maintenance with 5:2

[carrieclaus]

Xxx

 

[becki2009]

Thanks! Think I need to get some of those noodles!

 

[carrieclaus]

They're from holland and Barrett and I buy in bulk when they're on offer lol xxx

 

[becki2009]

Good thinking!

 

[carrieclaus]

Finished on 472! Fast day done! Xxx

 

[BinkyBonk]

Finished on 472! Fast day done! Xxx

Well done x

 

[carrieclaus]

Awful day yesterday food wise but loads of steps haha! Does 21000 steps offset a 3200kcal day? Eeeeeek! Xxx

 

[carrieclaus]

Done 60mins cardio to try and offset yesterday's naughties and after a convo with a great friend I've decided enough is enough and my goal is to maintain. The stricter I am, the harder I push for these 8s ( I know they won't make me happier ) the harder and more awful each naughty day is. Soooo back to what I know and love. TWO fast days ( I mean it is called 5:2 ) and mindeful eating the other 5, if I want to be naughty it's a naughty MEAL or a naughty SNACK but not a naughty DAY!!! I've been exercising since 26th August ( re reading my other diary ) and I love it! I maintained from 19/12/13 to mid march with 6:1 then wanted to lose a bit for hubby's bday in Wales then got injured and couldn't train for 3 weeks and meds were making me ravenous so I've continued with this 4:3! Why??? I don't need to get in the 8stones! I'm a mum, a wife. My eldest is 16 and I don't want the figure of a teenage boy. I LOVE my exercise! That's staying but.... I'm going back to 5:2 for a few weeks then 6:1. I've became obsessed with hitting a goal which to be fair would look ridiculous. I want muscle, and an ass, and boobs. At 9st 2lbs and a size 8 I should be soooo happy, instead I've been looking forward rather than embracing where I am. Will weigh before Edinburgh ( 23rd August ) but no more. I don't feel a success any more, I feel the binge/starve eating disorder i worked so hard to overcome rearing its head. I'm fed up of feeling guilty, fed up looking for approval from others where It's only my opinion that counts.

Maintenance is a lonely place on here and I think that's why I've tried to lose again ( where deep down I haven't wanted to ) and that's why the sabotage is creeping in. It's a weight loss forum after all. I'll continue to post and if anyone wants to unsubscribe then no offence will be taken. This diary is going to become a maintenance diary. It may bore you but it's true and honest. xxx

 

[weebuns]

I will be more than happy to keep following and chatting to you Carrie xx I think you are doing a great thing ....and what's more you are doing it for you. We push ourselves so hard at times that sometimes we lose a grip on perspective. Look at just how far you have come. You are a fabulous weight, you exercise, you eat well....you should be rightly happy and proud of just who you are right now. I love looking at your photos of food and life and will continue to do so. And I don't even see it as naughty treats or meals...it's just life, normal, what people without weight issues do without a second thought. You are a beautiful woman who has turned her life around by successfully losing so much weight, you deserve to reap the benefits of your hard work and enjoy life xx

 

[Katie's World X]

I will be more than happy to keep following and chatting to you Carrie xx I think you are doing a great thing ....and what's more you are doing it for you. We push ourselves so hard at times that sometimes we lose a grip on perspective. Look at just how far you have come. You are a fabulous weight, you exercise, you eat well....you should be rightly happy and proud of just who you are right now. I love looking at your photos of food and life and will continue to do so. And I don't even see it as naughty treats or meals...it's just life, normal, what people without weight issues do without a second thought. You are a beautiful woman who has turned her life around by successfully losing so much weight, you deserve to reap the benefits of your hard work and enjoy life xx

What a lovely message ^^^^^^^^
Everyone knows how amazing you are keep smiling my lovely friend you are fit and healthy
A skinny size 8 what more would a girl want XxxxX

 

[carrieclaus]

I'm an emotional wreck today and it's genuinely because I felt sooo ill after yesterday and I didn't want any of it, I ate because I had the "it's a naughty day" in my head. I've never went to bed feeling as sick as I did last night. Thanks so much for your lovely comments and support of late. I'd forgotten how to feel free, I'm overthinking everything, where I should only really be focussing on the fast days and getting fitter and stronger which of course I need good food to enable me to do so. Eat clean, train mean. Xxx

 

[goose]

U honestly dont know wat a big smile thats put on my face!! U have truly done amazing and i think you have reflected so well on your journey, sometimes others can see what you cant and honestly will seeing a number 8 on the scale change your life? No it dont, hand on heart u look stunning the way u are, loosing more, i personally dont thibk would suit u... Others may disagree but thsts my opinion. Im saying this because ive been there done that... So desperate to see the 8's i got myself into a vicious cycle where i put it all back on.

Its not like maintaining is easy...u will always have to keep your eye on the ball but i think uve made the right choice n im so sure everyone would agree we are here to support u on your maintenance journey too.

You have achieved a heck of alot, you are at goal
And you are an inspiration to me!! Well done. Sending u hugs xx

 

[carrieclaus]

Thanks so much, you've made me smile. It's so engrained in me to diet that once I started again I couldn't really see how obsessive I'd become. At least now I feel free. I'm so glad I realised now.

Thanks so much for your continued support xxx

 

[weebuns]

Love the new diary title You've actually spurred me on to do something I've been thinking about this last month. I've already taken off my goal date and now I'm going to remove my weight loss ticker and target weight. I still want to get to a healthy BMI to give my body the best foundation for a healthy life but have decided my target weight will be a weight I feel good at rather than a number dictated on a scale xx

 

[carrieclaus]

Aaaw it's lovely to know I still inspire the inspirations! Yep, definitely the way to go, xxx

 

[carrieclaus]

A few inspirational pics today that sorted me out. First pic should be the body pic, black pants n bra is 11st 8ish and the white bra n pants is today ( I'm saying I'm still 9.2 as everything fits the same ) the face pic is 13st 8lbs and today ( again I'm still saying 9.2 ) lol xxx

Now to focus on fuelling my body to perform at its best through cardio and I am hoping to look into weight training soon. Today I had a chilli chicken n rocket wrap for lunch and a chilli chicken n veg stir fry. ( no slim noodles ) hurrah!! Xxx

 

[weebuns]

You've a lot to be proud of Carrie xx I've been reading a lot about weight training to get definition and tone and build muscle (..note I said reading not doing!! ) It's also where I got my increased protein thought from, though I'm having the shakes as extras rather than meals so I keep my carbs at a decent level too. Looking forward to seeing how your fitness routine develops now you're cutting back with the fasting. x

 

[BinkyBonk]

You have worked so hard and you look great x

 

[carrieclaus]

Thanks ladies. Monday fast and got loads of fruit n veg for cleaner eating the rest of the week. It's time to feel in control again. hope you have a great day xxx

 

[Kira]

Carrie dropping by as have been AWOL due to job and haven't been on here much. You are doing brilliantly with the maintenance and a true success at it too!