Westiegirl: Restarted Day 1 Under my Belt!

[westiegirl]

Alright then, you're on!

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry, but what I said was from the heart and I meant every word of it!

 

[Isobel1965]

It was just lovely and I'm a soppy moo!!

Tears of joy aren't something I get very often (or didn't!).

It just goes to show you never know what's around the corner, darling - like Isis says -never, never, never give up! (erm hope that is!)

I'm starving!! How about you?

 

[westiegirl]

I'm ready to eat my fingers! Trying to distract myself by catching up on the threads. At least coming on here is a lovely way to be distracted!

 

[Isobel1965]

I know - I'm feeling sick from all the peppermint tea! Ho hum - only a few more days of purgatory to go lol!

xxxxxxxx

 

[Summerskye]

It was wonderful to see you at the weekend as ever and I am SO thrilled that you're getting back on track so quickly! Well done (and thank you too! )

Just a few more days and you'll be in 'plain sailing' territory again - and this time you'll reach your final destination. I just know it .. and you know better than to argue with your elders!

Lots of love, darling!

 

[westiegirl]

OMG I am sooooooo hungry!

I can't remember the last time I felt this hungry! I haven't eaten because I was hungry for such a long time and now I am hungry I can't eat lol!

Just waiting for the kettle to boil for a big mug of peppermint tea and a HUGE cup of black coffee. My water intake is quite low as I am so out of practice. Only on 1 1/2 litres so I best get glugging! Have had a lemon bar and a vanilla pack so far. This is my worst time of the day so I think I might make a muffin for with my coffee. It will pass, I know it will. I am strong and I can do this! I AM doing this! Although the question is why the heck am I watching Ready Steady Cook?!!?

 

[westiegirl]

This could get boring!

Sorry but the number of posts I write in the next few days might get a bit repetitive as I chart every minute of my day lol! It might be the only thing that gets me through till ketosis kicks in!

Have just made myself a loverly hot chocolate pack. Man it is hitting the spot!

I told my mum that I am back on the packs and she was her usual supportive self. She understood totally how supportive I found the weekend without even me having to tell her. She's booked a holiday for herself and my dad in April and said how important breaks away are. I told her about the Birmingham meet and she's enthusiastic that I go. She even looked up hotels for me! Maybe she just wants to get rid of me lol!

 

[kati]

ah you will be able to do it, the tea's will help loads at least you already know what you're doing.

AND be thanful it's not smellyvision!!!

 

[westiegirl]

Thanks Nikki, how are you today?

 

[AmandaJayne]

I suppose that this is what they call WHITE KNUCKLING IT!

What's the worst that can happen if you DON'T eat anything and wait until it passes?

What's the worst that can happen if you DO eat something?

Ask yourself, what do you want to achieve?

Why?

How?

When?

 

[smartlazydaisy]

Good luck on your restart!

You can do it!!!

 

[Geri]

Snap westiegirl,

I'm back on day one too - took myself off to bingo this afternoon and had a win which was great - might take myself of there every afternoon this week - it's free and passes a few hours - not that I don't have loads to do, but just till I get through this first few days...

Stick with it hun - ( saying this to myself too!)

It's almost 6 0 clock , well not quite lol but we don't want to break now when we've practically got thru the whole day!!

 

[Isobel1965]

I'm hungry too, hun - but only cos I let 5 mins go by without having another cuppa!!!

I HAVE to drink constantly otherwise I'll be eating my own arm!!!!

Mind you - just had a client who's lost 10lbs in 6 days so that has motivated me too!

My mouth has gone all dry and horrid - has yours??

 

[kati]

Thanks Nikki, how are you today?

Not too bad thanks, really tired but not on the diet yet so not having your struggles so far. I'll be there next week lol

 

[Summerskye]

Great news that you're nowhere near the weight you feared you'd be (I knew you wouldn't be anyway )

I know it's tough for the first few days but just stick with it babes, and keep thinking of the bigger (or rather smaller!) picture

Good luck for when you go to see your new CDC too!

Much love

 

[westiegirl]

Thanks for all your support girls. I know I will get there. At least if I'm hungry I'm feeling something - better than the nothingness I've felt recently.

My mouth is getting dry, but like you Isobel, I am having a cuppa every 5 minutes. If I had carpet in my hallway I would have worn it out already walking to and from the kitchen!

 

[Isobel1965]

OOh yeah - it's good exercise raising my arm to fill up the kettle and dashing upstairs to the loo!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[westiegirl]

Day 1 is almost over.

Have had all my packs and am on the last leg of the water consumption! Minimins has been an absolute saviour to me today. Think I have been on here all day!

I am not hungry at the moment, which is a good thing and feel quite good in fact!

Evenings are quite good for me, I don't usually struggle at all. It's been made easier by having a nice conversation with the nice guy i met on msn. Have been ignoring the pervy one all night. Not quite sure how to tell him I don't want to speak to him. How silly am I worrying about a
man i have never met that i don't particularly like!

The nice one, P, tried to call me earlier but I ignored it. Still feeling wary so I emailed him and asked if we can take it slow and just talk on msn for now. I think he was a bit upset at first but i explained to him that it was exactly because i did like him that i wanted to take it slowly! We had a sticky few minutes but we are having a lovely conversation right now! I think i hurt him a little but i have emphasised that i do like him! We seem to be alright now, getting on like a house on fire (even if he is a chelsea supporter) and he loves to dance. Perfect!

 

[Mich]

Hi Sarah!

Glad to hear day one has gone good...... I'm starting my day one tomorrow - I just felt so pants today I couldn't face it....but definately starting tomorrow.....

Nice to hear your chatting to a nice fella..... you set the pace hun.... don't be pushed into anything you don't want to do....... if he's genuine he'll be patient.....

Have a good day tomorrow.....

Love

 

[westiegirl]

Thanks Mich, good luck for starting tomorrow girl! I am off for my blood test early morning but will probably be around all day if you want a chat. Nothing better to do but relax, and I will probably need distracting from food anyway!

Still chatting to P. He is rather sweet. I
have given him some pictures of me (from last summer and at the wedding). I feel a bit of a fraud as that's not how I look at the moment. I feel quite deceitful but I figure he is far away and if we ever decided to meet I would look like my pictures by then anyway! Is that really shallow? Am I putting myself down, probably but it does matter a lot to me! I suppose if you have been used to being judged negatively on looks for so long you begin to put yourself down. I think that it's worse because i felt really good when I was down to my lowest weight and now I feel crap. I know I shouldn't but in a society where beauty rules it's quite hard!