Having a mini freak out and need to rant a bit.
I've to take darling husband to the cardiology unit for suspected angina in an hour. He hasn't been well for about 6 weeks now and eventually went to GP who said he had a chest infection and gave him anti biotics. Hes still coughing non stop and his breathing not great so he went back to.the GP yesterday. He has been complaining of chest pain since Xmas but I didn't take it too seriously because
1. He hasn't realised it but for the past 6 years he has been sick at Christmas, he gets exhausted and stressed and always has the same symptoms.
2. I thought it was muscle related due to his constant coughing, he is pointing to pain that seems higher than his heart
3. He hasn't stopped eating and drinking non stop
4. I thought it could be " holiday heart" and would ease after Xmas and holiday.
You need a bit of history. My husband can be highly strung at times and is prone to.screaming hissy fits. He screams and shouts and everyone around thinks he will blow a gasket...we have all warned him about this but he doesn't listen.
He eats a very meat rich diet and a huge amount of animal fats, lots of cheese and slices of butter. He would have sweet waffles or cake for breakfast, drinks too much coffee and wine. Again we all give out to him but he says its fine as he is "the French paradox".
I know it might seem ironic with me being so overweight lecturing him...but I recognise what I am and am trying to make changes, he thinks he is fine
About 10 years ago I told him if he had a heart attack he could do it on his own, that I had warned him enough and wasn't going to nurse him through it or run to be at his side.. Cruel, I know.
Anyway so now I've to drop him off for tests, they think they will admit him overnight. I did one " I f#cking told you so" and that was it. So last night I asked him if they gave him bad news or good news would he be changing his lifestyle ( me thinking either way this is a wake up call and time to take action). His response was only if recommended by a doctor...WTF.
I think I said before but sometimes I get stressed out and very anxious and it results in heart palpations and massive amounts of adreniline running around my body. I get dizzy and weak. So he slept like a baby last night knowing he will be in safe hands today and I have been awake with my heart jumping around and freaking out. My response is very selfish "how dare he do this to me".
Anyway he picked a private hospital and hour and half away (thank goodness for health insurance) and GP told him not to drive and bring someone with him...so that's me.
Getting ready to go and packing up knitting and books to keep me occupied ad it could be 7pm before I find out if I am coming home with or without him.
Rant over...thanks (I'm a mean b#tch, I know)