Jenni's diary: Given up chocolate!
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jennikay
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12 days to results day! I'm going to check on UCAS to see if I've got into Imperial because it updates at 7am 
Don't know if Imperial actually updates it on results day, but we'll see.
I dug out my AS results today and I have a few more marks in Physics than I originally thought
so the pressure is off a little bit.
Things with Jon are going quite well we had our first argument the other day it was over something completely inane, I think it was a camera or something, hahaha.
I have managed to not gain any weight while I've been on holiday I've followed PMcK's golden rules and they do work. I hadn't felt hungry in months
Jon keeps trying to make me eat more at mealtimes and less in between, but I don't see why I should - if I keep to the same amount of calories then surely it doesn't matter. Eating too much at mealtimes just makes me uncomfortably full, which according to him is a good thing. I'll never understand it
I'm making some definite progress with my OCD, it's been fab, I can now set the table (or worse, let someone else do it) with no real concern for symmetry.
I've found recently that I've been too 'tired' as such, to carry out my compulsions properly. I've gotten to the point where I can do it wrong and don't always have to go back and correct myself. I don't quite get the huge anxiety I used to, which is great.
In general, things are going fairly well just need to get my head around losing weight. I have a backlog of about 5-10 of Icemoose's newsletters (No Willpower Required if you haven't already signed up.)
I'm going to get round to reading the one with the questions on soon, I promise same way I'm going to get round to listening to my PMcK CDs soon
OK, goals! I need to set some or I'll never get anything done. I have more than enough time on my hands at the moment!
1. Ring the lady from the gym - I stopped going about a month ago and should really start going again!
2. Listen to my PMcK CDs.
3. Read the 'Question time' email. And answer the questions truthfully. I'll answer them on here so I can refer back to them
That's it for now. I think I'll read the email now.
xx
Don't know if Imperial actually updates it on results day, but we'll see.
I dug out my AS results today and I have a few more marks in Physics than I originally thought
so the pressure is off a little bit.Things with Jon are going quite well
we had our first argument the other day it was over something completely inane, I think it was a camera or something, hahaha.I have managed to not gain any weight while I've been on holiday
I've followed PMcK's golden rules and they do work. I hadn't felt hungry in months Jon keeps trying to make me eat more at mealtimes and less in between, but I don't see why I should - if I keep to the same amount of calories then surely it doesn't matter. Eating too much at mealtimes just makes me uncomfortably full, which according to him is a good thing. I'll never understand it
I'm making some definite progress with my OCD, it's been fab, I can now set the table (or worse, let someone else do it) with no real concern for symmetry.
I've found recently that I've been too 'tired' as such, to carry out my compulsions properly. I've gotten to the point where I can do it wrong and don't always have to go back and correct myself. I don't quite get the huge anxiety I used to, which is great.
In general, things are going fairly well
just need to get my head around losing weight. I have a backlog of about 5-10 of Icemoose's newsletters (No Willpower Required if you haven't already signed up.)I'm going to get round to reading the one with the questions on soon, I promise
same way I'm going to get round to listening to my PMcK CDs soon OK, goals! I need to set some or I'll never get anything done. I have more than enough time on my hands at the moment!
1. Ring the lady from the gym - I stopped going about a month ago and should really start going again!
2. Listen to my PMcK CDs.
3. Read the 'Question time' email. And answer the questions truthfully. I'll answer them on here so I can refer back to them
That's it for now. I think I'll read the email now.
xx
jennikay
Gold Member
1. What specifically do you want with your weight? (Not what you don't want)
I want to be a healthy weight, somewhere between 9 and 10 stone.
2. Where are you now in relation to that goal ?
I am 1-2 stone away.
3. What will you see and hear when you have that goal?
I will see a 9 on the scales. I will see my smaller jeans fitting me and I will see a slimmer me!
Not sure about hearing - maybe hearing the voice in my head actually complimenting myself! I was definitely not nice enough to myself when I was 9 stone and I'm even worse now!
4. What will you feel when you have that goal?
I will feel slimmer. I won't feel uncomfortable in my 'small' clothes. I will feel more confident and more 'myself' as such.
5. Do you truly believe you will ever have that goal?
Yes.
6. What steps do you need to take to get to that goal?
I need to stop eating as much chocolate. I need to listen to PMcKs CDs and really listen to them, and actually follow the rules. I need to listen to what my body tells me and not what Jon says I should do - it's my body after all!
7. How will you know when you have reached your goal?
I will see a 9 on the scales - more importantly though, I'll fit into my jeans. I want to wear the buckled ones again!
8. What will getting to goal actually allow you to do?
Fit into those jeans. Wear a bikini at next year's Center Parcs holiday and feel as self conscious as I did this year in a swimsuit (i.e. not at all!)
9. Are you sure you want this?
Yes. To be healthy and to look good.
10. Is this only for you?
Yes. Which makes it a bit harder because I don't have a point to prove this time around!
11. Are you in charge of the result?
Yes. I control what I put into my body. I put on the weight, I can get it off again!
12. Where, when, how and with whom do you want this result?
Where? I want to be on the way by the time I get to Imperial, and I want to finish it off while I'm there. When? I don't have a specific deadline as such, but by Christmas/New Year ish would be nice. How? I want it without any diets, restrictions and definitely NO hunger. Over the past few weeks I have felt real hunger and I actually cannot cope with feeling hungry. It makes me want to stuff my face far beyond being 'a bit full'. Hunger is actually detrimental to my weight loss. I'm going to do it with PMcKs system because it allows me to eat as much as I want, whatever I want, and I don't feel hungry. With whom? Not 'with' anybody as such. Jon will be alongside me as such, but I'm not doing it 'with' anyone. Would be nice to have a 'buddy' as such though - Jess?
13. Are there any drawbacks of getting this result?
I can't stuff my face with whatever I want until I feel sick. That doesn't sound like much of a drawback. I can't eat to comfort myself, or to cheer myself up when I'm lonely.
14. What personal resources do you have that will allow you to achieve this result?
I have my CDs, and I have my weight watchers books - to help with healthy choices instead of counting points.
15. Do you know anyone else who has achieved the same goal?
My dad, actually. He's lost 2 stone with no diets, just cutting back a bit.
16. What resources did they have that you can use?
He had a spreadsheet with a 4-day average of his weight I'm not kidding either! It really helped him, maybe I should give it a go.
17. Imagine you have that goal now, what resources did you use to get that goal?
At 9 stone... I imagine I followed PMcKs plan but probably a little bit healthier! And I'll be going to the gym occasionally, since it's free at Imperial.
18. Imagine you have that goal now, what advice can you give yourself now to make the journey as easy as possible?
Have fun! It's not a chore, you'll get there. There's no point in making yourself miserable dieting just to get there a month or 2 earlier. It'll take as long as it takes - don't fret that it's not coming off at 3lbs a week! It doesn't matter whether you reach it in 2009 or 2010! As long as you do it eventually and don't beat yourself up about gaining 1-2lbs over an event either. Try not to eat too many takeaways though!
And the final four questions. Just answer these in your head quickly! Don't get too hung up on them....
19. What will happen if you get your goal?
20. What won't happen if you get your goal?
21. What will happen if you don't get your goal?
22. What won't happen if you don't get your goal?
That last question was a bit weird to answer! I have a point though I'm not the sort at all to want to make myself miserable. I'd rather have that extra tub of B&Js and have it take an extra week to get to goal
Have a go at the questions yourself!
xx
I want to be a healthy weight, somewhere between 9 and 10 stone.
2. Where are you now in relation to that goal ?
I am 1-2 stone away.
3. What will you see and hear when you have that goal?
I will see a 9 on the scales. I will see my smaller jeans fitting me and I will see a slimmer me!
Not sure about hearing - maybe hearing the voice in my head actually complimenting myself! I was definitely not nice enough to myself when I was 9 stone and I'm even worse now!
4. What will you feel when you have that goal?
I will feel slimmer. I won't feel uncomfortable in my 'small' clothes. I will feel more confident and more 'myself' as such.
5. Do you truly believe you will ever have that goal?
Yes.
6. What steps do you need to take to get to that goal?
I need to stop eating as much chocolate. I need to listen to PMcKs CDs and really listen to them, and actually follow the rules. I need to listen to what my body tells me and not what Jon says I should do - it's my body after all!
7. How will you know when you have reached your goal?
I will see a 9 on the scales - more importantly though, I'll fit into my jeans. I want to wear the buckled ones again!
8. What will getting to goal actually allow you to do?
Fit into those jeans. Wear a bikini at next year's Center Parcs holiday and feel as self conscious as I did this year in a swimsuit (i.e. not at all!)
9. Are you sure you want this?
Yes. To be healthy and to look good.
10. Is this only for you?
Yes. Which makes it a bit harder because I don't have a point to prove this time around!
11. Are you in charge of the result?
Yes. I control what I put into my body. I put on the weight, I can get it off again!
12. Where, when, how and with whom do you want this result?
Where? I want to be on the way by the time I get to Imperial, and I want to finish it off while I'm there. When? I don't have a specific deadline as such, but by Christmas/New Year ish would be nice. How? I want it without any diets, restrictions and definitely NO hunger. Over the past few weeks I have felt real hunger and I actually cannot cope with feeling hungry. It makes me want to stuff my face far beyond being 'a bit full'. Hunger is actually detrimental to my weight loss. I'm going to do it with PMcKs system because it allows me to eat as much as I want, whatever I want, and I don't feel hungry. With whom? Not 'with' anybody as such. Jon will be alongside me as such, but I'm not doing it 'with' anyone. Would be nice to have a 'buddy' as such though - Jess?
13. Are there any drawbacks of getting this result?
I can't stuff my face with whatever I want until I feel sick. That doesn't sound like much of a drawback.
I can't eat to comfort myself, or to cheer myself up when I'm lonely.14. What personal resources do you have that will allow you to achieve this result?
I have my CDs, and I have my weight watchers books - to help with healthy choices instead of counting points.
15. Do you know anyone else who has achieved the same goal?
My dad, actually. He's lost 2 stone with no diets, just cutting back a bit.
16. What resources did they have that you can use?
He had a spreadsheet with a 4-day average of his weight
I'm not kidding either! It really helped him, maybe I should give it a go.17. Imagine you have that goal now, what resources did you use to get that goal?
At 9 stone... I imagine I followed PMcKs plan but probably a little bit healthier! And I'll be going to the gym occasionally, since it's free at Imperial.
18. Imagine you have that goal now, what advice can you give yourself now to make the journey as easy as possible?
Have fun! It's not a chore, you'll get there. There's no point in making yourself miserable dieting just to get there a month or 2 earlier. It'll take as long as it takes - don't fret that it's not coming off at 3lbs a week! It doesn't matter whether you reach it in 2009 or 2010! As long as you do it eventually and don't beat yourself up about gaining 1-2lbs over an event either. Try not to eat too many takeaways though!
And the final four questions. Just answer these in your head quickly! Don't get too hung up on them....
19. What will happen if you get your goal?
20. What won't happen if you get your goal?
21. What will happen if you don't get your goal?
22. What won't happen if you don't get your goal?
That last question was a bit weird to answer! I have a point though
I'm not the sort at all to want to make myself miserable. I'd rather have that extra tub of B&Js and have it take an extra week to get to goal Have a go at the questions yourself!
xx
jennikay
Gold Member
Yawn. 10 days to go. Of my three goals, I have already completed two
I rang the lady from the gym today, and I have an appointment next Monday - also I'm going to go this Friday.
So, new list of goals!
1. Put my PMcK CDs onto my MP3 player. That way I'll listen to them!
2. Listen to them!
3. Go to the gym on Friday. 12.30pm.
xx
I rang the lady from the gym today, and I have an appointment next Monday - also I'm going to go this Friday.
So, new list of goals!
1. Put my PMcK CDs onto my MP3 player. That way I'll listen to them!
2. Listen to them!
3. Go to the gym on Friday. 12.30pm.
xx
Less Rotund One
Gold Member
You're sounding right back on track young 'un - well done you
Arguements with your other half are ALWAYS about inane things - that's the law of relationships - as long as you agree on the big stuff, you'll be fine.
10 days and counting - nail biting time xxx
Arguements with your other half are ALWAYS about inane things - that's the law of relationships - as long as you agree on the big stuff, you'll be fine.
10 days and counting - nail biting time xxx
jennikay
Gold Member
9 days now!
^^stolen off another forum, but I think it's rather appropriate
I'm having the nightmares/daydreams about it almost every day now, haha. Exams have never mattered at all to me - I never cared much about the results, just did the best I could - but now they actually mean something I'm bricking it
Keeping myself as busy as possible!
xx
^^stolen off another forum, but I think it's rather appropriate
I'm having the nightmares/daydreams about it almost every day now, haha. Exams have never mattered at all to me - I never cared much about the results, just did the best I could - but now they actually mean something I'm bricking it
Keeping myself as busy as possible!
xx
Less Rotund One
Gold Member
hope you are keeping more calm than my oldest was - he was in a right flap the day before!
good luck with it. will be watching out on thursday x
good luck with it. will be watching out on thursday x
jennikay
Gold Member
The day before?! I'm in a flap now!
I've quite possibly never been so nervous in my life!
Not doing nearly enough to keep me occupied over the next 2 days. May go to the gym before work on Wednesday, or at least do my Davina DVD. I'm finding that when I exercise, I tend to want to eat healthier foods, which can only be a good thing
I've begun training for my (possible) fitness test to get into the university air squadron. Assuming I get past the interviews press ups and crunches and CV work! Need to get 7.1 on the dreaded bleep test - last time I did it I got 4.2 ish
I don't have to wake up early tomorrow or Wednesday, yay. Was up at 10 this morning! Far too early for my liking
xx
I've quite possibly never been so nervous in my life!
Not doing nearly enough to keep me occupied over the next 2 days. May go to the gym before work on Wednesday, or at least do my Davina DVD. I'm finding that when I exercise, I tend to want to eat healthier foods, which can only be a good thing
I've begun training for my (possible) fitness test to get into the university air squadron. Assuming I get past the interviews
press ups and crunches and CV work! Need to get 7.1 on the dreaded bleep test - last time I did it I got 4.2 ish I don't have to wake up early tomorrow or Wednesday, yay. Was up at 10 this morning! Far too early for my liking
xx
Less Rotund One
Gold Member
Good luck for the morning Jenni - do you have to wait for the post or are you all emailed up like the scottish system?
jennikay
Gold Member
I have to go into school for them! I'm going in at 10am (when it opens!)
I *can* check UCAS at ~7am but for one, Imperial may not have updated it, and for two I probably wouldn't get back to sleep!
I don't really want to check it, because if it's not updated then there was no point, and if it has then it ruins the excitement
9 and a half hours! I'm undecided as to whether I should go to sleep now and toss and turn for ages, or whether to stay awake until I physically can't keep my eyes open. Hmmm.
