My journey to lose anywhere between 10-13 stone!

[mummyem85]

I am feeling really motivated today!
I have just 5.5lbs to go until I get my 5stone - if anyone has read further back in my diary you will know I lost 6 stone before and put it all back on. 6 stone seems like such a HUGE amount of weight - surely if I get to 5 stone then I can get to 6 stone again? And 5 stone is soooo close! Even in my off plan weeks I know I am not giving up and it is just a glitch. No way am I giving this up.
Someone in group is always losing a good amount one week, then STS for 2 weeks then gain a little bit in the 4th week - it goes around in cycles for her. The consultant asked her how she carries on when she has had STS and small gains and the lady said 'well what is the alternative? I am not giving up so I just keep going' now that is a great attitude - she is just 1lb away from goal too after losing a big amount.

So looking at it that way, if I carry on chipping away at the mountain I am going to get there one day.....
I still have 8st 9.5lbs to go but hell that sounds so much better than saying I need to lose 13st 4 lbs!

So this morning I have woken up really determined to have a good week - 5.5lbs is nothing, if I have a good week I can get half of that off this week.
I drove 10 miles last night to go to Asda because no other blummin shops around here sell flying saucers (1 syn for 4! So a bag of 14 is 3.5syns!) and I can't find those new BBQ baked beans here either (free! and the chilli ones too!) I walked out with 12 bags of flying saucers and 4 cans of beans and that is it lol!
This morning I went to the local shop and bought some risotto rice (been fancying a nice risotto for a couple of weeks!), turkey breast steaks, a chicken and lots of veg. I have some EL mince beef in the freezer too and some LM sausages so it should all see me through until next Thursday.

I cannot wait to get on the scales next week because I already know this is going to be a good week

 

[mummyem85]

Going to do menu everyday this week....

Green day

BREAKFAST
Golden syrup Oat so simple porridge (6.5s) & HE milk

LUNCH
2 small slices HE toast, BBQ baked beans, orange & snack pack mattesons roast chicken (2.5s)

DINNER
Risotto made with chicken stock, courgette, onion, peas

EVENING SNACK
Oatabix bar HE, flying saucers (3.5s)

Total 12.5 syns
1 x HEA
2 X HEB

Need to work some more super free in tomorrow I think

 

[mummyem85]

Todays Menu

Extra Easy day

BREAKFAST
Golden Syrup oat so simple porridge 6.5syns & HE milk

LUNCH
BBQ beans with HE toast
roast chicken fridge raiders 1.5 syns
grapefruit

DINNER
Turkey breast steaks
broccoli
carrots
boiled potatoes
SW gravy

EVENING SNACK
2 x bags flying saucers (7 syns)
pickled eggs?

TOTAL
15 syns
1 HEA
1 HEB

Tonight my Husband wants to go up the pub which means a late night. I'm hoping that having 2 bags of flying saucers will help me out while I am there. We ALWAYS stop to get a kebab and cheesy chips on the way home but I am refusing to tonight - if I have to stop for him, I know I will get something too - and without my scales to know how well (or bad!) I am doing this week I can't see if I would be able to get away with it or not lol.
If I do get hungry they have pickled eggs behind the bar so I shall stick to them cos I love em anyway!
Fingers crossed

 

[mummyem85]

Last night I have no idea how I came home without any cheesy chips and kebab. As we left the pub I begged and begged my Husband to let me have a kebab (before going out I told him to not let me, no matter what!) and he gave in. We got in the car and I drove half way to the kebab shop. I said lets get a chicken kebab with a little mayo knowing it isn't too bad but he said no, he wanted some doner meat so we would get a doner kebab and he wasn't that hungry so I could have most of it and we would split cheesy chips.
I stopped the car and turned around, then went home and straight to bed! I did want a doner kebab and cheesy chips but I also knew I would stuff my face with all of it and I didn't want to go that far off track.
I went to bed hungry and grumbling at my long suffering Husband but I woke up this morning without kebab breath (ew I hate that taste the next morning!) and feeling really good
So yesterday was another good day!

Oh and I won the jackpot out the fruit machine last night (£250! plus another £30!) and split it with my Mum. I have £30 to go to bingo tonight and the rest will be going in my bank Monday to pay the last bit of our holiday off! OMG I cannot believe it is all paid, I can not wait to get to Disney World now! Things are working out really well for me at the moment

This morning though I broke my no scales rule I really NEEDED to see how I am doing so even though I threw my scales away I set up my wii fit and weighed myself on there! I am 1lb down according to the Wii but I am going to try not to do it again now, I want a surprise on Thursday!

Todays Menu

Red Day

BREAKFAST
golden syrup oat so simple porridge (6.5syns) &HE milk

LUNCH
Egg Mayo sandwich (2 syns) with HE bread
Fridge raiders roast chicken (1.5 syns)
Mango

DINNER
Roast chicken
SW gravy
Loads of cabbage and carrots

SNACK to take to bingo tonight
flying saucers (3.5 syns)
Oatabix bar HE

TOTAL
13.5 syns
2 x HEB
1 X HEA

I just had to edit to add I tried on some size 22 trousers yesterday and they do up!!!! I could not move in them though and definitely no sitting down in them but I tried them on after 2 stone and I couldn't get them higher than half way up my thighs! So I have no ordered another pair of 22s and hope to be in them properly by the end of January

 

[mummyem85]

Nightmare of a day but I am VERY pleased with how I handled it!<br><br>Monday is my shopping day so I went shopping, put it away then decided I would go to the cinema to watch the new Breaking Dawn film I am desperate to see. The only cinema around here that shows it at a time I could fit into the school day is 40 minutes away so I boiled an egg while putting shopping away then made an egg sandwich to eat after the film finished so I would avoid the McDonalds!<br>I got half way to the cinema and I got a phone call from pre-school. My daughter had bumped her nose on the back of another kids head - it was bleeding, swollen and she was very quiet (VERY rare for her to be quiet!) so I turned around and picked her up. She looked very sorry for hherself and the pre-school teachers insisted I took her to the minor injuries unit (I was going to anyway) to get it checked. So off I went to the MIU and they told me there might be an hour wait (12.30pm by now) as there had been an assault and they are treated before anyone else!<br>I was told to sit in a little alleyway where there were only about 10 chairs and all but 1 chair was taken up by police taking the statement of the victim. I had to sit listening to how a security guard had been bitten for 2 hours before they left! I was getting fed up, It was 2.30pm and I had left my sandwich in the car, my daughter was back to normal by now and asking to go home. It didn't help I was sat opposite a vending machine and it was staring at me lol.<br>The nurse came out and apologized to us all, she hadn't had chance to have her lunch yet so she was taking a break then and she would be as quick as she could. I sorted out someone to pick my son up because I knew then I wouldn't be able to get him myself.<br>My daughter ended up being seen at 3.10pm and all the nurse needed to do was shine a torch up her nose, give me a leaflet on head injuries and told me if when the swelling goes down I think her nose is bent I have to arrange to have it straightened out by ENT. I was in there literally 2 minutes but so glad all is OK then we sat in the car while I ate my sandwiches and my daughter ate her lunchbox she didn't get chance to eat at school<br><br>By the time I picked my son up from my friends and got home it was 4.30pm and my Husband was cooking him and the kids hot dogs. I was so tempted, I really was. I couldn't be bothered to cook anything, I was exhausted. I hauled myself out of the chair though and prepped 2 carrots and broccoli then covered 2 chicken breasts with EL mayo and HE cheese then baked for 20 minutes, Really glad I did now I really hope it shows how good I have been on Thursday!<br><br>So todays menu<br><br>Red day<br><br>BREAKFAST - oats so simple (6.5syns) &amp; HE milk<br><br>LUNCH - Egg mayo sandwich (2 syns) HE bread<br><br>DINNER - chicken breast w cheese and mayo, carrots, broccoli, muller greek yoghurt HE &amp; 2 syns<br><br>SNACK for later - oatabix bar HE and flying saucers 3.5syns<br><br>TOTAL<br>2 x HEA<br>2 x HEB<br>14 SYNS <br><br><br>

 

[Nettee]

Well done you! And I hope your daughter is ok now.

 

[ApplySomePressure]

You're doing brilliantly, well done not using those situations to go off plan! You must be feeling very proud of yourself.

 

[mummyem85]

Daughter is fine now thanks
I did feel really proud, I didn't think I would be able to resist but I did x

 

[mummyem85]

OK, before I start, excuse my ramblings - I am so happy I tend to ramble on a bit

Where to start? Well I wrote about a pair of size 22 trousers I could do up but not fit into a few days ago.... well I decided to buy another pair. The only trousers I wear are 2x size 26, 1 x size 24 - I tend to keep the size 24 to wear if I am going out anywhere and to weigh in (they are lighter of course!) so mostly I wear the 2 x 26's. They are really getting baggy now I have a really saggy bum! One pair is a long pair and they used to touch the floor before I lost weight but this Monday I was standing on them where they kept falling down, I spent the whole day trying to hold them up but it didn't work, they just got soaked through from walking in puddles! They have an elasticated waist so they do still sit on my hips but only just and only if I stand still. It is so hard to imagine I used to have to lie on the floor to do them up and they burst at the seams (which i had to sew up) because they were REALLY stretched when I sat down in them!
I decided enough was enough and I don't think I can wear them for much longer, they really look silly. So I had to order another pair really, but I didn't want to order another pair of 24s knowing they wouldn't last long. So another pair of 22s were ordered.
I decided to try them on to see if they would do up like the old pair of 22s I have and they fit me perfectly! They look tiny to me because I am so used to the 26s I was SOOOOO happy!

WI day today.........
As I was standing in the queue I had at least 4 maybe 5 people come up to me separetely and say things like 'hello skinny' 'you are disappearing' 'wow you look so good' 'aren't you doing well' and my favourite 'I haven't been for 2 weeks and I didn't recognize you there, you have lost so much!'
Really gives me a boost! Although I sat on my own again today I was in one of my confident moods and everyone that came close I spoke to so I must have spoken to 10 people plus which is amazing for me!

I have had a 100% on track week and I have noticed myself the difference between this week and last, I FEEL smaller.
So last week I had lost 4st 8.5lbs and I was so hoping for 2.5lbs this week so I could get my 5 stone next week with a little luck.
I got on the scales and it kept flicking between 20st 4lbs and 20st 5lbs, the women weighing was ohhhing and ahhing with me as it kept changing but it settled at 20st 5lbs - so the women told me to take my socks and anything else off I could to get it to land on 20st 4lbs instead - I did as she said but it still stuck on 20st 5lbs.
Still, I lost a HUGE amount this week, I lost 4.5lbs! Total now 4 stone 13 lbs!!! AND today is my 6 month anniversary

SOTW again and SOTM with 11.5lbs off for November
Think I am going to switch back to my old Xmas goal now! 3 WIs and 5.5lbs away from getting into the teens!!! So my goal this week is to lose 2lbs x

 

[mummyem85]

This week is going to be HARD!

Yesterday someone told me Bath Xmas market is really Xmasy and the kids would love it so I took them in and it was rubbish, just a load of expensive market stalls really! So on the way home because I didn't have any dinner before leaving we picked up an Indian, I always have a treat post WI so I could count it as that, I didn't even eat half of it, I was stuffed!

Today I am taking my Gran shopping to the Range. I am dropping my son off then going straight away so no chance to have my 10.30am breaskfast I usually have. I have just eaten it now and I am very aware there is a long gap between breakfast and lunchtime now! I have put an orange, banana and 2 oatabix (HEX for one and 3.5 syns for the other) bars in my bag to snack on but I have no idea what lunch will be! I am going to see if my Gran will let me take her to a pub to eat so I can have jacket potato or something SW friendly.
Tonight Scooby Doo is switching on the Xmas lights (haha!) so we are going to see and they have mulled wine and mince pies going around I think, I am pretty sure I can resist though

Monday I am having lunch with a friend and it is the 1st day of the new Xmas lunch menu too, I am determined not to have it, I will stick to jacket potato again

Then Tuesday a friend who doesn't drive has asked me to take her to a garden centre where they sell the best decorations - she is such a bad influence on me though lol, I always end up having dessert and the most cheese/fat covered thing on the menu with her - but again I am going to try to be good!

Nothing will get between me and the 19s this month! Not even Xmas lol x

 

[bigmeeky]

Great stuff, keep it up. You have done tremendously well and wil no dout see this journey through!

 

[TootyFrooty]

Hey, loving your diary and you sound so positive. It's great to feel so focused eh.

Really glad your little girl is okay.

Huge well done on your loss this week. That's truly fab. Good luck getting that 2lb off for nxt week xx

 

[mummyem85]

I did it! I lost 1lb this week and got my 5 stone!!!!
I have had a busy week which involved eating out every day. I tried to order the best thing on the menu though and it must have worked. I haven't counted my syns because TBH I didn't have a clue how to syn half of the stuff and I have been so busy I haven't had chance to look it up.
Run down of the week

Thursday - Indian for dinner (post WI usually have a treat meal!)

Friday - Took my Gran shopping, she wanted fish and chips but I kind of bullied her into going to a cafe (I feel so guilty!!!) instead where I had Jacket potato, beans and salad.

Saturday - Took the kids to McDonalds, I ordered a diet coke because it wasn't my dinner time yet but it turned out not to be diet so I threw it and had nothing! Then I went over Sainsburys and got the stuff for a chicken salad which was yummy

Sunday - Bingo night so I ordered a jacket potato with beans and salad - ate the jacket pot and beans, was saving the salad for after the next game when someone came and took my plate away! I was not happy lol

Monday - Dinner with an old work friend. I went deciding on having another jacket potato but it turns out the place where my friend works is trying to go upmarket so they have taken jacket potato off the menu! It was all creamy or cheesy so I chose the healthiest thing I could and picked a chicken and bacon salad without the dressing - although the bacon was fried and it had fried croutons in it!

Tuesday - Took Husbands niece (who is same age as me and a good friend) shopping and we had lunch on the way home. It was BOGOF on most meals except jacket potatoes! So I chose the GRILLED bacon and chicken salad - but this time the bacon was streaky and it had fried croutons in it again!

Wednesday - Finally a day in home and on track yay!

I should have written all that down before - all week I have been telling myself I have had a good week and I was getting annoyed with the scales not moving (getting my Wii fit out every morning has become part of my routine again *sigh*) I was adament I should have lost more but looking at it, well - I think I coped the best I could have with this week but I couldn't really ask to lose more after that could I? I haven't eaten enough either, all my meals have been quite small, when I don't eat enough I never lose a big amount - for me, the more I eat, the better my loss.

So, goal this week is yet again 2lbs, 3 would be better but we shall see how the week goes, at least I have a quiet week! 2 more WIs until Xmas and I am 20st 4lbs, just 4.5lbs would do but that is probably pushing it too far at this time of year! x

 

[mummyem85]

Yesterday I decided I am going to join the gym now instead of waiting until the new year. Why wait? I'm really excited about it but stupidly scared too! I used to be a member at the gym just to go swimming and I never even went in the gym - in fact I have never stepped foot inside a gym in my life!
I have asked my SW group if anyone goes to this gym and if they are friendly enough - I am so worried and it only being for the body builders (there is another gym local my mum joined and it turned out there was more fat on a brussel sprout than on any of the other members!) everyone told me there are all sorts at this place and the staff are really friendly
I need to have a 4 part induction and I thought if I wait until the new year I am sure there will be lots of new years resolution joiners and it will be hard to fit my induction in so I should just join now!
Straight after the school run I am going to go and join eeeekkkk!!!!

 

[mummyem85]

I am now a member of the gym!
As I walked across the car park I was squinting to see inside the blacked out windows. You can see in there but only just, the first person I seen was wearing a tiny boob tube type top and she was absolutely tiny, she was running at a hell of a pace and I had to look away because she made me feel bad lol. The person along the row though was an older man just cycling at his own pace which made me feel better, it really is for all ages/shapes/sizes. Then I had to look away because I realized although it was hard for me to see in the gym, they could see me perfectly!

I have a feeling number 12 is either going to be my lucky number or the most unlucky number though. My induction is booked for the 12/12/12 AND at 12PM! a little spooky!

Really excited now
Although I decided to get some cheap clothes from Asda to wear. I picked up a size 22 top and 22 trousers which fit me but I think I want the t-shirt to be looser so I might go up a size for comfort (and to hide bits when they wobble!). I thought I had a decent pair of trainers I use for walking but my Husband told me my dog had found them and chewed them up! So for now I have an £8 pair from Asda too! Not the best but hopefully I can get myself into another routine and after Xmas get some proper trainers again

 

[Nettee]

well done for making the leap and before christmas too..... Good luck with your induction.

 

[mummyem85]

well done for making the leap and before christmas too..... Good luck with your induction.

Thank You Very scared now though :wave_cry: x

 

[mummyem85]

This week has been a write off.
I have been very very bad! Think chip shop, chocolate, biscuits, a box of lindt balls, cheesy chips and doner kebab, chicken pies, bread, morrisons bakery and there is still more!

I felt like rubbish Sunday afternoon, all headachy and tired and I knew it was because of the food, I used to feel like it all the time before SW.
I am very good at getting back on plan though, I tend to fall off plan quite a bit but I climb back on again within a week which I think is a useful tool to have! I know if I do fall off plan then I get back on it soon enough.

Yesterday I decided to do success express. Menu was -

BREAKFAST - 35g porridge oats (HEB) and 250ml milk (HEA)
LUNCH - broccoli, cauliflower and leek soup with bread (HEB)
DINNER - spicy beef (loads peppers, onions, 70g mince beef, tomato puree, water and cayenne pepper) on lettuce leaves with cheese on top (HEA)

As for my syns, I bought a bucket of flying saucers last week I hadn't touched yet. There is 110 in the bucket so 27.5syns for the whole lot. Whenever I need a sugar hit I grab a few and am planning on making the bucket last over the next 3 days. Also going to have a hot chocolate each night (2.5syns a cup) = total of 35 syns over 3 days

Same menu until WI Thursday morning, I can do it - it isn't something I would want to do every week mind, and I think 3 days is my limit but I am enjoying it I just get hungry around 4pm until 5pm but I have bought some fruit to see me through

I have avoided my scales like the plague this week, I just wanted to play dumb but this morning I decided I needed to know before Thursday how much I had gained. I had been weeing all day yesterday, it felt like every 5 minutes I had to go again, I know it is a good sign and yesterday must have done me some good.
Well the scales told me I am 1lb DOWN since last WI, so I moved them and tried again but still said the same I don't take much notice of them mind, they are loosely about right, but it just shows I am not hugely up
Still going to carry on with Success express today just in case and see what it says tomorrow but I am very happy

Gym induction tomorrow and I am getting really nervous about it :/ I put on facebook earlier

'kind of regretting joining the gym now - I am rather scared about my induction tomorrow'
someone wrote back saying they would feel the same but I (as in me) really needs to go!
Thanks then lol! Gave me a giggle and reminded me even though I have lost 5 stone I still have a longggggg way to go!

 

[mummyem85]

Scales this morning = 2lbs down
Maybe my Xmas goal is in sight still?

Actually scratch that, I don't think it will be because I LOVE THE GYM!!
Me! Liking the gym! It's impossible!

Just had my induction, had a workout plan set up for me and I am planning on going again tomorrow straight after SW
Friday I have my 2nd induction (today was on cardio machines, Friday is weights )
I also booked in for studio cycling Friday evening and Step aerobics Tuesday.

Plan is to have weekends off - Monday, Wednesday, Thursday gym and the step class Tuesday and Studio cycling Friday.

I am sure I will retain water for a couple of weeks so not expecting much change on the scales

My favourite is the rowing machine, I could feel it working but it wasn't TOO painful - the cross trainer is evil, I think the devil invented it TBH. I only managed 2.5 minutes before giving up because the front of my thighs were on fire!

It can only get easier - right?
Oh and there were people there, super skinny people but no one even glanced in my direction! That was my biggest fear but turns out nothing to worry about

 

[mummyem85]

Official WI -1lb Really happy, seeing as Sunday night I was thinking I could have a 4lb gain I managed to claw it back

I went to the gym straight after and I struggled today. At my induction yesterday I think I found it easier because I had to stop inbetween and talk to the instructor so it gave me a bit of a rest. Today I just wanted to push on through it.
My plan that has been set out is

5 minutes treadmill at 6kph
5 minutes crosstrainer at 60rpm
5 minutes recliner bike at 100rpm
3 minutes on an arm cycle thingy at 60rpm
5 minutes rowing machine at 30rpm

I was really feeling it after the cross trainer, just 5 minutes wore me out so much! and my legs were like jelly. I pushed on through and finished it all but it was hard work, it looked so easy when I first looked at it! I used to think I was quite fit for my size but obviously not!
It can only get easier right?
I have my 2nd induction tomorrow at 1pm and studio cycling at 6pm - just need to get through it then give my legs a chance to heal over the weekend.
I do like knowing I am doing some good though

Just had to edit to add - I just updated my own geeky spreadsheet and I noticed I have now lost 20% of my start weight Wahoo! Look Look <<<<<< it is in my stats too really happy!