Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff

[cheekychinchilla]

Hey guys!
I made it as far as walking from the car to my managers office before I had to sit down We tried to come up with a plan, then I couldn't get up, so she sent me home.

So I stopped at the Dr's on the way home for the walk-in clinic. Probably waited less than an hour, which was good! Got some reading done
So I told her everything (got my Sister to text me the list of symptoms I'd been collecting). she re-checked my blood pressure, but didn't say what it was. Just went "hmmm". Listened to my heart again. Asked some questions, etc.
She's given me a sick not for a week (major guilt!) and she's given me a sh*t load of meds to treat vertigo. Vertigo. Seriously?! Still waiting for an appointment for the scan, but she's definitely requested that.
She also printed out a load of stuff to have bloods re-done and some others done too *panic* I was by myself and driving. BUT I decided to be brave and go it alone. Went to one place and the cars were literally parked on top of one another - everyone blocking each other in. So drove to the next village over and sat in a pub car park to get out the list of places I could go. The next village over was the best.
Sat there for a little while and saw the nicest nurse (phleb) ever! She was so lovely and caring. I explained the situation and that last time I had to take a hefty dose of diazapam, but today I was by myself and driving. So we had a go and I didn't cry or anything. But she couldn't get anything out of me I think I felt at least 4 needle pricks before she gave up. As soon as she stopped my ears roared, my vision went very sparkly, I was dripping with sweat, shaking like a leaf, and almost passed out. And I mean really really almost I gulped a mug of water and I asked if she would have a go on the left. She put the tourniquet on and poked me once with her finger and I went again. She said it just wasn't safe for us to carry on. I so wanted to be brave and get it done without relying on someone. Almost crying now

My sister goes on holiday tomorrow but said she will take me tomorrow morning. She can drive and I can take the diazapam. Just feel like a total loser. And very very guilty about work.

I just feel so hopeless and sad and fed up. Also just checked Thyroid UK and vertigo is a symptom. FFS!!!
We did talk about my blood results and she said that even though my TSH may be considered high by some, because my free T4 is ok then it's working normally. Gah!!!! :cry:

 

[Barbette]

Stop worrying about work and letting people down, you've nothing to be guilty about. Vertigo is nasty on it's own never mind with added complications, my mum had to leave her job because of that. At least she's given you some meds it should help with the dizziness and help you feel a little better, and you've got things rolling as far as sorting the rest out. Take this week to rest up and give your body a breather, it might be what it needs x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

It's really hard not worrying about work. I don't want to lose this job! I know that seems very dramatic But it's true. And I know how hard it is working there and how stressed everyone is. And we're already short staffed! Ok, I'll try to stop... All's I could think about last night were scenarios where I was dizzy or fainted at work. Couldn't switch them off!

One of the meds is not only used to treat dizziness but is also used in anxiety, so maybe that will help too. I checked the leaflets inside and one of them you shouldn't take if I'm asthmatic (I am!) and the other you shouldn't take if you have hypothyroid symptoms :hmm: Hmmmm.... Anyway, will give them a whirl. I'll stop them if they make me worse. Just *sigh*

Because I'm mental, I'm doing the reading for an assignment. Might as well make some use of my time off. I also need to sort out some of the crap in my room because my friends are donating me their BIG bookshelves. But I seriously don't have the energy today. So coursework will have to do.
Have done about an hour. Going to start the writing, but will only do another hour. Starting to feel dizzy just typing this.

And then later? Game of Thrones. Hells YES!

 

[Barbette]

I think doing your coursework is a good idea, you can put your feet up while you're doing it and it might take your mind off other things
As for your meds I would watch them and at the first sign of them reacting in the wrong way I'd phone a doctor, I'm sure the doctor will have looked at your medical conditions before prescribing them to you x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

They seem the 'norm' for treating vertigo. But I promise to be very careful with them. I hate taking pills
Oh one of them are also used to treat schizophrenia.... Awesome :giveup:

I did about an hour of reading lectures and then 1hr/550words of the assignment. Then my head felt like it was going to cave in! I probably wont get anything productive done tomorrow considering the massive dose of diazapam I'm going to take. But at least I have felt like I've done something useful today. Eases the guilt slightly.

I watched Pitch Perfect before. Not a film I would have ever picked, but me and my Sister had gotten fed up of people recommending it to us. We both loved it It completely surprised me!! Made me laugh a lot too.
Just watching an ep of Game of Thrones and then going to bed. I can feel the anxiety building again

Fed up now!!!!x

Ps. My sister bought me chippy chips

 

[Barbette]

It's really weird what different uses the same tablets have and how they find it out. You have been a busy bunny, well done. I don't think I'd have the patience for study now, I like doing several things at once without concentrating on any one thing entirely lol.
Not had chippy chips for months, they cook them in lard or animal fat over here and I can't stand the taste now. Last time I stole one of Ian's I spat it out they call chippies fisheries over here strange people. It still makes me laugh that they call baps/barms "bread cakes", there's no bloody cake in them ha ha ha ha ha x

 

[Tetris]

omg so glad you loved Pitch Perfect I've watched it like ten times- LOVED it also fancy the pants off the guy, Jesse. Looked up his MBTI (personality) type and it was the same as my ex, doh, haha.

Hope the pills help. I have vairly severe asthma but EVERYTHING seems to say "dont take if you have asthma", like antibiotics, contraceptive pills, etc... I always take them anyway and never notice issues.
Your work seems so mental, I dont think they could afford to lose you! Natural to stress but hope you dont worry too much you are so great with the animals and work your t*ts off so I cant imagine it even crossing their minds!
x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Oh yeah, chippies oop north are weird lol!

I can't remember the last time I had chippy chips. Definitely something rare now! They're lovely here though I did feel a bit sick afterwards, but I must have eaten about half a sack of spuds lol!

I quite like studying and I really miss the Open University. This course is mostly balls though The bit I wrote today was on legislation and rules and crap for radiography. Talk about making a fascinating subject boring. I mean, it's exciting physics! I don't want to be reading about some thing published in 1985!!! Ahem. Yeah... I knew this would be a boring one, but I've kinda worked it out in to small chunks. I may get some done tomorrow evening, depending on hos off my face I am. But hopefully finish it before I (hopefully) go back to work next week. Will at least have something to show for my time off.

I was kinda upset by the 'short' reply I got from my boss. i think she's just stressed and stuff. But there's really nothing I can do is there?! Like she actually said - what if I fainted whilst restraining an aggressive dog? Or during surgery?! I dunno....

Urgh really not looking forward to tomorrow. Think I'd better go to bed, read for a bit, and try and knock myself out with a sleeping pill. Have taken the 2nd dose of those new meds and hoping the ones that treat anxiety will help me out.
It is odd how meds can treat such vastly different conditions isn't it?! One covers nausea and vomiting, dizziness, schizophrenia and mania, and anxiety. And the other ones are to treat the symptoms of Meniere's syndrome - dizziness, ringing in the ears, loss of hearing, and nausea.x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Thanks Tetris dude Yeah I don't think I've ever had an asthma related side effect. And I used to take ibuprofen all the time lol.

Did you think the original lead singer for the guys looks like a chubby Chris Pine?! I did really like it and it surprised me so much. Rachelle's boyfriend was NOT impressed though lol.

I just worry so much about work and getting in to trouble. It's the exact perfect job for me and I really don't want to lose it. There's always plenty more people who wanna work with animals!! But yeah, I need to stop it. Hopefully it's just this week off while these meds kick in - even if they only help with the dizziness! I'm scheduled to be off next Monday anyway, which is lucky coz that's when I'm back at the Dr's. If they can squeeze some blood (urgh!) outta me tomorrow the results should be back by then too. And hopefully I'll have an appointment for the scan too.
I know I keep saying it, over, and over, and over. But I do still think it's thyroid. And if it truly isn't then someone needs to find out what's going on and fix me! *nods*

Right, off to bed to read some more of this book I can't bloody put down! Night all and thank you all so much for sticking with me.xx

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I did it! I took half a tablet less of Diazapam, so had 7.5mg instead of 10. Was actually a bit better. I wasn't quite so off my face and giggly, but I felt pretty calm and relax. The nurse was lovely and she had a look at both arms, settled on my right, and got it first time She even tilted the seat back so i was lying down a bit and talked to me about her dog
I didn't look until she was bagging up everything and I saw the tubes of blood. WHY do they need that much?! I run blood tests ever day and we need like 2mls at most. I still believe the NHS workforce is made up of vampires
But yeah, I did it And treated myself to some Cocopops Rocks I will eat healthily tomorrow. I promise!x

 

[Barbette]

Well done, you must feel better having it over and done with. I hope you enjoyed your treat, you deserved it I hope you're feeling a little better today and have had a relaxed one x x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Erm, I think it's the effects of the diazapam making me feel cheery but I have not stopped today. Well, except the frequent sitting down before I fell down.
You know I want to update my room? Well, I filled my car boot and the entire back seat with bags and bags and bags of stuff for the charity shop, have thrown 3 bin bags worth of absolute crap out, and cleared off most of my desk, one whole set of shelves, emptied most of one high cupboard and put all my Lush and 'beauty' stuff in together, that'll leave me space to fold and store my stupidly huge collection of geeky t-shirts, emptied out the bottom of one wardrobe and stored most of my shoes in there (think I'll get a shoe rack from Ikea to go in there), sorted out more clothes, etc....

My fake brother is going to bring the shelves round some time soon and he's even offered to put them up Bless him! I dunno if I could cope with building stuff at the moment.

I felt so wobbly after packing the car that I couldn't have taken the stuff by myself. So I picked up my friend and she came with me - much easier with two!! Then we went to Costa for a long sit down.

I feel exhausted!! Waiting for the meds to wear off and feel me crash! But at least I got a lot of stuff done. There's not much now I can do without the shelves because I'll basically be moving my DVD's and books off the other shelf set straight on to one of the new ones. so pointless bagging all that up too when I can just wait for the new ones. They're going up on the other side of the room so should be easy enough to sort through (going to take the sh*t stuff to CEX) and move

I've gotten rid of a LOT of junk. I was really ruthless in what I either threw away or put in charity bags. Even stuff I was going to 'save for the future' - gone! Quite pleased with myself. Just want a nice calm, non-cluttered room.
If I feel up to getting Mum from the airport on Thursday (should be) we're going to Ikea on the way back. I'm definitely going to buy a couple of under bed storage boxes and probably the cheapest shoe rack/shelf thing. And going to look at what chest of drawers and side table I want. I might get the chest of drawers because that's another thing I'll need to get rid of.
Hoping the local Oxfam that sells furniture will come and pick it all up - two sets of shelves, a desk, and chest of drawers. If not there's a council service that collects and either refurbs or gets rid of bulky items.

I'll stop rambling now. Watching Hannibal, then I think I'll watch an ep of game of Thrones, and then bed to read. Bloody knackered!!xx

 

[Barbette]

Ha ha ha you've made me feel tired, you've certainly been very productive hopefully you'll sleep tonight. I've missed hannibal so so watching it on +1 it's getting good x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I missed last weeks ep! And missed all the repeats. And couldn't get it on catch-up coz we have Virgin, not Sky. Grrr!! It is good though isn't it? And just been renewed for a second series. Hooray!!

I'm absolutely exhausted now. Every bit of me is aching (stupid girl) but I am really pleased with myself Very glad I'll have help with the shelves tho.xx

 

[Barbette]

I've been recording it for Ian plus for when I'm working. I don't watch a lot of tv but hate missing so always tape my programmes just in case.
Sometimes it's good to get things done while you're in the mood and on a roll x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

We don't have a vhs or digital recorder, so either have to rely on downloading or On Demand. We end up downloading a lot of tv coz none of us are ever in when stuff's on or remember when it's on lol. I know it's a bit naughty, but I guess we see it as it was public access anyway. I never ever download films, don't agree with that!

Yeah I completely agree about getting stuff done when you're in the mood. On a roll now with my room - finished off emptying the desk and moving some bits. Hope the shelves can be put up soon. Itching to get it finished lol!

Keep looking at the Ikea site and catalogue lol.x

 

[Barbette]

We've got Tivo, but it's our only luxury, we don't go out, we don't drink and we don't smoke, plus Ian is sat in the house 24-7 so got to entertain him. I do however watch certain things online.
Hope you're having a good day and you're feeling reasonably ok x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Well it seems the diazapam has well and truly worn off and now I feel like sh*t! Had a really restless night but ended up not being able to wake up properly until just before 2. Had a dizzy spell while feeding the dogs and had to sit for a while before I made my own food. Can't take vertigo meds on an empty stomach
I'm watching Game of Thrones and seriously nearly passed out over a minor torture scene. Me! I've assisted on surgeries! I'm not squeamish! *****! I feel really bluerg and weak and dizzy now. WTF?! Grrrr....

I think I'm going to sort through my dvd's in a bit - I can do that sitting down. I might try and to another section of my assignment too. Although concentrating on typing this is making me feel icky! And then films. Think today feels like a Ryan Gosling day Going to re-watch The Notebook. I watched it years ago and remember not thinking much of it. But, Ryan Gosling with a beard, can't be that bad. Surely?! Also got Blue Valentine as a first watch. Bought it for my Sister for Xmas

But we'll see how today goes. Need to put the other bunny couple in the run today too.

Could someone just come round and do all my stuff for me? Please?! :girlpower:

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Oh, also, having an actual on plan day today. Had veggie breakfast for lunch (1 syn + half HexA + HexB) and I'm finally going to make chilli for tea, which will be syn free Have to stop eating junk.
But I have felt a bit better eating some fat and sugar Can't do that though or I'll put loads of weight on x

 

[Barbette]

Sorry to hear you're not too good today, hopefully the meds will kick in soon.
I've never actually watched the notebook, someone was saying the other day it was really good and I meant to look for it. Not watched any of my DVDs in ages, might watch a few next week while I'm off.
Maybe a little junk food is what you needed x