Thanks to Super Sonkie, I managed to get to CDC lastnight. Hubby was well and truely relieved as he didnt wanna be in the dog house and I was even more relieved as I got to assess the damage properly and get some motivation from Jo.
On the way to Jo's I stopped off at local shop to draw some money out of their ATM. Once inside, I saw a gain of teenagers (well by gang I mean about 5) all milling around the machine so they were in my way. Ordinarily I wouldnt approach. I will wander around the shop until they moved away but without think, I just wandered up, walked right between them and chirpily asked the lad leaning on the machine if he would excuse me please and thanked him then attacked hubbys funds
Now, I didnt even think about this til after I left the shop. Then it struck me how I would NEVER ordinarily do something like that. If there are teens outside the shop when i drive up to it, i usually keep driving and go to another shop. I just cant stand groups of teens as I find them intimidating and I feel too much of a target for humiliation if they choose to start chanting "fat cow" at me or smething just as charming.
It may seem like a small thing to many people but this was a major MAJOR thing for me. I dunno for sure if its anything to do with the Paul McKenna confidence CD but I reckon it is. How amazing is that?? I am pretty sure I would have been able to laugh and shrug off any comment they may have said and replied with something as sweet. (like "shut ur face u spotty little sh*t!....classy lady, me
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so anyways, got to Jo's and she was brilliant about my confessions. Then she made me close my eyes and hold out my hands.... I soon found myself clutching a mould of what 1lb weight looks/feel like and how heavy it is. blech!! I will never ever be disappointed with a 1lb loss whilst on this diet, thats for sure lol.
We also got to chatting and decided I ought to do an AAM week this week to ease me back into ketosis properly and keep me on track. Im hoping I will only feel the need to do this for a few days but it will certainly help to know I can "cheat". I know its not a good mindframe to get into but whatever keeps me on track for now is fine by me.
I just hope the postman brings me my Paul McKenna books/CDs quickly. I so wanna use the "quit smoking" one asap, not to mention the make u thin one. hopefully that can put me in the right mindset. i will only use one at a time as if i try to do it all at once I may go into meltdown. hehe.
Im so glad that I got to see Sally (Dibs) as well. she makes me laugh so much. am so glad she is coming to the SW meet. I reckon I am gonna need a panty liner and pain killers for my ribs to handle all the laughing. sorry, tmi lol.
so! its a new week and Im ready for it! Its a nice sunny day so I will go for a walk with sonkie later then I have a date with hubby at the gym (yeah we sure know how to live it up!)
I also have an appointment at the docs on thursday so am going to bring up the matter of quitting smoking and see what aids I can get to help me. So everyone will know who i am at the meet. I'll be the fat one wearing 30 patches and sucking on a fake ciggie
