Bren's Diary - The journey begins, again!

[Loulabella]

Oooh cant wait to see how you have done... I hate TOTM - I tend to gain about 3/4lbs - boooooooooo!!! Let me know how you get on... How annoying about the trip but glad the taxi worked out in the end...

 

[BREN]

Well as predicted I've lost but have gained from my all time lowest, up 300 gms, remembering I weigh everyday at the moment. All up for the week 1.3kg loss, but 2 days ago it way 1.6! Never mind it will be gone in a couple of days.

Hurt my foot a little at the gym last night, so dont think it wise to do yoga?? What do people think? It's got a constant ache, from a combo of running and poor support shoes during the day.... oops...

I can do school work tonight that means, if I stay at home.

Male friend of mine which I work once a year at a carnival with has sms'd me today that he has a cancerous growth on his lip. Dr not sure if it is in his lymphatic system and will need an op in about 3 - 5 weeks time. He's waiting for another doc to phone him tomorrow. So a little devastated about this.

I've eaten about 4 extra crackers today and a low cal (137) protein bar. I'm full and not really feeling like dinner, but I will later, or going to Yoga. Hubby is on nights this week and I dont know if I want to be alone tonight with sad thoughts about my friend.

Bren
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[abz]

hey there honey. i have just been catching up. great news on the bmi and the weight loss!! you're storming it!!

so sad to hear about your friend. one of my best mates finds out today whether her lymphoma has been successfully treated. so worried for her. really hope it turns out ok.

love to you and your friend.

abz xx

 

[BREN]

Thanks babe. He just lost his, I suppose you could call him, his adopted dad, last year to cancer. I tended to him everyday for 5/6 weeks in the hospital whilst he deteriorated.

Bren'X

 

[abz]

oh babes. that must have been so so hard.

have just found out my friends hospital appointment is at 3pm. so i'll get to chat to her via email first and find out how she's doing

abz xx

 

[BREN]

My fingers are crossed for you honey!!
Xxx

 

[Kaitlyn]

Well done on the loss, bren. Sorry to hear about your friend.

 

[Loulabella]

Congratulations on your brilliant loss even though it is toined with sadness... x

 

[abz]

my friend got the all clear today. well. as much as you can. and has had her chemo line removed.

i really hope your friend gets the same result bren.

abz xx

 

[BREN]

Thanks so much Abz, he has just got a surgery date 31st March. Until they cut it out (on his lip) they wont know if it's in his gland system yet.

I gained again this morning so back up to 71.8, however I've eaten nearly to the letter today and I am going to the gym in about 40 mins so fingers crossed on the morning scale attempt. Lots of water, well at least another 1ltr.

Bren
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[abz]

good morning (evening) bren

have fun at the gym!! what's your exercise of choice??

abz xx

 

[BREN]

Tonight the cross trainer for 15, then bike for 10, then leg weights for 20. I do 100 sit ups before bed.

I did have a glimmer of panic and desperation this morning when I had had another gain. However this afternoon I weigh 100gm less than the morning. History says that when this is the case for me I need to not eat again until bed. So will go to the gym, pick up some groceries after and then a cup of green tea and 20 mins on here before bed.

If I keep this feeling of full now and know that in 20 it will be gone, remind myself that there is no need to eat because I have had dinner then I should feel skinny at bed time and hopefully report a loss in the morning!

Bren
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Doing some house work now until it's safe to go to the gym (still full)

 

[Loulabella]

OOhh, must be morning time for you now... how have u got on?

 

[BREN]

Yes and very happy to say 300gm gone and now just 700gm to go to take me back to my all time low (last week) so staying positive know it's just fluid and not fat because my measurements have stayed the say and I dont feel bloated like I did yesterday.

Thanks hun.

Planning on another day like this and maybe even the gym to night.

How's you ?

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[abz]

of course it's fluid hon. the rest will drop off soon

is your final goal going to be a weight or a measurement hon? because with all the exercise you are doing you are going to be a smaller size but a wee bit heavier because of all the muscle you'll be gaining...

abz xx

 

[BREN]

Would love my waist to be around 70 or 69 cm's and the weight I would ultimately (will happen after holiday) be 63 - 65 however for Thailand will settle for 67 - 68 (dream to be 66 before Thailand). I have dropped a size in clothing and comfortably fit into my 13 jeans and can put the 12's on (skinny leg's), my work clothes are also looser.

Hopefully fluid gain and not fat recently. I lost 300gm this morning and again like yesterday the scale says after work 100gm less than the morning so need to be perfect tonight and eat no more so I have a loss in the morning....... really really really want this.

Bren
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[abz]

you will get it babes!! how long to go until thailand now?

abz xx

 

[BREN]

I HAVE JUST OVER 6 WEEKS TO GO! Yay....

My WI day is on Tuesday mornings at home. I currently am 71.5 (last week I was 70.8 at my best) so hoping to be 70 by then. Then I have another week of uninterrupted eating left before a guest arrives but when we go out for dinner I can have seafood and salad or a greek salad, just no wine (this might prove difficult then but we will see). So the following week my goal is 69 or less.

Bren
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[BREN]

Well sit ups and bed now.

I love the weekends because this means no work however it means complete temptation and thought about food I am currently forbidding to pass my lips!

Wine for starters is a no no, has been for 3 weeks now. I met a few friends in the city for a drink after work tonight and I had soda water, it was fine as I like water. Although tomorrow going to go see a band and this might put me in the situation of eating out!!!!! Thinking I will eat before I go and use the fact I haven't seen my hubby as an excuse to leave around 10.30pm.

This WI makes week 3 on my plan and I am hoping to loose for the month about 6 kilos!!! This will be on the 6th of March. My original aim was to be on this plan for a month and then do a refeed stage for 3 weeks. I think if I get to 67kg's I will refeed otherwise I will continue until the 16th March and then do 2 weeks of my refeed program instead of the 3 weeks.

I really would like to have my first ever overseas holiday feel thin and confident!

Bren
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[BREN]

Well good night all and wish me luck with the scales in the morning.

Hope you all have a lovely day!
Bren
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