Sorry for the late update, I STS last night and I'm very pleased with that. Going to class wasn't so bad in the end, everyone was pleased to see me back.
I thought I might as well add my SW story, hopefully to encourage others and also myself if I'm having a down moment and look back on posts.
I've been overweight as far back as I can remember, although looking back on photos I wasn't *that* big when I was a child. But, I believed what all of the bullies at school and negative family members told me. I've always had mahoosive boobs and this only added to my problems, I was a DD cup when I was 10 years old, so you can imagine what all the kids at school used to say
I've been on and off diets since I was 11 and none of them have worked because I was always pushed into them by my mother. I never really wanted to do them. I would end up going on diets, doing well for a few months and then when I failed I would stuff my face with junk to spite my mum and make myself feel better. I also suffered from depression from around the age I began dieting and I turned to food for comfort. I thought if I made myself fat and unattractive I would be untouchable, and I sort of was in a way, although I wasn't particularly happy with it.
It wasn't until I was around 17 that I started to want to shift the weight. I hated my appearance and had zero confidence. With the help of Minx and another forum we used to be on, I lost around a stone before I went to university. This was the most I'd ever lost but it soon came to a plateau and I started to give up. When I was 18 I made a half hearted attempt to lose some weight by going vegan. I thought if I cut out meat, dairy and eggs I would automatically lose weight without having to try so hard, but I was wrong. I put loads of weight on as I kept discovering all the fatty, tasty, sugary treats I could bake and eat
University was not good for my weight. I BALLOONED. By my final year I couldn't bare to look at myself in the mirror, I had somehow become a size 22 without really noticing. I hated all of my clothes, despised every picture that was taken of me ( and that is a LOT, people at uni take photos EVERYWHERE!) and was generally unhappy with myself. I had given up on dieting, I felt that I was too far gone to really make a difference. Not long after finishing all my uni work I watched a programme on TV with my flatmate. I can't remember what it was called, but it showed a story of a really obese man. It genuinely got to me and upset me, I could see myself getting bigger still and I was scared. Thinking my diet was healthy enough as it is, I decided to start running in an attempt to shed some pounds. I have no idea if it really worked, I slacked off after a few weeks and never weighed myself to see the results.
Not long after Minx here started telling me all about SW. I hadn't realised quite how fantastically well she'd done, I was so proud of her. And the plan sounded so damn easy..and vegan friendly! Thanks to Minx's support I did the plan for a few weeks, went to visit her and went along to her SW class. I haven't really looked back since. SW doesn't feel like a diet to me, I can eat all the things I loved before. I never thought I would see the 12 stones, but here I am, only a few stone away from target! I'm determined to do it this time, take back some control of my life and to stay at a weight I'm happy with