FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Do take it easy hun, your body is still trying to recover and it does need rest, hence the shaky feeling. I know you want to do more, but the weeds will still be there next week, just a bit longer. Listen to your body and do what you feel like doing, but don't overdo it - ok????? Finger wagging mode here.
Well, the sun went and it started raining so decision made - no gardening today, probably just as well, as, when getting paper I did have a wobbly moment when I thought legs were giving up the ghost! That was a bit scary! (note the orange for your spanish sunshine)
I think handing in your notice on job 2 is a good idea, I know it's frightening losing the income but it sounds like you've got your finances sorted out for a while and you have been doing too much, two jobs is one hell of an undertaking for anyone, never mind someone who's SSing and living the rest of her life at 90mph too. Keep looking for jobs and the right one, with good hours and pay will come along, it makes a lot more sense than racing around trying to do two.
It is scary but I really think that it will be best, at least for a while. Makes me feel like I'm being lazy and it's a cop out, but I know how hard the last few months have been and I know how I feel today and it isn't good.. so.. I'll work on the wording of my letter and will probably post it to them and be a complete coward and never see them again. Oh well. At least I worked hard when I was there!
I didn't realise you weren't getting weighed with Ailsa for 5 weeks, how come it's so long, is that how long your going away for???? Or is she away after you. But don't worry, you're strong enough to cope, you know you'll still be losing, you'll feel it in your clothes. Take some measurements before you go and then you can see visible results even though you're not getting weighed, but I'm sure you'll be fine and will stay on the straight and narrow.
Ailsa is going on hols before me for 2 weeks and I'm away for over 3 weeks in all (including Dublin)... hence the 5 weeks on the loose! lol I will do the measurement thing, good idea, will take a tape measure with me. My sis and I talked about the heat and the impact that will have on me with my 'smaller' build and low level of calorific intake and agreed that if I find it hard I will treat the entire holiday like AAM and see how that goes. I'm taking enough packs for 3 a day so if that's not sufficient it will be fresh fish, veg, salad and chicken on the menu with gallons of water, and, Ailsa said Coke Zero would be ok if I got sick of the water, and sis says they have that there so that might be an idea too. I must admit though, I've not had any caffeine in my body for the entire diet so not sure how my physiology will respond to coke in any form! lol Will be interesting though! I don't want to get my coke addiction back though (Diet coke that is!!!) if I can avoid it.
Take care, have a lovely, restful day although I will allow a gentle stroll with S if it's on the cards
I haven't done anything really, thus far and still jiggered so will do as I'm told!
xxx
Whilst getting paper I bumped into chap who cleared my pond last summer and he didn't recognise me at all, then blushed, then garbled on and on about how different I look, lol and that I look fantastic..
Anyway, he came to house to look at problem fence and is going to fix it tomorrow. £50 but my garden will be secure and look loads better without the dreadful orange temporary stuff (as seen in my pic!!)He also quoted to fix ceiling in utility room so I need another 2 quotes then will write to insurance company (had forgotten all about that trundling along on the back burner).
Also - got clothes boxed up and sending them off to a lovely lass this afternoon. My mate with the complicated love life, that isn't complicated any more (L) used to be married to a courier, she contacted him and he's coming before 4pm (when I go to Drs) to pick up parcel for me (bless). He hasn't seen me in almost a year so I did warn him I look a bit different. He asked how much I'd lost, drew breath, and asked (jokingly)what I was doing tonight! lololol
In any case... still holding out hope with S, especially as he rang and we chatted at length about his evening last night and his work today... (he was driving to a mega business meeting in Brummy land).. I think he'll probably call again on his way home - but who can tell! lol
No suggestion of seeing each other, but that's alright as I know it will be easier after yesterday and after the weekend is over and done with. As my holiday gets closer I know he will be aware that I want a resolution... so.. he has time yet to think. How I am with him these coming days and how I have been this last week is absolutely paramount to his decision-making so, I have to stay cool but in touch.. and honest.
He's picking up his son tomorrow and not taking him back until Tuesday... I do wonder if he might suggest that I go with them to feed the ducks over the weekend but am not holding my breath.
If he does suggest meeting up then I will say yes. No doubt. Lord, it's like being on a trial period in a job that means the world to you! BUT... yesterday's walk DID give me hope.
I've got the jobs paper to trawl through now, and 2 application packs have arrived today too. So... might sit and read those and make some phone calls too.
Also whilst getting paper I picked up some chicken from the market and there is a stall of home made jams etc and war memorabilia... so I bought the video Schindlers List (loved it so much at Cinema) and a couple of things to give to someone whose birthday theme is 'naughty forties!'... and a book which is the account of a lady who was a prisoner in Birkenhau. I will read it at some point. Not today though.
Might have another muffin in a minute as still shaking slightly - shouldn't be this way still - surely!! Still, GP will give me his verdict later and I'll follow his advice too.
All in all, a very odd week for lots of reasons but looking ahead.. well... even if the weather is going to be rubbish, after next week I shall have my holiday and be able to escape the madness and mayhem and just chill out in some wonderful weather (its VERY hot out there at the moment so fingers crossed it will stay that way!).
