MissPeriPeri
Silver Member
lol haha just be very careful! my sister grazed her chin cus she fell down on the treadmill once. I did tell her to wear the safety clip but nooooooo! lol
Ally's Diary - take two
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Purple Patsy
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icklerockchick
slow but steady!
I think I need the clip lol just would feel silly in the gym coz no one uses them. Saying that everyone can also run and I'm there doing my c25k lol so speeding up and slowing down all the time! X
MissPeriPeri
Silver Member
Interval training is better for you then straight running for 30 minutes at the same speed! So technically you're doing better then them
icklerockchick
slow but steady!
MissPeriPeri said:Interval training is better for you then straight running for 30 minutes at the same speed! So technically you're doing better then them
Haha yeh I just want to master being able to run/jog 5k as when I suffered a really nasty ankle break I put it on my to do list and that's my ankle just getting strong enough to attempt it now. 2 days down lots more to go!! X
Ally89
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I feel safer with the clip, it has to be attached to the machine for the machine to start so instead of letting it hang loose i just clip it on, it least if i do fall its a little protection. I cant run flat out anyway, my knee dislocates to easy, like you Laura i need to build up the strength in it, but since its been the same since i was 7, i doubt there is much chance of that happening!
I can't stop eating again. i'm over syns not as bad as mon/tues though, i've resorted to gum in the attempt to keep my mouth busy!
I can't stop eating again. i'm over syns not as bad as mon/tues though, i've resorted to gum in the attempt to keep my mouth busy!
MissPeriPeri
Silver Member
CHEW CHEW CHEW! lol
Purple Patsy
Gold Member
Whatever gave you the impression I think you're nuts?????
Ally89
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Major attempt to stick to plan today otherwise I am so going to get another gain on tuesday.
Breakfast: porridge with bournville highlights, activia yog and a plum
Lunch: mugshot and fruit
Tea: Fried rice and omelette
Hea: milk
HEa: cheese
Heb: porridge
HEb:
Syns: highlights 2, biccie 4?, pink n white x1.5 4
Free Snacks: prepacked fruit
Breakfast: porridge with bournville highlights, activia yog and a plum
Lunch: mugshot and fruit
Tea: Fried rice and omelette
Hea: milk
HEa: cheese
Heb: porridge
HEb:
Syns: highlights 2, biccie 4?, pink n white x1.5 4
Free Snacks: prepacked fruit
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Seacrest
L'appetit vient en mang't
Hey, I'm impressed that you're using the machine so consistently. I might (might) get back in the gym on Sunday & will probable go back to my starter 'walk one minute, jog one minute' routine. Can't remember my speed (might have been 8.5kmph) as I haven't used the gym since June......... I understand ref the safety strap, though strangely, my OH runs in flip-flops!! How?
Ally89
Gold Member
how does he do that!? I can't run in flippin trainers!
Ummm, i ended up on a sugar binge at lunch. Wish i knew what triggers it off. Though I have been looking online and found vit d deficiency can cause it, so might try taking vit d supplements see if that will stop them. First though I'm going to give my visualisation technique another whirl it worked the last 2 times, but then i dropped out of the habit of practising it. I need to break the binging habit, almost everyday think week i've been on a binge at some point, none has been catastrophically bad like before xmas, but after today's which has been the worst this week, I need to break the habit badly, fed up of slipping around touching on near eating disorders..last year i got so into slimming world i got to the point i wouldn't eat anything unhealthy, now i've slid back the other way where i can't slip out of the binge side. I need to have a good talk to my brain.
Ummm, i ended up on a sugar binge at lunch. Wish i knew what triggers it off. Though I have been looking online and found vit d deficiency can cause it, so might try taking vit d supplements see if that will stop them. First though I'm going to give my visualisation technique another whirl it worked the last 2 times, but then i dropped out of the habit of practising it. I need to break the binging habit, almost everyday think week i've been on a binge at some point, none has been catastrophically bad like before xmas, but after today's which has been the worst this week, I need to break the habit badly, fed up of slipping around touching on near eating disorders..last year i got so into slimming world i got to the point i wouldn't eat anything unhealthy, now i've slid back the other way where i can't slip out of the binge side. I need to have a good talk to my brain.
Ally89
Gold Member
After just reading something online I think I know what causes or at least triggered my binge cylce. Be prepared for a long winded post.
So the article give 10 points of stopping sugar addiction and these 2 caught my attention most
"5. Know your true value. While yes, your body may be sugar sensitive, and while, yes, you may gorge on sugar, it’s not “you.” It’s just a coping mechanism: how you learned to care for yourself when life felt painful, overwhelming or scary. This is probably something you learned when you were very small. It’s not your fault.
10. Forgive yourself. I felt very ashamed about my sugar addiction. Releasing that shame was like lifting an enormous weight off my psyche. We’re all imperfect. We all cope with life in messy ways. If you have food issues, offer yourself compassion. Find self-acceptance. All those times you gorged on sugar? Recognize that you were doing the best you could."
The second point i've taken in a different way than it states but its those 2 linked together i think causing the binges.
Basically Ever since primary I have use chocolate as my "coping mechanism" when i was being bullied or whatever else was going on, i'd turn to sugar, sweets, chocolate, same all through school and dealing with an situation I found difficult to deal with. Anyway. This time when my binges started in october it was the day my Nanna died. Having psychic tendencies i get dreams and visions, day she died I knew it was going to happened, i dreamt the night before that I was talking to my Grandad (he was my world, basically another parent) and told him Nanna had been fighting to hold on for too long (for a year or so there were times we'd find her barely alive, she'd forget things, not know who she was etc) and I told him that it was unfair to leave her any longer, he agreed and then i woke up. Less than 3 hours later she died in her sleep. I blamed myself for her dying. Even though the next night I had another dream which if i interpreted it right, showed me she died happy, dreaming of her wedding day. But still I blame myself cos i knew it was going to happen, i know i'm clinging on to the blame when i don't need to. My best guess (being an ex psychology student) is i'm pairing the "coping mechanism" with this event, i'm using sugar as a way to counteract the blame.
I thought I needed to break the sugar addiction, but in reality i need to find the way to stop blaming myself for her death, and i'm fairly sure thats how i'll stop the sugar addiction. I thought i needed to desensitize myself to hate chocolate, but instead of seeing my doctor about hypnotherapy I am actually going to make an appointment with one of my friends who is a fully qualified medium and reiki healer, i think she's the one i need to see, figure out how i can stop the self blame.
If any of that makes sense haha
So the article give 10 points of stopping sugar addiction and these 2 caught my attention most
"5. Know your true value. While yes, your body may be sugar sensitive, and while, yes, you may gorge on sugar, it’s not “you.” It’s just a coping mechanism: how you learned to care for yourself when life felt painful, overwhelming or scary. This is probably something you learned when you were very small. It’s not your fault.
10. Forgive yourself. I felt very ashamed about my sugar addiction. Releasing that shame was like lifting an enormous weight off my psyche. We’re all imperfect. We all cope with life in messy ways. If you have food issues, offer yourself compassion. Find self-acceptance. All those times you gorged on sugar? Recognize that you were doing the best you could."
The second point i've taken in a different way than it states but its those 2 linked together i think causing the binges.
Basically Ever since primary I have use chocolate as my "coping mechanism" when i was being bullied or whatever else was going on, i'd turn to sugar, sweets, chocolate, same all through school and dealing with an situation I found difficult to deal with. Anyway. This time when my binges started in october it was the day my Nanna died. Having psychic tendencies i get dreams and visions, day she died I knew it was going to happened, i dreamt the night before that I was talking to my Grandad (he was my world, basically another parent) and told him Nanna had been fighting to hold on for too long (for a year or so there were times we'd find her barely alive, she'd forget things, not know who she was etc) and I told him that it was unfair to leave her any longer, he agreed and then i woke up. Less than 3 hours later she died in her sleep. I blamed myself for her dying. Even though the next night I had another dream which if i interpreted it right, showed me she died happy, dreaming of her wedding day. But still I blame myself cos i knew it was going to happen, i know i'm clinging on to the blame when i don't need to. My best guess (being an ex psychology student) is i'm pairing the "coping mechanism" with this event, i'm using sugar as a way to counteract the blame.
I thought I needed to break the sugar addiction, but in reality i need to find the way to stop blaming myself for her death, and i'm fairly sure thats how i'll stop the sugar addiction. I thought i needed to desensitize myself to hate chocolate, but instead of seeing my doctor about hypnotherapy I am actually going to make an appointment with one of my friends who is a fully qualified medium and reiki healer, i think she's the one i need to see, figure out how i can stop the self blame.
If any of that makes sense haha
Purple Patsy
Gold Member
WOW hun what a lot to sort out but you're in no way to blame but getting the inner you to believe that could be key to it all. Good luck.
Hope you manage to get away from these thoughts for a wee while and have a good w/end.
Good luck. Hope you manage to get away from these thoughts for a wee while and have a good w/end.
Seacrest
L'appetit vient en mang't
Wow, I wish I could give you a huge hug and be there for you. I don't know how adept you are at making your rational sense overrule the emotional, but you must see you cannot be to blame. (if you see what I mean, please take this with the care & compassion it's sent with). However, grief is very difficult to deal with.
I hope the reiki healing helps. If not CBT might?
Take care x
I hope the reiki healing helps. If not CBT might?
Take care x
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