Hi Bev,
thanks for the message. I'd not thought about that for HexB. But I'm not too worried about them anyway - I eat so much fruit and veg I don't see it as a major problem. I am still sleeping loads - this has been a strange week so far. I have literally taken the bairn to school and then come back and slept all day. My appetite came back with a vengeance this weekend too - I think it must have been caused by all the codeine I was taking for my shoulder. i haven't taken any for nearly two weeks now though. So as a result, I annoyingly put on 2lbs this week and have really struggled food wise since. I've also been a bit down this week, well thinking about it, since my appetite came back. I think its possibly to do with thinking about going back to work, I've been getting really panicky about it, all the breathlessness etc again. So I need to sit down and CBT my way out of it I think. I need to use what I have learnt to good effect so that I can use it even once I am done with the therapy. Otherwise I'm doing all this for nothing. So yes, I wonder if my increase in appetite is related to my stress around going back to work. Today has been much better, so I'll write my food up and keep a tag on it. I'd hate to go off the rails now that I have finally started clawing back some of that weight loss.
So today's food:
Breakfast: 2 apples
Snack: Skinny capuccino (part of HEa)
Late lunch: Spaghetti bolognaise (with free and superfree ingredients).
Dinner: 2 salmon steaks plus JS savoury rice. Strawberry, 2 apples.
Snack: Milky coffee (rest of HEa). Milk chocolate (8 syns). Spoonful of nutella (4 syns).
Total syns: 12
As you can see I'm having a very chocolatey day. I'm due on next week, and I think this is a normal pattern for me. However, when I'm really focused, I tend to eat bananas rather than chocolate, either on their own, or synned as part of a milkshake. Also, I normally have the meals I've written above with lots of salad leaves, but I really didn't fancy that today. So strictly speaking, I probably haven't had as much superfree as I should have done for an EE day, but there we go. I have confessed my syns!
My son has a friend coming over for tea tomorrow evening, so I'm planning on doing roasted vegetables with chicken. I think I can have a wholemeal pitta as part of a HEb (I'll check first). I may indulge in some humous too. I'll have a cooked breakfast so hopefully that will tide me over, aside from some fruit, until tea time. I really must try and get some jobs done tomorrow. I have some stuff to take to a charity shop. I also have loads of old text books. I was hoping to take them up to my old college as I know they will use those particular ones, but apparently they are moving the library, which is annoying, as I just want shot of it all. I am getting my loft re-insulated on Friday, so the bairn and I cleared most of it out last Sunday. I've managed to throw a few bits out, but I am mostly pretty good and not hording too much in the first place. We have a few books to get down still, but I expect that will all be kept. It's the books/toys he/we have particular memories of and that he wanted to keep for his children. Bless him.
I took my nephew to an ice skating party today, he was so funny! But I was really proud of him. It was the first time he'd ever been ice skating, and he just headed off out onto the rink, one of the first to do so. He kept falling over, again and again, and didn't complain once. Just kept getting up and getting on with it. I was at one point thinking I should get some skates on and help him, but I noticed he was getting better and better, still falling over, but really growing in confidence. He'd started skating (falling) about and chatting with his little friends, so I decided it probably wouldn't be very cool if I went on. Besides, I'm sure he'd have asked me to if he'd really wanted the help. He refused the little penguin thing that the other newbies were using to balance on, and other than a few times, wouldn't let the girl who's son's party it was help him either. By the end the little sod was getting all cocky, starting to spin around and even had a go at skating backwards. Like I said, I was so proud of him, but in stitches laughing at him going over again and again, and just bouncing straight back up again. Don't you just love the resilience of kids!?
Anyhoo, let's hope today is a better day for food and that I can stay awake long enough to get some jobs done and some CBT work done. I also need to find someone to cut my hair - I don't think it's been cut since early November and looks a real bedraggled mess.
So I hope you are all having a good day, take care xxx
