Helen's quest for good health!

[GothGoddess]

We are here perched on your shoulder, guess I'll be the devil prodding you...the rest of the crew can be angels... I won't lead you into temptation, just prod you to be good...xx

 

[Mumma K]

I don't think saintly is in my vocabulary! X

Very true! Still comfier to lie down all the way despite more chance of coming a cropper! X

I did thanks and hope you did too x

My SW head has gone well and truly out the window.. I feel I have a devil on my shoulder telling me to eat anything and everything naughty in sight, like a whole packet of biscuits! At least I had to then tell Mark what I'd done as when he went to get some there weren't any left!

I need you all to be my angels on my shoulder and tell me why I want to do this, how much better I feel when to plan, how much better my skin is etc etc.

Whenever I have a goal it seems to go wrong as since I announced I was going away I haven't stopped going out! I am ignoring all goals and just trying to think about each day.

I haven't had a 100% day for so long as when I lost 2lb having been naughty I thought oh good I can be really naughty.. Doesn't work like that!!

I'm going for a 100% day today, have had breakfast, in the middle of making dinner and will cook a nice lunch before going to work.

Please if I haven't listed my food later chase me up for it, I don't feel I have my willpower back yet but I just want to get through today and once I've done a day it might be easier (I hope!) x

Bah... To that "SW head" going AWOL
I think goals put pressure on you full stop Helen
I know they do me, as does " Performing" scales wise
the minute I don't see at least a 2lb loss I'm like....I'm a failure
and then I'm looking for " a quick fix " which of course there isn't one

So, I'm here and I'm polishing my halo ready....

 

[Charleybarley]

My SW head has gone well and truly out the window.. I feel I have a devil on my shoulder telling me to eat anything and everything naughty in sight, like a whole packet of biscuits! At least I had to then tell Mark what I'd done as when he went to get some there weren't any left!

I need you all to be my angels on my shoulder and tell me why I want to do this, how much better I feel when to plan, how much better my skin is etc etc.

Whenever I have a goal it seems to go wrong as since I announced I was going away I haven't stopped going out! I am ignoring all goals and just trying to think about each day.

I haven't had a 100% day for so long as when I lost 2lb having been naughty I thought oh good I can be really naughty.. Doesn't work like that!!

I'm going for a 100% day today, have had breakfast, in the middle of making dinner and will cook a nice lunch before going to work.

Please if I haven't listed my food later chase me up for it, I don't feel I have my willpower back yet but I just want to get through today and once I've done a day it might be easier (I hope!) x

Hey Helen

You need to stop being so hard on yourself - I know all about the Devil and the Angel - I hear them everyday :devilangel:.

You have a social life a great one, you can't always worry about being good. But the mantra I try to live by (but usually fail with) is "be good when you can and have fun when you are out". I also try and limit the bad days to just bad meals. ie. If I know I am going out for a meal, then I used to think "ah well today is a write off" so I would eat whatever I fancied that day and not count it. I now try and be good for all my meals bar the one I know is going to be naughty.

I agree that you need to stop giving yourself targets and goals and aims - some people thrive off of deadlines and can be strong off of it but I, like you, feel the pressure of a target and end up self sabotaging - its like I have said in the past that monster inside me rears its ugly head and there is nothing I can do about it. Its your heart and mind versus your desire - desire usually wins hands down for me. But I start afresh each day and sometimes I win, sometimes I don't.

Its a long slog Helen and if you want to lose weight, you need to try and be a bit stronger with your mind to fight that desire. If you are actually happy with yourself, but you think you ought to lose more, then chill a bit - why not just be 80% good and 20% not, you can just maintain for the time being and then once you decide you might want to lose a bit more and get your SW mojo back, then you haven't gained in the process.

You have a lot on your mind with your body and the pain it is causing you at the moment, don't let your diet get you down as well.


:bighug:

 

[lsf666]

I'm here for you Helen x

Just text if you need me - or I'll be popping on here to nag for food too

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[shenzi]

I'm here for you Helen x

Just text if you need me - or I'll be popping on here to nag for food too

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Ditto from me 2 xx

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[lsf666]

Ditto from me 2 xx

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And Emma's REALLY GOOD at nagging

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[shenzi]

And Emma's REALLY GOOD at nagging

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Years of practice lol

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[HPSaucy]

We are here perched on your shoulder, guess I'll be the devil prodding you...the rest of the crew can be angels... I won't lead you into temptation, just prod you to be good...xx

Thanks for the prod you delicious devil, thanks for not leading me into temptation x

Bah... To that "SW head" going AWOL
I think goals put pressure on you full stop Helen
I know they do me, as does " Performing" scales wise
the minute I don't see at least a 2lb loss I'm like....I'm a failure
and then I'm looking for " a quick fix " which of course there isn't one

So, I'm here and I'm polishing my halo ready....

Not just your halo I need you to shove me with your spork!!

It's so true about goals causing too much pressure, taking each day slowly, thanks for your support x

 

[HPSaucy]

Hey Helen

You need to stop being so hard on yourself - I know all about the Devil and the Angel - I hear them everyday :devilangel:.

You have a social life a great one, you can't always worry about being good. But the mantra I try to live by (but usually fail with) is "be good when you can and have fun when you are out". I also try and limit the bad days to just bad meals. ie. If I know I am going out for a meal, then I used to think "ah well today is a write off" so I would eat whatever I fancied that day and not count it. I now try and be good for all my meals bar the one I know is going to be naughty.

I agree that you need to stop giving yourself targets and goals and aims - some people thrive off of deadlines and can be strong off of it but I, like you, feel the pressure of a target and end up self sabotaging - its like I have said in the past that monster inside me rears its ugly head and there is nothing I can do about it. Its your heart and mind versus your desire - desire usually wins hands down for me. But I start afresh each day and sometimes I win, sometimes I don't.

Its a long slog Helen and if you want to lose weight, you need to try and be a bit stronger with your mind to fight that desire. If you are actually happy with yourself, but you think you ought to lose more, then chill a bit - why not just be 80% good and 20% not, you can just maintain for the time being and then once you decide you might want to lose a bit more and get your SW mojo back, then you haven't gained in the process.

You have a lot on your mind with your body and the pain it is causing you at the moment, don't let your diet get you down as well.

:bighug:

Thank you so much for your lovely message, I know you struggle too and I think we're one and the same, it's so true what you said about trying to be good all day even if I'm going to be bad that night but I've found it impossible lately for some reason.

At least I know I can maintain as I've done it for the last 6 months!! My mind can't work out whether it is happy or not.. Head or heart.. Happy or want to lose weight.. Not sure?! Why don't I know what I want?!

Thanks again for everything and will catch up with your diary as I know you were struggling last week, hope you're okay x

 

[HPSaucy]

I'm here for you Helen x

Just text if you need me - or I'll be popping on here to nag for food too

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Ditto from me 2 xx

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And Emma's REALLY GOOD at nagging

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Years of practice lol

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Thanks for the nagging girls lol.

Seriously though, thanks so much, I'm sure you must be so bored of me, just really struggling lately, I'll get there, I don't want to put all the weight back on xx

 

[HPSaucy]

Well I've had a good day, resisted chocolate that kept being offered at work despite galaxy being my favourite but knew even though I could have had some within syns I then wouldn't want to stop so didn't give in to start with.

Hadn't had any HEA's so came home and had a lovely hot chocolate and hifi bars, lovely.

So 1/2 HEA short but I'm calling it Day 1 of 100%

Tuesday 16th October (L2)

Breakfast: LM rosemary & red onion sausages, baked beans, tomatoes & mushrooms, 2tbsp BBQ sauce (2.0)

Lunch: baked salmon with roasted tomatoes and bns (1.5 for mayo and Dijon mustard)

Dinner: tandoori lamb, basmati rice, Indian salad

Snacks: hot chocolate (1/2 HEA + 3.0), 2x rocky road hifi bars (HEB)

Drinks: squash & water

Total syns: 6.5

 

[lsf666]

Yey!!! No need for nagging - that all looks fab x

Day 2 will be fab too. I just know it

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[GothGoddess]

Sounds like the perfect 100% day to me, and well done on the resistance of the Galaxy... What is it about chocolate that makes us go weak at the knees? However, thanks to Kally I think I have found something that helps... Chocolate tea... I bought some from Sainsburys, but have despatched Jackie to Tesco for the finest one... I had never heard of it until Momma K told me about it, but now I am hooked... Syn free, and stops that craving...Have a great day two...xx

 

[HPSaucy]

Yey!!! No need for nagging - that all looks fab x

Day 2 will be fab too. I just know it

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Thanks lovely x

Sounds like the perfect 100% day to me, and well done on the resistance of the Galaxy... What is it about chocolate that makes us go weak at the knees? However, thanks to Kally I think I have found something that helps... Chocolate tea... I bought some from Sainsburys, but have despatched Jackie to Tesco for the finest one... I had never heard of it until Momma K told me about it, but now I am hooked... Syn free, and stops that craving...Have a great day two...xx

I don't like tea so not sure it'll help lol and also I like actually "eating" something, never used to be bothered about chocolate so don't know what's going on.. In fact I can't blame chocolate as I'd quite happily eat crisps and cheese etc!


I'm going for day 2 100% now, it's the organisation that is key, if I haven't planned anything or can't be bothered I just grab whatever I can that is fast and I can just shove in my gob!

 

[Charleybarley]

Thank you so much for your lovely message, I know you struggle too and I think we're one and the same, it's so true what you said about trying to be good all day even if I'm going to be bad that night but I've found it impossible lately for some reason.

At least I know I can maintain as I've done it for the last 6 months!! My mind can't work out whether it is happy or not.. Head or heart.. Happy or want to lose weight.. Not sure?! Why don't I know what I want?!

Thanks again for everything and will catch up with your diary as I know you were struggling last week, hope you're okay x

Things are better for me now. At the moment, the diet has taken a back seat but funnily enough even though it has not been at the forefront of my mind, I have found it easier to follow. I think I put food and eating on a pedestal, like its the most important thing in the world - I am eating lunch whilst already thinking and looking forward to dinner! If I think "cheese burger" my mind does not settle until I get "cheeseburger" but by putting other things ahead of it, it becomes less thought for food!

I understand what you are going through I have been there, but I don't know the answer, only you know the answer to that. All I know is you have lost a really great amount of weight so far, in fact you are the exact weight I want to be by February, I doubt I will do it, I am a bit too far behind now.

But if you keep going or if you stay where you are, its up to you. You just need to stop beating yourself up about it.

 

[Mumma K]

Thanks for the prod you delicious devil, thanks for not leading me into temptation x

Not just your halo I need you to shove me with your spork!!

It's so true about goals causing too much pressure, taking each day slowly, thanks for your support x

Spork is at the ready and waiting Helen

 

[HPSaucy]

Things are better for me now. At the moment, the diet has taken a back seat but funnily enough even though it has not been at the forefront of my mind, I have found it easier to follow. I think I put food and eating on a pedestal, like its the most important thing in the world - I am eating lunch whilst already thinking and looking forward to dinner! If I think "cheese burger" my mind does not settle until I get "cheeseburger" but by putting other things ahead of it, it becomes less thought for food!

I understand what you are going through I have been there, but I don't know the answer, only you know the answer to that. All I know is you have lost a really great amount of weight so far, in fact you are the exact weight I want to be by February, I doubt I will do it, I am a bit too far behind now.

But if you keep going or if you stay where you are, its up to you. You just need to stop beating yourself up about it.

Thanks again hunny, not sure what weight is on my stats as I never look at minis on my pc so I probably weigh more than that!

I'd say let's aim together for February however I've already said how useless I am at goals so won't put that pressure on me.

Like you said about the "cheeseburger" once I get something in my head its really hard to then not have whatever I'm thinking about and nothing else seems to satisfy me, but am pleased about today.

Will catch up with your diary when I can as I'm still at work so shouldn't really be on here! X

Spork is at the ready and waiting Helen

Thanks Kally x

 

[HPSaucy]

Day 2 isn't over yet but so far another 100% (just need to not eat anything when I get home!)

Had physio today before work so really achy and restless at the moment but I'm sure I'll feel the benefits soon (see positive thinking!)

Wednesday 17th October (L2)

Breakfast: 45g reduced fat cheddar (HEA) on toast (HEB)

Lunch: ww tortilla wrap (5.5), tandoori lamb, salad, 2tbsp el mayo (1.0)

Dinner: peanut curry (3.0), rice

Snacks: pineapple

Drinks: squash & water

Total syns: 9.5

 

[Mumma K]

Yay... To positive thinking there Helen

and I spot a nice cheeky peanut curry made it to the dinner table yum, yum

 

[HPSaucy]

Yay... To positive thinking there Helen

and I spot a nice cheeky peanut curry made it to the dinner table yum, yum

I really do love that peanut curry, I tend to make it all the time now as its so quick and easy and no marinating involved x