Pretty hectic today and TOTM is still hanging around so I feel bloated n crap - wish it would clear off now!
has a STS. on the scales which was to be expected and I'm hopeful of a bit of a whoosh next week!
spent most of the morning painting and then put together my new dressing table which has been in a box in the spare room for about two years. Ive wanted a dressing table for years but never had the space for one so it was one of the first things i bought when we got this house but ive been waiting until my bedroom was decorated to put it together. Once that was done spent a lovely few hours sorting through all my make up and jewellery and organising the drawers lol
sorted out a few bits for the picnic tomorrow - some nice things for me and some POISON ( quiche, pork pie and cakes) for hubby and Jacob.
Spent most of the evening making invitations for the little ones 6th birthday party which is next month. He has been begging me for a party for years and I've always said no because I was worried about having to mix with the other parents. I'm not confident with people I don't know, I can't do small talk and I never know what to say to them so I always feel really awkward ( which is odd because I deal with new people all the time at work and can do so with confidence) anyway this means I don't do the " school gate mummy" thing very well and the idea of being trapped in a room with 30 other mummies terrifies me and I avoid it if possible ( hubby always takes little one to all the parties - he takes him to school every morning so all of the mummies know him and he's good at the chatter - he's the only daddy there so he gets lots of attention and he loves it lol )
anyway I decided a few weeks ago that little one wasn't getting any younger and the time will come when he will have grown out of parties and want to spend his birthdays with a few mates at the cinema or whatever so the opportunities to give him a proper kids party are dwindling. I also decided it was unfair for him to miss out because of MY hang ups.
So a few days ago I booked it - venue booked, magician booked, cake design chosen and away we go - little ones face was priceless when I told him - he's so used to seeing all of his friends having parties and me always saying no to one and i always feel really sad because he always looks so disappointed when i say no. Now he's so excited and has written me a huge list of everything he wants - gonna cost a bloody fortune but hey ho - he's worth it lol.
i think since I've lost weight I've started to feel better in myself and my confidence has grown - things which would have been unthinkable for me before I am now considering and i'm trying not to let my issues rule my life. I will still be terrified, uncomfortable and probably shaking like a leaf come party day - but I can do this!!
foodwise today I have been good :
b. black coffee with one sweetner.
l: mim cut into four, toasted and buttered with chicken mayo.
d: chicken baked in mayo, egg fried cauli rice. Sf Jelly (BLACK CHERRY!!) with soya cream - OMG it was gorgeous such a change from the usual boring sf jelly flavours - I will be ordering some more ASAP.
Worried about the carb fest that is tomorrow's festivities but I will try my best to stay strong - see you on the other side ladies xx