Alecto_on_LCD
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Ok diet wise. Kinda crappy relationships wise. Im going for an early one. 3 exantes, cheese crumbs, half a meatball, 14k steps, 4l water
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Update:
I had a 2-hour meeting in the day. Mid-way in the meeting someone arrived late, sat right next to me, took out her home-made chicken sandwich and veg stew and started to dig in. No issue but - it's a meeting, you arrive late and take out all your lunch? She didn't contribute or anything, just sat there eating and the smell was quite intense (and nice). I started not to be able to concentrate on the meeting as I thought: I'm going straight to the caffeteria and getting myself one of those handmade sandwiches they make and a soup.
I excused myself from the meeting 15minutes early, went for a walk outside and the craving subsided. Had my exante veg soup instead and was satisfied.
Then, I went to the social event I had on this Thursday evening. I didn't feel like having any alcohol nor did I feel jealous of people so my plan worked. There was a LOT of yummy looking food. And I was hungry. Had brought one of the shakes along with me to have while the other people in my group munched on their plates full of yummy looking foods. While it did satisfy the physical hunger, the smells around me and having soooo many people eating with pleasure around me was VERY challenging. I could barely concentrate on what people were saying as I was staring mesmerised at their plates and taking in the smells.
In the end, to just curve this whole thing I did taste some of the cheese - there were some I had never had or heard of before so I was just genuinely curious... the only thing I did was to literally pick up a droplet of a cutting leftover by others and just to see what they tasted like; it didn't even amount to 5 grams as I did really only had a crumb of each that I was curious about. And that stopped any more cravings. The person whose party it was told us where she had sourced it and apparently they have regular cheese tasting events so I'll just book one later in the year as a nice event to look forward to when I reach my goal. So that's sorted it without me actually eating or anything. I also had 1 half of the tiniest meatball (must've come to about 10grams of protein if it even was that). It was really small and I didn't even like it so that stopped my cravings/curiousity for anything else.
I had however quite a tense chat (over the phone) with one of my friends that I mentioned about a week ago when I had my emotional breakdown-thing or whatever that was. Long story short, after quite a lot of crying things have now stabilised somehow and are better. But I was very upset last night and I really started to crave alcohol but I didn't have any. Feel a bit like a towel physically today and my eyes hurt from the crying but I didn't give up so I guess that's a plus - this is not a diary of my relationships and their ups and downs. This relationship is going to get sorted in the long-run; the key thing here is that despite a high emotional trigger I didn't give in.
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Update:
I had a 2-hour meeting in the day. Mid-way in the meeting someone arrived late, sat right next to me, took out her home-made chicken sandwich and veg stew and started to dig in. No issue but - it's a meeting, you arrive late and take out all your lunch? She didn't contribute or anything, just sat there eating and the smell was quite intense (and nice). I started not to be able to concentrate on the meeting as I thought: I'm going straight to the caffeteria and getting myself one of those handmade sandwiches they make and a soup.
I excused myself from the meeting 15minutes early, went for a walk outside and the craving subsided. Had my exante veg soup instead and was satisfied.
Then, I went to the social event I had on this Thursday evening. I didn't feel like having any alcohol nor did I feel jealous of people so my plan worked. There was a LOT of yummy looking food. And I was hungry. Had brought one of the shakes along with me to have while the other people in my group munched on their plates full of yummy looking foods. While it did satisfy the physical hunger, the smells around me and having soooo many people eating with pleasure around me was VERY challenging. I could barely concentrate on what people were saying as I was staring mesmerised at their plates and taking in the smells.
In the end, to just curve this whole thing I did taste some of the cheese - there were some I had never had or heard of before so I was just genuinely curious... the only thing I did was to literally pick up a droplet of a cutting leftover by others and just to see what they tasted like; it didn't even amount to 5 grams as I did really only had a crumb of each that I was curious about. And that stopped any more cravings. The person whose party it was told us where she had sourced it and apparently they have regular cheese tasting events so I'll just book one later in the year as a nice event to look forward to when I reach my goal. So that's sorted it without me actually eating or anything. I also had 1 half of the tiniest meatball (must've come to about 10grams of protein if it even was that). It was really small and I didn't even like it so that stopped my cravings/curiousity for anything else.
I had however quite a tense chat (over the phone) with one of my friends that I mentioned about a week ago when I had my emotional breakdown-thing or whatever that was. Long story short, after quite a lot of crying things have now stabilised somehow and are better. But I was very upset last night and I really started to crave alcohol but I didn't have any. Feel a bit like a towel physically today and my eyes hurt from the crying but I didn't give up so I guess that's a plus - this is not a diary of my relationships and their ups and downs. This relationship is going to get sorted in the long-run; the key thing here is that despite a high emotional trigger I didn't give in.
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