Wales Daily Diary...

[*butterfly*]

Oh Wales, lol at your two legs in one jeans hole. A new style of sack racing olympics for former fatties! Sorry, it just conjured up images of you bouncing around with one leg flapping, then my head ran away (..... its getting a bit hyper now and needing to shut off!) I did something similar recently and could not believe how huge i was. I know what you mean about your head not quite tallying the changes, i sway from feeling great/slim, to not feeling any different, sometimes i think 'i wasn't that big', then other times i look at piccys/clothes and feel mortified by their size! It's certainly bizarre.
Hope you have a good day xx

 

[Bess]

Lovely to read this Wales, you have done sooooo well. Bloomin' fantastic!! xx

 

[Katycakes]

Hugs Wales, made me smile.

xxx

 

[Wales]

Morning all, and thanks ladies for your comments, it starts the day off well!

Plus I stayed in bed until 9.45 this morning, and I normally have the fidgets if I do that and get up and then regret it. But I went back to sleep and it was lovely.

12.8.5 this morning, tres good seeing as I had pasta for dinner and a couple of glasses of red wine. Haven't had red for months and I enjoyed it very much.

Miserable grey and rainy morning but hoping it will brighten as we will go out on the bikes if it does. Whilst it doesn't have to be bright sunshine I refuse to go out if it is raining at the start - that seems a bit like asking for trouble if you ask me. If we don't go out on the bikes think OH will suggest a "walk" which really means the quickest way through the village to the pub as there is afull afternoon and evening of football on the tv. He will win me over as there is a huge real fire and we will waste the afternoon in there, and I won't get any ironing done. Hmm, doesn't sound too bad though does it.

Just off to catch up on other diaries, hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday x

 

[Wales]

Things not so good this weekend - NO exercise which is bordering on a crime at the moment. No bike ride or walk today, just lounging in the lounge. Too much Green & Black choc eaten, choc buns and cake just made and OH is insisting on me making some brownies. I also had a few catch up phone calls to make and haven't made any.

Things that were good this weekend. House is clean, kitchen in particular has had corners done which pleases me. Have sold some more bits on Ebay and did ok with some of them, enough to get the car tax not quite enough for the MoT! Have started to make a draught excluder with an old top I used the wear. It is the one I wore the night of my first app with my CDC - I thought it was alright until I saw the pics and then I never wore it again. It is stitched up and is 1/3 full of stuffing (other old clothes that aren't good enough to pass on), it has eyes sewn on and I have some bright fabric and some lace to give it a little costume - and yes I preferred to do this than go on the treadmill this afternoon - there is no hope for me.

This is the picture I mentioned earlier about the jeans sizes - it amuses and upsets me at the same time. I cannot keep thinking that they were baggy jeans and that is why they are so huge, no my a** was that big.

 

[Katycakes]

But look at the teeny ones, Wales... fab!

xxx

 

[*butterfly*]

Wow, have never thought of doing that, it really gives some pespective. Can see now why its mixed with upset as much as joy. But those size 12 skinnys are closer than the 22's will ever be! xx

 

[Wales]

those size 12 skinnys are closer than the 22's will ever be! xx

Thanks for that Butterfly, that really hit home. I am closer to the 12s, but it feels like a tough challenge to get there, but it shouldn't be. Hmmm, points to ponder there x

 

[Sunshine Singer]

Helllooooooo..... sorry i haven't had a chance to pop in and say hi. I really appreciate your messages you've been leaving me...always read them just haven't had much chance to post.

You've done so well hun, have a great day xxx

 

[curlywurly1234]

Hon,
Been a way for a bit just catching up. Sounds like your doing really well hon.......... Look at the difference in your jeans thats amazing .. Well done you x

 

[Wales]

Great day in some ways - finally an ivf appointment with purpose and progress. Have signed "all" the forms, the nurse was very understanding of the longer than normal time we have had getting to this stage so she made sure we did as much as we could today, scan, injection demonstration, screening blood work and prescription. Think we were meant to be there just for the paperwork but she made sure we were not left in an ambiguous state - we should get a phone call in the next couple of weeks to confirm the start date, either Jan or Feb (fingers crossed for the first). I was so anxious, went out for a meal last night with family and hardly spoke, woke up this morning and had put on 4lbs - like wtf, but looking back my eating has been poor this week, think stress related (or I let myself as I was "under stress") But I was weighed and measured and recorded at 30 BMI which is brilliant and anything I lose between now and when I start is a bonus.

Poorer day - went out for lunch and had a glass of wine and then have had not such a good tea.

I think I am going to meet up with my CDC and look at using CD products to support a 1000/ 1200 eating level. I want to lose some weight and to do that I need to be in "diet mode" and I want to see if CD can put me in the zone.

Apologies for all the "" and () in this post, think it is how my mind is working today.

Hope all are well, back to normal day tomorrow (just with a bag of special drugs in the cupboard waiting to be used!!!!)

 

[Katycakes]

Wales, happy, happy, HAPPY for you! Big hugs.

xxx

 

[*butterfly*]

Oh Wales, that is just wonderful. Must feel great after waiting for so long.You've achieved so much to get to this point. Hope your plans to 1000/1200 work out, could just point you back into the 'losing' frame of mind again.....? xx

 

[Wales]

Am around and about but there is lots going on at the moment and food and weight isn't top of my list (for a change) so am just making better choices and seeing how I feel.

Have fancy dress 40th this weekend, booze free so will be in a great place to watch my friends get plastered while I avoid a hangover and those empty cals.

Hope everyone has a good weekend x

 

[Katycakes]

Enjoy the party hun! You're doing great and still staying on top of the food, not easy at this time of year. Have a great weekend!

xxx

 

[LellyCD]

Have a fab time at the party hun and great news on your appt!! good luck with the process, hope it goes well for you!

xx

 

[Bess]

Wales, just caught up and am so pleased about your appointment, hope it's January too. How exciting. My sister did the same thing and has a lovely 5 year old little girl now. Fingers firmly crossed. x

 

[*butterfly*]

Hi Wales,
Waiting to hear about the party! Hope you had a good time. What did you dress up as? xx

 

[Wales]

Party was excellent, everyone had made a real effort and the birthday girl looked brilliant and it was lovely to see someone you really cherish have a great time and be surrounded by friends that really love her.

I went as a cop, kind of NY traffic cop, will post a pic shortly.

Hope everyone is ok, still stuff going on here which is is taking priority over everything but being sensible with food in the circumstances.

 

[Bess]

Where are you Wales? Just busy I hope, drop by and let us know you are ok. xx