Blergh! - FatFairNForty(ish) - my diary

Bless you.

By coincidence I also used the phrase "crap, crap, crap" in my last post. It's good to get anger out!

You're doing so bloomin brilliantly to have resisted that stew after the day you've had.

Your Eric sounds lovely but it was understandingly frustrating that he couldn't be there as much as you'd want him to be- at least he will be soon-I don't really hear from you a great want to put him on hold.

boo re the budlea- I wonder if hopefully the bloke could replant/replace it though? He should.

I hope you're having a nice muffin,. relax and sleep, and now you've got all that out of the system, ready to wake up to a brand new day!
 
Aww sorry you've had a rubbish day, but hey things can only get better! Tomorrow is a new fresh day and there were actually lots of positives in your diary today.

You wanted the casserole but you didn't eat it - you are very strong.

Zoe loved her lampshade - you have great taste and are in tune with your daughter.

Your course was good and interesting and you felt you belonged - you are valuing yourself.

You went to the gym - great step to a healthier lifestyle and better still they didn't grab your money but saved you loads by suggesting the GP referral.........

There were more positives but you've probably nodded off by now with my rambling.

Hugs
 
well... things have gone from bad to worse - I booked to go to the newcastle meet and totally and utterly c**ked it right up! Think I'm out of pocket to the tune of about £56 and not sure I'm even booked any more! Will find out in the morning - ended up driving like a mad woman up to my nearest travellodge just so I could speak to a human being!!! Grrrr..

Thanks for your lovely words though ... um karen - grouchbags? hmmm... you might have a point!

Thanks again. Should've gone to bed hours ago but am so uptight now! Stupid woman! I'm never going to book online late at night ever ever ever again! I thought I got it all sussed too... what a plonker!

Oh well... I have to call them in the morning to see what can be done -if anything!!!! I feel so thick right now! Thick and Tired!! ;) g'night all (again) x
 
Stop stropping!

Right Missus,
Stop stropping - you are doing brilliantly on CD, you resisted a hard temptation yesterday and you've made a move towards getting fitter. So - stop and think about your achievements and LIGHTEN UP (or I shall be sitting a long way from you in the lounge at Jury's Hotel tomorrow:D )

As for your buddleia - well it's probably not dead - it should be pruned back by about 30% before winter and then hard pruned (less than a foot from ground) in March. Having said that I got a bit carried away cutting mine back a couple of Novembers ago and decimated it, but it was back, bigger and bushier, attracting loads of butterflies the following summer - so paniceth not - and don't upset your gardener - they are so hard to come by!

Chill out, chin up and see you tomorrow:p

A
xxxx:D

At least you are not getting up at 5am each morning in order to get to a brain bending training course in Slough - well at the risk of upsetting the locals in both towns - it makes Corby seem posh!
 
As for your buddleia - well it's probably not dead - it should be pruned back by about 30% before winter and then hard pruned (less than a foot from ground) in March. Having said that I got a bit carried away cutting mine back a couple of Novembers ago and decimated it, but it was back, bigger and bushier, attracting loads of butterflies the following summer - so paniceth not - and don't upset your gardener - they are so hard to come by!

Chill out, chin up and see you tomorrow:p

A
xxxx:D

At least you are not getting up at 5am each morning in order to get to a brain bending training course in Slough - well at the risk of upsetting the locals in both towns - it makes Corby seem posh!

The Buddleia is reduced to a stump of about 2inches - I spoke to my gardner chappie and he was really apologetic and had misunderstood what I had wanted so we both agreed that we will have a chat about what we might be able to put in its place...

I am very glad not to be doing that yukky Slough run of yours!! (understand entirely what you mean about Corby though... hee hee hee)

And ok... will TRY to stop stropping (no promises mind!) - but t'aint easy when all you get is some stupid automated answer service from Travellodge - can't actually talk to a human being at all!! Madness!!

Thanks for the telling-off too... you're right... so... I shall see you tomorrow afternoon at Jury's! (Will leave really early coz I always get lost whenever I go anywhere! lol)

Really looking forward to a night away in a bed made by someone else...lol Thinking about packing me leccy blanky... (hmmm, think there may be an unhealthy relationship forming here mebbe....):rolleyes: :eek:
 
Right - Travelodge came up trumps - because I accidentally cancelled the room within a minute of booking it they are giving me a refund! So I rebooked it and will never, ever, ever book online late at night again - t'was MOST embarassing! Glad it's all sorted now though. Am off to the shops to see if I can find anything even remotely nice to wear for tomorrow! Am really nervous but excited too! Will write more later (not a lot to say at the moment - unusual for me I know!) Not heard a dicky bird from "Eric". Not going to bother texting him until this afternoon sometime... don't think he will care either way anyway! Ho hum! Onward and upward! (Might tootle down to the wine bar tonight on me tod... dunno though.. might just potter around the house.. yeah... get an early(ish) night eh? lol.. )
 
Hi Jennie
Just to let you know I got the property supplement today.. thanx for that :)

Hope ur friday proves a damn site better than ur Thursday!!!!

Not heard anything re the job.. but going to have a browse at houses now :)
 
Friday night - heading off now for my early night. :eek: :D

It's been a fairly good day I guess... work was ok but I didn't get everything done that I should have:eek: , but it only means that people will get their post on Tuesday instead of Monday so it's not so bad! :rolleyes:

After work I went off in search of something nice to wear... ended up in the only shop I can buy clothes in (Yours) and tried on a top which looked rank, and a dress! :eek: I know - I can't believe I even tried it on! I haven't worn a dress since my last wedding day (Lordy, how Elizabeth Taylor does THAT sound! )... anyway,, this is a petrol blue dress and was lovely, but it was sleeveless - WHY do they design sleeveless dresses for fat women?? Even some dainty sheer sleeves are better than sleeveless for goodness sake!

Anyway, it was a size 26, now, I KNOW that is still HUGE, but I can't actually remember the last time I could fit into a 26... so I wasn't convinced it would go on, but the ladies in the shop ganged up on me (they know me well!) and I gave in and tried it on. Well, despite not matching my ankle socks and hiker boots.. lol... it actually was a very good fit... and, I thought, flattering too - apart from clinging to my mega blubbery belly - I began to wish I had bought those maxi-control sloggi knickers that I saw at Evans yesterday... I think if I'd been wearing them I would have bought the darn dress!

I actually opened the changing room door and showed them it on me... they were so kind and said it looked fab.. well, they are sales people after all! lol I did feel very feminine in it though and was sorely tempted! I tried on a shrug over the top of it and tried to picture it with hair up and nice earrings and what pass for my nice shoes... yeah, I could pass ok in that for a posh do with a blokey... so I bought the shrug and told them that when I have lost some more weight I will buy the size 24! I have to say, I've NEVER wanted to buy a dress before.. but this one I REALLY liked... I might have to nip back there next week and get it in a 24 and hang it on the outside of my wardrobe until Christmas and then just find somewhere to go to wear it! lol

Might save it for the Newcastle meeting!! Now - there's an idea!! hmmm... might ask Zoe to buy it me for Chrimbo! I really do like it... lol.. here's a piccie of it......

I am SO tempted! It really did fit nice too... would have to get a new bra though or it would show at the back as it is a fairly deep V at the back... I just really like it! Hmmm....

Anyway.... I left with the shrug and knowing what I will wear tomorrow so it's ok.

I am absolutely crap at parking my car though - how long IS it going to take to get used to the length of it!?!?! (I struggled to get it into a massive gap!!) :eek: :rolleyes:

When I got home Zoe told me that the leccy had run out and the gas was low too so it was straight back out the door for me! That all done and dusted and I cleared the car out so I can sort out cds to keep copies of to play on all these adventures I'll be going on!! (WeMitts meet this weekend... Newcastle voddy trip... gig next Thursday... gig next Saturday... ) Thought I would try and be organised for a change.. lol

Also - now, this IS a bit, umm.. well to be frank, it's unpleasant... I have been having psylium husks every day due to being bunged up... and today they had an impact and boy was my poo stinky!! I mean, I KNOW poo IS stinky, but this,... OH MY! THIS was rank!!! Made me feel queasy!! Yerrk... I'm assuming it's coz it was laying in wait wherever it lays in wait, for a few days and had chance to fester! :rolleyes: :eek: Whatever, it was absolutely vile!! I am definitely going to drink more water as I think that might be a contributory factor! Breath is rancid too! (Must have loads of gum to hand this weekend!!)..

Texted "Eric" to see how his daughter did on her 11+ (didn't even know this still existed but didn't like to say as much!)... I hadn't heard from him all day... :mad: anyway - she failed... and that was all he said.. I replied that if she did her best then it was well done her in any case... and that I hoped she wasn't too disappointed or upset.. I've not heard back from him, and that was hours and hours ago. Ah well... hey ho etc etc etc... He did say that he might like to come to the gig with me on next Saturday but it clashes with a party he's been invited to.. so my guess is he will blow me out again... if so then it will be at least 2 weeks until we meet again as I am NOT going down there again. I AM NOT! (If I even hint that I will, PLEASE PLEASE, try and persuade me not to!! It is too one-sided!!)... so.. that will be mid December and no way will he drive up to see me so close to Chrimbo (I don't think anyway - but hell, I have NO idea what to make of him any more!!). I'm not going to contact him again now. He can do it ALL! I'm not feeding his damn ego by chasing him - he ain't all that!! (well, he is , but you know... if I try hard enough I might convince myself I don't care... lol)

Zoe has gone to her boyfriends so I shan't see her now until Sunday sometime.. I have a feeling I'll be going to bed when I get home! lol Then it's quiz night again at that pub with the gobby mare in! lol.. Oh, and Lucy's going to see what her local centre are doing for New Years Eve - we're definitely going to go somewhere together for NYE... I really don't care where as I will be driving so it makes no odds how local or distant it is! lol It will be the first NYE in about 14 years that I will have actually gone out!!!! Sad eh? lol

So, me, the dog and the cat and the radio are having a chilled out evening!

I'm considering going upstairs to pack but first had better dust off the iron and see if I can recall how it works as the jeans for Sat night are looking very creased! Might even do some more washing for Zoe (she dragged down enough washing to keep a workhouse busy for a month t'other day!!)... oh, and get this... last night she stood in the kitchen and asked me why she had no clean undies or socks!!! LOLOLOL I asked her if they were in the wash and she said, of course they are! So I asked if she had sorted them out and put them in the machine or if they were somewhere in the mountain!? ;)

She conceded, sorted them out and shoved them in for a wash... simple innit - dirty clothes into washing machine = clean clothes! That girl ! lol I have done about 4 loads so far and still the mountain stands tall! lol Her room looks fab though! lol :D ;)


Made myself some bouillon a husky choc mint muffin and 2 pints of water. Feel full even now and it's been almost 4 hours! So I still have to have my crisps and another muffin before bedtime! Think I'll do that in a moment - will also make some crisps tomorrow to take with me... and perhaps a muffin or 2 as well.. plus bars.. not going to have more than my 3 a day, just like to have choices even if I am away!

Must remember to take box of clothes to sally army too... or case won't fit in the boot! Zoe had a clear out and is giving away her jackets and the warmest white coat in the world! Fur trim etc.. she used to love it! Now she loves the one I gave her for her 18th.. its a "Bench" one... lol I have no idea where she gets her designer label gene from but t'aint me! lol Still... she's happy and it wasn't too bad!

MUST also remember to take perfectly clear and water with me to put in hotel too... and me book, phone charger... toiletries...knickers...socks... etc etc....
Right... off now... catch you all another time.... xxxx
 
What a trip!!!!

Well, it's 3.50pm on Sunday afternoon and I am absolutely cream-crackered but have the biggest grin! lol What a fabulous weekend....

Yesterday began 2 hours later than I had planned (didn't get out of my lovely warm bed!).. and then ensued a manic dash through my list of things to do before heading off to Birmingham and the WeMitt meet...

I had to get the house cleared up a bit, more washing in the dryer and in the machine, loaded dishwasher, packed case, ironed :eek: jeans, dashed out to pick up Zoe from her fella's place (it was heaving down with rain, blowing a hooley and lightening!), got cash out from the one and only cashpoint is my town!, dropped off stuff at Sally Army shop, dashed off to Higham Ferrers to the Farmers Market and bought a couple of rabbit pies for Sarah when she comes home for Chrimbo (I promised I would and I don't know when next one is!)... also bought a 3litre box of apple juice for Zoe (there is a supplier there from Ely and he sells the most delicious apple juice in so many varieties! Zoe's favourite is Bramley Cox, I like the one with ginger in.. but that'll be next year now!)... also hot-footed it to the stationers and bought my diary for next year and a date stamp for work...into the CoOp next door and grabbed some water for the weekend.. struggled back to the car with everything and then quick drive home (via McDonalds for Zoe - who when I asked her to let me sniff her fries, diligently held one under my nose... she told me she was so proud of me for still sticking to it and told me that I will be a right skinny bint soon! lol - bless her, she makes me smile)

Home and loaded the case into the car, grabbed Zoe's hair straighteners, last minute panic to copy cds to put in car, wrote a thank you note to chap who sent me his ticket to the gig Thursday, also to my mum and sis to thank them for my birthday prezzies,... put iron etc away... made muffin and crisps to take with me, and bouillon is packed too!

I sat with Zoe and asked her what to do at the nightclub - she just said, mum.. it's not about who looks the best or is the slimmest, it's just about getting out there and having a laugh! As I went to drive off I said to her that I couldn't believe I was going , she laughed and said she could! lol (I also had my instructions to call her when I was leaving to come home as she wanted time to clear up!)... the house was pretty tidy so I wondered what she had in mind!

The journey was great! No traffic problems on the A14 nor the M6. I had a bit of a panic when I got off the M6 but managed to find the hotel pretty easily (thanks to maps and ability to look at map whilst driving, watching the road, lights and obscure road signs!!). Felt very nervous and excited as I parked in the hotel carpark and made my way in!

The hotel was Jury's Inn, Birmingham and was lovely! I booked in and went up to my room - top floor! (16th) She told me that there were hen and stag parties on the lower floors - lol I was more than happy and went up to my room... I was so thrilled when I opened the door - it was a lovely room and the view was of the canal and also Birmingham itself and off into the distance was countryside - it was wonderful!

I unpacked, made use of the facilities, drank a litre of water , brushed my hair, took a deep breath and prepared to go and meet everyone!!

When I got down to the lounge I spotted Ailsa and Ann and Irene and Cat. I introduced myself to everyone and sat down for what turned out to be a 4 hour chat! The time flew by! Mary came next, then Michelle and Mandy and finally Gill (Cah Ching)... we were yabbering away from Britain! Ailsa and Ann put on a pair of Ailsa's old size 30 trousers (1 person in each leg) did them up and did a twirl!

It was an incredibly sobering sight.. having only just this month hung up my own size 30's I felt a mixture of absolute horrified embarassment, shame and insecurity (my issues entirely) and absolute and sheer joy for their success! They both are stunners! Ailsa looked amazing in her size 10 jeans, boots, pink sparkly blouse and blue/white jacket... she really looked fantastic! Ann looked so elegant - in a green dotty top and black skirt and jacket and the most sparkly green bracelet! What an inspiring pair! Proof positive that if you stick to this damn diet you CAN lose massive amounts of weight and in a relatively short period of time too!! When Mary arrived - what a lovely person, very petite and also having lost a monumental amount of weight! Between the 3 of them they had lost a staggering 35+stone!!!!!

Ann and Mary had brought with them their weight loss charts and before photos... incredible! The three of them, well, you would NEVER guess any of them had once had a weight problem!! Amazing. THEN Mandy and Mich arrived... well... Mandy is tall, incredibly slim with the most fantastic long hair! She struck an impressive figure and with her tatoos was a real stunner. Mich is so beautiful... and looked great in her brown flowing top and jeans and boots... I just can't get over how good they all looked!!

Well... Cah ching arrived and boy, is she a star! She has such a great attitude to life and we had quite a discussion about the events of late on here and in life in general! She has a dazzling smile and a personality to match!

Irene is simply one of the loveliest people I have ever met in my life... a gentle, caring soul who is simply lovely! Cat (her daughter) reminds me so much of my Sarah.. same age, same youthful confidence :D Such a great girl!

We all just hit it off immediately! We agreed to part so that those who wanted to could go and have a munch and others could prepare for the evening - I was one of the latter having already nipped up to my room for a mug of hot bouillon and my crisps... and I started to prepare for an evening in a night club! I was very nervous - I haven't been in a night club in over 10 years.. in fact probably closer to 12 or 13! I got ready, straightened my hair (which took an hour!!) and then got a text from Ailsa to say they (her and Ann) were still in the cafe next door and to meet in the foyer as they were off home soon...

I ummed and ahhed about whether to wear my coat or not...so I did.. I was feeling very cold.. and got the lift down to the foyer...

I couldn't see any of the gang there so loitered a bit for a while and was soon joined by Mary - she looked lovely... her make up was incredible! (I had put on a teeny bit of eyeshadow and mascara - not one for wearing the stuff normally as pants at putting it on! lol)... and we waited for the others... soon we were joined by Ann, Irene, Ailsa and Cat... then Gill, then Mich and Mandy. Everyone looked so glamourous! Mandy in particular looked incredible! She is very tall and slim, with hair that is so long it must be down at least to her waist.. she was wearing a top that showed her fab figure off perfectly and her tatoos too... stunning pictures on her back and on both arms.. very talented tatooist who did those! Everyone looked fab and Cat and Irene nipped up to their room to change and so, once assembled we headed off to Flares!

Well... I can't begin to know how to describe the place! It was a total throwback to the 70's!! It was great! They wanted £1.50 to hang your coat up so, being the tightwad I am, I hopped back across the road and put my coat in my room! lol Well... ;) Mary did the same! We both froze on the way back though! lol The music was fantastic - all 70's and I sang along to them all and simply couldn't keep still all night! When they opened up the upstairs dance floors we headed up there and found a seating area by the bar and a dance floor that was empty! So... we took to the dance floor and that, really, was where we all stayed, on and off , all night! I have to confess... it was a real eye-opener for me!! I haven't been to a night club in SO long!!

There were so many people there - women dressed in all kinds of fancy dress outfits... on hen nights... birthday parties... just dressed up for the hell of it... there were all ages, all sizes.. all nationalities... it was heaving!

Well, there was me in my jeans and pink hiker boots and me black top... and I was just having a belter of a time on the dance floor - so much fun! I thought it was hilarious most of the time.. the only thing that soured it a bit was one particular bloke who seemed to think he had the right to grab parts of your anatomy!

He grabbed one of Cat's boobs and that was it! I switched from party mode into fuming mother hen mode!! I was in his face, wagging my finger and demanding he apologise to her! He did some stupid face gesture thing (clearly trying to offend me.. LOL) and all I did was turn my back to him.. he was WAY out of line, and not just with our group but with another woman who was VERY drunk and he was really getting out of order and all her mates were laughing and doing nothing about it... in the end some other lads stepped in and all was ok. It wasn't nice though and there were a lot of very peculiar men there!!! I had lots of very flattering comments from a couple of the young men there... which has done wonders for my self-confidence! lol

I was really enjoying myself and before we knew it, there was just me and Mich left as the others had (very sensibly) turned it at a reasonable hour! lol We just carried on having a right giggle, bop and singalong! We finally traipsed back to the hotel about 3ish... and then sat in the lounge bar for a while having a chinwag and setting the world to rights.. lol THEN, we got online! hee hee... good job it was me typing (I was on water all night)... lol We had SUCH a giggle though.

I loved every moment... despite having drinks spilled on me and smoke blown in my face by one very objectionable man as I tried to leave the place! There were a lot of pretty objectionable men there I think.. lol... but were pretty ok where we were dancing and just tended to have the fellas around near us that were having a right laugh - you know? NOT the ones who wanted to grope and snog yer face off, but the kind who were having a giggle dancing and singing too... it was very relaxed I thought. It was also VERY interesting to see all the women there - and their behaviour!!! My goodness - I had no idea women were like that nowadays!!! LOL They are flippin' predators!!! ROFL

Anyway, finally said goodnight to Mich and shared a lift with her and off to my room... I texted Zoe to tell her about my night and, well,.. despite being tired I was on a high and as I stank of fags and booze (all by proxy!)... I had a wonderful shower, ate my muffin (was a bit hungry) and then climbed into bed... missed my leccy blanky... lololol but the room was lovely and warm in the end... I set my phone alarm for 10am (we had arranged to meet at 11 the next morning).. and finally drifted off to sleep. I woke up briefly at around 7.30 and having turned the heating down (I KNOW!!) and drinking some water... it was back to sleep until 10! Got all packed up and then down in time for the 11am meet... had another wonderful chat with the girlies and finally said cheerio at midday. They were off to the shops, Mary to the station and me to the car! (Parking was £9.60) so not too bad and I only spent £10 all weekend!

I am so glad I went... I have a great weekend of memories and inspiration now to keep me going!! I'm really looking forward to seeing them all again in Newcastle too in January!! If this weekend was anything to go by, that weekend will be just as good fun!

I got home in good time and have been on here ever since! I must go and put my smelly jeans etc in the wash or they will be even more rank!! lol

I've put my pics of the weekend in an album on the gallery and hope I did it right! lol

I'm off to have a kip and rest this horrendously painful foot of mine! I'm out tonight to the pub quiz again with Lucy so that will round off a great weekend! I'm a happy bunny and looking forward to my weigh in on Tuesday (all that dancing MUST have helped!! lol).

Yawwwnnnn... sweet dreams folks! ;)
 
sounds like you all had a great time (apart from that bloke grrr they drive me mad when they behave like that)
and that dress you posted a picture of is lovely! I would love one like that too, you've got good taste lol
 
Thanks girlies - we did have an ace time - I dread to think what Mich's photos will be like! (I wanna see the ones with me in BEFORE you go posting them on here please!!!)

Roch- ditto what Mich said - we wanna see you there next summer! You would have a ball!! And in July we (you and I) could both have lost about another 7 stone!!!!! WOW!

DQ - you're so welcome, shame you couldn't make it this time - but next time eh? Was a real hoot! lol

Kati - glad you like the dress, I've decided to go and buy it, but in a smaller size so that when it fits me I shall "find" an occassion to wear it to! lol
 
That dress is spectacular, hun!!!!

So glad you enjoyed the weekend!! Oh and I have a rule that I never break - 2 texts/emails to a man and no more. If he doesn't reply, then it's his loss and I move on. Zero tolerance lol! I'm sure he'll be in touch soon, but if not - then hey - you know there are plenty more who would be begging to spend time with you!

I'm sure you'll be fighting them off with a stick in the toon VFBC!!!
 
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