Clardie36
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Hey TG gals...I've just committed myself to a course of horse riding lessons!! It's been my life long love & I used to do it loads years ago but have been put off in recent years as the prospect of putting on jodphers just filled me with horror! Well..as part of my new found positivity I decided to go for it. The best (I hope!) part of the plan is that one of the T&C's is you have to be no heavier than 13 stone to get in the saddle & I have to complete the course by the end of June so....something else to work towards!
Whilst I'm online I'll tell you about my recent experience with REIKI....I'd never ever done it before, nor knew anyone else who had but I'd regularly driven past a place nearby that did it & literally 2 weeks ago I decided "sod it" I'm going to call & go along. Prior to that point I'd spent many many weeks, even months feeling terribly depressed & constantly emotionally upset about myself, especially about my weight. I was very tearful & simply couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel! I had my first session on the Weds & felt very groggy & tired the following day (as the lady told me I might) but come the Friday I felt clearer in my head. Something...& I genuinely don't know what, made me look at Facebook (which I never usually do) & read about a relative of mine & her husband who had lost a ton of weight since December on LL. I hadn't seen her or spoken to her for over 8 months but texted & later called her to find out more. Following that phone call I researched online about VLCD & came across Exante. Discussed it with the OH & by the Sunday had placed my order...& exactly one week after going to the first Reiki session I started on Exante!! I even felt motivated enough to go out & buy new weigh scales & stand on them for probably the first time in a couple of years...to face the truth of my weight which felt like a major milestone
It could all be a load of guff but....I will say hand on heart that when I walked into that first session I felt as low as I had for months & guarantee that I would never ever of taken the actions I did if I'd not attended - I'd probably still be moping around at home as I was before. I've been twice more since & funnily enough the emphasis of my mind set has totally switched to now thinking & visualising my future self, how I could, & will be again.
Strangely, going back to my opening line ....at my last session on Tues the first images that came into my mind were all about me & riding a horse (like something off a shampoo advert!) & the lady told me that horses represent freedom - which is my mantra for this programme - freedom from all the life restrictions I currently impose upon myself because of my weight. & then lo & behold, 24 hours later I came across the discounted riding lessons & decided to go for it!!
Soz to rant on but...I just wanted to share my little story with you!:soapbox:
Absolutely loved your story, steveio. I'm a believer....it definitely sounds as though what you're doing is meant to be. Your next phase....a happy one...and you deserve it. Oh, I know how low you can go because of weight issues....horrible, really horrible place to be. Fantastic to be visualising your future self. Pretty impossible some times when you feel like you're totally stuck. Couldn't be more chuffed for you. Thanks for sharing...made my aft
Bet you can't wait to give it your best Timotei on the horsey ha!! You'll do it. Neigh problem
I've always fancied reiki...another thing I stopped myself from doing because of my weight shame (I even lost the confidence to go to the hairdresser!). Nothing's going to stop me from doing anything soon. I'm going to start a martial art I think...giv it a bit of hiiiiiyaaaaa! :giggle: