be local sibling support schemes and a holiday playscheme that little J an S could go to for a break from things but theres been funding cuts (cheers mr Cameron!) and now sibling support can only offer one place per family and the Playscheme is totally closed down.
And just to make matters worse the holiday scheme for disabled kids in our local town had to sack most of the support workers so big J can't access it as there's nobody who's team teach trained anymore to work with the more Chalkenging kids.
I used to pay for all three of these services (and they weren't cheap either really) but apparently they were still part funded and can't run now there's no funding. It's a bit disgusting that kids services are down to nill but stop smoking clinic get an increase!
So 1200 cals max today and I'd better do some working out type things lol if I can burn 600 off then I'll still be under the weeks net calories so hopefully it won't be too bad Monday at WI. Must drink water!!!
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But hubby is off today hooray and schools are back tomoz so we are done for another few weeks!
We used to cope well with school hols. There used to be local sibling support schemes and a holiday playscheme that little J an S could go to for a break from things but theres been funding cuts (cheers mr Cameron!) and now sibling support can only offer one place per family and the Playscheme is totally closed down.
And just to make matters worse the holiday scheme for disabled kids in our local town had to sack most of the support workers so big J can't access it as there's nobody who's team teach trained anymore to work with the more Chalkenging kids.
I used to pay for all three of these services (and they weren't cheap either really) but apparently they were still part funded and can't run now there's no funding. It's a bit disgusting that kids services are down to nill but stop smoking clinic get an increase!
So 1200 cals max today and I'd better do some working out type things lol if I can burn 600 off then I'll still be under the weeks net calories so hopefully it won't be too bad Monday at WI. Must drink water!!!
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Do u know I think a big bad hogfest was just what I needed to kick my ass into gear on the exercise front I've only been a zumba'd my butt off lol now I'm just digesting my lovely low cal lunch before I hit tesco for some BBQ fodder.
Then I'm taking whichever kids wanna go (plus the adopted extras ) on a nice long off road style walk up Cannock chase I'm one litre of water down and another to go to start flushing all the evil sodium out too.
Food today
Fruit an fibre with semi skim 211
Turkey slice sandwich on wholemeal with salad and low fat Mayo an WW choc dessert 278
Two coffee with semi skim 50
Gotta leave plenty of cals for BBQ time later mmmm tomato salad and sweet chilli chicken skewers.......yum but not as yum as baked banana boats with marshmallow and choc buttons
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I've only been a zumba'd my butt off lol now I'm just digesting my lovely low cal lunch before I hit tesco for some BBQ fodder. Then I'm taking whichever kids wanna go (plus the adopted extras
) on a nice long off road style walk up Cannock chase I'm one litre of water down and another to go to start flushing all the evil sodium out too. Food today
Fruit an fibre with semi skim 211
Turkey slice sandwich on wholemeal with salad and low fat Mayo an WW choc dessert 278
Two coffee with semi skim 50
Gotta leave plenty of cals for BBQ time later
mmmm tomato salad and sweet chilli chicken skewers.......yum but not as yum as baked banana boats with marshmallow and choc buttons Sent from my iPhone using MiniMins
lindseydodd408
Gold Member
OMG and you call yourself British... get outside and light that bbq under an umbrella!!! So glad you are feeling better today. I love Cannock Chase, but not been for years, you've inspired me to pay it a visit next time I'm visiting my family in staffs. x
lindseydodd408 said:
Lol I'm British not mental!! I have a perfectly good oven in my indoor kitchen
J was a bit annoyed tho i dont know why as he doesnt actually eat BBQ food! But the chase is amazing! An it's only 15 min drive from us. We climbed a giant hill looking for the human sundial thing. But there was no sun so it was just kids clambering around on rocks lol if you ring the visitors centre first you can rent a huge BBQ for the day! Meat in one cooler wine in another and hard luck designated drivers!Sent from my iPhone using MiniMins
Oooooookay. I have hopefully pulled off a bit of devious damage repair by doing zumba and some walking and by not eating all my cals today (just 1250) then I have actually got 980 left which is happily about what the binge was yesterday I figure I can get away with not eating the exercise cals today because I ate them yesterday???
So in theory my binge now never happened............ This is probably completely wrong but hey I'm going to bed a happy bunny!!
I have chugged an chugged the water till I sloshed and have NOT weighed myself at all. But it's WI tomoz so we'll see what happens then eh? Fingers crossed for at least a STS which will be ok but as it's TOTM by the next WI I am kinda hoping luck will smile on me don't wanna STS/gain for two weeks running haha.
I'm gonna carry on weighing a few times a week for a bit longer coz I want to get a feel for how TOTM affects things (didn't have them regularly on my last diet mission!) but then I'm giving it up!!! It's too much stress.
Right off to munch my WW choc cream eclair......which I was forced to eat to get over 1200 lol
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by doing zumba and some walking and by not eating all my cals today (just 1250) then I have actually got 980 left which is happily about what the binge was yesterday I figure I can get away with not eating the exercise cals today because I ate them yesterday???So in theory my binge now never happened............ This is probably completely wrong but hey I'm going to bed a happy bunny!!
I have chugged an chugged the water till I sloshed and have NOT weighed myself at all. But it's WI tomoz so we'll see what happens then eh? Fingers crossed for at least a STS which will be ok but as it's TOTM by the next WI I am kinda hoping luck will smile on me
don't wanna STS/gain for two weeks running haha.I'm gonna carry on weighing a few times a week for a bit longer coz I want to get a feel for how TOTM affects things (didn't have them regularly on my last diet mission!) but then I'm giving it up!!! It's too much stress.
Right off to munch my WW choc cream eclair......which I was forced to eat to get over 1200 lol
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lindseydodd408
Gold Member
I'm liking your theory... I'll back you 100% if anyone doubts it!!! x
I'm not liking dieting this arvo!!! My first bit of kid free time in ages should be full of jezza, bacon sarnies and cups of tea that come with a biscuit!!! Not aqua aerobics and blooming lettuce lol
Ah well when I'm thin I can fill my kid free time with shopping for teeeeeeny tiny clothes instead!!!
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Ah well when I'm thin I can fill my kid free time with shopping for teeeeeeny tiny clothes instead!!!
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