Warning, possibly a long post.
A stop and check in moment.
As said previously, my weight crept on slowly and as long as someone else was bigger than me I didn't really appreciate how big I was. At 24 I was 45kg and at 44 was 85kg, almost double my size. I was working full time, stopping on the way to work to buy a breakfast roll, getting chips for lunch and drinking coffee and eating muffins while driving, and bringing pizza or lasagne home for dinner. Then my brother got married and I was mortified when I saw the wedding photos. I had another wedding to go to 7 months later and got to 68kg for it and looked great. BUT it took every minute of every day, it was my total focus, all day every day revolved around food and exercise. I got great comments from people but actually found that too much pressure. Then we moved house which made a lot of changes in our life and weight slowly came back.
However, I did make some major changes as a result of that. Cars are not places to dine, takeaway or deli food is not for every day. Our new house meant a new garden and I started to grow our own food and get an appreciation of cooked from scratch.
Weight slowly came back and at 82kg I tried to stop the increase again. The permanent change from this was a short walk every day and had proper dinners...this got me down to 74kg.
New job and new pressure caused it up again and again I started to lose it slowly. This time the change was I stopped drinking coffee and tea, which meant no biscuit or cake breaks. Herbal tea and I are very happy.
So this time weight back up to 80.5kg and I decide to tackle it again. As you can see each time I do take away a lifestyle change that stays with me.
Where I am now is wine is not for everyday, there is such a thing as healthy nibbles, exercise does make me feel better.
So while at times it seems an uphill struggle I have made major changes for the better. Next I think I would like to beat sugar.