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I AM taking my very grumpy gallbladder to the Dr shortly. I have had 7g of fat today and have been in a lot of pain all afternoon, ridiculous!
 
Mine has only started causing problems the last month, but this is 4th or 5th attack now and first day time one so finally given in and going to Dr! Longest attack so far too :(
 
GP seems pretty happy that it is my gallbladder being troublesome. Basically need to cut any unnecessary fat out of my diet to avoid attacks whilst I wait on an appointment for a scan - happy days :confused:

Mean mummy - told Chloe she had to tidy her room while her dinner was cooking (it's a sh!thole and landlord is coming to inspect on Thursday - just what I need on top of everything else right now!), then forgot to put it in the oven! Whoops
 
Starlit_Cazza said:
GP seems pretty happy that it is my gallbladder being troublesome. Basically need to cut any unnecessary fat out of my diet to avoid attacks whilst I wait on an appointment for a scan - happy days :confused:
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Couldn't they whip it out when they do your arm? ;)

Mean mummy - told Chloe she had to tidy her room while her dinner was cooking (it's a sh!thole and landlord is coming to inspect on Thursday - just what I need on top of everything else right now!), then forgot to put it in the oven! Whoops
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She'll live, I'm sure. :)
 
So I have done an embarrassing amount of washing up and kitchen cleaning, Chloe has relocated 3 piles of crap from one bit of floor to another. Grrr. I have offered to swap and said she can tidy every other room in the house and I will do her bedroom, but she is not terribly keen on that idea either
 
I've been a bit AWOL recently because I just seem to be bouncing from one crisis to another at the moment.

Today I've had a meltdown at work, I feel completely overwhelmed with my workload and the complete lack of support I get from colleagues. I ended up bawling my eyes out in my managers office. She's come up with some solutions for me to ease my work load, which mostly involve me putting in extra hours at work and being paid overtime until I get on top of it all, which is nice. I'm not keen on going to work on my shift days off but until my stress levels come down Ill have to. At least ill get paid extra.

Then tonight I get home to find a letter from my bank saying I'm £100 over drawn. I know how it's happened (trip to Leeds this weekend + few other things) but I didn't think it was that bad :( So now I'm stuck with 2 weeks to go until pay day. I can transfer the £100 out of my savings to cover that but I can't spend any more. I've got 2 weigh ins which I desperately need, but I can't afford the diet at all. I have got enough products to last me through until pay day, because despite being bad on the diet front I always feel obliged to buy the products. The lack of money is forcing me back onto the diet, which is a good thing but I can't do it without going to weigh in. I'm going to ring my CDC tomorrow and see if she'll see me for weighing only.

I feel like I've lost the plot completely, with every aspect of my life. I'm not depressed, just stressed and out of control. I hate it and don't know what the hell to do about it. I'm sick with worry about my lack of money. I'm also worried to death about my weight, which is out of control too. I'm hoping that this fact that I have no money and no food will mean I have to get back on CD properly.

I feel so alone with all these issues, I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it all, I don't want to burden my parents who are already stressed to hell with the sale of my grans house. So sorry for the essay on here, I need to get it off my chest some how.
 
Sorry you're having such a rough time surfhunny.Doing the extra hours at work will help though both to get the work sorted and to get some extra pay.If your cdc won't see you just to weigh you could you weigh yourself at boots?Not ideal I know.Could you not hang in till after payday?(says the woman who weighs herself every morning LOL) I know how you feel with money worries.I have all of £26 to last me till Monday-sounds ok until I point out that's for me and 6 kids.Well, I'm sorted-it's just the kids food but that won't go far.What are you struggling with diet wise?
 
Sally. Logically you've solved your own problem. You're going to do extra hours at work and get paid for them. You might wait a month for it to filter in but your worries about money are sorted for a while.

We'll be moving house in November. Our house sold very quickly. Viewings last Thursday, sold by 5pm Friday. I've not been to the gym for 4 weeks now but I'm cool with it as I've been having b12 injections and have had a vast amount to do in my garden and house to make it as attractive as possible.

Monday = ss day. Even going to drop my milk. I've packets left so will get going and I'm going back to CDC 1st week of June. Need butt kicks!
 
Just a quickie before I head out to work. My CDC is happy for me to go and just weigh, phew! Also my friend put the following photo on FB from Friday night..... Man I NEED to do this, I need to get rid of that big fat round head!!!!!!

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Fat b@st@rd!!!
 
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The weather is awful, I can't believe it's the middle of May it feels like November, so cold and miserable.

I had a chat with my CDC yesterday about my ever increasing weight and complete lack of motivation. She blames the immense stress I'm under at work! It's not giving me the chance to think about anything else because I'm constantly thinking about work, I've put myself so far down in my list of priorities that its not registering as something I have to take care of. Which makes sense.

But I see it as another piece of evidence that I'm failing to keep all my balls in the air. I've dropped the diet ball already, and the work ball is seriously in danger of falling too. My immediate manager (who I've had problems with in the past) is on my case again, I got a big telling off yesterday because I can't give him a copy of my patient list plans yet. I'm waiting for one of the surgeons secretary's to get back to me with dates, but he blames me and will not listen to reason. He fails to see that while he has been ill this past year I've been the one backing him up, supporting him, making sure his jobs are completed for him etc as well as trying to keep my own head above water!

So I'm going in to work on my day off on Monday to sort this out once and for all, something he would never do! And if he finds out I'm getting paid over time to do it he'll kick off I'm sure, so this little fact stays between me and my department manager!

It boils down to the fact that I have too many managers who all want a piece of me!! I actually have 8 managers!!!!!!
1 divisional manager - biggest boss
1 deputy divisional manager - biggest bosses deputy
1 department manager - my ally
2 operational leads - who sort out rota's, annual leave etc
3 clinical leads - my immediate bosses (incidentally the same pay grade as me)
It's a joke!! Too many chiefs not enough Indians.

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Gloomy day, totally matches my mood.
 
Wow that is a lot of chiefs! Hate to say but weather is lovely here. I have lost 1lb finally having gained 4 or 5 its nice to see it go back down!!!

Took Chloe for a hair cut. She has had 8 inches off! She has only ever had a trim before but the morning battles have finally got too much and she requested a proper cut. Hurrah.
 
Full of stinking cold :( Packing in the vitamin C - really need it gone before my pre-op on Monday! Really don't want this to affect my op date!

Saw the Consultant yesterday. Found out I am now going to be in plaster for 2 weeks post op :( Originally was told it would be a thick bandage, but as he is fiddling around with the bone too he has decided I need to be plastered for a fortnight. Happy days - not! Have got some zinc, vitamin E and aloe vera gel tablets to take after surgery - all should apparently help with healing. Don't know how much truth there is in that but working on the theory they can't do any harm?!
 
You should take arnica tablets. They're good for healing!
 
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You should take arnica tablets. They're good for healing!
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My sister mentioned those too earlier. Knew you could get cream but didn't know about tablets. Will look for some tomorrow
 
Cazza I hope your cold gets better fast!! I wouldn't worry too much about it affecting your surgery date though. Also I'm glad it's soon rather than when you've got your holidays booked. Talking all those remedies won't do any harm and might just work. Have you had to go up the steps prior to surgery? And how long afterward until you can get back to ssing?

So tomorrow I'm going into work on my day off, I'm silently fuming about it, and seriously hope I get caught up in the Four hours I've allocated myself! I really don't want to spend all day there. I'm not taking a uniform so no-one can get me involved in clinical work!! I get annoyed because my immediate boss get allocated admin time and refuses to use them whereas I could seriously benefit from admin time but I have to use my own time. Grr!
 
Grrr indeed - we used to have "protected time" in my last job for writing reports etc. Protected time my ar$e! Protected time generally worked out as 2 or 3 hours after the end of a 12 hours shift - fun!

I have stepped up to 1200cals. Not exactly as per Cambridge plan but pretty close. I can hopefully go back to SS after a month, but depends really how I am healing!

Have made soup in the slow cooker today. It is not good. Bah. Going to have to think of a plan B!
 
Day 1 (again)! I need to do this as I've lost control of my weight! I weigh for too much to even tell my mm friends. To out it bluntly, I've turned into a right fat pig and am now needing to loose a ridiculous amount... 5st :( disgusting! I'm so ashamed! I have 12 weeks until my holidays so realistically 10 weeks if ss and 2 of moving up plans. It's going to be a race against time for my hols. Hopefully I can get down to less than I was last August or at the very least the same. This means a 3st loss minimum!
 
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Surfhunny hope you get caught up in the 4 hours.Don't do more than that.You need a break from work or it makes the rest of the week so much harder.

Starlit-my soups always taste awful.My mum makes great soup but it's not exactly a low cal version.

nikki-I need to lose 12 stone so I wish I had 5 to lose LOL. You can do it :)

I lose 12lbs last week(first week) a good start :)
 
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