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Karen1972
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haha thanks girls BUT my sisters have decided not to go out... so i'm defo stuck in, just having my last pack and chatting to a couple of guys on UD - as per Cheryl's strict instructions. They live miles away though but i'm only interested in chatting to relieve my boredom - shocking! lol
FatFairNForty(ish)
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I'm off to bed... night night xxxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Saturday Feb 10th
Glad I wasn't away after all - got to attend a meeting at our church about whether or not to apply for lottery funded grant for our redevelopment works. It was a really good meeting too. Lots of differing views and suggestions. So glad I got to be there.
This morning - you guessed it - woken by the luscious tones of Mr K
(ah me) lololol
After the meeting this morning I toddled off to the shops and got his Valentine's prezzie... (making the card tomorrow).. and also my sister's birthday presents (got her a gorgeous blue venetian glass bracelet - really lovely - in blue.. will look stunning on her (especially with the tan she's gonna get in Tobago!).. plus , now this was a toughie... I went into Thorntons and got her 4 vanilla truffles (her absolute fav chocs) in a lovely little gift box.. I am NOT doing that again!!! I saw SOOOOO many scrummy things in there! It was very very very hard!! I wanted to buy Mr K a special big choccie heart with a special message on it, but, he is also trying to lose a couple of pounds and is so supportive of my efforts, that I think I shall save doing that for him for next years valentines day (bit presumptious maybe, but hey - gotta be positive! )
Saw so many cards that were simply lovely.. and then got inspiration for another gift for him, which I shall work on over the next few days.. Really going to take some planning and time but will be worth it if he likes it.
Went to Argos to pick up an exercise mat and exercise ball for Zoe - was going to get a mini trampoline but the max weight is 15stone 7 so that will have to wait (couldn't afford the one that COULD take my bulk!).
I also went to the clothes shop where I bought THAT dress.. I tried on some tops.. having been through my wardrobe and drawers I have come to realise that I am distinctly lacking in tops!!!! I was very good though - I only bought the one. I'm going to wear it when I see Mr K on Thursday It's a size 20!!! I think it fits lovely - but I asked the shop assistants and, thankfully in the past they have always been brutally honest with me, and they said it looked lovely - I almost bought another top too... I really liked it.. bright pink colour.. very me.. lol.. but no.. I will wait until I am down another size before getting that.. PLUS.. the top I bought will be suitable for lots of ocassions and should fit me for a while now.. I have gigs to go to tonight, next week, in March, in April and in May (although it will hopefully be too big by then!)... also dates with Mr K... (although I do try and wear something different each time)... pub quiz maybe - but it could be a bit dressy for that.. oh and the WeMitts night out in March! (unless I find another black top like my fav one!! lol). So.. for the £18 it cost me, I should get a fair bit of wear out of it.
I ought to get a couple of cheap t-shirts to wear under my jumpers - that would give me more choice too.. hmm.. Asda tomorrow methinks!
I'm bloomin freezing at the moment and made a bowl of "porridge" earlier but had 2 spoonfuls and suddenly couldn't eat any more - spat it out in fact!! Not sure what THAT's all about!!
I am desperate to eat food... wishing it was AAM week and then being glad it isn't.. madness !! I am feeling fed up with the diet today.. not sure why... perhaps because of all the recent compliments.. y'know.. but when I looked in the full length mirror at the clothes shop today I could see the reality - so .. feet still very firmly on the ground.. and getting my head round the fact that I still have as far to go again and then some...:sigh:
Even so... NOT going to break this damn diet!!!!
Glad I wasn't away after all - got to attend a meeting at our church about whether or not to apply for lottery funded grant for our redevelopment works. It was a really good meeting too. Lots of differing views and suggestions. So glad I got to be there.
This morning - you guessed it - woken by the luscious tones of Mr K
(ah me) lolololAfter the meeting this morning I toddled off to the shops and got his Valentine's prezzie... (making the card tomorrow).. and also my sister's birthday presents (got her a gorgeous blue venetian glass bracelet - really lovely - in blue.. will look stunning on her (especially with the tan she's gonna get in Tobago!).. plus , now this was a toughie... I went into Thorntons and got her 4 vanilla truffles (her absolute fav chocs) in a lovely little gift box.. I am NOT doing that again!!! I saw SOOOOO many scrummy things in there! It was very very very hard!! I wanted to buy Mr K a special big choccie heart with a special message on it, but, he is also trying to lose a couple of pounds and is so supportive of my efforts, that I think I shall save doing that for him for next years valentines day (bit presumptious maybe, but hey - gotta be positive!
)Saw so many cards that were simply lovely.. and then got inspiration for another gift for him, which I shall work on over the next few days..
Really going to take some planning and time but will be worth it if he likes it. Went to Argos to pick up an exercise mat and exercise ball for Zoe - was going to get a mini trampoline but the max weight is 15stone 7 so that will have to wait (couldn't afford the one that COULD take my bulk!).
I also went to the clothes shop where I bought THAT dress..
I tried on some tops.. having been through my wardrobe and drawers I have come to realise that I am distinctly lacking in tops!!!! I was very good though - I only bought the one. I'm going to wear it when I see Mr K on Thursday It's a size 20!!! I think it fits lovely - but I asked the shop assistants and, thankfully in the past they have always been brutally honest with me, and they said it looked lovely - I almost bought another top too... I really liked it.. bright pink colour.. very me.. lol.. but no.. I will wait until I am down another size before getting that.. PLUS.. the top I bought will be suitable for lots of ocassions and should fit me for a while now.. I have gigs to go to tonight, next week, in March, in April and in May (although it will hopefully be too big by then!)... also dates with Mr K... (although I do try and wear something different each time)... pub quiz maybe - but it could be a bit dressy for that.. oh and the WeMitts night out in March! (unless I find another black top like my fav one!! lol). So.. for the £18 it cost me, I should get a fair bit of wear out of it. I ought to get a couple of cheap t-shirts to wear under my jumpers - that would give me more choice too.. hmm.. Asda tomorrow methinks!
I'm bloomin freezing at the moment and made a bowl of "porridge" earlier but had 2 spoonfuls and suddenly couldn't eat any more - spat it out in fact!! Not sure what THAT's all about!!
I am desperate to eat food... wishing it was AAM week and then being glad it isn't.. madness !! I am feeling fed up with the diet today.. not sure why... perhaps because of all the recent compliments.. y'know.. but when I looked in the full length mirror at the clothes shop today I could see the reality - so .. feet still very firmly on the ground.. and getting my head round the fact that I still have as far to go again and then some...:sigh:
Even so... NOT going to break this damn diet!!!!
pandora
finding my way again !
hi Jennie
there must be something in the air, cos i am also feeling really fed up of the diet, amongst other things. I'm just in a fed up mood, fed up of being fat, fedup of being unattractive, the cold, the rain, not eating etc etc
glad you are enjoying buying new clothes, at the moment i just can't see the point my self, i just see it as a waste of money, but you on the other hand have a good social life & will get the use out of them.
carry on the way you are going & you'll be passing them down to me soon :sigh:
xx
there must be something in the air, cos i am also feeling really fed up of the diet, amongst other things. I'm just in a fed up mood, fed up of being fat, fedup of being unattractive, the cold, the rain, not eating etc etc
glad you are enjoying buying new clothes, at the moment i just can't see the point my self, i just see it as a waste of money, but you on the other hand have a good social life & will get the use out of them.
carry on the way you are going & you'll be passing them down to me soon
:sigh: xx
Hey ((Jennie))
I hope the feelings re the diet pass quickly, you put me to shame, I've maintained for the last month because I couldn't get my head back into gear after my original 100 days were up, just before christmas.
I always read your thread in awe at your strength and energy!!!!! I wish you could bottle it and pass it around on here
Isn't it a fantastic feeling to be able to buy new clothes
Enjoy the rest of your weekend
Kitty xxx
I hope the feelings re the diet pass quickly, you put me to shame, I've maintained for the last month because I couldn't get my head back into gear after my original 100 days were up, just before christmas.
I always read your thread in awe at your strength and energy!!!!! I wish you could bottle it and pass it around on here
Isn't it a fantastic feeling to be able to buy new clothes
Enjoy the rest of your weekend
Kitty xxx
cah-ching
Gold Member
hi Jennie
there must be something in the air, cos i am also feeling really fed up of the diet, amongst other things. I'm just in a fed up mood, fed up of being fat, fedup of being unattractive, the cold, the rain, not eating etc etc
glad you are enjoying buying new clothes, at the moment i just can't see the point my self, i just see it as a waste of money, but you on the other hand have a good social life & will get the use out of them.
carry on the way you are going & you'll be passing them down to me soon
xx
Sweetheart, one thing you aren't is UNATTRACTIVE. I thought you were gorgeous in Portsmouth and then when you were dressed to go to Tiger Tiger, you absolutely blew me away!
Lets all draw a line underneath today and look forward to tomorrow.
westiegirl
Gold Member
Hi Jennie, been trying to catch up with some threads this weekend (my first free weekend in ages lol!) and have managed to read a wee bit of yours. Just about to backtrack a bit and read a bit more from the last couple of weeks but I just wanted to say hello!
Sorry that you are feeling a bit fed up with the diet. You do find it happens after such a long time of being on the darn thing. I regularly went through the same thing last year! But it does pass with time and the motivation does return with the visible results.
Your going great girl, don't give up - you are fantastic!
Sorry that you are feeling a bit fed up with the diet. You do find it happens after such a long time of being on the darn thing. I regularly went through the same thing last year! But it does pass with time and the motivation does return with the visible results.
Your going great girl, don't give up - you are fantastic!
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Thanks - all of you - I mean it. Yesterday was crap for me diet wise (feelings not actuality).. and when I went out last night I was still craving food.. got to the car park and met up with Daryl and the three of us (me, Lucy and Daryl) headed for the venue. As I know the lady who had organised the gig she let us in (an hour early) and we sorted out the tickets and I (very cheekily) asked her to reserve front row seats for us.. lol.. she did! So we headed to a pub.
It was ok, but as soon as we got to the bar the barman said "hot chocolate ladies?" grrrrr... I would kill for a hot chocolate! with marshmallow bits and choccie sprinkles!! But no.. I got my 'usual' pint of tap.
We chatted for an hour then it was gig time. Well.. the first 'set' was dreadful.. lol not going to name the guy, but lets just say, Lucy and I exchanged glances and agreed that the pub might have been the better option! lol Still.. he was a good guitarist (just the yorkshire man trying to be a blues singer in a kind of Chris Rea style.. well.. didn't quite do it for us). Now.. the headline act were very good indeed! Folk/Rock they were described as,... not sure that's entirely accurate, but either way, they sounded great and the banter was funny and quick-witted. Their set passed very quickly! At the end there was a party (which of course we stayed to) unfortunately there was free food and drink.. It was very very very difficult.. I could see it all and smell it all and Daryl and Lucy (quite rightly) got stuck in. There was the most incredible looking chocolate cake which Lucy had her eye on but wouldn't touch as it hadn't been cut in to! So I did! Gave her a mega slice and told her that if she wanted something she shouldn't be afraid to go get it. lol.. Once I'd cut the cake loads of folks had some.. so clearly.. a lot of choccie fans there!
What I would give to have a slice.... *sigh Anyway.. what I didn't mention too was that during the interval Michele (the lady who organised it all) came round the audience with a huge tin of Cadburys ROses and literally put it under my face and said.. "go on, have one Jennie"!!!!!
I physically pushed the tin away and, through gritted teeth, said no thanks. You know what though.. I SO SO SO SO SO much wanted to trough my way through the whole damned lot of them!! I'm sitting here this morning thinking about it.. and the thought of them has me salivating all over again..
So, it was a very late night.. I drove (so Lucy could have a drink).. and got her home around 1.45am and was home and having my final pack at 2 before going to bed, exhausted.
Sunday 11th Feb
Mr K rang this morning and we chatted about all sorts of stuff.. I said that I was undecided as to whether to go to church or not.. just how it is really. lol We did talk about lots of other things too.. as we always do It's a beautiful sunny day and I was thinking about taking the dog for a walk.. not to the lakes as that will mean a muddy car and I have yet to get a blanket to protect the back seat and he won't jump into the boot. lol (its too high). So.. perhaps a 15 minute stroll round here will be enough.
I have sorted out some more of my clothes now too... I have realised that I do not possess ANY clothes (other than those bought very recently) smaller than a size 22. I thought I had, but I haven't!! Sarah's old bed is now piled high with clothes that I will never wear again.. and I am in a quandry.. I could do with some money so I could sell them on ebay (if I could work out how etc.. lol) or I could give them away.. (but not sure there is that much need in charity shops for huge clothes... although I guess there could be.. as I would have loved to be able to have bought cheaper clothes!!)..
Hmm.. will have a think about that one. What it does mean is that I have few clothes now, but, that's ok.. as I will be able to wear the sizes I have for a little while yet.. and I bought long sleeved cheap t-shirty things t'other week and those, combined with baggy tops on, they don't look TOO bad (although Zoe has begun to tell me off for wearing some of them.. have a feeling she will chuck them out if she gets hold of them! lol).
I discovered I have a swimming costume which fits.. and I've never worn it.. so.. no excuses now not to go swimming with Zoe (although the thought of it makes me fill up with tears!!). I also came across all my summer clothes from last year - all sizes 30 & 28. Shorts, cropped trousers, summer trousers (lovely colours), skirts galore!!! One skirt I really love (full length white and really floaty) I might hang on to and get the lady who did my coat, to take it in for me..
I also came across a black velvet skirt I had totally forgotten I even had!!!!! It fits so I'm keeping that. (dunno when I shall wear it but hey - never know! lol)
So, the spare bed is swamped and the wardrobes look healthier actually.. lol and I feel like I have gone another step forward to getting rid of the past. I have kept a few outfits though.. the stripey shirt from that 2004 photo.. the brown and white top (I love that top!) and trousers I was wearing on my very first weigh in.. and a white blouse and trousers I wore in January of 2005. These are going to be put in a space saver bag and labelled "before". I wll hide them away until I get to goal and then they can come out again!
I've also discovered a couple of sarongs I forgot I had.. so that's 3 now in preparation of June! (I am hoping that Mr K might be able to come and join me at some point whilst I am out there.. my sister is flying home for 5 days so it would be ideal for him to come then really.. but that's way ahead.. and totally dependant on so many variables that I have to try to push it out of my thoughts.. as HIGHLY unlikely to happen.. lol) but hey - no harm in dreaming now is there
I must remember to contact Customs & Excise and ask about taking the Cambdrige diet out there with me.. see if they say its ok.. I have to be able to stick to it.. I will still have such a long way to go and it would break my heart if I stupidly lost the plot just coz I was on a holiday!!!!! To put things into perspective.. I hope to be in the 14's (stone)by then... and will still have 4 stone to lose.. and for the sake of 3 weeks.. I am not willing to jeopardise getting to my target!
So.. some phone calls to make and emails to send on that one I think... will also make sure we have a fridge in our accomodation as I think bars would be a good idea to take too. (also ask for a microwave so I can make me muffins.. lol).. we shall see how it all pans out. But I don't want to ruin things if I am still sticking to the plan.
Anyway... where was I before I headed off into another of my ridiculously digressive ramblings...? Oh yes.. clothes sorting.. you know what.. I'm going to sod off now and go to Asda,.. get Zoes food in and see if I can find just a couple of dirt cheap t-shirts to wear with my choccie brown top I got t'other week.. that will do me.. if I get 2 t-shirts.. that's another 2 outfits.. lol Might treat myself to some Asda appleade too.. ! Different tastes might help me.
Just had a spicy tomato soup - I really love that stuff! lol and a pint of water - so not hungry (good time to shop).
Meeting my sister at 2 now, not 3.30 so will have to get a move on as not wrapped her presents yet.. but that only takes a sec. After that have a free afternoon (might sit and watch telly for a change! lol) then tonight is pub quiz night.. Lucy mentioned in the car that she though PQM was unusually chatty.. lololol.. makes me giggle.. and her too! lololol I'm so glad she's my friend. We do have fun when we go out together (and yes, I still feel like the fat ugly friend when we are out together, but not quite so intensly so that's gotta be a good thing!).
Catch up with you all later! Hope you're all having a lovely day and enjoying some sunshine..
Oh... if anyone who reads this is interested in ANY of the clothes I have.. please please PM me.. you can have them.. all I would ask is for postage to be repaid.. (as there are LOADS of them! lol)... but I would very very very gladly give them to a fellow 'downsizer'.
Stick to your plans folks.. here's to another day done and dusted!! Weigh in tomorrow!! (hmm... not optimistic but you know what - how does that work?? how can I not be? flamin stuck to the damn diet so ... gotta get me head straightened out! lolol blah!! laters xxxx
It was ok, but as soon as we got to the bar the barman said "hot chocolate ladies?" grrrrr... I would kill for a hot chocolate! with marshmallow bits and choccie sprinkles!! But no.. I got my 'usual' pint of tap.
We chatted for an hour then it was gig time. Well.. the first 'set' was dreadful.. lol not going to name the guy, but lets just say, Lucy and I exchanged glances and agreed that the pub might have been the better option! lol Still.. he was a good guitarist
(just the yorkshire man trying to be a blues singer in a kind of Chris Rea style.. well.. didn't quite do it for us). Now.. the headline act were very good indeed! Folk/Rock they were described as,... not sure that's entirely accurate, but either way, they sounded great and the banter was funny and quick-witted. Their set passed very quickly! At the end there was a party (which of course we stayed to) unfortunately there was free food and drink.. It was very very very difficult.. I could see it all and smell it all and Daryl and Lucy (quite rightly) got stuck in. There was the most incredible looking chocolate cake which Lucy had her eye on but wouldn't touch as it hadn't been cut in to! So I did! Gave her a mega slice and told her that if she wanted something she shouldn't be afraid to go get it. lol.. Once I'd cut the cake loads of folks had some.. so clearly.. a lot of choccie fans there! What I would give to have a slice.... *sigh Anyway.. what I didn't mention too was that during the interval Michele (the lady who organised it all) came round the audience with a huge tin of Cadburys ROses and literally put it under my face and said.. "go on, have one Jennie"!!!!!
I physically pushed the tin away and, through gritted teeth, said no thanks. You know what though.. I SO SO SO SO SO much wanted to trough my way through the whole damned lot of them!! I'm sitting here this morning thinking about it.. and the thought of them has me salivating all over again..
So, it was a very late night.. I drove (so Lucy could have a drink).. and got her home around 1.45am and was home and having my final pack at 2 before going to bed, exhausted.
Sunday 11th Feb
Mr K rang this morning and we chatted about all sorts of stuff.. I said that I was undecided as to whether to go to church or not.. just how it is really. lol We did talk about lots of other things too.. as we always do
It's a beautiful sunny day and I was thinking about taking the dog for a walk.. not to the lakes as that will mean a muddy car and I have yet to get a blanket to protect the back seat and he won't jump into the boot. lol (its too high). So.. perhaps a 15 minute stroll round here will be enough.I have sorted out some more of my clothes now too... I have realised that I do not possess ANY clothes (other than those bought very recently) smaller than a size 22. I thought I had, but I haven't!! Sarah's old bed is now piled high with clothes that I will never wear again.. and I am in a quandry.. I could do with some money so I could sell them on ebay (if I could work out how etc.. lol) or I could give them away.. (but not sure there is that much need in charity shops for huge clothes... although I guess there could be.. as I would have loved to be able to have bought cheaper clothes!!)..
Hmm.. will have a think about that one. What it does mean is that I have few clothes now, but, that's ok.. as I will be able to wear the sizes I have for a little while yet.. and I bought long sleeved cheap t-shirty things t'other week and those, combined with baggy tops on, they don't look TOO bad (although Zoe has begun to tell me off for wearing some of them.. have a feeling she will chuck them out if she gets hold of them! lol).
I discovered I have a swimming costume which fits.. and I've never worn it.. so.. no excuses now not to go swimming with Zoe (although the thought of it makes me fill up with tears!!). I also came across all my summer clothes from last year - all sizes 30 & 28. Shorts, cropped trousers, summer trousers (lovely colours), skirts galore!!! One skirt I really love (full length white and really floaty) I might hang on to and get the lady who did my coat, to take it in for me..
I also came across a black velvet skirt I had totally forgotten I even had!!!!! It fits so I'm keeping that. (dunno when I shall wear it but hey - never know! lol)
So, the spare bed is swamped and the wardrobes look healthier actually.. lol and I feel like I have gone another step forward to getting rid of the past. I have kept a few outfits though.. the stripey shirt from that 2004 photo.. the brown and white top (I love that top!) and trousers I was wearing on my very first weigh in.. and a white blouse and trousers I wore in January of 2005. These are going to be put in a space saver bag and labelled "before". I wll hide them away until I get to goal and then they can come out again!
I've also discovered a couple of sarongs I forgot I had.. so that's 3 now in preparation of June! (I am hoping that Mr K might be able to come and join me at some point whilst I am out there.. my sister is flying home for 5 days so it would be ideal for him to come then really.. but that's way ahead.. and totally dependant on so many variables that I have to try to push it out of my thoughts.. as HIGHLY unlikely to happen.. lol) but hey - no harm in dreaming now is there
I must remember to contact Customs & Excise and ask about taking the Cambdrige diet out there with me.. see if they say its ok.. I have to be able to stick to it.. I will still have such a long way to go and it would break my heart if I stupidly lost the plot just coz I was on a holiday!!!!! To put things into perspective.. I hope to be in the 14's (stone)by then... and will still have 4 stone to lose.. and for the sake of 3 weeks.. I am not willing to jeopardise getting to my target!
So.. some phone calls to make and emails to send on that one I think... will also make sure we have a fridge in our accomodation as I think bars would be a good idea to take too. (also ask for a microwave so I can make me muffins.. lol).. we shall see how it all pans out. But I don't want to ruin things if I am still sticking to the plan.
Anyway... where was I before I headed off into another of my ridiculously digressive ramblings...? Oh yes.. clothes sorting.. you know what.. I'm going to sod off now and go to Asda,.. get Zoes food in and see if I can find just a couple of dirt cheap t-shirts to wear with my choccie brown top I got t'other week.. that will do me.. if I get 2 t-shirts.. that's another 2 outfits.. lol Might treat myself to some Asda appleade too.. ! Different tastes might help me.
Just had a spicy tomato soup - I really love that stuff! lol and a pint of water - so not hungry (good time to shop).
Meeting my sister at 2 now, not 3.30 so will have to get a move on as not wrapped her presents yet.. but that only takes a sec. After that have a free afternoon (might sit and watch telly for a change! lol) then tonight is pub quiz night.. Lucy mentioned in the car that she though PQM was unusually chatty.. lololol.. makes me giggle.. and her too! lololol I'm so glad she's my friend. We do have fun when we go out together (and yes, I still feel like the fat ugly friend when we are out together, but not quite so intensly so that's gotta be a good thing!).
Catch up with you all later! Hope you're all having a lovely day and enjoying some sunshine..
Oh... if anyone who reads this is interested in ANY of the clothes I have.. please please PM me.. you can have them.. all I would ask is for postage to be repaid.. (as there are LOADS of them! lol)... but I would very very very gladly give them to a fellow 'downsizer'.
Stick to your plans folks.. here's to another day done and dusted!! Weigh in tomorrow!! (hmm... not optimistic but you know what - how does that work?? how can I not be? flamin stuck to the damn diet so ... gotta get me head straightened out! lolol blah!!
laters xxxx
pandora
finding my way again !
hi hun,
well done for resisting all those lovely goodies yesterday, bet you feel proud of yourself today !
Asda is fab for cheep n cheerful get you thru the stages clothes, i got some loverly fleece tops for £3 a pop !
have a good day & look forward to hearing the weigh in news tommorrow
xx
well done for resisting all those lovely goodies yesterday, bet you feel proud of yourself today !
Asda is fab for cheep n cheerful get you thru the stages clothes, i got some loverly fleece tops for £3 a pop !
have a good day & look forward to hearing the weigh in news tommorrow
xx
westiegirl
Gold Member
Hi Jennie, thanks for your comments on my thread. They meant a lot. I am glad you are sounding a little chirpier today even if you don't really feel it! We all go through these time of feel apprehensive of the weigh ins even though we haven't cheated (I was 100% my first time around and still felt like I had cheated - mentally). You will be fine, I know because your determination has got you so far already.
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
I feel dreadful... I broke my 100% today - I had 3 pickled onions.. now.. I didn't think that was TOO bad until I was trying to make excuses for it to Mr K and he told me he was very disappointed..:sigh: Now I feel absolutely terrible.. my rationale was.. 3 pickled onions equates to about 15cals.. and no carbs, fats, etc etc.. and I know, I know.. it's really excuses and trying to justify it.. but I REALLY didn't think it was too bad.. but I guess he is right .. and he is right to be disappointed .. I did make the choice to have them.. and now I feel terrible about it.
BUT.. it was ... only 3 small (not silverskin) pickled onions... yet it does mean I broke the diet.. and for that I feel bloody awful. I did all that food shopping today, put it all away.. and there was the jar of pickled veg and I made the conscious decision to open it and eat from it..
:sigh:
Just as well there wasn't a pizza in the fridge.. or that I didn't cook something and eat that.. or even just open a tin of something.. or a packet...
Still.. I am trying to justify something that I have managed to avoid for almost 18 weeks.. and this afternoon.. I succumbed.
I cried when he 'told me off'..:cry: I never want to disappoint him... in any way shape or form... He wasn't mean or anything.. but those words... "I'm very disappointed":cry: well.. lesson learned.. either a) never admit to it again! or b) never do it again!!!
For now I'm going with option b) as to do a) would mean decieving him. I'm glad he is honest with me about this kind of thing.. and we did talk lots after I stopped crying:cry: .. (daft cow!).. so... no more pickles until my AAM week! (Lord, I just hope it's real soon!!!)
Feel like I've let myself down and also others who keep telling me I inspire them etc... sorry all... if it's any consolation... I did only have the 3, and it was at about 1.30pm.. and I have only had my 3 packs today so apart from this glich.. I am still on the plan.
*sigh ah well.. off to bed now.. thank goodness it's weigh in tomorrow afternoon and Ailsa will talk some sense into me.
Now I feel absolutely terrible.. my rationale was.. 3 pickled onions equates to about 15cals.. and no carbs, fats, etc etc.. and I know, I know.. it's really excuses and trying to justify it.. but I REALLY didn't think it was too bad.. but I guess he is right .. and he is right to be disappointed .. I did make the choice to have them.. and now I feel terrible about it. BUT.. it was ... only 3 small (not silverskin) pickled onions... yet it does mean I broke the diet.. and for that I feel bloody awful. I did all that food shopping today, put it all away.. and there was the jar of pickled veg and I made the conscious decision to open it and eat from it..
:sigh:
Just as well there wasn't a pizza in the fridge.. or that I didn't cook something and eat that.. or even just open a tin of something.. or a packet...
Still.. I am trying to justify something that I have managed to avoid for almost 18 weeks.. and this afternoon.. I succumbed.
I cried when he 'told me off'..:cry: I never want to disappoint him... in any way shape or form...
He wasn't mean or anything.. but those words... "I'm very disappointed":cry: well.. lesson learned.. either a) never admit to it again! or b) never do it again!!! For now I'm going with option b) as to do a) would mean decieving him. I'm glad he is honest with me about this kind of thing.. and we did talk lots after I stopped crying:cry: .. (daft cow!).. so... no more pickles until my AAM week! (Lord, I just hope it's real soon!!!)
Feel like I've let myself down and also others who keep telling me I inspire them etc...
sorry all... if it's any consolation... I did only have the 3, and it was at about 1.30pm.. and I have only had my 3 packs today so apart from this glich.. I am still on the plan. *sigh ah well.. off to bed now.. thank goodness it's weigh in tomorrow afternoon and Ailsa will talk some sense into me.
Isobel1965
Gold Member
Jenny - you are human. It IS incredibly hard to stick 100% to SSing and if 3 pickled onions are the extent of your slip-up, then you've done rather well to limit it to that.
Guilt is a very destructive emotion so try to put that to one side and move on.
Oh and - you are doing this diet for you, nobody else - right?
Then, to be honest, it's what you think that matters - nobody else.
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Guilt is a very destructive emotion so try to put that to one side and move on.
Oh and - you are doing this diet for you, nobody else - right?
Then, to be honest, it's what you think that matters - nobody else.
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Hi Jennie,
Mr. K just has your best interest at heart
But the pickle onions behind you and continue on and I think you know yourself that nibbling leads to more nibbling...
Beating yourself up will only make things worse and activate the chatter box...
Good luck with weigh in tomorrow and I am sure you will have another brill result.
Love Mini xxx
Mr. K just has your best interest at heart
But the pickle onions behind you and continue on and I think you know yourself that nibbling leads to more nibbling...
Beating yourself up will only make things worse and activate the chatter box...
Good luck with weigh in tomorrow and I am sure you will have another brill result.
Love Mini xxx
Isis
Ancient Egypt Nut!
I feel dreadful... I broke my 100% today - I had 3 pickled onions.. now.. I didn't think that was TOO bad until I was trying to make excuses for it to Mr K and he told me he was very disappointed..:sigh:
BUT.. it was ... only 3 small (not silverskin) pickled onions... yet it does mean I broke the diet.. and for that I feel bloody awful. I did all that food shopping today, put it all away.. and there was the jar of pickled veg and I made the conscious decision to open it and eat from it..
:sigh:
Just as well there wasn't a pizza in the fridge.. or that I didn't cook something and eat that.. or even just open a tin of something.. or a packet...
Still.. I am trying to justify something that I have managed to avoid for almost 18 weeks.. and this afternoon.. I succumbed.
I cried when he 'told me off'..:cry: I never want to disappoint him... in any way shape or form...
For now I'm going with option b) as to do a) would mean decieving him. I'm glad he is honest with me about this kind of thing.. and we did talk lots after I stopped crying:cry: .. (daft cow!).. so... no more pickles until my AAM week! (Lord, I just hope it's real soon!!!)
Feel like I've let myself down and also others who keep telling me I inspire them etc...
*sigh ah well.. off to bed now.. thank goodness it's weigh in tomorrow afternoon and Ailsa will talk some sense into me.
Jennie, hang on a minute hun
Did I miss something? Did you kill or injure somebody or something???? No, you didn't. Apologies if I'm seeming a bit full on.You ate 3 onions!!! And you were ok with that until you heard the opinion of another person? You didn't deserve "disappointment" or "a telling off" in my opinion, but that's only my opinion.
I agree with Isobel that guilt can be very destructive and cansend you off spiralling into place where you maybe wouldn't have gone if you'd just had your own perception of things. You were ok with eating the onions. Crikey it could have been worse!!!
I hope you are ok? I really mean that sincerly. This diet is bloody hard enough as it is.
Value yourself, your dreams and mark your own achievements Jennie as only YOU know how you feel
Lacey xxx
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Thanks Isobel, absolutely I am doing it for myself - and I don't want you to think Mr K wasn't being supportive or anything, coz he was, and is, very.. and yes, guilt is no good.. so.. I'm sure that in the morning I shall feel fine and have got things into perspective! lol To be honest, I feel daft for having posted that now.. I mean.. 3 pickled onions FFS!!!
I agree Mini, and absolutely that is what Mr K was trying to help me to avoid.. he definitely has my best interest at heart - no question in my mind whatsoever on that one!Hi Jennie, Mr. K just has your best interest at heart
Love Mini xxx
I'll let you know how the weigh in goes!
cazmaz_irl
Banned
Hiya Hun,
seen as i've just hung up the phone after emergency calling ya when I saw your post, theres not much more that I can say except to confirm what I said on de phone
You can never expect to achieve 100%, 100% of the time, so that unrealistic target must be dropped NOW!!!!!, 100% 95% of the time allows for human error, cuz thats what we are, human not robots....
As for Mr K and his disappointment, that was not the way he should have shown his support, you are perfectly capable of critiqing (sp?) yourself, its a friend you need not a critic...so you can tell him where to stick his disappointment....people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...when hes sticking 100% to CD like you've been and getting fantastic weightlosses then we can review this LMAO
Head up, girl your doing brill, it was pickled onions LOL, next time add some value if your gonna beat yourself up over it...in other words eat something tasty LMAO....
seen as i've just hung up the phone after emergency calling ya when I saw your post, theres not much more that I can say except to confirm what I said on de phone You can never expect to achieve 100%, 100% of the time, so that unrealistic target must be dropped NOW!!!!!, 100% 95% of the time allows for human error, cuz thats what we are, human not robots....
As for Mr K and his disappointment, that was not the way he should have shown his support, you are perfectly capable of critiqing (sp?) yourself, its a friend you need not a critic...so you can tell him where to stick his disappointment....people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...when hes sticking 100% to CD like you've been and getting fantastic weightlosses then we can review this LMAO
Head up, girl your doing brill, it was pickled onions LOL, next time add some value if your gonna beat yourself up over it...in other words eat something tasty LMAO....
FatFairNForty(ish)
Gold Member
Jennie, hang on a minute hun
Lacey xxx
Hiya, I'm ok Lacey, thank you
I just got in a bit of a "blergh" moment - know what I mean?? The thing with me is that I do need telling off (sometimes) but there are ways and means.. and I actually (and I know you may find this odd) believe he was totally responding out of care and concern. He was very surprised as we had had a vey in-depth talk about the diet and how hard it is to stick to.. blah blah blah.. and I do, absolutely believe, he utterly has my best interest at heart. Given how I have been feeling of late with the diet, I think he may well have been very worried that I was starting on a slippery slope and he wanted to help me not go down that route..
Thank you for your lovely words of encouragement too
I feel daft for posting it now.. but hey.. it's how I felt so it's done.. and in the morning in the cold light of day and having had a decent amount of sleep - I will probably feel very foolish for having even mentioned it! lol
Thanks again - all 3 of you... and a special thanks to Cazmaz for the phone call 
