Blergh! - FatFairNForty(ish) - my diary

kazbro said:
wow jen
sounds such a lovely date
the places you went to were heaven by the sounds of it

they were - it was all very very lovely....

do you think you`ll go to amsterdam?

I dunno... I'd love to... argh!

he sounds real nice

he is


and i dont like to bring S up but he does sound more on track then he was
think you know where you stand with brown eyes where as S was a bit topsy turvy if ya get my drift

lol, I know!! I know!! I'm crap at this!! S is all over the place! Never know where I stand with him etc etc etc... I'm mad I tell ya! Totall loony tunes!

just glad you had fun and that you came back sounding happy :D

thank you, I did have fun and I am looking forward to seeing him again tomorrow and we chatted last night when I got home too (he asked me to call and let him know I'd got back safely as he knew I was really tired)

kaz
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think I need to see a phrenologist and have me bumps read! lol:rolleyes:
 
Hiya Jen darling

Blimey it's just taken me ages to catch up with your goings on lol.

My take on Browneyes is he's not for you. You know that yourself but for some reason you are trying to convince otherwise. Re the health problems - run for the hills FFS! lol. His over enthusiasm could be due to him running out of time on that front and knowing he needs someone to look after him.

You deserve someone who makes your heart flip and you're gorgeous enough inside and out to be fussy.

Sorry to be so direct my lovely but from what you say in your posts it's obvious.

Luv ya
 
Yep, I'm with Karen on this one, if he's not right for you, he's not right for you. You can't create a feeling that isn't there and you can't and shouldn't stay with someone because they're nice to you, you know already that'll just get on your nerves eventually. The spark needs to be there and it obviously isn't, plus he doesn't feel the same as you, he doesn't want to be just friends and obviously has feelings for you already, although you've been more than honest and upfront with him, would it be right to carry on seeing him longer term when you know it isn't going to go anywhere for you?

S still has your heart by the sounds of things and whilst he does, maybe there's no room for anyone else just now, maybe S needs to be resolved - one way or the other before you can think about being with anyone else.

A lot to think about Jennie, it's not an easy game this dating lark but you'll get there in the end and it's important that you make the right decisions for you.

At the end of the day though it's lovely to be admired and know that someone thinks you're the bees knees :)

xx
 
MadamDotty said:
At the end of the day though it's lovely to be admired and know that someone thinks you're the bees knees :)

xx
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Oh very well said Jan!!! Jen, it's all so new to you getting all this flattery and attention - and believe me there's loads more of it on it's way to you now you're a little stunner!! But you can't reciprocate on all of it!! lol lol :rolleyes:
 
Right, for once I am going to be sensible and have an early night... it's just gone 8pm and once I've done me diary I'm going to bed.

Weigh in was this afternoon and, I am overwhelmed to say... I lost 4.6lbs!!!!! I now weigh (drum roll if you please)... lol... 11 stone 13.5lbs!!

I cried on the way home in the car... mixture of all sorts of emotions... lol... and tiredness.

Also Ailsa says this makes my BMI 28.5 now and that is so close to goal. I think when I get weighed at Drs next week I will have done it! But I'm not starting maintenance until I get there on Ailsa's scales... :D She seems pleased with how I've done and I can't tell you how much her support has helped and she remains an inspiration as she is still a slender thing. :)

I know I am only JUST into the 11's but it's another 'first' for me and it is weird. Ailsa also measured me and I know I don't put my stats on here before but I really want to tonight because I haven't been measured in a while and was very shocked..

Waist: was 56" now 34.5"
Hips: were 64" now 42"
Bust: was 56" now 40.5"

In real terms that is a loss that I cannot even begin to try and calculate because
1) I'm too tired
2) I'm crap at maths

The other measurements are upper arms and thighs.. arms gone from 18" to 11.5" and thighs (yukky things) from 31.5" to 22"

When I get to goal I'm going to ask her to take photos for me... I'm not sure how I'll feel... but hopefully elated! lol

It's been a funny kinda day. Up and down. So... time for sleep, still to have a 3rd pack so will make a soup and neck that down and then zzzzzzz. :D

Browneyes rang earlier and we're both looking forward to bowling tomorrow night but I have to say... Karen and Jan... I think you're right...and thank you. :D xxxxxx
 
Super loss, and well done, in the 11'SSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
Hey Skinny Girl!!!

That is absoultely amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so so proud of you. Glad you took my post as it was intended, didn't want to seem harsh!!

Lots of luv,
 
OMG - That's absolutely fantastic - what a superstar you are :D
 
I think the call from S says it all, its that little skip in the heartbeat that shows it. I am getting this with P
 
FatFairNForty(ish) said:
Right, for once I am going to be sensible and have an early night... it's just gone 8pm and once I've done me diary I'm going to bed.

Weigh in was this afternoon and, I am overwhelmed to say... I lost 4.6lbs!!!!! I now weigh (drum roll if you please)... lol... 11 stone 13.5lbs!!

I cried on the way home in the car... mixture of all sorts of emotions... lol... and tiredness.

Also Ailsa says this makes my BMI 28.5 now and that is so close to goal. I think when I get weighed at Drs next week I will have done it! But I'm not starting maintenance until I get there on Ailsa's scales... :D She seems pleased with how I've done and I can't tell you how much her support has helped and she remains an inspiration as she is still a slender thing. :)

I know I am only JUST into the 11's but it's another 'first' for me and it is weird. Ailsa also measured me and I know I don't put my stats on here before but I really want to tonight because I haven't been measured in a while and was very shocked..

Waist: was 56" now 34.5"
Hips: were 64" now 42"
Bust: was 56" now 40.5"

In real terms that is a loss that I cannot even begin to try and calculate because
1) I'm too tired
2) I'm crap at maths

The other measurements are upper arms and thighs.. arms gone from 18" to 11.5" and thighs (yukky things) from 31.5" to 22"

When I get to goal I'm going to ask her to take photos for me... I'm not sure how I'll feel... but hopefully elated! lol

It's been a funny kinda day. Up and down. So... time for sleep, still to have a 3rd pack so will make a soup and neck that down and then zzzzzzz. :D

Browneyes rang earlier and we're both looking forward to bowling tomorrow night but I have to say... Karen and Jan... I think you're right...and thank you. :D xxxxxx
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You've done so well :D well done :hug99:

xxxxxxx
 
Hecky thumps, into the 11s.
Well done!!!
Those measurements are great too. You really, really have made a mindboggling change.

Re Browneyes; I agree with the others. A key line for me was when you said you "felt sick inside". I have had this feeling (with David the unreliable lawyer for example) and thought it was about my own fear of being treated well. I now realise that it was my wise gut saying, "Noooo!".

I think a bloke who is willing to completely submit themselves and do anything and everything for another person, whilst setting themselves aside, does set off alarm bells because in relationships we need to know the other person is fully there and able to assert their own wants and needs. Otherwise their words and deeds are a bit empty. I think a strong woman like you especially needs a man who is sure of themselves and able to assert themselves.

S seems like a good signpost of the kind of feeling you should have around a bloke. Just hope that he can become properly available soon- or that you meet someone who's able to make you feel similar. I'm sure you can.

You were brilliantly honest with Browneyes though. That would make Amsterdam okay...maybe, maybe....see what your wise gut has to say...

Admiring as ever

Kxx
 
Just wow Jennie.... you have done so amazingly well!!!

I'm green with envy (is that the right word??) ie wish it was me too but am soooo god damn thrilled for ya it warms the cockles of me heart :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

On the man front agree with the rest but do enjoy the now.... you WILL defo find mr right :bliss::bliss::bliss::bliss::bliss::bliss::bliss:

Just well done again!!

luv xxxxxx
 
lol, thanks all... :D

Finally went to bed around 10.30 pm (phone was ringing off the hook - daughters, music festival and browneyes (responding to a text)). Still, that was an early night for me and I slept like a log - ear plugs in situ meant no dog barking alarm calls either!

Woke up at 7am and am still tired but ok. Going to sit in the garden this afternoon and snooze.

I decided not to spend the weekend away with Browneyes, I just don't think it would be fair on either of us to be honest. Even though I know we would have a great time. It would be for different reasons. I texted him and told him so and gave him the option to not meet this evening for our bowling date. He rang me and said it was fine and that if I felt it was too soon then no problem... ever get the feeling that the message isn't sinking in? I've got to drop Zoe off tonight anyway and will meet him but not sure if we will get as far as bowling as I need to sit him down and do some more straight talking.

It would be too easy to go out with him for all the wrong reasons, well, actually, no, it would be, for me, very hard to go out with him for the wrong reasons. Money has never been an attraction for me. A great smile a good heart, fab dental hygiene and a sexy smell are more attractive to me! lol I was talking to a wonderful friend about it all last night and they remarked.. 'you could be happy with someone who was penniless if you both felt the same way about each other'... and I guess they're right.

I don't want a sugar daddy, I want a lover, a partner, someone fun, alive and vibrant and who would walk on hot coals for me just as I was walking on them towards them too...

Anyway... enough of all this dating nonsense!

Food wise I am planning on SSing all week - no meals out planned and a free weekend of nothingness so might just start preparing the downstairs spare rooms for my new job venture. I have the application form and will be sitting in the sun filling that in... fingers crossed it all goes well as I really think it could be a major change in my life and will rubber stamp my independence!

Really want to get to that BMI for next Thursday when at the Dr's because it will mean (hopefully by the Monday at Ailsa's) that I can start the CD stepped maintenance programme. Have read the book lots of times and itching to start.

Oh... my pushbike arrived! Did I say ? I got from Ebay and am going to attempt to build it later! lol Think the post office tried to deliver my trainers too (mega bargain on ebay) so will have to trot down there later. This is all a part of my hope to get fit and stay fit... am hoping that cycling will help tone up my horrendously saggy bum and do something miraculous to my thighs and legs too.. once I have my trainers I can head to the gym again too... only got a few sessions left there so may sell a pair of antique pine bedside cabinets to pay for gym membership... lol Well, I don't want them anymore and they were a wedding present from 'his' side and I have offered them to 'him' loads of times (last time was t'other week) and he has always declined.. so... just need to find someone who knows how to stick stuff on ebay for sale then I'll whack them on there! Bound to get a few quid for them... hopefully! lol Wonder if this might be the start of a really serious de-cluttering campaign!!

Heaven help me!! When am I going to find the time!! lol
 
KateF said:
Hecky thumps, into the 11s.
Well done!!!
Those measurements are great too. You really, really have made a mindboggling change.

Hee hee... I can't get my head round it ! Although mistake on the waist , was 53 to begin with...

Re Browneyes; I agree with the others. A key line for me was when you said you "felt sick inside". I have had this feeling (with David the unreliable lawyer for example) and thought it was about my own fear of being treated well. I now realise that it was my wise gut saying, "Noooo!".

I think a bloke who is willing to completely submit themselves and do anything and everything for another person, whilst setting themselves aside, does set off alarm bells because in relationships we need to know the other person is fully there and able to assert their own wants and needs. Otherwise their words and deeds are a bit empty. I think a strong woman like you especially needs a man who is sure of themselves and able to assert themselves.

You know what, I think you're right too.... thank goodness for good friends who give honest opinion!

S seems like a good signpost of the kind of feeling you should have around a bloke. Just hope that he can become properly available soon- or that you meet someone who's able to make you feel similar. I'm sure you can.

I do hope so.

You were brilliantly honest with Browneyes though. That would make Amsterdam okay...maybe, maybe....see what your wise gut has to say...

wise gut says no... initially it said maybe... but now its a definite no...

Admiring as ever

Kxx
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Mutual admiration my friend :)
 
oooh, Friday nights dancing man rang... asked when he could see me again! lol Told him possibly this Friday but if not then the 31st August is the next free Friday I have available to go dancing..lol... so.. it's a date! :D I like the idea of seeing him very occassionally for a nights dancing... and I'm sure it helps the weight too!! Must be sure to check with Zoe if she's likely to be at the next door club! lol That would be hilarious for me and mortifyingly embarassing for her! lol
 
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