Blergh! - FatFairNForty(ish) - my diary

[cah-ching]

lol, yep.. I was.

He rang, apologised for the delay and asked if I was still up for going out for a drink.. as if I was going to say no!

So I picked him up and we went to the local wine bar - there was a musician but we pretty much ignored him.. we sat at a table away from everyone else and just basically talked.. there was very little physical contact, none at all when I picked him up... although he did take my hand a couple of times.. and our knees touched occassionally.

He had a very very tough day and to be honest, he looked tired. When I picked him up he told me I looked great (which was nice). We talked about lots of things.. including THAT Thursday evening and in the end he made a joke of it and we both ended up laughing. He has a very heavy rest of the weekend ahead unfortunately so I don't know when we shall see one another again and he has already told me he is working away next Friday night and then has the boys all weekend so I won't see him at all next weekend (the last weekend before my hols)..

I dropped him home and we had a hug and a kiss and he apologised for being a bit weird tonight but assured me he isn't playing games. I believe him. He's going to try and arrange to take his older lad on holiday during my final week away, which I thought was nice of him...

I know how I feel but am still unsure as to his feelings. I guess patience is going to be my bedfellow for quite some time now.

There was a tricky moment when the owner came over to chat and asked directly if he was my man! I stumbled and muttered a kind of 'yes' but wasn't sure whether I should have or not.. he didn't object so I'm guessing it was an ok thing to say.

We shared stories about past holidays, meetings with famous people, music likes etc etc... it was only 2 hours but flew by at times and at others there were tense silences..

I don't really know how to feel right now, so, was glad he stood and waved goodbye until I was out of sight, as I left he said "If I haven't said already, you look absolutely fantastic tonight" (so - thumbs up on the choice of outfit!).. and he also asked me to text when I got home and again in the morning and he will call me then.

I know, I know.. not the actions of a man who isn't interested, but still and all, I don't want to get too excited about things.. I'm guessing that when I get home from my holidays things will be crystal clear.

He told me I have to take care of myself and that I look very tired still and to make sure I have plenty of energy input on Monday as it will be a long and tiring day. I haven't quite worked out how I'm going to have my packs as I have to be there for 8.45am and won't be leaving until probably 6pm... will perhaps have 2 muffins first thing in the morning and take a chicken salad with me for afterwards...

In any case, I did see S tonight, albeit just for a couple of hours and at arms length for the most part. He has son from tomorrow afternoon to Tuesday, I have weigh in Tuesday evening.. and then he has a hideous working week ahead.. doesn't bode that well, but as I say.. patience is going to be key.

I'm off to bed now as I am freezing cold and absolutely knackered.. not normally up this late any more.. certainly not at the moment..

Goodnight my friends, thank you for being upbeat when I wasn't and for helping me all the while.. xxxx

"A patient man rides a donkey" whatever that means! My mom said that to me all the time!

This dating malarkey is so nail biting isn't it?! You'll get there with S though. All good things come to those who wait.

Pleased you had a fab evening.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

It was a nice evening, just still unsure but think it might be ok. Will have to wait and see. I think I'll go back to bed and watch a video.. lol.. take my mind of it all! Might make a muffin first.... hmm... maybe not, that way I am unlikely to have all 3 packs so quickly today... might take the dog for a walk again... lol.. lucky thing.. if dating angst = walks he's gong to be one fit dog!

 

[Cheb]

Hey FFFish

Sounds like you had a good evening, just take things one day a time; like dieting! Men are confusing creatures and poor communicaters you know the Mars and Venus stuff is sooooo true, don't waste your mental energy trying to suss him just go with the flow!

Have a lovely day.

 

[mindless]

Hey FFFish

Sounds like you had a good evening, just take things one day a time; like dieting! Men are confusing creatures and poor communicaters you know the Mars and Venus stuff is sooooo true, don't waste your mental energy trying to suss him just go with the flow!

Have a lovely day.

Agree 95% with what Cheb has put here (come on girls - some guys are capable of communicating - not all knuckle draggers you know )

Its a journey like dieting - one day at a time, some ups, some downs, some lovely days, some teeth grinding days.

You can probably see the end game perhaps (like seeing yourself in your minds eye at your ideal weight) and it just seems such a big gap - but one step at a time and who knows, the path may get you there, it may not

BUT

wherever it takes you - you'll not get there tomorrow

end of lecture from Uncle Confucious

But there seemed little if anything that was negative in your date so take encouragement from that and see what tomorrow brings

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Well, this morning has dragged on horribly - it's peeing down with rain outside so no walk for the dog (nor me) so am back on here! Tried a couple of arcade games and got bored... think I might do a bit of work and email that to the office and if desperately bored later might tootle in there and print some stuff out.. probably not though.. lol

Scoured paper for films and see that Muppet Treasure Island is on this afternoon - I adore that film so will probably curl up in fave chair to watch it!

Just had my first pack of the day - yummy spicy tomato soup - nicely warmed me up, heating on full tilt too so house will soon be like an oven... yippee!

Am NOT looking forward to tomorrow apart from seeing sis and hopefully getting into carnival mode! The rain will keep the crowds at bay and dampen spirits... plus of course it will make me colder! I wish I'd got some thermals and waterproofs! Thankfully they will be supplying a mac of some description - the last thing I need is to be shivering my way round too! lol

Might take a flask (if I can find one) of boiling water and my soups so at least at some point I can have some soup. (Probably JUST prior to parade or immediately after!)

Texted S this morning as requested and got one back with promise to call later... I texted him a bit later asking him to do me a favour (involving food)... yesterday I cooked loads of chicken korma, then froze it, then took one out to defrost for Zoe to eat tonight, but she doesn't like it! So, offered it to S as I can't eat it (450 cals per serving without rice!) and I am loathe to throw food away (especially food I have cooked!).. so he rang me and suggested I might like to nip over there tomorrow eve after I get back from carnival ("if you're not busy") for him to eat. We had a brief chat and left it that he will call me later. I hate not feeling the freedom to call him but I know that it HAS to be this way for now. He has to be the one calling the shots and making the boundaries.

Will the chicken korma still be edible tomorrow night? I dunno... cooked and frozen and defrosted yesterday... in fridge now... ok tomorrow?? Answers on a postcard please...

I'm still feeling incredibly tired - look rough as anything!! seriously thinking of not going to pub quiz tonight if still so tired. I have a heavy day tomorrow and an early start and fair drive (at least an hour)... not sure, maybe it will do me good to get out and back to normal routine though.. Trudy is running the quiz in PQM's absence,... would like to show her some support, but at the same time I'm jiggered! I wonder if I would go if PQM was there, but you know what, I don't think I would. I really am THAT tired!

Far easier to snuggle up in bed and watch telly and get a solid 8 - 10 hours in!

Right - am going to do 1 hour of work (job 1) and then see if I still feel weary... think I'll go to the listen again option on the bbc and listen to some of the plays...

Zoe just came downstairs to borrow my phone... her fella is still recovering from an over indulgence of the falling down water last night and has lost his house key - so it looks like we have a house guest. I don't mind really.

She also told me how it took her 2 hours to get him here last night as he would only turn right.. LMAO... lololol.... so she had to find a way to get out of his area and here with only right turns! lol Too funny.

They want to go to Pizza Hut... it's about 15 minute drive away.. so I said I'll drop them there if they want me to.. and I will wander around Dunelm and B& Q... but I can't go to Pizza Hut... there's a limit to my willpower!

Need to find out if they do the "all you can eat" buffet on a Sunday! Sheesh... kids!!

Sarah rang this morning too, she was on her way to work.. she wanted to know how I would feel about her getting a scooter! Oh lordy be!! She can barely live let alone run a flippin machine!! left her in no doubts about my thoughts on that and promised to send her the Asda gift card in the post (I remembered to get it yesterday)...

It's going to be a mish mash kind of day I think.. I brought the sodden washing in off the line and shoved it in the washing machine... so need to hang that on the airer before doing much else...

Just snapped at Zoe for nagging me to find out about Pizza Hut! Argh! I leave her alone when she is on t'internet or the phone - why is it kids can't do the same!? Is it a genetic disorder?? Or is it that I am just very short tempered today due to... well... everything really!?

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

well, I rang Pizza Hut and as they don't do the buffet I didn't have to take them! Instead she has obliterated the kitchen and made a monumental 'fry up' for the two of them! I shut myself in here (study) so can't smell it all. I've had another soup to warm myself up.. and wish I had channel 5 on telly upstairs as would go to bed to watch film...

Had to go to shops to get gas and leccy as ran out just before Zoe was about to start cooking.. so that's another £50 gone.. still... its the money for the fence as the man who promised to come and fix it yesterday didn't! What is it with people! Why can't people keep their promises????

Ah well.. will ring him tomorrow and start hassling about the fence! In fact - might call him now if I can find his number!

I went to the Co-op and bought some cakes for Zoe and a flask for me for tomorrow - decided I can't go all day in the cold and rain without soup to warm and nourish me!

I'm going to make a chicken, mushroom and onion salad in a minute and sit and eat it before the film starts.

Had text from S saying he will call me later.. that could be anytime but I will wait. Been chatting on msn with a girlfriend and catching up with her news.. not done any work and not motivated to do so either! lol

Maybe by Wednesday I will have got to grips with things better.. I need to as major committment work wise due out at end of next week. I know I'm signed off, but even so.. there are SOME things I must do!

Right.. off to the arcade for another game of Mahjong! xx

 

[pandora]

ooooooo i love Mahjong, which one do you play ? i usually do Alchemy or the toy one.
as much as i know you will miss Zoe when she goes next week, at least you won't have to smell her cooking any more
hope the weather cheers up a bit for you tommorrow hun, no fun trapsing around in the cold & wet
xx

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

I dunno which mah jong it is, and I'm poo at it.. lol.. it's the one with all the oriental graphics...

I will miss Zoe terribly, I spoke to my best friend this evening for ages (also called Zoe) and, as she lives in St Albans, I'm calling in on her on my way home from dropping my Zoe off on Tuesday morning.

Sat and watched Muppet Treasure Island, then Tina Turner in concert and now American Idol is on sky but I know who won so can't be asked to watch it.. lol

My right arm is killing me, I must've slept funny on it last night as it has been hurting all day... done feck all in the way of housework... apart from cleaned the kitchen up (again!)...

Don't think Zoe has realised I bought her some icecream - might ask her to take it with her Tuesday OR I could give it to S... lol.. he's going to start calling me meals on wheels soon! lol

I long to cook proper meals again. I made a chicken, mushroom and onion and peppers and brocolli stir fry and ate that. It was lovely but I followed it with a muffin and feel so fat an bloated now.

MUST have the ostrich steak tomorrow then call it a day with the extra AAM as I'm sure it will show on the scales on Tuesday as I've not been doing any exercise and just been lazing around all week! If I put on weight due to lack of movement I shall freak!! I've not gained a single ounce the entire 32 weeks on this diet and I certainly don't intend to start now!!!

No word from S since 1pm when he text to say he will "call later" am hoping he will do so before I go to bed... I'm sure he will as he will be putting his little lad to bed now and then clearing up.. lol.. and then probably nodding off in front of the telly again.. lol Bless him, if you think MY life is busy and stressful, HIS is twice as bad!

I need to keep remembering that!

I spoke to Trudy and told her I'm not going tonight - I can't face it, I know it would be fun but would it really when I feel so rough? I don't think so. As for tomorrow - well, I'm going to call my sister and ask her to make sure I have 2 waterproof coats as I feel the cold so intensly, plus I'm packing an entire change of clothes (including socks, undies and shoes) plus towels and my flask of boiling water and soups. REALLY hoping it won't be as horrendous as it has been today - my side gates blew open in the wind and rain and I got drenched securing them again! Blah!

I know you already probably think I'm ga-ga, but, when I was out buying supplies for Zoe earlier.. I called in at petrol station - lady there goes to my church, and I walked into the shop and said.. "can I have a hug please"... she gave me a lovely hug and I cried and we talked and I bought some screenwash, lol. We hugged again and I left feeling lots better. She has a knack for making me see things calmly and in the right way. It's a gift of hers.

So, I'm going to run a very deep hot bath in a few minutes, light some candles and play some soft music and chill out in the bathroom for a while.. Zoe and her boyfriend went back to bed after dinner and I haven't seen hide nor hair of them since.. not heard them either (thank goodness!).

There are so many things I want to do... need to do... and have to do... I don't even know where to begin. So, I'm going to ignore them all and head for the bathroom.. lol.

After a game or 2 of Mah Jong....

 

[jane]

dear jennie jus spent the last couple of hours catching up on your thread.
couldn't for the life of me work out how i'd got so behind on it.
then the peny dropped,I've been workingmy way up my subscribed threads fro mthe bottom up.there's been so much activity on here it probably never got to the bottom at all .

1.anyway i'm sorry you got all exhausted & burnt out,but I spose it's not compleelty a surprise.
2.Glad , & not at all surprised hat your lovely gP signed you off til you go away.
3. V glad you've resigned job 2. It just felt like too much.
4. Glad that yuo & S have had a sort of new start. Put 'The Episode' behind you both & begun what\sounds like a calmer more thoughtful re-build to yuor relationship. There is obvious deep attraction there, & rushing it may spoil it.
I so want you to be happy.
5. holiday couldn't hav come at a better time.
6. Brains gone dead,I know there was a no 6 it's just got to that time again.

you look so fit & trim in yout new Avatar, I'm proud of you & we've never even met,so lord knows how yuo must feel about yourself.

I promise I won't neglect your diary again,
You are sounding much less tired than on momday last & no more mention of wobbly-ness. Plkease give yourself time.
I don't think you'll have gained this week ,maybe just a smaller loss.

Big hugs. Boy are you a fighter, full strenght will be back soon

 

[juju_doll]

Hello my dear,

Sounds like you've had a tough time of it lately. I know how strong you are, but get some rest and enjoy some more 'me' time. I've been complete rubbish in the food department lately. It's my birthday on Tuesday and then it's back to sole source for at least a month till my summer ball, have to fit in my dress! Hopefully it will go well, but may have to swim over to France and drag Ailsa back to whinge at when i'm starving ... bet she'll be pleased!

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Hiya Jane

dear jennie jus spent the last couple of hours catching up on your thread.
couldn't for the life of me work out how i'd got so behind on it.
then the peny dropped,I've been workingmy way up my subscribed threads fro mthe bottom up.there's been so much activity on here it probably never got to the bottom at all .

1.anyway i'm sorry you got all exhausted & burnt out,but I spose it's not compleelty a surprise.

Seems to be the general concensus but took me by surprise..lol

2.Glad , & not at all surprised hat your lovely gP signed you off til you go away.

Me too (glad) but still have things I must do (work wise)... lol

3. V glad you've resigned job 2. It just felt like too much.

:sigh: I know.. hate admitting defeat though..

4. Glad that yuo & S have had a sort of new start. Put 'The Episode' behind you both & begun what\sounds like a calmer more thoughtful re-build to yuor relationship. There is obvious deep attraction there, & rushing it may spoil it.
I so want you to be happy.

Thank you, I think there is too, (the deep attraction - it goes way beyond the surface) and at the moment, although I'm finding it difficult (but am getting better at this patience lark) it is still continuing.. and that's the important thing.. I think if we (S & I ) ever mention 'The Episode' (lol, that's such a great way to describe it).. it will be in a joking manner! (based on our discussion on Saturday night in the wine bar). I want to be happy too, and I want him to be too, and, dare I say it, I think, handled carefully, we could perhaps be just the people to do that for one another. I get the feeling this is going to be a very gentle journey of discovery.. although with the benefit of an initial fortnights headlong dash! And, if we aren't for one another, then I will dust myself off and be ok.

5. holiday couldn't hav come at a better time.

Couldn't agree more... I really am so looking forward to it.. as is my sis...

6. Brains gone dead,I know there was a no 6 it's just got to that time again.

Lol, know that feeling well!

you look so fit & trim in yout new Avatar, I'm proud of you & we've never even met,so lord knows how yuo must feel about yourself.

thank you, I have mixed feelings about myself...

I promise I won't neglect your diary again,

hey, don't worry about it, I've been neglecting everyone's diaries these last couple of weeks! (including I'm ashamed to say - yours!) although your day on the river has evoked many long dormant yearnings for some time on the water...

You are sounding much less tired than on momday last & no more mention of wobbly-ness. Plkease give yourself time.

I'm not as tired - although by bedtime I look rough, lol, and I haven't felt as wobbly - just the odd moment. I find it hard to sit and do nowt but am getting frighteningly better at it!

I don't think you'll have gained this week ,maybe just a smaller loss.

I'll settle for that! After all, no exercise, not even walking around an office... AND AAM (my style)... can't expect miracles - well, I do, but you know what I mean.

Big hugs. Boy are you a fighter, full strenght will be back soon

Thanks Jane, I think I have my darling late father to thank for the fighter in me (and my mum too - all that Yorkshire stock in me see... good strong folks the Yorkies!)

Well, I'm up horrendously early due to committment to be a section leader at Luton Carnival today - hardly slept at all to be honest.. am up, dressed, bag packed with change of clothes and to be honest, am dreading it...

The weather is dreadful, that's what kept me awake last night.. rain on the windows and wind whistling.. my sister just rang me to say she's got to make the decision whether to cancel the carnival parade!! I feel so sorry for her. She has been working on this all year and there are hundreds of people who have put months of effort into costumes etc inpreparation... she says the weather in Luton is really awful and she is off to the site to make the decision... bless her, I can hear the distress in her voice... all that work... money and effort and so many people to contact... and she thought to call me to warn me that she will ring me back in half an hour with the decision (it's at least an hour drive for me to get there in time.. and I was going to set off at 7 as S rang me last night to tell me that the surface water is really really bad and to allow lots of extra time... - will tell you about S in a second (I know... boredom alert! lol)...

I don't envy my sis's decision - it has far-reaching consequences... such a shame.. but you know... the weather is the ONE thing you simply cannot do anything about in this country and it IS pretty awful out there... I wish she didn't have to make the decision.. but the reality is... if its as bad as she says, the crowds will stay home, the parade participants won't show (you can't expect children to walk in such conditions and barely dressed dancers and musicians with amps and loads of electrical equipment to want to continue...) Poor love.

So, again... patience and hopefulness that the decision is a straightforward one for her and that she is at peace at whatever way it goes. Here in Northants the weather seems to have calmed a tad... but still isn't particularly inviting! (and is blowing around loads in addition to the rain!)

I have 4 tops on, lol. (Was determined not to be cold!)...

Right... S

As I thought (and hoped) he rang once little 'un was tucked up in bed and he'd tidied round.. he sounded so tired. He asked about my plans for today... and said that he understood about it being my sis etc but that he felt it was a mistake for me to go and to ring him when I left this morning so we could have a proper chat whilst I drove down there... he was very concerned about my being able to have enough 'food' and keep dry and warm... bless... he told me that driving conditions were awful and to avoid the motorway at all costs - so A6 it will be! (if it's on!)

I told him I was going to have a bath and then bed so he said to ring him and we would talk when I was tucked up in bed.. which I did and we did... bless him.. he had fallen asleep in front of telly again.. and was so sleepy.. lol.. so we bid one another goodnight and I promised to call him this morning when I set off...

If it is cancelled I know he will be pleased (for my sake and no other reason)...

OOOh... he just texted me! lol There's a first !! HIM contacting ME first in the morning! lol Daft innit... hee hee...

I've already had a muffin this morning, and a pint of water and a pint of appleade... and think I'll go and put my boots on now as sis will be calling very soon - whatever she decides is fine with me.. I will go if it is still on, and I will stay home if it isn't! Might even still go and see her and suggest we have 'lunch' together (I can take soup to any restaurant!) lol

 

[kittykat]

Jennie is it on or off ????

 

[pandora]

oh dear, i don't envy your sister at all. I have to say when it looked like being in a waterfall here yesterday i thoughtof you & how you would not enjoy today if the weather was like that in Luton.
Even if the festival is off it'll be nice for you to do lunch with her & i suspect she will appreciate the thought you put into the gesture !
Either way enjoy your day hun
xx

 

[Roch]

Morning Jen hun just been catching up with your thread as i have hardly been online.
You have so much going on in your life
S sounds like a really sensitive caring guy who cares about you alot and i am sure all our parents told us when we were young that" good things come to those who wait "(the onky thing is in my case i am still waiting )

Hun hope u r feeling better maybe u need to chill out a bit and take things easy as u r busy all the time.
It was soooo nice talking 2 u the other day u sound so positive and happy and u r always a true inspiration 2 me.
Whats happening with the festival as u have not come online yet i presume it is still going on hope u have your flask and supplies as i think r going to need them today.
The weather down here in London is horrendous whats it like where u r.

Hope u have a good day and the weather does not spoil the day 2 much take care and thank u Jen for being there for me and helping me see things in a different light xxxxx

 

[jane]

Morning Jennie,Sorry the weather is still grim over your side, & poor Sis having the decision on her shoulders.
Whateve she decides there's bound to be people who will complain.
when you plan a massive event like this do you make afall back date in case of flood famine or act of war?

Just read your last post & you certanly do sound much more your old self cf this time last week.My spelling,however,was symptomatic of my state of approaching slumber.I did almost nothing y'day yet was tired last night & overslept this am.
Guess we're all guilty of not slowing down oftern enough....BUT..some of us are more guilty than others.nothing that an exotic holiday with a sister won't remedy though.

PS.I like the sound of S, & reckon he needs nurturing.
Have a good day& take it gently.

 

[sonkie]

Hmmmmm wonder what the decision was......if she has gone I hope she takes her time the roads must be awful......I hate driving when its raining hard, your wipers never seem to clear the screen quick enough.

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Hiya

I went in the end, decided to call sis and she said the decision still hadn't been made, but she wanted to cancel the parade as the roads in the area were flooded., I told her I would go in any case as it would mean we could see one another, so I did.

Texted S to tell him I was on my way and he rang me - briefly - and said he hoped I could swim.. lol

I made very good time as I went the A6 route and the roads were totally empty, not surprising as it was lashing it down with rain and there were bits of tree all over the place!

I tuned into BBC 3 Counties Radio (as I know the BBC cover the event each year) and just as I reached the outskirts of Luton the news came through that the whol carnival had been cancelled on Health & Safety grounds. I rang sis and she was gutted, I could tell right away, so she told me where the Carnival base was I went to her. Got there, gave her a hug and ploughed into the dozens of phone calls letting parade and carnival participants know it was off. Most were ok, bar one woman who was very snotty... I very gently explained that it was on Health & Safety grounds and there was extensive flooding and that it was not a lightly taken decision. In fact, it's the first time in the Carnival's history that this has EVER happened! She didn't seem any happier and I understand her frustration as she had about 40 people raring to get on a coach and travel up from London to take part... she was lucky - they hadn't set off, one group had already boarded the Isle of Wight Ferry to make the long journey up!

Everyone else I spoke to was lovely about it and understood that it was a tough call. It wasn't my sis's shout in the end, it was re the parade., but the rest of it was down to the big guns. The site where the Carnival Village is set up was under water - I almost couldn't drive the car past as the road was very deeply flooded and in fact they closed it off later and it was still closed when I drove home.

The Carnival Office was full of very stressed and disappointed people. THey have spent a year planning it and it must have been terrible to pull the plug. It was, however, the right decision. The parade would have been very dangerous - floats with people on in the rain and wind driving on flooded roads - not a good idea. Young children in shorts and t-shirts and big costumes in 5 degree temps and high winds and rain!? Not gonna happen - unless prepared for several cases of hypothermia!

With the park waterlogged and the ducks swimming where the main stage was... it was a done deal.

So, we had a meeting (with all the other section leaders) had a nice chat with some old familiar faces and some new ones too.. they had food brought in and I had my soup (hurrah for my flask! although I think it leaks..). By 10.30 it was all finished with for us, sis was to be interviewed by the radio and tv, and we had to leave. Her friend C suggested we go shopping for me to get a coat so I agreed and we headed into the Arndale Centre. Hardly any shops were open as it was still not the 11am Bank Hol hours! Debenhams was first - I bought a lush blue top in there - in a 14!! I tried it on and showed C and she was lovely - said it fitted perfectly so I got it. It's really similar to my red top = mesh overlay with sleeves so hides batwings and nasty belly bits!

Then we mooched around Monsoon - gorgeous dresses but all sleeveless and I don't wear dresses anyway! Then into Primark - fantastic! I bought a pair of shorts and a Jacket - windproof, waterfproof and breathable... only a tenner! I was so pleased! The shorts were £8 and I don't know if they'll fit, but if not I'll take them back to Northampton one day next week.

One of the guys had travelled down from Brum by coach this morning and when he went to go home he found all the coaches full, so I offered him a lift to MK coach stations as it's sort of on the way home (It was one route I could have taken) , as I drove up the M1 (nasty spray!!!) my mobby went and it was a chap I went out with WAY back at the start of the diet - the one who had no time to give a relationship... not sure if I mentioned him, probably did though,, lol... anyway... it was out of the blue and we chatted all the journey home! It was ace! He's still working too many hours and not doing anything other than working and seeing his kids.. no time for anyone in his life, lol.. I told him all about S and 'The Episode' and how things appear to be now.. he said he genuinely hoped all would work out for us. I thought that was nice of him.

He asked me to email him my photo as he couldn't picture what I would look like now, lol, so I did a couple of minutes ago.

Got home and rang S to let him know what was happening... got his voicemail so left a message (and added that we would have to sort out about the chicken korma - see, I haven't forgotten that, but I bet he has!)... got in, cooked my ostrich steak and made a salad. Ate it and promptly fell asleep in front of the telly for an hour!! Sent S a text just waffling as I usually do just before I nodded off.. lol.. will wait unti about 5 before sending another.. (got to pace them - I know he says he likes them, but I don't want to go mad!)

Just got an email from boss of Job 1 saying he will call me first thing tomorrow but he's clearly forgotten I have to drive Zoe to Hatfield in the morning so won't be in. He can call my mobile though now I have hands free!

So... the sleeping on the sofa has shown how tired I am (again) and I know that if I do get to see S with the Korma it will be a flying visit - I might even suggest that if he and little 'un are out and about they might like to collect it! That way he is in control of the whole situation... and it doesn't look pushy on my part!

Anyway, I also rang Ailsa and asked if she wanted me to call in and get my stuff and get weighed today - she's passing here later so said she will call me and let me know what time and then she can come here instead.

We agreed that if I was seeing S that I would go to hers tomorrow.

I haven't heard a thing from S since his call at 7.30 this morning so not sure what'll be happening.. I know that isn't significant though and that I may not hear until his lad is in bed again at 8 this evening! (But I'm going to text and suggest the korma gets picked up/collected before tea time or after bed time but that I need an early night so suggest the dropping in for a cup of tea/appleade idea that he mooted yesterday). Will remind him it was his idea too! lol)

Too sleepy to do any work so will order some more husks online and hope they arrive before I go a week on Weds!

When I left sis she was very upset about the cancellation and I really hope that she realises that people do understand but she is passionate about the whole thing and loves it all and appreciates all the hard work that the participants go to.. I do feel sad for her.

Right - off to the arcade once I have ordered these husks!

 

[IreneH]

It was probably a good thing it was cancelled and you still got to see your sister. The new clothes sound great. Take it gently and rest you have had a busy day today
irene xx

 

[FatFairNForty(ish)]

Thanks Irene.

Not doing anything BUT chilling out, lol.. dead boring! Might draw up a list of things to pack for hols.. lol...

Oh, I sent S a text asking what time he would like me to drop off the korma and have that drink he suggested.. lol.. subtle eh? Hee hee... he texted back that he will call me later and signed it xxx... (oh be still my beating heart,.. )

Just had email from B (ex who rang me) lol, simply said.. "WOW, wolf whistle"

Too funny... ah... mah jong is calling me again!

 

[kazbro]

woowoo
xxxx
must be love, love, love (sung in my bestest madness voice) lol

hey fff sounding very happy
looking as fab as ever
well done
kaz x