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Alpaca
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Afternoon update - just walked 3.2 miles along the canal (5.15 kilometres) - very pretty and feeling very self-righteous and fit! lol
Head is fairly good - so hoping I don't go crazy later! lol
Update:
L & D is chicken breasts, cauliflower, celery, mushrooms, spring onions, garlic - cooked then blitzed with a bit of grated cheese - really lovely and I have a bowl left for tomorrow
S - mama lupe tortilla with lime and lemon juice and a sprinkle of sweetener... very bad of me but they were in the freezer and I couldn't say no!
Cals - 1307
Carbs - 25
Tomorrow is a very good day to take myself in hand!!
Head is fairly good - so hoping I don't go crazy later! lol
Update:
L & D is chicken breasts, cauliflower, celery, mushrooms, spring onions, garlic - cooked then blitzed with a bit of grated cheese - really lovely and I have a bowl left for tomorrow
S - mama lupe tortilla with lime and lemon juice and a sprinkle of sweetener... very bad of me but they were in the freezer and I couldn't say no!
Cals - 1307
Carbs - 25
Tomorrow is a very good day to take myself in hand!!
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Scrumbles
Dancing Queen
Well done on the walk - you're doing better than me! I went precisely 20 feet to my garden bench and slobbed out in the sun for the afternoon 
What's wrong with a mama lupe tortilla? I've never heard of them so I don't have a clue, lol! Your carbs look fine - and your cals are pretty low - so I wouldn't worry xxx
What's wrong with a mama lupe tortilla? I've never heard of them so I don't have a clue, lol! Your carbs look fine - and your cals are pretty low - so I wouldn't worry xxx
Alpaca
Gold Member
It's serious 'taking control day' today! I've started re-reading my Atkins book to reinvigorate me back on the thorny/sticky road to recovery and weight loss again!
I didn't dare weigh myself this morning - will wait until I've had a week of goodness. After having a really good day yesterday and I went and blew it in the evening by eating a punnet of raspberries and some yoghurts!! What the hell was I thinking of.
Feeling SO bloated this morning but, of course, that doesn't stop me from wanting to scoff.
B - 2 hard boiled eggs and some mayo
S - half a scoop of vanilla Atkins powder with a smidge of soya milk made into a thickish paste which hit the spot nicely.
L - will be tuna, mayo, iceberge lettuce and cucumber
Feel like a complete failure! Skirt fitted ok this morning - not loose though like it was a month ago. Huff...
I didn't dare weigh myself this morning - will wait until I've had a week of goodness. After having a really good day yesterday and I went and blew it in the evening by eating a punnet of raspberries and some yoghurts!! What the hell was I thinking of.
Feeling SO bloated this morning but, of course, that doesn't stop me from wanting to scoff.
B - 2 hard boiled eggs and some mayo
S - half a scoop of vanilla Atkins powder with a smidge of soya milk made into a thickish paste which hit the spot nicely.
L - will be tuna, mayo, iceberge lettuce and cucumber
Feel like a complete failure! Skirt fitted ok this morning - not loose though like it was a month ago. Huff...
coffeelover
Gold Member
Morning Di, Don't be so hard on yourself. Your NOT a failure in any sense of the word, you've lost an amazing amount and that takes great determination.
You're going to have a good week. We all are xxx
You're going to have a good week. We all are xxx
ladyfelsham
Back to SW again
Evening lovely Di
You are so back in the zone, my girl, I am really proud of you When I was dragging my sweaty huge arse round Monaco in 42 degree heat, all I could think was "This is ridiculous. I am the size of an airblimp but as heavy as Kansas. Di can do it, so can you! Look how much better she felt after starting to lose weight!". So, keep that in mind for the bad days xxx
Also really pleased to hear the magnesium salts work well.
You are so back in the zone, my girl, I am really proud of you
When I was dragging my sweaty huge arse round Monaco in 42 degree heat, all I could think was "This is ridiculous. I am the size of an airblimp but as heavy as Kansas. Di can do it, so can you! Look how much better she felt after starting to lose weight!". So, keep that in mind for the bad days xxxAlso really pleased to hear the magnesium salts work well.
Alpaca
Gold Member
Morning guys... yes, I will get that zone back - and I'm not sure why I'm finding it such a struggle right now.
But, I really am - and want to sabbotage - mostly it's when I get home from work - so must look at what I need to do to stop the nonsense.
I start off with good intentions - each day! and then head goes all weird and I then start being a prat.
Love you guys! you are the BEST!!
Have decided not to weigh myself this week as it will only depress me...
And have started reading the Atkins book for inspiration... xxx
But, I really am - and want to sabbotage - mostly it's when I get home from work - so must look at what I need to do to stop the nonsense.
I start off with good intentions - each day! and then head goes all weird and I then start being a prat.
Love you guys! you are the BEST!!
Have decided not to weigh myself this week as it will only depress me...
And have started reading the Atkins book for inspiration... xxx
Scrumbles
Dancing Queen
Morning, Di!
Ditto to what everyone else is saying - you are amazing, so there!
Can I ask a silly question, though? Why are you keeping stuff in the house that isn't on plan? Is it for other people? Because if it isn't, please do yourself a favour and don't buy things that could cause you to sabotage.
You're only human - we all are. If you read around the forums, evenings are when pretty much everyone is at their most vulnerable no matter what plan they're on. If you've had a stressful day, if you're bored, if you've had an argument with someone you are SO much more likely to reach for the wrong foods at that time, but you can only do that if they happen to be there. Why put temptation in your own way?
And if other people in the house are to blame for the "bad" foods being there, can you get them on board to help you out here? I'm very lucky in that my skinny OH only buys carby treats for himself one at a time (nothing has to be stored) and never eats them in front of me (if he did, there'd be hell to pay!) You are patently such a naturally generous and kind person, but maybe you need to get a little selfish right now. Your house, your rules...that kind of thing.
Anyway, feel free to tell me to butt out and mind my own business. I'm just curious as to why you're allowing yourself to be in a position to waver. You stuck to Atkins with awesome focus for over a year: what's changed? Something in your environment? Something about you?
Ditto to what everyone else is saying - you are amazing, so there!
Can I ask a silly question, though? Why are you keeping stuff in the house that isn't on plan? Is it for other people? Because if it isn't, please do yourself a favour and don't buy things that could cause you to sabotage.
You're only human - we all are. If you read around the forums, evenings are when pretty much everyone is at their most vulnerable no matter what plan they're on. If you've had a stressful day, if you're bored, if you've had an argument with someone you are SO much more likely to reach for the wrong foods at that time, but you can only do that if they happen to be there. Why put temptation in your own way?
And if other people in the house are to blame for the "bad" foods being there, can you get them on board to help you out here? I'm very lucky in that my skinny OH only buys carby treats for himself one at a time (nothing has to be stored) and never eats them in front of me (if he did, there'd be hell to pay!
) You are patently such a naturally generous and kind person, but maybe you need to get a little selfish right now. Your house, your rules...that kind of thing.Anyway, feel free to tell me to butt out and mind my own business. I'm just curious as to why you're allowing yourself to be in a position to waver. You stuck to Atkins with awesome focus for over a year: what's changed? Something in your environment? Something about you?
stubbsey
Silver Member
that is so true Scrumbles, all of what you said, but its also really hard to stay focussed on any plan for a year. when you are losing a lot of weight its such a major undertaking, a girl i know had a gastric bypass, she is young and i thought she was crazy, she knew tho from her own experience she would never stick to a diet for that long she needed the whole thing to be taken out of her hand. I did ww for a year, but then it went out of the window for various reasons i had to stop going to the group, then i stopped losing, then i started gaining. i still had the online tracker and tools but just couldn't focus.
evenings are so hard, if i am at home with my son they pig out and i am left wondering what i can have, if i am on my own, even worse. Its just a bit of a mine field. On Atkins though, I find that what usually works for me is that i eventually get so mad with myself that the penny drops and i start again with much more enthusiasm and resolve.
Do you need to have something new in your life to focus on? i can't tell you how many blooming scarves i have knitted just to keep my hands and head busy and not thinking about fancies..
hope you sort it out lovie xx
evenings are so hard, if i am at home with my son they pig out and i am left wondering what i can have, if i am on my own, even worse. Its just a bit of a mine field. On Atkins though, I find that what usually works for me is that i eventually get so mad with myself that the penny drops and i start again with much more enthusiasm and resolve.
Do you need to have something new in your life to focus on? i can't tell you how many blooming scarves i have knitted just to keep my hands and head busy and not thinking about fancies..
hope you sort it out lovie xx
Dietkitty
Rebel without a calorie
I agree, it's the evenings for me too. Some days are due to bad work days, others because I'm tired and some just plain boredom or not wanting to cook twice because Trev is at work and doesn't get in until almost 8pm.
I've had far too many breaks this time around but you can't always put life on hold can you! Onwards and downwards Di. We will find out mojo together xx
I've had far too many breaks this time around but you can't always put life on hold can you! Onwards and downwards Di. We will find out mojo together xx
triage999
Gold Member
Morning Di, you'll get there, just stop beating yourself up sweet!!!
You've done amazingly well, and like everyone else has said, your human!! Not a robot....you need to live a little too, we only get one shot on this planet for such a short space of time so you have to enjoy some of it right?
Why don't you buy some nice recipe books and start experimenting a bit more? you can batch make too so you always have something in hand, throw out all the junk or donate to a friend/shelter, you don't need it!
Hugs xxx
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You've done amazingly well, and like everyone else has said, your human!! Not a robot....you need to live a little too, we only get one shot on this planet for such a short space of time so you have to enjoy some of it right?
Why don't you buy some nice recipe books and start experimenting a bit more? you can batch make too so you always have something in hand, throw out all the junk or donate to a friend/shelter, you don't need it!
Hugs xxx
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ladyfelsham
Back to SW again
Ditto to the comments above - as always, extremely wise words from people who love you
Nothing for me to add - except for a big cuddle (((((((((((((((((Di))))))))))))))) xxx
Nothing for me to add - except for a big cuddle (((((((((((((((((Di))))))))))))))) xxx
Alpaca
Gold Member
Love you guys!! Amazing advice and empathy ooooozing from you all...
Yes Scrummie, not sure what's changed but something must have so I'm working on trying to figure it out.
Stubbsey - thank you!
Lisa, Susie... Jo, Sandra, Katie,Val, Sammy ........ love you!!! xxx
oh yes, by the way... have been super good today - and just hope I can get home and slide into the bath without anything more passing my lips. If I manage that then it's the first day of being good for a while!!! Already starting to feel super smug about it!! lol xxx
Yes Scrummie, not sure what's changed but something must have so I'm working on trying to figure it out.
Stubbsey - thank you!
Lisa, Susie... Jo, Sandra, Katie,Val, Sammy ........ love you!!! xxx
oh yes, by the way... have been super good today - and just hope I can get home and slide into the bath without anything more passing my lips. If I manage that then it's the first day of being good for a while!!! Already starting to feel super smug about it!! lol xxx
ladyfelsham
Back to SW again
Oh hun you should have some dinner - what about some stock in hot water, even? xxx
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