bettiesrevenge
Gold Member
firstly That santa suit is HOT! where is that from?
secondly Oh honey......
- I am going to tell you what you would tell anyone else....dont be so hard on yourself for feeling so pee'd off. This is a totally natural feeling.
I know many people who have gone through the horror of waiting for IVF, of having their alloted cycles and even going privately.
Eventually, as trite and unlikely as it sounds some stars align and it happens.
It must be so hard being around people who are your age and popping out kids left right and centre. People who are going through similar issues perhaps, and maybe those who get knocked up by accident.
I think I did mention before, that I was told that I would have to have one ovary removed (I had a cyst that the "quacks" were scared would rupture the size of an apricot) That was shortly before I started CD the first time. I went on the hunt for some holistic help, I started taking agnus cactus and lost 4 stone...magically when I went for my last pre-op scan and it had all but disapeared (it was more like an almond if you ask me to begin with).Previously One lovely doctor told me, that I would probably never concieve naturally and not to hold out much hope of IVF as they would do clomid and metformin first... IVF was also not available in wirral unless I undertook radical lifestyle change - all that at the ripe old age of 30 - he even condesendingly suggested that I already had one child, so that's ok then, isn't it?
I was beyond devestated, though at the time, I was a single parent any case, so my hopes of having more children were kind of far fetched anyway. Then my sister had 2 babies in quick sucession and I was sad to begin with, but I could look after them without any responsibility and it was ace! I got to vent my maternal instincts cooing over them.
Then I met my husband, we didnt plan to get pregnant so quick, to be honest, we both thought the odds were so low anyway (he had a hernia in the army and the op nicked one of the tubes to his testicle, so he believed his sperm count was really low too.) We were kind of resigned to our misery so never paid much thought to it, we just kept things going along and without any precuations after a while, then 6 months before our original wedding date, I discovered I was up the duff!
I know you must feel like doctors think its your fault - I know I did because I used to take the pill continuously without a break so I would never had a period (because I hated them) and thats an indicator in PCOS and BOY did I get berrated for it, like - hello I am not even taking the pill I have not for over 10 years, why bollock me now?
Anyway - as bummed as you are, as bad as you feel. YOU will rise above this, YOU will get through this and YOU will get your dream. I truly believe, where there is a will there is a way...and tell your husband, if you need to pay privately then thats what you WILL do.
Deep breath and soldier on sister!
secondly Oh honey......
- I am going to tell you what you would tell anyone else....dont be so hard on yourself for feeling so pee'd off. This is a totally natural feeling.
I know many people who have gone through the horror of waiting for IVF, of having their alloted cycles and even going privately.
Eventually, as trite and unlikely as it sounds some stars align and it happens.
It must be so hard being around people who are your age and popping out kids left right and centre. People who are going through similar issues perhaps, and maybe those who get knocked up by accident.
I think I did mention before, that I was told that I would have to have one ovary removed (I had a cyst that the "quacks" were scared would rupture the size of an apricot) That was shortly before I started CD the first time. I went on the hunt for some holistic help, I started taking agnus cactus and lost 4 stone...magically when I went for my last pre-op scan and it had all but disapeared (it was more like an almond if you ask me to begin with).Previously One lovely doctor told me, that I would probably never concieve naturally and not to hold out much hope of IVF as they would do clomid and metformin first... IVF was also not available in wirral unless I undertook radical lifestyle change - all that at the ripe old age of 30 - he even condesendingly suggested that I already had one child, so that's ok then, isn't it?
I was beyond devestated, though at the time, I was a single parent any case, so my hopes of having more children were kind of far fetched anyway. Then my sister had 2 babies in quick sucession and I was sad to begin with, but I could look after them without any responsibility and it was ace! I got to vent my maternal instincts cooing over them.
Then I met my husband, we didnt plan to get pregnant so quick, to be honest, we both thought the odds were so low anyway (he had a hernia in the army and the op nicked one of the tubes to his testicle, so he believed his sperm count was really low too.) We were kind of resigned to our misery so never paid much thought to it, we just kept things going along and without any precuations after a while, then 6 months before our original wedding date, I discovered I was up the duff!
I know you must feel like doctors think its your fault - I know I did because I used to take the pill continuously without a break so I would never had a period (because I hated them) and thats an indicator in PCOS and BOY did I get berrated for it, like - hello I am not even taking the pill I have not for over 10 years, why bollock me now?
Anyway - as bummed as you are, as bad as you feel. YOU will rise above this, YOU will get through this and YOU will get your dream. I truly believe, where there is a will there is a way...and tell your husband, if you need to pay privately then thats what you WILL do.
Deep breath and soldier on sister!
). I'm not on CD (although I am on another VLCD) but your diary is quite inspirational. What does stand out throughout is that you're a strong woman; someone who will get to where they need to be because you have the strength to do so. You know where you're headed and you know that you'll have your turn at IVF when you get there. The frustration you feel in the meantime is understandable but these things will happen for you in time, so just focus on the end goal because it is getting closer. 
