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MadamDotty
Back again!
Hope you had a good time at the Bike Club tonight and your conversation (if you've had it yet) with Browneyes went ok - not an easy thing to do, but the kindest in the long run.
Take care hun
xxx
Take care hun
xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Oh my goodness, I am shaking.
I just got home from the Bike club (not in my leathers this week as no ride out - but watch this space next week!)... and whilst there Browneyes rang me... so I told him where I was and asked if I could call him when I got home as I wanted to talk to him. He asked me to text him when I got in, so, having got in 5 minutes ago, I did. He rang. I had all sorts of things ready to say in my head to him, but when it came to the crunch I simply said I had something to say to him and that it was that I couldn't see him again. He asked what he had done wrong and then started crying... I felt so mean... but I carried on.. told him it wasn't anything specific per se and that I simply didn't want the same things as he did from a relationship and that I couldn't help that I felt differently to him and that I wouldn't be seeing him again, he carried on crying and asked if there was anything he could do to change my mind and I said no. Wished him well. He asked me to let him know if I changed my mind and I promised him that I would but that I wouldn't be changing my mind. I told him to take care and then simply said goodbye.
I am shaking like a leaf but confess to punching the air because I wasn't long winded, I wasn't mean, I wasn't even remotely dishonest... well, I didn't list the reasons but there was no need to.. I felt a bit mean saying it and I did say to him that there was no easy way to say it so I would just say it straight... Oh Lord... I feel so relieved. I was dreading it, and dreading his reaction - and I'm sorry if it makes me a heartless cow, but I was irritated by his tears not sympathetic to them... how nasty am I !!???? I can't believe I felt that way towards someone who was so upset... but honestly, I just felt that it was more pressure to give in.
Oh my goodness... I am shaking like mad... going to have my muffin now then off to bed for a really good sleep!
Thanks for all your support ladies... I'm so glad I got it over with!
I just got home from the Bike club (not in my leathers this week as no ride out - but watch this space next week!)... and whilst there Browneyes rang me... so I told him where I was and asked if I could call him when I got home as I wanted to talk to him. He asked me to text him when I got in, so, having got in 5 minutes ago, I did. He rang. I had all sorts of things ready to say in my head to him, but when it came to the crunch I simply said I had something to say to him and that it was that I couldn't see him again. He asked what he had done wrong and then started crying... I felt so mean... but I carried on.. told him it wasn't anything specific per se and that I simply didn't want the same things as he did from a relationship and that I couldn't help that I felt differently to him and that I wouldn't be seeing him again, he carried on crying and asked if there was anything he could do to change my mind and I said no. Wished him well. He asked me to let him know if I changed my mind and I promised him that I would but that I wouldn't be changing my mind. I told him to take care and then simply said goodbye.
I am shaking like a leaf but confess to punching the air because I wasn't long winded, I wasn't mean, I wasn't even remotely dishonest... well, I didn't list the reasons but there was no need to.. I felt a bit mean saying it and I did say to him that there was no easy way to say it so I would just say it straight... Oh Lord... I feel so relieved. I was dreading it, and dreading his reaction - and I'm sorry if it makes me a heartless cow, but I was irritated by his tears not sympathetic to them... how nasty am I !!???? I can't believe I felt that way towards someone who was so upset... but honestly, I just felt that it was more pressure to give in.
Oh my goodness... I am shaking like mad... going to have my muffin now then off to bed for a really good sleep!
Thanks for all your support ladies... I'm so glad I got it over with!
pandora
finding my way again !
you know in the long run you have done the right thing, both for yourself & him.there was no point dragging it out "just to see" if you felt any different as this would have caused more hurt to him & angst to you.
glad you had a good time at your club & sorry sorry sorry about the weekend
xx
glad you had a good time at your club & sorry sorry sorry about the weekend
xx
RachelA
Silver Member
Hi Jenny, Well done on doing something that was obiously hard but you had to do it! You are in no way a heartless cow nor are you nasty as no one likes to do that and you werent horrible in the way you did it ( not that I thought you would be!).
You so did the right thing for you as dragging it out would have just made it harder for you and more hurtful for him.
WELL DONE!!!
MadamDotty
Back again!
Morning Jennie
Hope you're feeling better this morning. It's a horrible thing to do and it shows what a lovely person you are that you found it so hard to do, but it needed doing. Continuing with the relationship would have been unfair and even harder on Browneyes when you finished it later on down the line, you were honest and upfront and took no pleasure from it.
Deed done, draw a line under it, chalk it down to experience and look ahead to the next. But always remember how lovely Browneyes thought you were, well someone you feel that way about will also think it of you too - he's out there somewhere.
xxx
Hope you're feeling better this morning. It's a horrible thing to do and it shows what a lovely person you are that you found it so hard to do, but it needed doing. Continuing with the relationship would have been unfair and even harder on Browneyes when you finished it later on down the line, you were honest and upfront and took no pleasure from it.
Deed done, draw a line under it, chalk it down to experience and look ahead to the next. But always remember how lovely Browneyes thought you were, well someone you feel that way about will also think it of you too - he's out there somewhere.
xxx
Karen
Serial Foodie!
definately sounds like u did the right thing u deserve to be with someone who u feel a huge spark with....not someone who irritates u with everything they say. not to be mean about him but he just isnt for u and u were right to not pretend that he was. i hope u meet someone soon who makes u think "PHWOR!" and keeps u stimulated and interested xxx
u deserve to be with someone who u feel a huge spark with....not someone who irritates u with everything they say. not to be mean about him but he just isnt for u and u were right to not pretend that he was. i hope u meet someone soon who makes u think "PHWOR!" and keeps u stimulated and interested xxx
Summerskye
Gold Member
Hiya lovely
I've read all you've written about S and Browneyes, and the difficult decisions you've had to take - and I can only say "much respect to you, girlfriend"!
You've handled both situations with dignity and consideration for other peoples' feelings (well, in Browneyes case anyway - the other one doesn't deserve it!) and that's all anyone can do under those circumstances.
I think we could all do with taking a leaf out of Jennie's Book of Diplomacy at times
Love
I've read all you've written about S and Browneyes, and the difficult decisions you've had to take - and I can only say "much respect to you, girlfriend"!
You've handled both situations with dignity and consideration for other peoples' feelings (well, in Browneyes case anyway - the other one doesn't deserve it!) and that's all anyone can do under those circumstances.
I think we could all do with taking a leaf out of Jennie's Book of Diplomacy at times
Love
KateF
Silver Member
My thoughts too.
You've done just the right things and aren't a bit heartless.
You want someone who is available and balanced enough to be able to interact and communicate with you- the real you. Not their fears of what an intimate relationship might mean for their life (S) or their idealised imaginings of what a relationship could be with no reference to the other person's actual wants and needs (Browneyes).
You are bloomin brilliant at doing the stuff you'd need to have a fab relationship- communication, nurturing etc. Only thing you're lacking as far as I can see is the deep down confidence that you deserve it. YOU DO!!!
You've done just the right things and aren't a bit heartless.
You want someone who is available and balanced enough to be able to interact and communicate with you- the real you. Not their fears of what an intimate relationship might mean for their life (S) or their idealised imaginings of what a relationship could be with no reference to the other person's actual wants and needs (Browneyes).
You are bloomin brilliant at doing the stuff you'd need to have a fab relationship- communication, nurturing etc. Only thing you're lacking as far as I can see is the deep down confidence that you deserve it. YOU DO!!!
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Afternoon
Well, sun is shining and things look rosier than last night. I slept very well and am happy to say am feeling a lot brighter today.
Work was crazy this morning and I had lots of visitors and although not a lot was achieved in one sense, lots more was in others.
After work I walked into the town and posted some letters and just generally mooched around the shops. For the first time ever I actually really looked at the shops... i.e. the buildings, what was inside.. never realised how many pubs there are! lol Managed to stop myself going into any of the clothes/charity shops but did nip into Woolworths for a browse and the Evening Telegraph office for a jobs paper.
Once home I caught up with some emails and am in the middle of watching Oceans Eleven on telly but got bored and decided to come on here.. lol... think I might just do some washing as the sun probably will disappear at the weekend! No plans for the weekend now.. which is probably not a bad thing as it might make me chill out a bit and do some house stuff...
I got a call from my dancing man but told him I couldn't make it this weekend... which is true.. I can't - because I don't want to - still, not a lie... I can't because I'll be too tired! Still, it was nice of him to call again and ask, I reminded him that we had already arranged the 31st of August to go out clubbing and he said that was a long time to wait to see me again, bless. lol
Have decided to leave the dating site I met Browneyes on and go back to my favourite one ... Friends Reunited Dating... I have met some lovely people through that site, not least a great mate who is in the states now and a couple of ladies who responded to a posting on the diary section, one became a great friend and we've had girly weekends out together as a result! She sent me a recipe for the best curry I ever cooked - and, in fact, the ONLY curry I ever cooked entirely from scratch!
Am definitely having an early night tonight too.. oh, and my lovely bra lady rang to say that my new bra has arrived!!! (Only taken almost 3 months!!) So... she's bringing it to the house this evening and fingers crossed it will fit... I think it's a 34DD which is mad! I can't get my head round that at all! (no pun intended) as I have such memories of wearing 46DD for decades (no matter how tight and how much they hurt and gave me shoulder, neck and back ache!!) So, hope that it will be an 'uplifting' experience tonight! lol Hate my boobs... if I tell ya... I can fold them in half upwards!!! You get the picture!! Revolting things!! Blah!
Going to take the opportunity this weekend to do a mass cook=off and fill the freezer with home made meals for Zoe and for me in the new year! THis way I can monitor calories etc of everything.. and,,. I really miss cooking food! So,.. that's going to be a good thing to do... might defrost the freezer too... hmm.. I can see a list forming! lol
I DO need to sort out the garden so I can put up a tent for my mate to sleep in next weekend - she is highly allergic to animal fur but wants to stay here so we agreed that this was a good compromise.. lol... might join her out there and have a right girly giggle in the back garden! LMAO OMG - I can just imagine the neighbours! ROFL Must try and find all the tent pegs etc... hmm..... will add that to my list too! lol
As for now, am off to post my neice's birthday card (going to walk the dog into town to do that) and then when I get back, am going to TRY and assemble my push bike!
ohhh, did I say... my trainers arrived yesterday! I love them...they retail at £120+ and I got them for £30 off Ebay!! (Brand new too!) So am VERY pleased
SSing 100% again today and hoping to continue the same for the weekend... but I have given myself permission to AAM if I want to and there is salad and chicken in the fridge at the ready if I get the urge! lol
I wish I could just get to meet that flaming consultant, get an idea of time scales, and get stuck into beginning the maintenance plan... oh well... not long now I guess...
As for men.. am still very relieved about Browneyes and not upset at how it ended, as for S.. haven't heard a thing and don't expect to now.
Have had a lot of 'interest' on the dating site but to be honest I'm not keen on any of them and have written very polite 'no thank yous' to them all thus far. There is one chap who is particularly dishy though, lol, shame he lives too far away ... ah well... no compromising ... I'm sticking to my guns now.. no-one who isn't a bazillian % 'free' and no-one who works 24/7, no kids... no screwy ex, lol, I put on my profile... "Sulkers, liars, cheats, sleazebags, big babies, bullies, perverts, hypochondriacs, workaholics, chauvenist pigs or mummies boys need not apply! " It seems to have sifted out some... lol Zoe still thinks I sound dead stroppy on my profile but I don't care... no point letting some poor sod think I'm a docile wee timidy thing..
and then whammo when we meet!! lol
You know what... I'm looking forward to the weekend... whilst it isn't what was originally planned it will still be lovely and I will enjoy it, whatever I do., and I shall be thinking of my gorgeous mates and looking forward to seeing them again very soon
Well, sun is shining and things look rosier than last night. I slept very well and am happy to say am feeling a lot brighter today.
Work was crazy this morning and I had lots of visitors and although not a lot was achieved in one sense, lots more was in others.
After work I walked into the town and posted some letters and just generally mooched around the shops. For the first time ever I actually really looked at the shops... i.e. the buildings, what was inside.. never realised how many pubs there are! lol Managed to stop myself going into any of the clothes/charity shops but did nip into Woolworths for a browse and the Evening Telegraph office for a jobs paper.
Once home I caught up with some emails and am in the middle of watching Oceans Eleven on telly but got bored and decided to come on here.. lol... think I might just do some washing as the sun probably will disappear at the weekend! No plans for the weekend now.. which is probably not a bad thing as it might make me chill out a bit and do some house stuff...
I got a call from my dancing man but told him I couldn't make it this weekend... which is true.. I can't - because I don't want to - still, not a lie... I can't because I'll be too tired!
Still, it was nice of him to call again and ask, I reminded him that we had already arranged the 31st of August to go out clubbing and he said that was a long time to wait to see me again, bless. lol Have decided to leave the dating site I met Browneyes on and go back to my favourite one ... Friends Reunited Dating... I have met some lovely people through that site, not least a great mate who is in the states now and a couple of ladies who responded to a posting on the diary section, one became a great friend and we've had girly weekends out together as a result! She sent me a recipe for the best curry I ever cooked - and, in fact, the ONLY curry I ever cooked entirely from scratch!
Am definitely having an early night tonight too.. oh, and my lovely bra lady rang to say that my new bra has arrived!!! (Only taken almost 3 months!!) So... she's bringing it to the house this evening and fingers crossed it will fit... I think it's a 34DD which is mad! I can't get my head round that at all! (no pun intended) as I have such memories of wearing 46DD for decades (no matter how tight and how much they hurt and gave me shoulder, neck and back ache!!) So, hope that it will be an 'uplifting' experience tonight! lol Hate my boobs... if I tell ya... I can fold them in half upwards!!! You get the picture!! Revolting things!! Blah!
Going to take the opportunity this weekend to do a mass cook=off and fill the freezer with home made meals for Zoe and for me in the new year! THis way I can monitor calories etc of everything.. and,,. I really miss cooking food! So,.. that's going to be a good thing to do... might defrost the freezer too... hmm.. I can see a list forming! lol
I DO need to sort out the garden so I can put up a tent for my mate to sleep in next weekend - she is highly allergic to animal fur but wants to stay here so we agreed that this was a good compromise.. lol... might join her out there and have a right girly giggle in the back garden! LMAO OMG - I can just imagine the neighbours! ROFL Must try and find all the tent pegs etc... hmm..... will add that to my list too! lol
As for now, am off to post my neice's birthday card (going to walk the dog into town to do that) and then when I get back, am going to TRY and assemble my push bike!
ohhh, did I say... my trainers arrived yesterday! I love them...they retail at £120+ and I got them for £30 off Ebay!! (Brand new too!) So am VERY pleased
SSing 100% again today and hoping to continue the same for the weekend... but I have given myself permission to AAM if I want to and there is salad and chicken in the fridge at the ready if I get the urge! lol
I wish I could just get to meet that flaming consultant, get an idea of time scales, and get stuck into beginning the maintenance plan... oh well... not long now I guess...
As for men.. am still very relieved about Browneyes and not upset at how it ended, as for S.. haven't heard a thing and don't expect to now.
Have had a lot of 'interest' on the dating site but to be honest I'm not keen on any of them and have written very polite 'no thank yous' to them all thus far. There is one chap who is particularly dishy though, lol, shame he lives too far away ... ah well... no compromising ... I'm sticking to my guns now.. no-one who isn't a bazillian % 'free' and no-one who works 24/7, no kids... no screwy ex, lol, I put on my profile... "Sulkers, liars, cheats, sleazebags, big babies, bullies, perverts, hypochondriacs, workaholics, chauvenist pigs or mummies boys need not apply! " It seems to have sifted out some... lol Zoe still thinks I sound dead stroppy on my profile but I don't care... no point letting some poor sod think I'm a docile wee timidy thing..
and then whammo when we meet!! lol You know what... I'm looking forward to the weekend... whilst it isn't what was originally planned it will still be lovely and I will enjoy it, whatever I do., and I shall be thinking of my gorgeous mates and looking forward to seeing them again very soon
Summerskye
Gold Member
"Sulkers, liars, cheats, sleazebags, big babies, bullies, perverts, hypochondriacs, workaholics, chauvenist pigs or mummies boys need not apply! "
You know what... I'm looking forward to the weekend... whilst it isn't what was originally planned it will still be lovely and I will enjoy it, whatever I do., and I shall be thinking of my gorgeous mates and looking forward to seeing them again very soon
Hell's teeth! Well, that takes care of 98% of the male population then! (The remaining 2% are gay of course!
)Have a wonderful weekend - whatever it is you do!
Brum, Brum here we come!
MadamDotty
Back again!
Hell's teeth! Well, that takes care of 98% of the male population then! (The remaining 2% are gay of course!
Have a wonderful weekend - whatever it is you do!
Brum, Brum here we come!
LOL Sharon you beat me to it
Have a great weekend Jennie
xxxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
lol, well... I can scarcely believe the turn of events!!
It's 11.30pm and I have just got home from the most unexpectedly ace night out! lol
Earlier this evening I was online browsing.. as you do... and I was replying to a message from a chap who, when I last joined Friends reunited Dating back in April, had messaged me the day after I had met S. I'd told him back then that I had met someone so didn't contact him again... anyway... he messaged me t'other day (not remembering me from last time at all) and we exchanged messages to and fro.. and got talking about motorbikes... and he said he had his out ready for a ride tonight and was I up for going out for a rip... lol... I used to call it going out for a blat... so I said yeah, why not! lol So... me lurvely leathers and Guinness T-shirt and white cardi on... and off I trotted to meet him at the junction of a main road (can't drive in me bike boots and didn't want him to know where I live.. lol). Well.. I have to say, it was fantastic! We went for a ride out around the Northants and Beds countryside as the sun was setting.. and it was brilliant! I felt nice and safe and it was really funny to meet someone with a crash helmet on... lmao (although I had seen his photo).
We didn't go out until gone 8 so it really was very spur of the moment!!
We chatted now and again on the ride (difficult at speed with helmets on and visors down..) we went through Catworth and I told him that The Racehorse was a fab restaurant... lol... told him I was a picky eater though as on a diet.. and he was incredulous.. lol... he yelled back (you have to yell on a bike)... that there was nothing of me! lol I did giggle.
We rode for over and hour, lanes and bends and a good blat along the main roads... it was brilliant!! We finally stopped at one of the pubs in my town and sat and talked,. and talked.. and talked... lol I'm going to call him Bikeman for now... lol.. but he does have a car too. We laughed lots and he was a bit embarassed as, because it had all been so spontaneous he had come to pick me up straight from his mates house where he had gone straight from work so hadn't shaved... lol I didn't care - I told him I hadn't either! lmao
The evening vanished... and suddenly it was cold and time to go, especially as we both have work in the morning and he had a daytime visor on his helmet which makes night riding dodgy. He was going to drop me where he'd picked my up but I got him to drop me outside my house. I heard him say 'bloody hell' when I told him it was mine.. lol... got the impression he was impressed.. lmao, which makes me laugh as it's just an ordinary house.. and my home... but then, I love it! lol
He asked if I'd like to go out tomorrow night, I said yes, that would be great! So.. he said that as he had chosen where to go this evening, tomorrow would be my choice... would I like to go to the pictures... lol.. I'm laughing because he then said he hadn't seen Pirates of the Caribbean 3 yet, and when I said it lasts 3 hours, he laughed and said.. can you keep quiet for that long... Methinks he has me sussed! lol
It's 11.30pm and I have just got home from the most unexpectedly ace night out! lol
Earlier this evening I was online browsing.. as you do... and I was replying to a message from a chap who, when I last joined Friends reunited Dating back in April, had messaged me the day after I had met S. I'd told him back then that I had met someone so didn't contact him again... anyway... he messaged me t'other day (not remembering me from last time at all) and we exchanged messages to and fro.. and got talking about motorbikes... and he said he had his out ready for a ride tonight and was I up for going out for a rip... lol... I used to call it going out for a blat... so I said yeah, why not! lol So... me lurvely leathers and Guinness T-shirt and white cardi on... and off I trotted to meet him at the junction of a main road (can't drive in me bike boots and didn't want him to know where I live.. lol). Well.. I have to say, it was fantastic! We went for a ride out around the Northants and Beds countryside as the sun was setting.. and it was brilliant! I felt nice and safe and it was really funny to meet someone with a crash helmet on... lmao (although I had seen his photo).
We didn't go out until gone 8 so it really was very spur of the moment!!
We chatted now and again on the ride (difficult at speed with helmets on and visors down..) we went through Catworth and I told him that The Racehorse was a fab restaurant... lol... told him I was a picky eater though as on a diet.. and he was incredulous.. lol... he yelled back (you have to yell on a bike)... that there was nothing of me! lol I did giggle.
We rode for over and hour, lanes and bends and a good blat along the main roads... it was brilliant!! We finally stopped at one of the pubs in my town and sat and talked,. and talked.. and talked... lol I'm going to call him Bikeman for now... lol.. but he does have a car too. We laughed lots and he was a bit embarassed as, because it had all been so spontaneous he had come to pick me up straight from his mates house where he had gone straight from work so hadn't shaved... lol I didn't care - I told him I hadn't either! lmao
The evening vanished... and suddenly it was cold and time to go, especially as we both have work in the morning and he had a daytime visor on his helmet which makes night riding dodgy. He was going to drop me where he'd picked my up but I got him to drop me outside my house. I heard him say 'bloody hell' when I told him it was mine.. lol... got the impression he was impressed.. lmao, which makes me laugh as it's just an ordinary house.. and my home... but then, I love it! lol
He asked if I'd like to go out tomorrow night, I said yes, that would be great! So.. he said that as he had chosen where to go this evening, tomorrow would be my choice... would I like to go to the pictures... lol.. I'm laughing because he then said he hadn't seen Pirates of the Caribbean 3 yet, and when I said it lasts 3 hours, he laughed and said.. can you keep quiet for that long...
Methinks he has me sussed! lol
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Summerskye
Gold Member
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
So, it was agreed, he's picking me up (in his car) tomorrow at 7pm and we are heading for the pics and, if I want, a meal too - his treat. (I told him all about the diet etc and how picky I am ... lol.. but I know it'll be fine as I know exactly where we can go and that they will be very obliging! lol)
He said that tomorrow he will shave, lol, so I said me too!!! lol Just got a text from him saying he got home ok and thanks for a great evening and he's looking forward to tomorrow. I am too. Big surprise though... wasn't expecting this! lol
AND... would you believe... S rang me!!!!! JUST as I was leaving the house... lol... told him I was off out on a date and he said he would call me over the weekend... I told him I had rejoined the dating site and that I had done so because I'd got fed up of waiting around for him to realise that I'm the best thing that could ever happen to him and that one day it'll dawn on him and he'll come and get me! LMAO You should have heard him,... lol... he was stunned.. and simply said "I love your confidence" lol swiftly followed by "but you're better off without me" ... I didn't disagree... lol told him about the bowling disaster (briefly) and found myself laughing as I recounted it to him.. lol... he asked me how come I have a knack of making him feel like he's behaved like a complete A-hole... and I said... perhaps because you have!!!
Perhaps it was because I sent him an email telling him all my news and that I felt he was being an ostrich about me and that a 15 second text to say "sorry jennie, can't make it this week will catch up when back" and then actually DO so would be how true friends would be toward one another.. lol.. glad he got the message!
Bikerman has potential... will wait though and see how it goes... obviously! Lots of laughter though.. always a good sign... and I have to say... there is definitely a spark there! (Although absolutely NO contact has been made).
Oh, and diet wise .... SS'd 100% today and feeling fantastic!
He said that tomorrow he will shave, lol, so I said me too!!! lol Just got a text from him saying he got home ok and thanks for a great evening and he's looking forward to tomorrow. I am too. Big surprise though... wasn't expecting this! lol
AND... would you believe... S rang me!!!!! JUST as I was leaving the house... lol... told him I was off out on a date and he said he would call me over the weekend... I told him I had rejoined the dating site and that I had done so because I'd got fed up of waiting around for him to realise that I'm the best thing that could ever happen to him and that one day it'll dawn on him and he'll come and get me! LMAO You should have heard him,... lol... he was stunned.. and simply said "I love your confidence" lol swiftly followed by "but you're better off without me" ... I didn't disagree... lol told him about the bowling disaster (briefly) and found myself laughing as I recounted it to him.. lol... he asked me how come I have a knack of making him feel like he's behaved like a complete A-hole... and I said... perhaps because you have!!!
Perhaps it was because I sent him an email telling him all my news and that I felt he was being an ostrich about me and that a 15 second text to say "sorry jennie, can't make it this week will catch up when back" and then actually DO so would be how true friends would be toward one another.. lol.. glad he got the message!
Bikerman has potential... will wait though and see how it goes... obviously! Lots of laughter though.. always a good sign... and I have to say... there is definitely a spark there! (Although absolutely NO contact has been made).
Oh, and diet wise .... SS'd 100% today and feeling fantastic!
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