Cheekychinchilla's food and stuff

[cheekychinchilla]

Monday food: SW green day. Being a bit slack with syns but determined not to let it be a day off!

Lunch:
2 free Linda M Sausages
Interesting beans - half a tin of beans, yellow & red peppers, cherry tomatoes, and hot sauce
A rather failed fried egg lol
Wholemeal toast (HexB1)
Tomato sauce (1)

At the cinema: Graze chocolate orange - orange chocolate raisins, orange infused raisins, big chocolate buttons, and jumbo raisins (181cals/9syns) Lower than popcorn or pic and mix

Tea: Quorn meatballs
Tomato sauce- carton of tomatoes, onion, peppers, and garlic
Spaghetti/pasta
Salad
Halloumi (HexA1&2)
Dressing

Drinks: Coffee. Coke Zero. Squash.

Syns used:
No syns saved seen as I'm having a day off tomorrow

 

[Barbette]

I've made the pizzas using the square wraps, 8 syns but worth it as they are quite big and make a brilliant thin and crispy base, I've got some in the freezer so might make one for tea tomorrow with salad and SW chips You've done it again, made me want a food you've mentioned on here lol.
I hope you enjoy your trip the pictures, I'm sure it's quite relaxing as you won't be disturbed by anyone. When I go with Ian he wants to chat and I then growl at him ha ha ha ha. x x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

I think for a fast day they're too big/calorific. Would rather have a small pizza with a BIG salad!

Sorry about the food enabling lol!

Soooo, today went really well until I had a handful of M&M's and now I'm eating some of the biscuits I won from work Oh well, it's almost my birthday and well, f*ck it

Had a lovely evening with my friend and tea was very nice - I pretty much made it And we got in two eps of Sherlock.

I really enjoyed going to the cinema alone too I could just chill and not worry about whoever I was with and if they were enjoying some bizarre thing I'd made them watch! I really liked the film too. Not entirely sure it deserves ALL those Oscar nominations, but it was a good film. Everyone was fantastic, but Christian Bale and Amy Adams were incredible!! Shame we didn't see more Jennifer Lawrence, but I love her anyway so didn't matter.
And the hair!! The hair in that film should win Oscars lol!
Think I'll be going alone to the cinema every so often now. Esp if there's something I really want to see. Our Cineworld is a bit rubbish and gets rid of things very quickly. Have missed quite a lot of films trying to get time to go with other people.

So yeah, apart from some M&M's and biscuits the rest of my food diary is right

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Feel a bit sick now.... :jelous:

 

[Tetris]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (again but, y'know... Just to remind others to wish you one!)

I frigging LOVE Jennifer Lawrence! Amy Adams is just lovely though! She reminds me so much of Isla Fisher and Nicole Kidman... Perfect cross!
Glad you enjoyed cinema on your own- I do too! It's peaceful x

 

[Barbette]

Happy Birthday :birthday: I hope you have a wonderful day and enjoy yourself x x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Thanks guys!
Have had a really good day, thank you

We had brunch this morning after stopping at the pet shop for a few bits to get me by till pay day. God I hope they pay me properly this month!!!
Went to see The Wofl of Wall Street - such a good film!! A bit long (3hrs!!) but it didn't really feel like that long and the acting was superb. Lots and lots of funny moments too! Really good to see Leo in a comedy-ish role. I can see why it's getting so much attention!
Came back home and we did cards and presents. I got so much!!
From Mum I got a commissioned piece of art her work friend did for her - drawings of some Studio Ghibli characters The plaid sneakers from Aldo, wellies with reindeers on, some blu-rays, Lush, The Body Shop hair stuff, and Hotel Chocolat.
And from Rachelle and John I got the vintage Swedish reindeer necklace I'd whinged about for aaaaages A Nordic style cushion, dvd's/blu's, comics, a reindeer mug and cute spoon set (the spoon is a reindeer and it has little arms to hook on to the mug!!!)
I've probably forgotten some stuff! Will have to have a look in the bags again tomorrow lol.
Michelle got me The Way Way Back on Blu and some Malteser Bunnies Apparently I have another small present and something coming from Amazon too!
Tim & Caz got me a bottle of Red Stag Black Cherry and a cute squirrel tea light holder.
Martin's promised me a present when he works out what to get me
And my friend Chiu-Yee sent me some socks with bunnies on, Green and Black's, and a Lush gift voucher towards my saving up for a spa treatment fund lol.

Very very pleased with everything and feel very spoiled! Have also eaten way too much!!

Have a bit of a confession and I wont be able to be fully on plan tomorrow. I didn't know they'd bought me a cake, so had dessert out. And there's no way I'm not going to have any of my own birthday cake! So tomorrow's meals will be SW/low syn and then some cake. Going to attempt a fast day on Thursday I think.
It's Michelle's birthday party on Saturday, so that evening will be off plan too. Not a great week SW wise, but I can minimise the damage a little. Also, at least I re-started last week and got a good start and loss. Would dread to think where my weight would be if I hadn't! So yeah, lets do this week the best I can then a 100% week next week

See you all tomorry and thank you for my birthday messages.

Oh Tetris, I've had two birthday poo's today xx

 

[cheekychinchilla]

My 2 main presents, probably!

Studio Ghibli characters


Vintage Swedish necklace

 

[Tetris]

Love the necklace! Wow you did well
Totally understandable to.have some of your own cake and you are so right- if you hadnt restarted last week you could have had whatever was in reach without hesitation! A fast day or two should sort you out... Low cal/high cal days to confuse your metabolism and all!
Glad you had such a great time were Tim and Caz there? How was it if so? X

 

[Barbette]

Of course you've got to have some of your Birthday cake, goes without saying ha ha ha ha. You got some lovely presents, like your necklace and the picture is really nice, a one off. My kids love studio Ghibli as well. hope you have a good day today as well x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Hey guys!
Feeling pretty down today. Think it's mostly worrying about work. I'm doing late shifts this week (5-8 coz I'm still on reduced hours ) and it will be the first time since going back that I'll have the emergency phone and have to deal with reception by myself during emergency times. Dreading it! Also can't help but panicking more and more about the weekend shift next week. What if I just can't cope?! I don't expect he first two weekends to go very well if I'm honest. But I just don't feel like I have any support at work and will be expected to do everything at full speed and stuff. Well, if the chat with my manager is anything to go by, that is exactly what is expected

I did have a good night last night. Tim messed up his shifts and only made it in time for dessert. Caz was there. It was fine, just didn't get much of a chance to talk really. But it was ok. I really don't think whatever is going on with them is being done on purpose. I think they're busy and just don't realise it. I think it will probably come down to me to "fix" it seen as it seems to be mostly my issue - coz they don't seem to see it. I'll invite myself round to meet the new dog sometime soon.

I love all my presents. Well, the squirrel's a bit odd lol. But it is nice!
I wish I could wear necklaces at work, but I wouldn't want to risk them getting damaged or lost. Loads of people in work do wear necklaces and seem ok. But my favourite necklace, the only one I really wear, the rabbit was made by a local artist. And now the reindeer is kind of a one off too. Just too risky! It would be nice tho.

Yeah I feel ok about a couple of days off plan with doing so well last week. I think I'll only manage one fast day this week, but most other meals will be on plan. And I'll prob only have a couple of drinks at Michelle's party on Sat. I know I can't drink much any more. Always been a lightweight, but it's been much worse since I got ill. So will probably take a couple of Swedish ciders and a big bottle of Diet Coke for the rest of the time Dunno about food! Me and Rachelle will be the only veggies so I dunno what we'll have to choose from.

Rachelle and John didn't want to take any of my cake! But they've bought me quite a big red velvet cake! I wont see any friends before the weekend, probably, so just me and Mum eating it Wish they'd have gotten me something smaller!! I know I sound ungrateful, but it's difficult to be on plan with a bloody big cake that's yours looking at you!!!

Right, need to sort the bunnies and get ready for stupid work. Cheerio for now.xx

 

[Barbette]

I hope wasn't as bad as you expected to be and everything went well. Do you think you could talk to your boss about your worries about the weekend coming up?
And good luck with the yummy cake x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Hey!
I honestly think that if I spoke to my manager she will say that I have no choice and they need me up to speed. I mean there's nothing anyone could actually do! Last week's 'chat' didn't fill me with confidence
Luckily the VCA I'm paired with on weekends is lovely and keeps telling me not to worry. I swear she hugs me every time I see her lol! And one of my other close work friends is the permanent weekend nurse. So I will have some support. I just know what happens when the weekends kick off and it's a case of every man for themselves! But, worst case scenario, the place is a tip when we go home. As long as the animals are looked after and the staff survive that's a good outcome! I think I'm worrying more because it's been so long since I've done one and from what I've heard from people is they're just getting busier and busier! Will just have to do what I can and see how it goes.

Last night was ok. The phone didn't stop! So didn't really get a chance to do much else. I met one of the new evening cleaner/auxiliary people yesterday. They're training this week, but from Sunday it means the VCA's will have some support 5pm-9pm. I'm VERY excited about this!!! The girl I met yesterday was fantastic and didn't actually leave me with that much to do anyway. And I got some help from the private vets team too - they answered the door and their head nurse put a lot of my clients on the waiting list for me. After 6:30 I'm the only PDSA staff left! And some times it can get rather overwhelming, but they were great

I've decided I'm not going to try and do any fasts this week. I'm feeling quite down and my head really isn't in the right place. I think it will be SW meals with some naughty treats. Want to get the temptations out of the way and start completely fresh on Monday.
So next week I think I will do two fast days and the rest completely SW. I dunno if I will have any eating out plans or anything, but I will save syns. Think I would like to do a complete 100% week without a day off this time. Really kick start it all Shouldn't be too difficult coz I'm in work Mon-Wed in the mornings and then the whole weekend, so not much chance to eat out and I generally do very low syn meals for work lunches anyway. So, fingers crossed when I WI Sunday morning at work I'll get a nice surprise.

So yeah, I wont do food diaries or anything for the rest of this week. But SW meals and getting rid of birthday cake, chocs, biscuits, etc...

 

[Barbette]

It sounds as though they just want you to go at their pace and not your own I'm glad you have got some nice, supportive staff there are well and the VCA sounds lovely and just the person you need around on your first weekend.
I think you're right about the fasts, if you're not a 100% with it it wouldn't work and then you'd feel worse or let down. I think if you stick to SW 100% this week with naughty snacks it shouldn't be too bad, it's only like using your syns every day. And hopefully you'll be back where you want to be mind wise next week. I hope you're naughty snacks and cake it is your birthday week after all x x x

 

[Tetris]

How about taking the remaining cake into work? I know it's impossible to bin perfectly good cake, but no use staring at it/feeling guilty for overindulging or letting it give you cravings by staring you in the face might brighten up some colleagues' day?

I totally get you on the no fast front- you do need to be in the mood for it. If you're feeling low that can really have a physical effect too, need food to keep you going more so than when you feel fine.
Hope you feel better soon though!

I get what you mean about Tim and Caz... To be honest, I had a time recently with Paris, busy busy xmas and friends stuff back to back where I realised I hadn't text my friend back about meeting up for like a MONTH- felt really bad but it was just a super busy time! This stuff happens... Easy to pop to the cinema with someone you live with when you have an evening off without proper notice, but inviting a whole crowd and trying to work around their schedules too quickly makes things difficult. Hope things sort out with them soon, does sound like things were a bit awkward still but glad they made the effort to come over on your bday

x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Work was absolutely mental! I felt like I was being pulled in a million different directions! We were very very busy and short staffed. Also most staff leave by 5:30 and I was the only VCA after then with 2 vets still consulting (very busy waiting room!) and a nurse needing help. I didn't get my break at all! I usually try to take it before I get the emergency line at 6:30 coz I know it's very rare that's quiet, but no chance. I was helping with a dog being put to sleep when it was my turn for the phone and the poor receptionist had to stay late! In the end I made a cup of coffee in the staff room and went back occasionally for a quick sip between calls or helping someone.
The phone did not stop! Much, much worse than yesterday. Was about ready to start beating people to death with it!

The only issue I have with the VCA I share my weekends with is that she doesn't keep on top of stuff like cleaning kennels or cleaning and packaging surgical kits. The last weekend I did with her before I went off sick she was in the back and I ended up being dragged back, away from my job, to catch up on cleaning and stuff because everything had gotten so behind. And when stuff gets left it ends up my job when they leave when there's only me left in - again! So I will have to try and stand up for myself. I can't be doing two peoples jobs any more, I just can't do it! She's lovely, she really is, but the way she works is so very different from me!
And when it is crazy it is just a case of every man for himself and you end up having to do stupid things by yourself Why we don't have more staff on at a weekend I will never know! We're just getting busier and busier. We even took over an extra half a day (other hospital used to be open Sat morning for emergencies) of emergencies, but got no extra staff! It's insane.

I just don't feel in the right frame of mind to even be concentrating much on my food at the moment. Got a lot swirling round the old brain! But if I let myself have a few kinda off days and set my re-start as Monday I think I'll be able to focus more. And work will take up a lot of my time next week, so not much time for socialising and eating out lol!

Lol no, my work colleagues do not deserve any of my birthday cake!! Well, maybe one because she got me a present and a card, but she's not in again till Sat so I wont see her. It's nearly gone now anyway I don't feel guilty about it, I don't even really care if I'm honest

I understand people are busy and things happen. Just still hurting over the last few months and them seeming not to care that I was in hospital or anything. Think it's going to take a while to fix this

Absolutely exhausted, feel like I was in work forever, not just 3 hours!! The put to sleep was quite emotional and it nearly broke me. It's always so much more worse when it's a guy and he cries!! :cry:So feel emotionally and physically drained after today.
Stopped at Morrison's on the way home and picked up some nice things for my tea tomorrow night. I'll be home alone with the dogs and like to have a nice tea when I'm on my lonesome. Probably not particularly SW friendly, but not horrific, and definitely better than the chippy tea I really want

Just watching Jurassic Park

 

[Tetris]

Putting the dog to sleep mst have been awful so sad just thinking about that! I would have been bawling have you had to be there for that sort of thing before?

The Tim and Caz thig sounds really hurtful, even if unintentional... They have some making up to do before that feels OK again I bet.
X

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Oh God yeah, I do PTS' all the time! Just part of the job. Most of the time it's ok, but every so often one will get to you. I remember one weekend I did 10 in a row, without seeing normal patients in between, even had one each on either side of the double room at the same time at one point. That was awful! By the end of it I was just sat on the floor leaning against the wall staring off in to space.
You always, always need someone with you when you're putting an animal to sleep. You just can't physically do it alone, unless it's pretty special circumstances, and it's usually a VCA who holds the animal and assists the vet. So it's an every day thing for me. Usually multiple times a day! Oddly though I think this is only my second since starting back at work. You tend to do more when you're on consultations and on out of hours/emergency shifts. Just the way it goes! Big part of my job that.

Yeah I don't doubt for a second that it's unintentional from my friends. They seem to live in their own little bubble at times and it's quite hard to break in to! I know they haven't seen Martin or their other friends very much recently either and have only been in touch with Michelle to ask her vet questions. So yeah, they are just a bit crap. Not nice and usually I can cope with it, just a bit sensitive atm It's all gone down hill since I split up with John for some bizarre reason! Probably coincidence, but yeah...

Anyway, Jurassic Park's just finished so I think I'm going to take myself off to bed to read for a bit. Last 5-8 shift tomorrow and I'm off for 2 days xx

 

[Barbette]

Bl@@dy hell that sounded like a hectic shift, no wonder you're exhausted!! It's not always the amount of hours you work but the intensity, I hope it's a little calmer tonight and you get plenty of rest over the weekend. I would definitely stick for yourself next weekend you can't do 2 people's jobs.
Hope you have a good weekend off x x

 

[cheekychinchilla]

Tonight was a little better. Much quieter on the phone! Actually got to do some proper work too
I was really stressed by the time I got there. One of my bunnies looks a bit 'off' and I'd sorted them out just before I left. And getting to work was ridiculous! The traffic was absolutely insane. I probably left about 5mins later today and it was crazy! Only just got in on time!
Luckily consults were finished and the waiting room empty by 6 - that doesn't happen often lol! And I actually got a break today.
Had a bit of a run in with a member of staff from the private vets team. Her opinion of our clients really got my back up. It's basically the opinion most of the country now seems to have about people on benefits. Makes me so angry!! I got my point across and let it drop. Some people are just very ignorant of other people's situations and have these horrible views of people from bad experiences with a few idiots. Unfortunately, like with any job, the horrible and nasty people stand out. But I fully believe and will always fight in the corner of our clients being mostly genuine and grateful for the service we provide. This thing we have for 'scroungers' thanks to our lovely government and these ridiculous 'documentaries' is getting out of hand!
I have been on all sides of this argument. When we were younger my Mum had the 'right' benefits and we could use PDSA. When I was out of work with depression I wasn't on the right benefits and Mum wasn't working, so I had to always use private vets. And my animals never went without and the dogs insured!! And now I work and am lucky enough to work in veterinary and get a decent reduction in my vet bills.
I am always, always arguing for people on benefits! Some people are just incredibly ignorant and lack any sort of compassion. Wrong job to be in if you ask me

Anyway.... yeah, it wasn't too bad! And the lady who took over from me is lovely and I'd not seen her in aaaaaages so I stayed for 20mins having a catch up.

I was a bit naughty (a lot) and stopped for wine and garlic bread on the way home. Holy crap that wine hit me quickly!! Had 2 glasses Will finish it before Monday

Oh don't worry, I won't be unnecessarily pushing myself over next weekend. I don't doubt I will get mega stressed, but I'm not willing to or physically capable of doing two people's jobs. Maybe they'll realise how much I WAS doing before I went off sick.

I had to restrain a rather large, but nice, rottweiler today and it was fine. My poor knees were protesting a bit, but I felt ok. She was a very, very good dog. Seems to be rotty week in work this week lol! It's odd how we have a run of breeds or illnesses.
No pts' today. Huzzah! And I even got to snuggle an 8 week old Akita. Holy crap that was just the fuzziest thing I'd seen in ages He was adorable
While the vet was talking to the owners I was keeping him busy and trying to stop him from hurling himself off the table - like they do! So was playing with his feet, squishing his cheeks, and copying his yawns. He was so God damn cute!! Good owners too, were worried about something and brought him in straight away. No d*cking about for a week waiting to see if it fixed itself!! The dog was fine as well

Anyway, had a nice evening in with the dogs. Had my nice "surviving work" tea and wine. And coffee and some chocolate watching Rise of the Guardians. Got the Blu for my birthday. I'm the Easter Bunny, mate

Just doing some research online. Hopefully going on holiday in Oct to somewhere warm with Mum. Yay!! So, obv, will be setting target for then!

I read the first chapter of 5:2 Diet book last night and I have to say it's very interesting. It sounds like it is such a healthy way to live and it could actually help prevent you from getting some really nasty illnesses and diseases. Feeling even more enthused about it now and also very much looking forward to re-re-starting on Monday Will do fasts on Tues and Thurs I reckon.

Right, gonne go and read for a bit.
Cheerio for now.xx