Blonde Logic's Stream of Consciousness/Diary

[Spanglymum]

I love Caitlin Moran and her book and 100% agree with that extract from it. Many thanks for posting. It's so tragic but it's true for so many of us. She manages to put across such a serious and sad point but love the bit about potatoes in the eyebrows. One wise lady!

 

[FunnyFarm]

Wow, what an truly awful time for you, I can't even imagine.

I can't believe you're still standing after all that. I hope you realise how incredible that makes you! You have so much self doubt for somebody who is so enviably strong.

 

[Blonde Logic]

Wow, what an truly awful time for you, I can't even imagine.

I can't believe you're still standing after all that. I hope you realise how incredible that makes you! You have so much self doubt for somebody who is so enviably strong.

It was awful -moms death was the result of a horrible accident in which she was burned very badly - so watching her end her life suffering and in pain was truly heartbreaking. That was in March 2010. I was the one that found her, so it really tipped me over the edge. And it was and it has been a rough 2 year road to get back to where I am today. So I really wasn't "standing" until failry recently. This is one of the things we are trying to figure out in counseling as well as dealing iwth the PTSD- why I feel so bad about myself, etc. Unlocking some boxes with all kind s of interesting things inside. Kind of scary but hopeful it resolves some lifelong issues that were rekindled though my grieving. Life is a funny old thing somedays.

Thanks again for your kind words - I am going to read that article now and if I have time before I go to wrok I will comment, otherwise will when I get home tonight.

xxx

 

[Blonde Logic]

I jus read it - interesting and I would like to read more. It is so sad that there is so much shame attached to over eating. No one but a fat person understands that is is not always, and seldom is, a case of just being lazy and gorging - it is much much more and no different, for me, than any other addiction as she states. Maybe one day people will get it - but is going to be a long long time.

Thanks for sharing that.

 

[Kira]

BL when I first did a vlcd (CD) back in 2008 successfully I had followed your posts/diary and you really inspired me. Over the past four years (my gosh! where did that time go?!) I have continued to follow you and missed your posts when you were absent. I am thrilled you are doing so well and you have given me a sense of hope that I do can conquer my addiction to using food to deal my own life's ups and downs. I am going to stop messing around and do this. x

 

[MinnieMel]

BL when I first did a vlcd (CD) back in 2008 successfully I had followed your posts/diary and you really inspired me. Over the past four years (my gosh! where did that time go?!) I have continued to follow you and missed your posts when you were absent. I am thrilled you are doing so well and you have given me a sense of hope that I do can conquer my addiction to using food to deal my own life's ups and downs. I am going to stop messing around and do this. x

That was when I started following BL (2008 when I did LL), and I always recommend that people who start LL read through her diary. I found her inspirational .. And BL, I still do!

 

[Blonde Logic]

Oh bless you ladies. That is so kind of you to say so. I think ALL of us are inspirational - it takes guts to do a diet of this nature - its not for sissy's. ANd if we have some wobbles and set backs now and again - it is as was just said part of management - we learn to manage our weight. We might have some wobbles - bvut as long as we always go back to what works for us, we can manage our weight. Some days/months/years prove to be harder then others - but if we jst remember we did this once - we can do it again.

Thank you so much - your words really mean a lot to me and help me to feel stronger and stronger again.

xxxxx

 

[Blonde Logic]

Argh!!! AFter the Step 2 week (3 packs, small meal on CD) - I am up 1 pound! DOH!! SO now I am not at halfway!! Silly girl!! :giggle: That will teach me too stuff a bit of carb in my mouth. lol

Overall though, happy with that - it will go next week and I will be back on track, rockin it to goal!!!

Glad that week is over!! phew!


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[MinnieMel]

Argh!!! AFter the Step 2 week (3 packs, small meal on CD) - I am up 1 pound! DOH!! SO now I am not at halfway!! Silly girl!! :giggle: That will teach me too stuff a bit of carb in my mouth. lol

Overall though, happy with that - it will go next week and I will be back on track, rockin it to goal!!!

Glad that week is over!! phew!


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It's just water retention... You'll rock this next week!

 

[FunnyFarm]

You will! It's 99% attitude, the scales are largely irrelevant.

 

[MinnieMel]

 

[Blonde Logic]

hahahah love that Mel!!!

Thanks ladies!!!

XXX

 

[MinnieMel]

Evening BL!

 

[Blonde Logic]

Morning Mel!!

 

[MinnieMel]

Only in America...

 

[Blonde Logic]

LOL THat is shocking!!!! lol the irony.

But Dreyers........one of my favourites.

 

[MinnieMel]

I think you should order this!

 

[Blonde Logic]

Happy Saturday!

Well, nearly a week done since the Step 2 week - and finding it really easy to get back into the swing of things with just the packs - though I have been having a sneaky bit of FFmilk in my coffee/tea- I am going to ask her if she thinks that will delay me much? If she feels it will, then I will stop - just find that is what I miss themost, and I know I won' change to black permanently ever anyway - so I am quite happy to have this small, no fat low calorie addition as long as it does not affect ketosis. I wouldnt think it would, would you?

Anyway - feeling good. About lots of things. I think the clouds really and truly are lifting.

 

[Mini]

Well done BL on your weight loss and it is great to see you have reached the half way mark!:happy096:

Anyway - feeling good. About lots of things. I think the clouds really and truly are lifting.

Very happy to see you are feeling good:bighug:

 

[MinnieMel]

Afternoon BL -


I doubt it will cause any serious delay. The abstinence is more aborting sorting your relationship with food and you've one this.

I hope you have a fab weekend.