Hi girls, and thank you for the welcome back.
So first up, I am well - and doing alright. By that I mean the issues at the beginning of the year are really sorting themselves out. Also, I have well and truly knocked the ciggies on the head. In fact the little app on my phone tells me it has been 122 days now. I have unfortunately put on about 3 1/2 stone this year - which takes me back to 16st 11lbs. I started last January at 17st on the nose. So not quite back to where I started, but near enough.
I am currently recovering from a badly sprained ankle (nearly 2 weeks ago) which was such a nuisance as I had just gotten back into my running again. But I will do swimming instead in the meantime, which will probably help my ankle, and help keep me active.
I rejoined SW about 4 weeks back and it wasn't really happening for me. The weekend before last (the day after I sprained my ankle typically) my sister and I went to Berlin for the weekend, which was superb! Really loved it there, and I've promised Beanie I will take him. He and I were due to go to France the next day to visit my friend, but unfortunately we were burgled whilst I was in Berlin. As a result I cancelled France and dealt with the various bits and bobs that go hand in hand with a burglary. Fortunately they didn't take much, and to be honest, we are probably materially better off as I get a badly set of new patio doors for just £200. And I may get some of that back as they nicked my old smartphone. But there's the other side to it - for example I dread going in my house every time now as I'm worried what I might find. Still, that will get better in time.
Other news, well, we now have two new additions to our family....
Meet Rosie (black and white) and Billy (tan and white). They are so gorgeous and live indoors with us. They are surprisingly clean, though do leave a few droppings about the place, but they only wee in their litter tray, and I use lavender scented shavings so provided it's cleaned out every day or so, you can't smell anything. And they themselves smell all lovely fluffy (if that makes and sense). It is lovely having a pet again though, and they really are my little babies. I have even ordered them an advent calendar each, which are full of bunny treats.
Anyway, back to SW, following the chaos of the past week or so, I weighed in this week (to be told the dreadful news that I'd put on yet more weight to be 16st 11lbs) and have been good ever since. Well, the past couple of days anyway!
So, back to it - I have to be disciplined at writing my food up on here. I have been thinking about all the things I was doing last year when it was really working for me, and being on here, with the support of other Minimin-ers really did make a difference.
Therefore, I present to you, today's food:
Breakfast:
Mixed fruit, shape 0 yoghurt, branflakes (HEb)
Snack::
Shape 0 yoghurt.
Skinny capucinno (half HEa)
Lunch:
Jacket potato, baked beans, sweetcorn, cucumber, tomatoes, lettuce.
Snack:
Apple.
Salt and vinegar french fries (5 syns).
Capuccino (remaining HEa) with 2 sugars (2 syns)
Tea:
Mugshot.
2 vodkas with diet lemonade (8 syns).
Total syns (15)
Yesterday I was 13.5 syns, and Tuesday was 13 syns.
Now tomorrow I am going over a friend's house, and we are both intending on getting pretty tipsy. So I will save my syns all day, and will just have to go over on the vodka. That said, she is also doing SW (it is sooooo nice to have a friend doing it with me now, oh and so is my sister too!), so we are intending on making a fairly SW friendly tea. I can't go too mad drinking anyway, as I am going to take Beanie to the Natural History Museum on Saturday after his athletics as he is doing a mini project on Darwin.
So that's me. I've ****ed up - but emotionally I'm in a far better place. I am still seeing my CBT lady and my psychiatrist occasionally, but that will soon end (after Christmas sometime I think). I am completely and utterly off men, and it feels like a massive weight off my shoulders too! On the downside, my clothes either don't fit or are fairly frumpy (or so it feels anyway). I am refusing to shell on new bigger bras, so the one's I've got are ill fitting and too tight round my back - which is actually quite excruciating at times. My hips, knees and both ankles hurt and I physically feel pretty crap. But I have set myself the target of a stone before Christmas. And above that, I have set myself the further target of getting to 11 stone by next December, which is when I turn 40. I am not turning 40 being huge still, and that will take me to my healthy bmi.
So it's great to be back - this year I am avoiding social situations a bit. To be honest, my weight and the way I look means I won't enjoy myself anyway. That might sound negative, but it also means I will be avoiding drinking too much - which will be good for my sanity as well as my waistline. I have a couple of social situation over the next month or so, plus I have Status Quo with Beanie and my Dad to look foward to as well. Other than that, I came to the conclusion that what really matters to me is to make a good indent in this weight that I need to lose.
Mwah!! xxxx