Another Monday, another day of non change.
I am starting to think this is the weight my body thinks it should be. But, I shall persevere and I will beat that wall.
Funny mood today. oh was quite depressed at the weekend and we had a few chats about things I didn't even know he worried/ thought about. I am glad we talked and he finally tells me what he is thinking. But it is also weird to hear about your relationship from another point of view and realise that it's not as you thought, or we perceived the same events differently. So, I feel a little unsteady today, a bit unsettled while I readjust my thinking a bit.
Of course this is not a bad thing, it's good that we can surpise each other and it's good not to get settled into thinking we know everything about each other, in that direction lies complacency and boredom. But still, feeing a bit wobbly today, could do with some time alone to contemplate but of course, another busy day ahead.
My problem, and I don't kow if this is a girl/ mum thing, is that I now want to do something to make his world ok again, to 'fix' things or have a plan of action, and of course feelings and emotions are not something that easily fixed.
Anyway, we ended out day with a big loving cuddle and I know he is all mine and perfect. Now to boost his confidence and remover his depression.
Sorry, this was vague and disjointed. It's more of post to myself to think about things.