Moo's year - 24 st start and restart

[Destamia]

Well done on your 6st award....you are brilliant and totally deserve it.. you'll be at 6.5 stone award in no time!!

I loved Tallin, such a vibrant city and the old town is brilliant. We went to a gorgeous basement bar and restaurant called Porgu..such fond memories. So easy to get to Helsinki across the water too...everyone needs to visit. Such a beautiful city and such friendly people.

I didnt get to make the borscht but I bought the ingredients thus morning so im making it tomorrow on my day off.

So love reading your diary xxx

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Thank you hun =)

Põrgu eh - I bet is was Hell on earth =)
Im glad you loved Tallinn and people were nice to you =)

Excited to see how the borch turned out.

 

[Destamia]

Aww was is £15 not £50 for him I hope? I know what you mean, I like in store shopping and can't wait until I can be a size 16 so I can do proper in store shopping but at the minute I do mostly online, purely because where I live there are no shops that cater for bigger sizes apart from Evans and that's over priced!
Where abouts in the UK are you? What shops do you have to shop in store around? Xx

its 15 in week - today is first time when I need to pay.
Im in Birmingham and to be honest I get most of my stuff from peacocks. I love how the cloths look in there , I think very good and flattering dresses they have. Im afraid Im dress-a-holic =)

 

[wafflewaffle]

its 15 in week - today is first time when I need to pay. Im in Birmingham and to be honest I get most of my stuff from peacocks. I love how the cloths look in there , I think very good and flattering dresses they have. Im afraid Im dress-a-holic =)

That's true I always forget about peacocks, though to be honest the store closest to me never stocks big sizes
Nothing wrong with dresses, how do you wear them though? Do u wear tights? Leggings? Just long dresses?
I usually wear leggings with dresses coz I hate my knees but it doesn't always look to smart for like special occasions :/ x

 

[Destamia]

That's true I always forget about peacocks, though to be honest the store closest to me never stocks big sizes
Nothing wrong with dresses, how do you wear them though? Do u wear tights? Leggings? Just long dresses?
I usually wear leggings with dresses coz I hate my knees but it doesn't always look to smart for like special occasions :/ x

I have only 2 long dress - and one of em is wedding dress
I wear leggings or tights under my dress.
I always feel beautiful and sexy. I dont hate any part of my body yes I would not strip and go naked or half naked in front if strangers but if we take swimming pool - Im not ashamed.
Nor felt bad about my look at 25 st. But ofc - then I was back home and its different there.
And ofc there is moments when I felt really bad about my size but nothing too bad and nothing or no-one can put me down.

And my hubby keeps saying nice things too. Lol - I honestly forgetting how big I am sometimes. and then Im surprised that things dont fit. Lol

 

[wafflewaffle]

I have only 2 long dress - and one of em is wedding dress I wear leggings or tights under my dress. I always feel beautiful and sexy. I dont hate any part of my body yes I would not strip and go naked or half naked in front if strangers but if we take swimming pool - Im not ashamed. Nor felt bad about my look at 25 st. But ofc - then I was back home and its different there. And ofc there is moments when I felt really bad about my size but nothing too bad and nothing or no-one can put me down. And my hubby keeps saying nice things too. Lol - I honestly forgetting how big I am sometimes. and then Im surprised that things dont fit. Lol

Was the attitude to weight in Estonia totally different then? Your attitude to life is amazing I hope I can try and be more like you xx

 

[Destamia]

Was the attitude to weight in Estonia totally different then? Your attitude to life is amazing I hope I can try and be more like you xx

Let me try to explain it. But keep in mind please , I do not want to sound rude in any way.
In Estonia being 25 st is pretty rare. There is ofc people at that weight and they may even sometimes be outside, but fact is that being overweight is not acceptable. Better way to survive day outside is to play tourist from Finland , I know sounds bad , but thats how it was. And if I was at market, often people started speaking finish with me.
In Estonia , there is no cloths that you can buy at 25 st. I made my cloths myself - even underwear. And few times a year we were going to Sweden to get some cloths and footwear ( yes, size 7, 5 footwear is not common also )
If you go to out- anything - theater, cinema, bar, resto, conference, doc office - anywhere - chairs are so small that most of the time I could not fit. I remember when I had to go to lawyer office after my Granny died and needed to do all the paperwork that takes hours, the chair was so small that after I had blue lines on my sides. I asked bigger chair but they had none, or char without armrest.
Public toilet - impossible to use, too small. You can not fit in there.
Public transport - seats are so close together and small - pure pain. I did take longer route to home only because that way the tram I take was less full. Oh , yes - forgot to tell - public transport is so full that to get seat is luck and you are lucky to get standing place without anyone touching you.
In media you can always read about hoe over - weighted people use too much NHS money and if any of them really should have some disease then its always their own fault.
If you should go to Mc Donalds - the looks will kill you before you manage to order burger
Eating in public is always tabu when you are over-weighted.

BUT , and thats big BUT
Most people are really kind to you, when yourself are kind to others, I have many friends and no one ever made any problem of my weight. Only one time there was an thing with friends. One of our friend got new girl - who , let me say here, was not very slim herself - I guess around 12 st, does not matter.
Anyway- first time we had them over, because our friend is very dear to us, and we had something to eat too, I am a chef after all. Everything was fine, but later that week they visited other friends of ours and in there she started to speak about me behind my back. To my friends ? lol - and not only she knew for sure that I eat too much and have 2 dinners every day and everything is high fat and sugar rich foods, she lied about what we eat and how much we eat. Dont know why she lied - its strange.
Ofc - my friends told me right away - I did not speak to her about it, because I love my friend, but this was end of our close relationship. I understand that man have to stay next to hes girl, but she is not the one I can have around me. Not a big loss =)
Tho - let me be honest - Im horrible horrible person and I have long memory, giggle - at my wedding she was wearing long white dress , with wide black belt and cherry red lips. Everyone asking who is that on photos... well they are engaged now, Im 100% sure we are invited. And when we are, I will get the most beautiful dress and will own that wedding, lol
As I said... this is one and only time I had bad experience with my friends or friends of friends.

When we got here , first thing that happened , I felt free. I saw plenty of big people outside, I wasnt like elephant in the porcelain shop and I could buy cloths from shop =) I can see people looking into my eyes not into my hips and I like that people are so friendly here. Im free here - thats best way to explain how I feel =) Free and happy

 

[timmieatimbo]

I like that you're free and happy moo

 

[timmieatimbo]

PS I wanted to go to Tallinn for my hen do but we can't afford the flights. I'm so disappointed

 

[Destamia]

PS I wanted to go to Tallinn for my hen do but we can't afford the flights. I'm so disappointed

Im sorry but dont feel disappointed Hen night can be fun where ever you are. Close friends with you and all
Tallinn been there from middle age and wont disappear any time soon
Some other time with hubby you will enjoy Tallinn
When is your hen night and wedding ?

 

[timmieatimbo]

Having a hen spa day on 8th November and then hen weekend in Copenhagen on 5-7th December. It will be so cold but I like real winter and snow!

 

[timmieatimbo]

Wedding is 2nd January

 

[wafflewaffle]

Let me try to explain it. But keep in mind please , I do not want to sound rude in any way. In Estonia being 25 st is pretty rare. There is ofc people at that weight and they may even sometimes be outside, but fact is that being overweight is not acceptable. Better way to survive day outside is to play tourist from Finland , I know sounds bad , but thats how it was. And if I was at market, often people started speaking finish with me. In Estonia , there is no cloths that you can buy at 25 st. I made my cloths myself - even underwear. And few times a year we were going to Sweden to get some cloths and footwear ( yes, size 7, 5 footwear is not common also ) If you go to out- anything - theater, cinema, bar, resto, conference, doc office - anywhere - chairs are so small that most of the time I could not fit. I remember when I had to go to lawyer office after my Granny died and needed to do all the paperwork that takes hours, the chair was so small that after I had blue lines on my sides. I asked bigger chair but they had none, or char without armrest. Public toilet - impossible to use, too small. You can not fit in there. Public transport - seats are so close together and small - pure pain. I did take longer route to home only because that way the tram I take was less full. Oh , yes - forgot to tell - public transport is so full that to get seat is luck and you are lucky to get standing place without anyone touching you. In media you can always read about hoe over - weighted people use too much NHS money and if any of them really should have some disease then its always their own fault. If you should go to Mc Donalds - the looks will kill you before you manage to order burger Eating in public is always tabu when you are over-weighted. BUT , and thats big BUT Most people are really kind to you, when yourself are kind to others, I have many friends and no one ever made any problem of my weight. Only one time there was an thing with friends. One of our friend got new girl - who , let me say here, was not very slim herself - I guess around 12 st, does not matter. Anyway- first time we had them over, because our friend is very dear to us, and we had something to eat too, I am a chef after all. Everything was fine, but later that week they visited other friends of ours and in there she started to speak about me behind my back. To my friends ? lol - and not only she knew for sure that I eat too much and have 2 dinners every day and everything is high fat and sugar rich foods, she lied about what we eat and how much we eat. Dont know why she lied - its strange. Ofc - my friends told me right away - I did not speak to her about it, because I love my friend, but this was end of our close relationship. I understand that man have to stay next to hes girl, but she is not the one I can have around me. Not a big loss =) Tho - let me be honest - Im horrible horrible person and I have long memory, giggle - at my wedding she was wearing long white dress , with wide black belt and cherry red lips. Everyone asking who is that on photos... well they are engaged now, Im 100% sure we are invited. And when we are, I will get the most beautiful dress and will own that wedding, lol As I said... this is one and only time I had bad experience with my friends or friends of friends. When we got here , first thing that happened , I felt free. I saw plenty of big people outside, I wasnt like elephant in the porcelain shop and I could buy cloths from shop =) I can see people looking into my eyes not into my hips and I like that people are so friendly here. Im free here - thats best way to explain how I feel =) Free and happy

Wow moo, you really tell a good story you know! That is a strange though to someone like me who hasn't left the UK much, not being able to buy clothes and people thinking you were a tourist! But what a lovely ending to the story! I hope you stay in my life a long time because you make me feel happy, your happiness touches all of us here I think xx

 

[Blondcat]

You're a bloody legend Moo xx

 

[timmieatimbo]

We love you moo!

 

[Destamia]

Having a hen spa day on 8th November and then hen weekend in Copenhagen on 5-7th December. It will be so cold but I like real winter and snow!

Wedding is 2nd January

Winter wedding =) aww this will be so cool. How did you choose 2 jan to be you wedding day ? Is there story behind it?

We could not choose a day , we had to choose day from one week, when my sister was coming home ( she lives in Norway) She was coming home because my mom had her 50 'th birthday and my brother was finishing school same week. Birthday was on Monday, Saturday Taavi (brother) was finishing school, Monday and Tuesday the place was closed, Fridat, Saturday and Sunday the prices were twice as expensive and we wanted little honeymoon too - so we only had Wednesday to choose from , hehehe
You still have few months to go , do you already have dress ? How excited you must be. Lol - I was calm , but closer the day got more nervous I got. At the end I was listening heart broken songs and was ready to cry at everything . seems so silly now, but this moment ... and I was so sure Im making mistake.
Its all normal, my hubby felt the same and on wedding day he was shaking like last autumn leaf on tree.
Only thing makes me sad, that I did not know about SW and how it works before wedding - and again if I had knew its questionable if I had joined online. It is how it is =)
Im sure you get to your target by the time, you must be so proud of yourself already. I could not pull myself together to lose weight, Im so happy for you- you will be most beautiful winter bride =)

 

[wafflewaffle]

We love you moo!

Enjoy your winter wedding timmieatimbo, I got married 22nd dec it was lovely so Christmassy, new year sounds a brill time to get married too coz jan always feels like a fresh start which will be a nice start to married life xx

 

[Destamia]

Thank you girls for kind words, you all are very dear to me Only friends I have this side of sea.

SO yesterday I had PT again and after that I did my 20 min on rowing machine and spinning. First thing first - My soft spot is in pain. There I said it , lol . the spinning part, you girls told me to not to worry and just sit down when Im tired, well thing is the seat is too small for my behind and i can feel it even today , lol. Seat is too small and I hardly could sit down and it hurts, so most of the time I was up. Sadly I did not look how many kcal I lost because I had almost 2 hour session and PT + rowing machine made me work too, but all together I lost 823 kcal
The numbers have gone up , I have written down all my workout and kcal spent and times and what workout I did and at start I only spent 300-400 kcal in 2 hours, now its 800 . Honestly can not wait when I get to 1000 kcal =)
As for today - I booked spinning for this lunch time but Im not sure if Im going. Dont want to go back to work on Monday with hurting soft spot, lol Have LBT and Zumba planed for tonight. Will have to see if I can make it as I had some plans for tonight. Maybe I will just have to go to gym and do some swings and rowing machine. Trainer said I need to do 20 min and beat every time amount of m I did. Yesterday I did 2591 m in 20 min , so today my aim is 2650.
Also I had to measure my body fat and all the other things that smart scales can tell you.

42,5 % fat
44,5 % water
28,7 % muscles

This is what I have to work with. I think last week muscles were 28,4 - could that be that change is so big in so short time ? Dunno , but what I do know is that I have gained a kilo -again. This starts to get on my nerves , lol - the one that I still have left. I had so big dream for xmas and the way this is going I'll get there by the time 2015 xmas =)

Few photos I made to remind myself where I was and how far I have come already. 1 kilo - it will be gone with no time =)


Have a nice day everyone =) I know I will , hugs and smiles to all

 

[Destamia]

I do not know where this courage coming from as Im never been so brave in my life but today after seeing gain on my scale and other hand seeing that my muscle % have become bigger over last week I had to remind to myself, where I was. I keep forgetting how I looked , lucky for my I have made plenty of photos on a way and I want to share one with you - again , lol
I think I may have narcissism

Hope no one will be offended by it. For me seeing other people posting before and after photos big inspiration boost and I hope to give same out. Its not easy to post photo in underwear but I really want to show you how much 6 st is. And I want to tell myself that I never get this slip away ever again. Yes I have long way to go - but Im so sure I will get there and its not a race - as soon as Im size 10 tomorrow morning Im fine with it

Here it goes ( I know some photos have been stolen and used for selling all kind of drugs and bills- I try to protect mine by using watermarks on them , lol - did my best , try to ignore watermark =) )

 

[wafflewaffle]

I do not know where this courage coming from as Im never been so brave in my life but today after seeing gain on my scale and other hand seeing that my muscle % have become bigger over last week I had to remind to myself, where I was. I keep forgetting how I looked , lucky for my I have made plenty of photos on a way and I want to share one with you - again , lol I think I may have narcissism Hope no one will be offended by it. For me seeing other people posting before and after photos big inspiration boost and I hope to give same out. Its not easy to post photo in underwear but I really want to show you how much 6 st is. And I want to tell myself that I never get this slip away ever again. Yes I have long way to go - but Im so sure I will get there and its not a race - as soon as Im size 10 tomorrow morning Im fine with it Here it goes ( I know some photos have been stolen and used for selling all kind of drugs and bills- I try to protect mine by using watermarks on them , lol - did my best , try to ignore watermark =) ) <img src="http://www.minimins.com/attachment.php?attachmentid=156695"/>

Wow brill! I haven't even dated to take any underwear before photos!! Your thighs in particular at looking loads slimmer! Well done moo! You are so pretty too xx

 

[Destamia]

Thank you Waffle =) I need to have photos , other way I forget =) And it does make me feel so good about myself to see how much I have changed.