nikki's diary - closed...... moved over to maintenance to test the water!

Yep Ive phoned them....

6.1.11

Waist - 29"
Bust - 39"
Hips - 37"
 
great things said:
Yep Ive phoned them....

6.1.11

Waist - 29"
Bust - 39"
Hips - 37"
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phoned them lol. i mean i keep them on my iphone. :) i wondered who i'd phoned then.

lost plot diet wise last night. letting you lovely ladies down. just had my first shake now at lunchtime. i've been busy working through my self induced headache. can't drink anything these days without getting a headache.

so i've hoovered the car, cleaned it out. washed it and polished it. i even tacked the boot and took out the dog cover, cleaned it and put it back.

then i put emily to work in the kitchen washing some pots.
 
Ha ha I wondered who you were phoning for your measurements :) as for the diet your not letting anyone down!! You've done so well, and I think when you get to the stage you're at it's actually the hardest part of the diet. I also think that so long as you have more good days than bad days you'll be okay.

Can't wait for our bob things to arrive, take pics of yours when it comes :D
 
i will do :) ordered large. hope they fit ok.
 
went to see my mum this afty. she's doing so well. she's getting around in her wheelchair and we've been taking her down to the coffee shop as an outing. she's trying so hard to be independent. i just worry that she's trying too hard too quickly.

the consultant has mentioned her coming out next week. the house isn't sorted for her yet though. SB council are dropping a few aides off tomorrow and we'll go from there. the shower room needs to be a wet room now so a new flooring needs to be laid and her doors of her shower need to come off.

it's really hard to stand there and watch her do things and you're itching to help but i know that is not what she needs right now. she needs the security of you being there not the help. she's coping well.
 
i am so bored tonight. i'm thinking of going to bed. i keep refreshing the pages on here and fb to see if anyone's written anything i can reply to. argh! it's only just after 9pm.

where is everyone..... oh, yes, they've got a life :)

how much water can i actually drink tonight?

not been bad today.

3 cd products
1 meal
milk option and a small amount of cheese. i'm fighting off the cheese urge by drinking a pint of water each time i get up to go to the loo and pass the fridge.... the fridge that has the cheese in it... the fridge that looks at me and says 'i have cheese! you want cheese? come to me and feed your cheese addiction!' the fridge is my supplier of cheese. my cheese dealer. i need a lock on it.

i have 2 fridges. when we moved house the kitchen had a built in one but i have my big american fridge freezer. i love it. my built in fridge is tiny. it contains chocolates, biscuits, haribos, wine, beers, tins of cola (diet). i don't care. my USA fridge contains the cheese..... it's the supplier and the one that's causing me pain. dam you cheese, dam you and your cheesiness.
 
Hahaha! I am also avoiding the cheese as it's weigh in day tomoz! Oh and the eggs, scrambled eggs with grated cheese! Nom nom non!
 
Oh and I too am refreshing!
 
eggs.... nah! just cheese.... lovely cheese. nom nom.
 
Hmmm Wensleydale and cranberries! Luckily I'm not allowed it, otherwise I would!

Do you find cheese gives you super protein breath?

Where is Sally this evening?
 
i'm really liking the cheesiness of asda's own medium strength white stuff. not bothered about the faffy things in it :) it's nicer than cathedral city.

yep you can smell the breath all the way in cornwall :):):)
 
I've been refreshing all day lol, it's been quiet all day, then my best friend came round to visit and I've missed all sorts lol. But we had a good chat, and she's talked me out of my big stress about being off work for so long.

The crap is going to hit the fan when they get my sick note :( ah well not a lot I can do.

Glad to hear your mums doing better. You must be relieved!
 
very relieved. :) wrote something in your diary about your sick. do not stress. it will make healing take longer especially if you try to do things that you shouldn't you could cause yourself more injury and be out of work and off sick for longer.

put on weight this week. i'm a def dumb blonde. argh! 1 step forward and several backwards.
 
i did put on. wasn't too bad. 2.5lbs on. talked to my cdc and it's just my headspace i need to sort. she said i've had a lot to deal with and it's not that bad. i've coped really well with it all and it could have been worse. my mini meltdown. she's wondering if i'm still in xmas mood with xmas being all over the place and you know, i think she's right. we have yet to have xmas at my parents house. with my mum being in hospital we brought over gifts and they're un-opened as my mum and dad want an xmas re-run when my mum comes home. so xmas all over again. so maybe i'm still waiting for the big xmas that we normally have. the dinner, gifts etc.

hopefully this can happen next week sometime and then i can let go and move on.

we've set a date for me moving up plans. 3 weeks time. i said that i'd given myself a week. not to loose the weight but to get my head back to where it needs to be. if i can stick it out a week or in other words 168 hours, then i'll stay on the 810 plan for another couple of weeks to get to target then move up.

p.s i feel like i'm giving up if i don't get to target. daft as i've blasted any previous target. it's just i need to get there. i can't give up. i need to follow through and finish.
 
nikki, have no words of wisdom as am struggling myself! just wanted to pop in and say you have done amazingly well. if i was you and had been through what you had been through recently i would have been back at my start weight! keep going and have a good day.
 
well after weigh in i've given myself a sharp shock. i need to do this. i think it's easier the more you have to loose but at this rate i might as well have 2 stone to loose the messing around i'm doing.

i've been battling eating stuff all day long. it's monday if i come off plan today i can get back on it tomorrow thoughts floating around. this is what causes me problems to start with. so... been on plan all day so far and it's 5.30pm. i've one more shake to have and half my tea left to finish. no extra cheese etc. 3 pints of water 4 coffees and i'm drink a coke zero right now to stop pigging out on cr*p. hubby's back tonight, just phoned me. he's back a bit earlier than he thought he was going to be and he's going to get a takeout. bl**dy hellllllll! not bothered. i'll have a coffee and try to save my last product til he gets home with the illegal food substances formally known as donner.
 
Go for it Nikki that's the spirit!!! Hope you survive the donner, it's dirty food anyway lol. I would kill for it right now though! It's a bloody good job I can't really walk right now because I just heard the ice-cream van in the next street, just fancy a big old ice-cream!!
 
the donner doesn't bother me as i'm a vegetarian. i don't like pizza either it's just the dirty word takeout.
 
*Shanny* said:
Heey Nikki i agree with Sal great spirit hun.!

take this diet day by day, you will get there really soon.x
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it's 168 hours that's all. i'm now some hours down from that too.
 
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