Chelle Vs the Blub!! to be continued..!

[chelle_powell]

Wow ladies, thank u! xx

Hey chelle,

Just dropping by to say hi. Good to hear you've got a new plan. Soz to hear you had a pants day though. I knw what you mean about comfort eating. Damn carbs. Have you tried the Paul McK cd? Can send you a copy in post if you haven't. You can do it alongside an eating plan I think. xxx

Hey hun, I've got the P Mck book & CD, but thanks soo much for offering Really appreciate that! I'm trying to apply the principles, but as always things sound easire than they are lol!! xx

Hey stranger

How ya doin!!

Caz x

Caz!!!!! Hugs!!
How the devil are u hun??? Wow, CDC now!! AM soo jealous!!! Have u reached ur target now? It's been too long!!

Hugs xx

Hey Chelle, sorry your having a hard time, get yourself to the docs if the pain isnt shifting....honestly, wat are u and lottie like?!??!!!

As for training hubby....I bet you will give up on that one pretty soon!! If you havent house trained him by now he is probably a lost cause!

Hope you feel better real soon hun!

I did as I was told and went DR lol
Oh, he's learning fast that he needs to shift his skinny butt otherwise 'Nasty Chelle' rears her ugly head - and beleive me it's not a sight for the weak hearted lol!!!
Much better now, Thanks hun xx

Oh, and being sane is WELL overrated....trust me...I know as I am TOTALLY 100% sane
:crazy: :bliss:

LMAO!!!! Well sane isn't something I'd ever as called u hun - maybe a lil' crazy?? lol! j/k!
Who needs sane... pass me the pills lol! hahaha

I hope that you are feeling better hun, am feeling cr@ppy too - body feels really old!! Need some of your get up and go Kazz!!

Hope u're feeling better too! I'm feeling old - I think it's the decorating - moving muscles I haven't in years!
I agree - Kazz gimmie some of ur energy!!!!
Ohh Lottie, have u heard - Kazz has a man in tow!!!!!!!!!!!!

xx

Hi hon,
:sick:
hope you're feeling better today, don't worry about not following your plan you will sort that out quick enough when you're well again. Look after yourself. Hope OH is being nice to you.

Lots of hugs to make you better.
xx

:grouphugg: :needhug:

hey Dawn, thanks hun!
He's been gr8, albeit dodgin decorating lol!! No, he's been brilliant, really supportive. Thanks hun!
xx

 

[kazz]

Oi madam I do not technically have a man in tow!!! Well, ok, maybe a little lol Dunno wat ur like implying I'm a lil crazy either lol!!

Are u coming to Dublin??? U shud if ye can, will be coooooool!!

Glad you managed to get the bathroom done...I'm trying to put off decorating my place lol....hhhhmmm, wonder if the man who I dont have in tow could help lol

Also VERY glad you got yourself to the docs hun, sometimes you have to admit you need sumtin other than ur own thoughts to make you feel better!!

 

[Lottie-kins]

Ohh Lottie, have u heard - Kazz has a man in tow!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know, I'm loving it. I have to live dating through other people these days and so I love reading about prospective potentials!

It's very exciting!!!

Beats talking about SS as well (although I know thats why we are here!!).

XXX

 

[dawntinkler34]

Hey Chell,

bathroom sounds nice. my hubby doesn't know what a paint brush looks like he he. Any way i find if we have a good row (like we did the other day) i get loads done because i'm so mad i take things out on the work surfaces LOL. my kitchen is now sparkling thanks to my hubby and his stropps.

xx

 

[dawntinkler34]

Hi Chelle,

how's it going hon???

I am doing ok. Up and Down. I have realised i do fab at work cos my mind is focussed on other stuff it's at home when nobody around that i struggle. I really need to sort my head out don't i cos that's secret eating oh dear!!

Anyway hope everything is good hon.

x

 

[Gen]

Hey honey... hows things going with ya??? haven't been around much lately but i'm back on track now so fingers crossed i'll be around a lot more!!!

any news or gossip???

love

Gen xxxx

 

[chelle_powell]

Pounds gained, but moving onwards & downwards

Well, weekly weigh in on Sunday revealed I had gained 3lbs , so back upto 14st 2lbs - not surprising really as I've been eating anything I could get my hands on. After soo long of being on/off ssing (approx 1 1/2 yrs!!) my head is in "grab it while u can" mode - it's not really caught up with the fact that I won't be going back to ssing again - it's just not for me anymore.

Did anyone see "the truth about size zero" last night? Louise Redknapp did an experiement to get into a US size Zero (size 4 uk). She started at a tiny 7st 13lbs (size 8/10) and upon completing the challenge she weighed 6st lllbs (size zero). She basically exercised a few hours a day and ate no more than 800cals - simply fresh veg and fish for 30days.
Anyway, the thing I foung interesting was that she presumed that once she stopped the experiement, she could return to her normal eating pattern - however she was advised against this as her dr said she would basically put on fat - and she would have to do a 2 1/2 month re-introduction of food to make sure the muscle to fat ratio gain was adequate for her body size. She felt herself actually liking the feeling of being hungry - but she was mentally foggy, tired, irritable and her hair, skin and eyes were all showing symptoms that her body wasn't happy.
Well, my point is simply how easy it can be to fall into 'eating disorder' trap (even for someone who is healthy & who previously had a good attitude to diet and fitness) - which I currently am finding myself in. For the last few days, I've been eating things I don't normally eat (dairy,sweet stuff) all because there's a little voice inside me that says "don't worry u can lose it all again on CD - look how much u lose in ur first week!" I know only too well that if I were to go back to CD, I would not do it - I'd maybe get past a month at a push, but then I'd do my 'usual trick' of thinking I can "get away" with the odd meal - and BANG, back to square one!
I've realised I have to totally change my attitude to food - rather than abstinance, I need to face this head on and learn to love my body and realise it's not worth putting crap into it. I have to loosen the reigns on my diet also - being strict makes me binge, simple as! So, anything I normally cut out completey is allowed - dairy, sweet stuff, bread, potatoes, sauces - everything except meat cos I'm a veggie lol!

Crap in = crap out (tired, lethargic, spotty, cravings, moody, nasty, bitter, depressed, angry, teary, greasy hair, weak nails) - so why do I insist on doing it to myself eh????
I've gathered all my dieting books, pills, milkshakes - anything u can think of I have it - and it's actually made me quite sad to think of how much money I've wasted on this stuff and actually how miserable it's all made me.
But not to worry! I've managed to pull it back and lose 2lbs (14st) - generally just eating what I want. I still feel a hell of a lot of guilt eating - I've somehow assosciated "eat food=bad person=binge=guilt." This is a viscious circle that I'm determind to break once and for all. Diets don't work for me, so the way forward is to relax around food, make the best of who I am and what I've got and if I lose weight in the process, it's a bonus. And strictly weigh only once a week as to not get too hung up on the scales lol!! (think I'm addicted to them!)

Have a good day everyone!

Much love, hugs, chelle xx

 

[Roch]

Hope u feel better soon hun and get over the flu. Well done for sorting out things emotionaly 2 do with your eating habbits u sound like u r in the right place to lose this last 40lbs.
Take care and chat soon x

 

[chelle_powell]

Oi madam I do not technically have a man in tow!!! Well, ok, maybe a little lol Dunno wat ur like implying I'm a lil crazy either lol!!

Are u coming to Dublin??? U shud if ye can, will be coooooool!!

Glad you managed to get the bathroom done...I'm trying to put off decorating my place lol....hhhhmmm, wonder if the man who I dont have in tow could help lol

Also VERY glad you got yourself to the docs hun, sometimes you have to admit you need sumtin other than ur own thoughts to make you feel better!!

Hehe he - well u do now!! lol
Dublin - it's a 'maybe' - I'll know nearer the time (I bet every hotel will be booked up by the time I know lol!).
I'll come and decorate for u - I love it, it's soo theraputic!!!
Hope all is well xx

Hi Chelle,

how's it going hon???

I am doing ok. Up and Down. I have realised i do fab at work cos my mind is focussed on other stuff it's at home when nobody around that i struggle. I really need to sort my head out don't i cos that's secret eating oh dear!!

Anyway hope everything is good hon.

x

Hey hun, I understand completely! My only advice is to not assosciate food with guilt. If u have something, make it a conscious decision and not something thrown into ur mouth in the mist of a binge. Thats way, u recognise what u're doing and then food doesn't become the enermy! It's funny that this should come up as I've just wrote a post on eating disorders. Please learn from my mistakes, bingeing and eating in secret is not a good road to travel on. The great news is that u've recognised it and u can catch it early and stop it!!
Keep intouch hun, if I can help I'll be more than happy too.
xx

Hey honey... hows things going with ya??? haven't been around much lately but i'm back on track now so fingers crossed i'll be around a lot more!!!

any news or gossip???

love

Gen xxxx

Hey stranger!
Great to see u back hun!! Well done on getting to day 3, thats brill!!! U certainly sound in the right place for this diet. Keep intouch!!
xx

Much love, hugs, chelle xx

 

[dawntinkler34]

Hey Chelle,

I know exactly what you mean about unhealthy attitude!! I am pretty sure that most of us on here have been there at some time before!! I simply can't stop those feelings of guilt creeping in when i feel like eating food. I just don't know what the answer is?

I hope your journey gets easier. Keep in touch tho!!

xxx

 

[chelle_powell]

The great big dilema.....

So.... hubby tells me I can go back on CD should I want too(he's just cashed some shares in and it will pay off a few things a leave a small amount 'spare'). This has completely sent me into "eat everything quick" mode - and I haven't even decided; 1 - if I actually WANT to go back onto CD or 2 - whether the money would be better spent on something thats needed.
Hmmm, what do I do?????!! I'm still 14st - nothing fits tho, I bagged up all my big clothes and got rid of them when I reached 13st 4lbs. The only pair of trousers that do fit are now shredded - washed the car the other day and fell over and ripped my pants to shreds (not to mention busted up my knee!) - wasn't funny at the time lol!! So the point being my wardrobe is full of smaller clothes (10-14) and I refuse to buy anything bigger. I've tried dieting alone, and it's been pointless - everyday has been a "lets start tomorrow" - typical of my dieting life.
What the hell do I do??????!!!!
To make it even worse, it's my father in-laws retirement meal next Thursday (just FIL, MIL, BIL, hubby & me - so not a room full), and if I do start CD I want to do it now and get into my clothes again, not have to wait until next friday, but then it's going to cause all sorts of problems for hubby if I don't go. If I go I'll have to eat, and I know if I'm on CD and eat then thats it, the roller coaster begins all over again - so I probably wouldn't go.

I know deep down that CD is probably the only way I'm going to lose weight - I like abstinance, the feel good glow of ketosis and seeing the pounds fly off. My head keeps telling me to be sensible about this, that this is definately the last time so has to be the golden time as funds are limited - get it over and done with as quick as possible. But then I have this little inner voice telling me that why would this time be any different - I always fail. I keep asking myself, why can everyone else do this and not me???
It's never simple is it???

After reading that back almost sounds like I've decided to ss again. If I do ss then it really really has to be the final time for me, I can't keep putting myself thru this. I'm going to have to think seriously about it some more. Any advice.... anyone???

Mucho love, hugz, chelle xx

 

[Gen]

ok hun... you know what i have been through since August so won't go into it again and you have been similar....

what i will say to you is this... if you feel cd is right for you now and you are in the right frame of mind... do it do it do it... and from what you have in your last post it seems you really do want to do it...

i'm on day 5 and feel great... it was obviously the right time for me.

if going out next week will set you back... don't go or go and don't eat.. they will understand... in time i'm staying away from my friends this weekend cos i just can't go because i have nothing nice to wear and its upsetting and hard but the rewards will be here very quick and are so worth it...

can't wait to hear what you decide... but do what is right for you!!!!

love

Gen xxx

 

[chelle_powell]

Hey Gen honey,

Thanks for that, really really appreciate it hun
I know if I go to the meal I'll end up eating (pressure from family & also the smell of the food) but if I don't go, FIL holds grudges (he has done for lesser things).
Still not sure, will have a think about it some more.
I kno all about having nothing to wear - I'm now wearing the same tatty trousers day in day out, complete with new big hole at the knee courtesy of falling over the other day lol.
I do kno I've seriously had enuff of food.

I'm sorry u're feeling upset hun, but like u said the rewards are definately worth it

Will let u kno what I decide as soon as I kno LMAO!!

Much love, chelle xx

 

[MissPiggyFi]

Hiya Chelle!

I don't know if you remember me, but we chatted last year on the dh site- Fionaxox from heald green practically down the road from you.

I lost 4 stone last year... but I'm back with my tail between my legs, and believe me I know EXACTLY how you feel. Last week I restarted cd, and a couple of days in found out H2B's submarine would be in for the weekend so I could go and see him. Just knowing that I was going made me fail once again, so I decided to eat, and I restarted on wednesday.

I know what you mean about going for a meal being all-or-nothing, I either have to not go at all and i'll be fine, or go and eat something.

Could you maybe just have chicken and veg so you aren't knocked out of ketosis? You could have lost the best part of a stone by then so I'm sure you wouldn't want to ruin it?

Obviously only you can decide, good luck whatever you decide to do!!

 

[chelle_powell]

Hiya Chelle!

I don't know if you remember me, but we chatted last year on the dh site- Fionaxox from heald green practically down the road from you.

I lost 4 stone last year... but I'm back with my tail between my legs, and believe me I know EXACTLY how you feel. Last week I restarted cd, and a couple of days in found out H2B's submarine would be in for the weekend so I could go and see him. Just knowing that I was going made me fail once again, so I decided to eat, and I restarted on wednesday.

I know what you mean about going for a meal being all-or-nothing, I either have to not go at all and i'll be fine, or go and eat something.

Could you maybe just have chicken and veg so you aren't knocked out of ketosis? You could have lost the best part of a stone by then so I'm sure you wouldn't want to ruin it?

Obviously only you can decide, good luck whatever you decide to do!!

hey hun,

I remember u!! Wow, it's been a long time
Thanks for the advice hun, really appreciate it. It's a tough one as once I've decided, if it's to do CD I'm an "all or nothing" girl and have to stay away from food (I have a bath when hubby has his tea lol!). I think I'm just going to have to decide on the day, and if FIL has a paddy at me then he can get one back lol!!
Keep intouch hun, it's great to hear from u again!!!

Much love, chelle xx

 

[dawntinkler34]

Hi hon,

you must do whatever is right for you. If you think CD is the answer then go for it. The only advice i can give is you must be totally committed to it cos its a waste of money otherwise.

I am giving myself an ultimatum, either do this or give my head a shake and do something else.

x

 

[chelle_powell]

Well, I was all geared up to SS today and then the mail arrived

My ex-employer is seeking legal action against me because they have over-paid me. I had to cease employment due to ill health and before I left I had 4 weeks on the sick (dr's notes). They've paid me my full wage, and are now demanding the 3/4 of it back or else they're threatening legal action. I didn't think anything of receivng my full wage as when I started employment I was given a letter outling that at the company director discresion u may be given full pay when on the sick. The prob is I don't have it to give back and we're living on one low-income wage (we have more going out than coming in atm)
Does anyone know where I stand with this or where I can get any free advice?? (Have posted this elsewhere to get as clued up as poss)

Anyway, completely thrown me off!! So I'm being good today, eating sensibly as it's looking like finances are taking another turn for the worst - it's always something isn't it????? Ever feel like ur life is like a flippin soap opera??? Well fed up!!!
On a brighter note I'm stopping the bingeing from today and if I feel like it I'm going to drink 2 litres of water before I take any action!

Hope u're all doing better than me lol!
Have a great weekend!

Much love, chelle xx

 

[dawntinkler34]

Hi Chelle,

Do you have any documents stating what would be paid for sick pay? It sounds like they are trying to bully you? Even if you do have to pay it back they have to accept what you can afford they cannot force you to pay the whole lot at once.

Please get in touch with citezens advice or a solicitor will give you half hour free advice. Also if you are low income you will be entitled to legal aid anyway from your solicitor.

Good luck hope it gets sorted hon.

x

 

[dawntinkler34]

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[chelle_powell]

Thanks hun!
I do have a document stating they pay SSP. I know they're trying to bully me, they weren't nice to me from the moment I decided to terminate my contract with them - it's a good job I'm tough as old boots lol!!!

Thanks again hun, am at the CAB first thing Monday morning.

Much love, chelle xx