*^~Boofaloos Diary Thread~^* Day 1 going well!!

[Flopster]

Thank you both so much. i was so worried about telling everyone i'm giving it one last try.
i think it was the thought everyone would be thinking - 'here she goes again!!'
Well yep -here i do go again and to be honest I dont care what anyone else thinks. I may have messed about --- ok I have definately messed about but I am still here. Still trying and keeping at it - something for me to be proud of for sure!!

Today is going well. I have had a litre of water and a pack and feel fine.
Have seen a super sexy top that i want so have decided to order it... in a 12! Have cut out the picture of it and have stuck it in my kitchen for motivation!!

This is a good day - i love it when it's easy!!!!!

Hey this is YOUR journey - it has nothing at all to do with anyone else!

I completely agree, I am having a good day, little hunger, tonnes and tonnes of water (despite spending most of the day in meetings), only foodpacks and I feel great. If it was this easy every day, I would happily sale through to the end.

Also go and look on my maintenance thread about that ghrenlin hormone because a lot of that makes massive sense as well (especially if you follow the link I have put in there).

Update us later as to how you are doing.

 

[boofaloo]

Today has been good. SS completely!! WOOHOO

I have yet to have my last pack - gonna have a warm shake followed by another litre of water. I'll have had just over 3 litres then which is about my average.

Feeling a bit light headed and am getting short tempered with the kids. Cant decide whether it's being back SS or more likely that I have had them at home all week because of half term and i've just had enough!!

Hoping tomorrow is another easy day - i could do with a few in a row to ease me back into this gently, do you think i'll get lucky? I hope my body is kind to me this time.

 

[Flopster]

Wooohooo, so pleased for you!!

Fingers crossed for another good day tomorrow.

 

[canireallydothis!!]

Helen, You are doing FAB! No one thinks, here she goes again, everyone is dead proud of you for doing it!!!!!

You really do seem in the right frame of mind this time too, more positive than Ive see you ever I think, well done on today, I think you may slip back fairly quickly in the pink, you have 790'd and that must help too.

Hope tomorrow is as good, stay positive and it will be, keep us updated.

PS its the bellmans bawl in Brig tomorrow, if you are bored come and see me, loads for the kids, donkey rides etc, should be a good day, give us a ring or text if you want x

 

[chicken on a mission]

Helen,

I would hope that you realise that the forum is the one place where you won't get judged harshly. Dieting isn't easy, if it was then then minimins wouldn't exist

You are the one best placed to decide what is best for you so do what you have to do and expect lots of support from your cyber buddies.

 

[boofaloo]

Flopster - Thanks Hope things are going well for you - going to look on your diary in a mo. Fingers crossed I will stay in the zone.

Vicky - WOW look at your hair!!! It looks gorgeous!!!! I didnt know about the bawl thingy. Will try and get down in a bit. Thanks for the encouragement - you guys are the best!!

Chicken - As usual you are right. i shouldnt assume everyone will judge me harshly for giving this a last go. I suppose my harshest critic is myself and i assume everyone else is thinking the same!!


So today was horse riding for the kids. Their lesson is at 8.30 and it takes abotu 20mins to get there. I woke up at 7am and thought oh good plenty of time. The next thing i know it's 8am!!!!! I managed to get 3 kids up and dressed, giving one his breakfast (only a bottle of milk ) in 7 1/2 minutes!!!! That has to be a world record!!!!!

Didnt have my first shake until we got back and was feeling a bit shaky before I had it but feel fine now. Have a litre of water in front of me so am all set until lunch!!!!

Feeling positive and good today. i am hungry there is not doubting that bit it's more a eat lots of chocolate and biscuits and anything else unhealthy hunger!!
Am putting baby for his nap in a mo and am going back to bed - it's very lazy of me but have decided to give myself a bit of pampering for the next few days until that duvet of ketosis arrives.

 

[canireallydothis!!]

Pampering sounds good! I am off for an early night, and a radox bath, I have just been out on my new roller boots and slapped the road rather hard and I hurt now!!! I am definately a blades person, boots are now for resale on ebay!!! lol

Hope you are still positive hun, you sounded it earlier.

Love x

 

[boofaloo]

only 8 days to go until Centerparcs!!!

Wow doesnt time fly. Had a bit of a trauma yesterday. I got all the paperwork for my holiday in CP and realised i'd booked the wrong flipping dates!!!
The paperwork said we were going on the 20th not the 6th. I was sure i had booked the 6th but apparently not.
My Dh had booked from the 6th off and now cant change his holiday and Sherwood is now fully booked for those dates.

SO after many tears and racking my brain what to do I have managed to get the holiday transfered to Whinfell on the 6th as they were the only villiage that had vacancies.
Really pleased as I love our centerparcs holidays and would have been gutted if DH couldnt come with us.

Never been to whinfell before so it'll be a new experience.

CD going ok - am pretty sure 790 is going to work better for me than SS but i am sticking to SS for now.
Only had a Oriental chilli so far and am way behind on my water. Somehow gaining an extra hour today has thrown me out of my routine!!

Still feeling positive and know the weight will come off.

 

[MandyB2]

So glad you're having another good day hun Good news that you managed to sort the holiday aswell.. what a nightmare!!!!!!

love xxxx

 

[Flopster]

SO after many tears and racking my brain what to do I have managed to get the holiday transfered to Whinfell on the 6th as they were the only villiage that had vacancies.

OK You are going to have to meet me on the Friday and not go home until we get there!!

We are hoping to be there early morning (although I still have to get permission to take the kids off school for half a day).

Maybe we can all meet up and have lunch (or shakes) together???

I'll be a very disappointed bunny if you say you can't ....

(now there's emotional pressure for you!)

 

[boofaloo]

LOL. Of course we'll meet up. We wont be leaving until the afternoon so lunch sounds good.

I havent got permission for my children for the week - the school they go to is very good but they now will not authorise any holidays in school term time. I personally think it's crazy as every other school allows 10 days. they say they will allow 5 in exceptional circumstances.
I always had to have holidays in term time as my dad was a fireman. It never did me any harm and i have 9GCSEs, 3 A levels and a degree!!!!!

 

[canireallydothis!!]

I didnt know I had such a clever friend!!! Well done you!!

What a nightmare about the holidays, Whinfell is lovely though and you will really enjoy it, I too am way behind with the water today, weekends always throws it out for me.

Hope you had a great one, you are so positive at the mo and its great x

 

[Flopster]

Oh excellent - I will call you to make arrangements.

 

[boofaloo]

Thanks Vicky!! Just wish I had put all those qualifications to good use before i had my kids but thats another story

Flopster - Am excited about meeting!! It will be nice to have a chat and maybe something to eat. I am doing 790 on holiday so can have some salad leaves. YAY!!

Well today is a bit of a new start. I slipped yesterday quite specatacularly!! Wont go into what i ate as i'd be here all day but needless to say i am definately out of ketosis!!!

Have been thinking a lot about my mental attitude lately and my thought processes, especially after yesterdays slip.
Dh and I sat down and wrote down my honest feelings and what came out was very interesting and quite scary to be honest. It was a lot of deep emotional stuff that i thought had been resolved.
I also had it in my head that i was ok now- i am a size 16/14 and feel 'normal' in my mind i dont need to lose anymore weight. So I decided to get undressed and look at myself naked - it worked!!

So today I have only just had my first shake. Warm choc mint.
I have got some flavourings in and am going to have a litre and a half of warm water in a moment.
I know tonight will be hard for me as evenings always are but i know you guys will help me out.

 

[Flopster]

Hiya

Sorry you had a blip again yesterday. I completely understand where you are coming from with feeling comfortable at the size you are - on my thread I have concentrated a lot on being happy with myself and any excess weight coming off slowly now. I just don't feel the need to stay abstinent the end because whilst I would still LIKE to shift another half stone to a stone, I don't NEED (emotionally/mentally) to do it and that has been really hampering my efforts to stay in abstinence and ketosis.

I can't wait to meet with you a week on Friday!

 

[canireallydothis!!]

Have been thinking a lot about my mental attitude lately and my thought processes, especially after yesterdays slip.
Dh and I sat down and wrote down my honest feelings and what came out was very interesting and quite scary to be honest. It was a lot of deep emotional stuff that i thought had been resolved.
I also had it in my head that i was ok now- i am a size 16/14 and feel 'normal' in my mind i dont need to lose anymore weight. So I decided to get undressed and look at myself naked - it worked!!

.

Totally understand where you are coming from, glad DH is behind you, hope you are feeling ok, you know I am always here to help if I can x

 

[boofaloo]

OK i'm really cross - tea times are always the hardest time for me and today has been no different. I was doing so well up until making the kids tea then i nibbled.
SO SO CROSS!!!
How does everyone else cope with making other peoples food?
DH has offered to make the meals but he comes home too late on an evening for the kids dinners.
Have thought about giving them ready prepared stuff but then it's not very healthy and it still involves me cooking it.
Maybe i will make the evening meal in at lunch time when i'm feeling stronger then just warm it up for tea time? Oh id ont know but this is bugging me now. I manage all day - no problems until the evening. What a waste of effort.

HELP ME GUYS!!!!!

 

[boofaloo]

Right it's time i gave myself a real good kick up the bum and got tough.

I WILL NOT LET MY CHATTERBOX WIN AGAIN!!

It's time to stop being such a wuss bag and giving in every time this gets a little bit hard.
From now I will be the woman of STEEL. No more MRS NICE!! It's time to kick some butt and shift this weight!!!!!!!!!!

(yes, i know i'm mad - i do actually have pills to help with the lunacy )

 

[canireallydothis!!]

Hiya Helen,

The only way to do this is to be mRs Steel, no other way at all, do you want to be slim, or do you want to eat left overs that you probably feel bad about now, how bad do you feel now and how good would you feel if you said no and put them in the bin???

You are paying for a diet that works, as you know, but its not just the money, you have to make your mind up to do this, everytime you put a bit of food in your mouth you put yourself a day behind getting to where you want to be and eating fun things in moderation when you get there.

You can do this, you know you can, I know you can, so lets do it.

Come on girl, we will see this through to the end, and you will be slim for Christmas if you set your mind to it!!

Lecture Over!!!!!

(sorry if I sound harsh!)

 

[boofaloo]

Thanks vicky.... You are so right. I am just delaying things by faffing.

Not harsh at all - just what i needed to hear. Thats what friends are for.