Thank you ... it was a lovely wedding... my friends had a fantastic day despite the rotten weather, and there were smiles and tears all over the place. She looked stunning - a really truly beautiful person. Inside and out. They are a fabulous match. I love them both to bits.
I was a bag of nerves but did my bit. I was polite to PQM, more than he was to me. I said to him 'what do you think of the dress' and he said ' well, you said it was pink and it is'. That was all I heard from him all day. We managed to keep out of one anothers way until the dinner when we had to sit at the same table, but we sat a good distance away then too. It was hard though as the only other people I knew at our table sat next to him. They are long standing friends of his - in fact, the wife has a major soft spot for him and has made it very clear that she fancies him. Her husband is such a lovely (and very attractive) man. I had no-one beside me for a while but thankfully some others joined us and I had someone to talk to and get to know. The meal was delicious and I even managed to blag an extra portion of pudding! ha ha ha... Pavlova... yummy!
Calories went out of the window!
Meal and speeches over, we all went to the dance area and sat there, unfortunately PQM's friends sat with me and so did he. I couldn't bear it so wandered off and socialised with everyone else instead, at one point I pulled up a chair and sat with my back to him. I think it was Chrissy Hynde who sang about their being a 'thin line, between love and hate'.
I put on a brave face, danced loads with the bride (it's what we love to do!! we leap around like loons!). Even got a couple of slow dances with the best man (bless him) and some really nice compliments from a couple of the guests and when the groom told me I looked lovely I cried... it really was an emotional day!
PQM went home to fetch his son, he sat with us too... he's a lovely lad. He asked me where I got the dress from and said he liked it and that he liked my hair up and when I took it down he wondered why! lol Bless him. PQM took him home and then came back so he could drink more. I had offered lifts to several people so was anticipating taking his friends and him back later.
Then 2 more drinking pals turned up and in the end, I set off to be taxi to 2 couples (which I was glad to do) and asked his friends if they wanted me to come back and get them and was told no, they were all going to the pub. (No invitation for me to join them... felt a bit rotten but to be honest, I wouldn't have enjoyed it anyway, and my dress was too good for the pub!) lol
Best man saw me leaving and gave me a hug and said he thought I was a real sweetie and he was proud of me. (He knew my feelings about PQM and was in the pub last week when I was sloshed and mouthing off!!) ... I thanked him for the dances and he said we would dance again sometime.
I gave the lifts to the guests, came home and went to bed. (when I dropped the last 2 off she told me I should be very proud of myself as no one could have guessed how I was feeling toward PQM at all and that to all it appeared like I was having a great time!) I was... but inside, well, y'know!
This morning I had a call from the bride asking if I was in and that she had something for me.
She turned up (on their way to the airport for their honeymoon!) and gave me her bridal bouquet!! I promptly burst into tears, we hugged, she cried too. I can't believe she did that... I am now trying to figure out a way to preserve some of it and make a special gift for them for their return. I think I'll get one of the photos printed and press the petals and arrange them around the photo and put a special message on the card for them.
So... still very emotional, sad about PQM but know that I have to just cut him from my heart and move on (so much easier said than done) and get on with things!
World Superbikes on telly and lots of housework to do... might even tootle off to church this evening (as long as it's not communion as that will have me in tears as soon as I start singing!).
Will try and add photo of me in pink dress to my gallery on here... its been a long time since I added any photos! (another job to add to me list perhaps!)
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