Hey girls. Sorry sorry been away, hiding my head into sand and working my butt off to get back where I was before easter.
I had 4 days off and I was thinking it will be great. Ill be on plan and all but the reality is that I was " eat everything that is not running faster then you " mood.
So as and result I gained 4 kg in 4 days...
... After putting this down here I took my time to continue writing. Dont even know what to say about it. Only whats done is done and that Im not going to give up only because im back where I was a month ago.
I keep reminding myself its not a rase and how far I have come already but same time I recognize this moment when all my other trys to lose weight started to go down.
And by that I mean being a shame and lying to my friends how bad week I really had. So here I am and said it. I did not tell my friend I had gain. I told her I stayed the same. "Rolling eyes"
25 (yes still ) years old and lying like old man about my weight. The truth is I will not tell her the truth , shes in estonia , she wont know
I did so much that I told my hubby the truth and I told you guys how its been. Will count it better then nothing.
This week Im the boss as chef is on holiday and that means Im doing 12 h days. Today I needed to make my word count. Thats so hard. I do not understand why it is so hard to do things the right way. Boys are good ( all kitchen staff are males exp me) and we have fun but today I had to make my point by being little harsh.
Other hand they are good boys and we work well together. Im sure in time everything will find the right place.
Speaking of that, next week I have manager training course that takes me to east midlands for two days. We staying in hotel and I am little worried about food there.
I cant take my food with me and Im not sure at this moment how to food is sorted. If we will be feed or not and if we are then Im very sure its something I should not have.
Two days I have been very good and back on plan. I am still doing my 12 week challenge and kettlebells too. First week did not go as I hoped for but Im not going to let some kuradi 4 kilos ruin my run
Im still totally doable and dam sexy
Food today
Im thinking I need to start posting my food again so I know myself what and how much I have
Smiles xx