Diary: Shroomfest - episode 2 - Experiencing the evil maintenance. :-)

[Lostris]

yay! congrats on keeping up with the walking and exercise hunni!
it must be catching, cos i've come down with the exercise bug too lol
well done with the eating too, but come on! hurry up and sort yourself a swimming cossie out. got no excuses to delay it now hun.
x

Hahaha!! It's contagious, beware

Spent about 4hours jumping up and down and doing weird dances @ bar yesterday on 1250kcal.. felt very faint this morning so decided I could have some more to make up for it (weird mind logic). I had chocolate sprinkles (hagelslag) on beschuit (hah!). You guys don't knw them do you? But here in NL Choco sprinkles are like.. the nr 2 thing to put on your bread (nr 1 is cheese XD)

Doing okay kcal was exept I've had 1000 already and still need to have dinner lol. Ahwell. Will make up for it tomorrow, trying not to count too obsessively anymore and just eat more 1 day and less another to balance it out.

Going to CDC to get weighed on Saturday. Curious to see how I've done really, especially muscle and fat wise. Fat'd better be down. I haven't eaten a lot of fatty things... and been workin out more. Yet I'm very, very nervous lol coz I've had treats too.

Ah well. We shall see.

xx

 

[Lostris]

After long a long think and after letting only Serena, my bestestforumfriendfromtheuk read this I've decided to put it on here. I hope it will help others overcome the troubles I've had and I hope it will inspire people to achieve the same.

My Slimmer of the Year NL - story. Took a lot of time to write, I really couldn't find the words. Please excuse the sore grammar, it's a rough translation.

Story Lostris

I wasn’t always this fat. In my primary school years I was bigger than most but in puberty I grew out of it. I weighed 65kilo’s and me and my sister went to the gym a lot.

When I was around 17 years old I met a boy and I ended up in a very bad relationship. This relationship lasted 1,5 years and drastically changed me as a person. I couldn’t control my emotions and I couldn’t let them out due to fear and shame so I turned to food.
When I was sad I’d go to the store and buy 10 euro’s worth of chocolate, crisps and other bad things. I’d eat it all when no one was watching, alone in my room.

After the binge I’d feel better for a few minutes but soon after that I felt even worse than I did before the binge. I felt stupid for eating so much. After a lot of ups and downs I was 105.4 kilo’s 3 years after that relationship.

In June 2008 I was fed up with being fat. I was almost 21 and I didn’t want to be ‘the fat girl’! It was holding me back from doing what I wanted to do!

I ordered a mountain of diet books (Atkins, weight watchers, etc) and thought I’d get to goal with those. After reading them I thought Atkins was too complex and after my Weight Watchers cake fell apart I decided to stop trying. In this time of my life I felt very negative and I felt very bad about myself.

I tried to control my eating, no more candy and more workouts but when the kilo’s didn’t seem to be coming off at all I quickly turned back to my emotional-binges.

Then I heard about Cambridge. I’d been browsing the web for diets and I found out someone I knew did Cambridge and lost a lot! My parents were very skeptical about the diet but my mum went with me to see my CDC. I was extremely nervous the first time we went to see her, we’d had email contact but I had no idea what she would be like. Luckily my CDC was a lovely, open and kindhearted woman who made me feel right at home. She explained the diet to me and I started on shakes that very day.

The First days were quite hard. I avoided food and was prétty moody. Luckily everyone at home was very supportive. I really needed this because my emotions were all over the place. I didn’t have any food to suppress them. The shakes were okay but they weren’t exactly emotional-binge-material.

At my first weigh in I’d lost a lot. I couldn’t really believe it but I was very happy with the results. I was very strict for the following weeks and the kilo’s started dropping off. I’ve had a lot of support in my student place too. They were quite worried about the ‘3 packs a day’-diet but once they’d read my Cambridge booklets they were assured and helped me through the hard times. They took everything I was going through in consideration and tried not to tempt me at all. I am very blessed to have so many wonderful people around me to support me.

My emotions started bugging me more and more and I’ve been through quite a bit of low points. During my Cambridge diet I’ve been working on controlling my emotions too which is, I think, why I’m able to maintain my current weight. I’ve been very strict for myself during this diet. At my birthday I had some add a meal foods but I didn’t have cake or anything else.
I had an add a meal weak every 4th week. I chose to do this because I am a person that likes savory food and, hating the soups, the shakes were terribly sweet. I also did this so I wouldn’t exclude food completely and because our foodlaws stated you should only SS for 3 weeks and then add food the 4th.

Around Christmas I had a hard time. Porridge had come out and I loved it! I’d decided not to eat on Christmas to show myself I could do it. I went into a bit of a dip though and ended up texting my CDC begging her for more porridge. She immediately called me back saying she only had 4 left but that I could come exchange sachets for porridge that very evening. I felt quite guilty about ‘bothering’ her during the holidays as I’d told her that I would not. J My CDC wasn’t bothered by me coming along to exchange sachets and she ensured me I wasn’t bothering her at all.

After about 5,5months of strict Cambridge-ness I reached my goal of 70 kilo’s in January 2009. This, for me, was a very beautiful moment because not only had I conquered the weight, I’d also conquered a big dark part of myself.

These days I am around 68 kilo’s and I’m very pleased with this. I want to drop a bit more and get to 65kilo’s but I want to find a good food-balance first. I think it’s very important to find out what foods are good and which are bad and what quantities you can have. I don’t want to end up binging again!

I have to admit that the person I see in the mirror takes some getting used to. There are moments I feel like 105.4 kilo’s again! I do not recognize myself in photo’s… I think my brain still needs to get used to me being slim but I’m sure it’ll catch up.. eventually.

I can shop at the H&M now, something I was unable to do for a long time. I went on a big shopping spree when I got to my goal! I love being able to shop in normal stores and not having to go to the ‘fatty shops’ or the ‘xxxl part of the store‘. I fit into size M for most clothes and m pants are size 10-12. I wish I felt more sure but
I have to admit, I’m not sure yet how I feel. I do feel a lot better about myself and my body now and I think that definitely is important!

The First time I went pants-shopping with my sister I started at 34/34 and ended up with 30/34. This would be a size 11, if this size exists. My sister fits into a size 10 and she looks so much slimmer to me than I do…. I almost cried, not uncommon for me to do in stores, except this time it were tears of joy.

My CDC asked me to participate in Slimmer of the Year. I felt very honoured and have entered. I am curious to see what happens!

 

[Oinkstop]

Wow what a great story. Thank you for sharing!

 

[Katycakes]

Lostris, you are a star.

Your posts always have so much sense and honesty, but this one made me feel all emotional (in a good way!!!). I am SOOOO happy for you and proud of you honey. Good luck with the comp and thank you for sharing, I hope you win and get to share this story with more people too... it could help so many. Big hugs.
xxx

 

[CeeKay]

what a fab story behind you hun.
congratulations for overcoming your demons, and becoming the new you!
xx

 

[Lostris]

Thanks so much guys!!

Means so much.. :cry:

xxx

 

[Serena A]

You are such an inspiration, you truly are xxx

 

[sleepybird]

Brilliant post! xxx

 

[Lostris]

You are such an inspiration, you truly are xxx

Thanks so much my dear xxx

Brilliant post! xxx

Thanks

Today was okay except I had a lot of chocolate peanut M&Ms. I'd walked past them 5 times, in different stores, and the 6th time they got to me. :copon:

Going to see CDC tomorrow for my after-diet Weigh In. Hope to not have gained fat weight, that would upset me though it'd probably be fair as I had a ton of M&Ms :'')

Other than that I had a fine day.

Went out on wednesday evening, stayed out till 2am. Oops. Was first tme ever for me and I had a great time :') Had to get up 7:30 though to get the waterdamage to my stuff assessed by some guy in a suit. He could arrive between 8am and 12 noon.. He didn't show till 10:45. There I was, grumpy.. all grodgy from going out lol

I;ll get 3/4 of my damages refunded, most likely, so it was worth the grump

Eh.. that's it for today?

xxx

 

[ApplySomePressure]

Good luck with the slimmer of the year! Hope you win it, you've already done great losing the weight!

 

[Lostris]

Thanks a lot!

I lost another 1,4kilograms of fat during my own mix of kcal counting and exercise on CDCs pro scales!!!!!!! Very very pleased about that!!!!! Means I can do it by myself, I can have treats I can have naughty food, I can have fatty stuff etc!! I'm quite pleased. Was up a bit in kilo's this morning but I've been having a weird time with TOTM so it's probably that.

Yay -1,4kg! ) (that's like.... 3 pounds.. yep 3.08 pounds)

xxxxxxxxx

 

[Lostris]

Bah. I really dislike the stats on the forum not being metric It's all messed up now. People will have to live with it being wrong LOL xD

Anyway. Had a good day today, foodwise. No binges, some snacks and having low fat pizza tonight (from ristorante, they make pizza legere and half of salami is 299kcal, still have 800kcal left so might have the whole thing if it fits.... omg ... pizza. yummy!)

Um.. Nothing else to say really... haha!

xx

 

[LellyCD]

Um.. Nothing else to say really... haha!
xx

you with nothing to say?? i don't believe it:8855:ha ha!

Hope you enjoyed the low fat pizza it sounded lovely, i didn't know there was such a thing, might have to investigate

xx

 

[Lostris]

you with nothing to say?? i don't believe it:8855:ha ha!

Hope you enjoyed the low fat pizza it sounded lovely, i didn't know there was such a thing, might have to investigate

xx

Ristorante Legere, it's on their website. They have like 4 different ones I think. Salami, Salami Ham and Mushroom, Tuna and Hawaii. All low kcal and low fat Between 299-330kcal per half pizza which really is quite decent

We have them here in the Netherlands but guess that;s not the UK hahah.

Good luck finding them xx

Have plenty to say but at school now

 

[Porgeous]

Pizza was one of my great discoveries, not nearly as high calorie as you might think when you go for thin crust. Sounds yummy!!

xx

 

[Lostris]

Pizza was one of my great discoveries, not nearly as high calorie as you might think when you go for thin crust. Sounds yummy!!

xx

Uhuh, uhu! Lovely isn't it.... I love pizza. When my CDC asked me my fav food I said pizza hahah!! On;y had pizza 2x in past err.. 4 -5ish weeks so not going overboard on it!

Doing good today, was down on the scales again this morning. Had a bit too many goodies last week so am glad the scales are going down.

I bought special K red fruit and have that for breakkie with 200ml of milk. It's quite nice and really quite filling Sadly it's also really quite expensive.... will be getting the chocolate one when this one runs out though, I really wanted that one but they didnt sell it at the store so will go to XL store next time (oh, the plans!!)

Went out to dinner with a friend yesterday and had pasta, bread, salad... it was all so lovely but I couldn't count it. I had about 1100kcal left over though so I reckon that should cover it

Trying to be a good girl today and not snack more than 150kcals worth. I want to taste allll the foods now I can and the ''desire to buy/have it'' it's quite annoying.

I'm trying to be strict on myself but it isn't always easy..

Ahwell..

Still haven't heard from CDC re slimmer of the year NL. I really want to be one of the chosen ones o) but I obviously have my doubts. My CDC told me, last saturday, that there aren't a lot of entries and they might let people send in for a longer period of time. She also told me my story had moved her a lot and that she was proud of the bigger purpose-thinglet I achieved.

xx

 

[KD]

Ristorante Legere, it's on their website. They have like 4 different ones I think. Salami, Salami Ham and Mushroom, Tuna and Hawaii. All low kcal and low fat Between 299-330kcal per half pizza which really is quite decent

I love Ristorante pizzas :clap: Usually have one a fortnight (more or less). Sometimes you can get individual ones which are quite big and suitable calorie wise for a dinner. Have it with a big salad and mayo (full fat cos I'm like that).

I don't buy low fat pizzas. Haven't seen them, but just get the 'normal' ones. They are my fav.

Mind you...do find they don't really satisfy me, usually leave me wanting more, but I can deal with that and try to have something to curb cravings to follow.

Yay for pizzas :clap:

She also told me my story had moved her a lot and that she was proud of the bigger purpose-thinglet I achieved.

I'd love to hear your story. When the time is right for you, maybe you can share it with us?

 

[Lostris]

I love Ristorante pizzas :clap: Usually have one a fortnight (more or less). Sometimes you can get individual ones which are quite big and suitable calorie wise for a dinner. Have it with a big salad and mayo (full fat cos I'm like that).

I don't buy low fat pizzas. Haven't seen them, but just get the 'normal' ones. They are my fav.

Mind you...do find they don't really satisfy me, usually leave me wanting more, but I can deal with that and try to have something to curb cravings to follow.

Yay for pizzas :clap:


I'd love to hear your story. When the time is right for you, maybe you can share it with us?

Hi hon,

Pizza's are amaaaaaazing *heart smileyface*. I never knew they had low fat ones till me and mum went to the stores, (I wanted pizza!!) and found them in 4 flavours. I am trying to do this whole low fat.. like, diet, though I still have some fatty things I try to keep most of the fat down. I still have a very high body fat % and fat in kg despite my losses and really want to get to a low body fat %s.

It's why I;m still going to my CDC once every while; she's got a cool electrode scale which really shows body fat better than any other instrument can (well except maybe full mri or body scan at hospital but......... )

I am also trying to work out more though it doesn't always... work out. Ha ha!

My story is on here a few pages back I'll quote it for you

I put it in my diary coz I'm not sure about putting it on the main forum and not everyone reads here so I can only hope those who'd feel... well, bad somehow for reading it, don't read it.

After long a long think and after letting only Serena, my bestestforumfriendfromtheuk read this I've decided to put it on here. I hope it will help others overcome the troubles I've had and I hope it will inspire people to achieve the same.

My Slimmer of the Year NL - story. Took a lot of time to write, I really couldn't find the words. Please excuse the sore grammar, it's a rough translation.

Story Lostris

I wasn’t always this fat. In my primary school years I was bigger than most but in puberty I grew out of it. I weighed 65kilo’s and me and my sister went to the gym a lot.

When I was around 17 years old I met a boy and I ended up in a very bad relationship. This relationship lasted 1,5 years and drastically changed me as a person. I couldn’t control my emotions and I couldn’t let them out due to fear and shame so I turned to food.
When I was sad I’d go to the store and buy 10 euro’s worth of chocolate, crisps and other bad things. I’d eat it all when no one was watching, alone in my room.

After the binge I’d feel better for a few minutes but soon after that I felt even worse than I did before the binge. I felt stupid for eating so much. After a lot of ups and downs I was 105.4 kilo’s 3 years after that relationship.

In June 2008 I was fed up with being fat. I was almost 21 and I didn’t want to be ‘the fat girl’! It was holding me back from doing what I wanted to do!

I ordered a mountain of diet books (Atkins, weight watchers, etc) and thought I’d get to goal with those. After reading them I thought Atkins was too complex and after my Weight Watchers cake fell apart I decided to stop trying. In this time of my life I felt very negative and I felt very bad about myself.

I tried to control my eating, no more candy and more workouts but when the kilo’s didn’t seem to be coming off at all I quickly turned back to my emotional-binges.

Then I heard about Cambridge. I’d been browsing the web for diets and I found out someone I knew did Cambridge and lost a lot! My parents were very skeptical about the diet but my mum went with me to see my CDC. I was extremely nervous the first time we went to see her, we’d had email contact but I had no idea what she would be like. Luckily my CDC was a lovely, open and kindhearted woman who made me feel right at home. She explained the diet to me and I started on shakes that very day.

The First days were quite hard. I avoided food and was prétty moody. Luckily everyone at home was very supportive. I really needed this because my emotions were all over the place. I didn’t have any food to suppress them. The shakes were okay but they weren’t exactly emotional-binge-material.

At my first weigh in I’d lost a lot. I couldn’t really believe it but I was very happy with the results. I was very strict for the following weeks and the kilo’s started dropping off. I’ve had a lot of support in my student place too. They were quite worried about the ‘3 packs a day’-diet but once they’d read my Cambridge booklets they were assured and helped me through the hard times. They took everything I was going through in consideration and tried not to tempt me at all. I am very blessed to have so many wonderful people around me to support me.

My emotions started bugging me more and more and I’ve been through quite a bit of low points. During my Cambridge diet I’ve been working on controlling my emotions too which is, I think, why I’m able to maintain my current weight. I’ve been very strict for myself during this diet. At my birthday I had some add a meal foods but I didn’t have cake or anything else.
I had an add a meal weak every 4th week. I chose to do this because I am a person that likes savory food and, hating the soups, the shakes were terribly sweet. I also did this so I wouldn’t exclude food completely and because our foodlaws stated you should only SS for 3 weeks and then add food the 4th.

Around Christmas I had a hard time. Porridge had come out and I loved it! I’d decided not to eat on Christmas to show myself I could do it. I went into a bit of a dip though and ended up texting my CDC begging her for more porridge. She immediately called me back saying she only had 4 left but that I could come exchange sachets for porridge that very evening. I felt quite guilty about ‘bothering’ her during the holidays as I’d told her that I would not. J My CDC wasn’t bothered by me coming along to exchange sachets and she ensured me I wasn’t bothering her at all.

After about 5,5months of strict Cambridge-ness I reached my goal of 70 kilo’s in January 2009. This, for me, was a very beautiful moment because not only had I conquered the weight, I’d also conquered a big dark part of myself.

These days I am around 68 kilo’s and I’m very pleased with this. I want to drop a bit more and get to 65kilo’s but I want to find a good food-balance first. I think it’s very important to find out what foods are good and which are bad and what quantities you can have. I don’t want to end up binging again!

I have to admit that the person I see in the mirror takes some getting used to. There are moments I feel like 105.4 kilo’s again! I do not recognize myself in photo’s… I think my brain still needs to get used to me being slim but I’m sure it’ll catch up.. eventually.

I can shop at the H&M now, something I was unable to do for a long time. I went on a big shopping spree when I got to my goal! I love being able to shop in normal stores and not having to go to the ‘fatty shops’ or the ‘xxxl part of the store‘. I fit into size M for most clothes and m pants are size 10-12. I wish I felt more sure but
I have to admit, I’m not sure yet how I feel. I do feel a lot better about myself and my body now and I think that definitely is important!

The First time I went pants-shopping with my sister I started at 34/34 and ended up with 30/34. This would be a size 11, if this size exists. My sister fits into a size 10 and she looks so much slimmer to me than I do…. I almost cried, not uncommon for me to do in stores, except this time it were tears of joy.

My CDC asked me to participate in Slimmer of the Year. I felt very honoured and have entered. I am curious to see what happens!

Tadaa

 

[KD]

Hi hon,
I am trying to do this whole low fat.. like, diet, though I still have some fatty things I try to keep most of the fat down. I still have a very high body fat % and fat in kg despite my losses and really want to get to a low body fat %s.

Don't want to mess up your plans, so feel free to ignore me, but do have some healthy fats. Fats get a bad press. Dietary Fat doesn't make you fat...too many calories do that, and sometimes when things are processed to make them low fat, they include a whole load of not so healthy things The recommended intake of fat is around 30%. The majority of which should be from healthy fats.

Okay...so you probably know all this, but just in case

It's why I;m still going to my CDC once every while; she's got a cool electrode scale which really shows body fat better than any other instrument can (well except maybe full mri or body scan at hospital but......... )

I am also trying to work out more though it doesn't always... work out. Ha ha!

My story is on here a few pages back I'll quote it for you

Love your story and you've done such a brill job. Done Cambridge the Cambridge way....novel idea

 

[Lostris]

Hiya,

Oh I do have healthy fats! I just choose not to have e.g. quiches with puff pastry when people here make them, dishes with a lot of cheese or fatty sauces, I have low fat mayo when I have mayo.

I have almonds from time to time and I use blabla extra healthy fat-butter (pf, expensive.) when I have butter.

I try to watch the fats and it's been working till now so I'm quite pleased. I don't cut them out completely though, really, I couldn't haha!! I just try not to buy the very fatty products. I have fish from time to time too, fishies have good fats

Thanks for your compliments re my story LOL @ novel!

xx