No more excuses

[Rkmriddell]

Aww hun, what a nightmare - divorce is messy huh. Don't let the b@stard beat you down, you're better than him and will soon be shot big hugs x

 

[snowwhite85]

I'm trying not to. Was so angry this morning and even now food isn't appealing to me. I just want alcohol lol I'll get through it eventually, just keeps getting dragged on and on and on and sick and tired of it all. Thanks for the support

 

[Rkmriddell]

I'm trying not to. Was so angry this morning and even now food isn't appealing to me. I just want alcohol lol I'll get through it eventually, just keeps getting dragged on and on and on and sick and tired of it all. Thanks for the support

hope you're either feeling better or very on your way to being incapable of thinking about it lol. X

 

[snowwhite85]

Ha ha, neither unfortunately. Yesterday did go bad: 100mls of wine (3.5 syns), vodka (4 syns), half a mars bar (6.5 syns), and pasta in sauce (1 syn). And today's not going to go much better if my stress is anything to go by. Loads of things messing up r.e. evidence of finances, etc. :cry: Just nothing seems to be going right at the mo. Oh well, I've done everything I can, just need to wait and see what happens, I still want to get drunk though!
:break_diet:
Chances are the next few days I am going to be off plan or way over on syns so I'm accepting that but still keeping tabs on what I'm having instead of ignoring the fact. Stress=food and alcohol for me and although I've been to the gym to try to get my anger out, alcohol (and no doubt food after) is still very much needed!arty0036: Drowning my sorrows will definitely be happening and I accept that as my own responsibility.

So here's today's plan:

Magic porridge (hexb)
Banana and 2 Clementines
Rice and Sweetcorn
half a mars bar (6.5)
100 mls dry white wine (3.5)
Jacket with chilli (hexb)

Running total syns= 74/105

On the plus side I went to the gym this morning and did about an hour's solid work (cardio, weights and abs, etc.) Trying to get my frustrated energy out lol. Poor people in the solicitors must have thought I was a loony!

 

[Rkmriddell]

It's good though that you're still sticking in with sensible choices and not having a blow out completely - so as much as you may be going slightly off plan, you're doing it the right way enjoy your drinks and well done for getting to the gym to kill off the stress... i'm very impressed

xxx

 

[snowwhite85]

Awww, thank you I thought I had done well until something else happened today and I was bouncing round the office like a boxer: think I might need to go back tomorrow lol

 

[Rkmriddell]

LOL - you'll be slimmer and sexier than ever when you're divorce comes through if you keep that up lol x

 

[snowwhite85]

Ha ha, I guess that's the positive note! Unfortunately it means I can't sit still to study though Oh well, at least I may actually socialise this weekend instead of being locked in a room with a book :8855:

 

[Rkmriddell]

LOL you won't take anything in anyway whilst you're so angry hun, my advice - go out with your friends and have a really good drink and dance, take the stress out. Then gym tomorrow, lots of frustration out and back to studying x

 

[snowwhite85]

Sounds like a plan to me. Got to cut the mother's hair this afty (ex life = hairdresser) so might have a night in tonight depending how I feel after, or even a night in the working men's club with the mother but I'm at a house party tomorrow night so will make the most of it then.
Nice to know some people understand that mental state affects study. Last night the OH actually said "so what are you doing now?" my answer "sat on my backside with a vodka"
his reply "you could be studying" ?!?!?! :argh:

I know everyone wants me to do well but seriously I also need downtime. Especially when stressed

Yet another rant over lol, enjoy Sims

 

[Rkmriddell]

Sounds like a plan to me. Got to cut the mother's hair this afty (ex life = hairdresser) so might have a night in tonight depending how I feel after, or even a night in the working men's club with the mother but I'm at a house party tomorrow night so will make the most of it then.
Nice to know some people understand that mental state affects study. Last night the OH actually said "so what are you doing now?" my answer "sat on my backside with a vodka"
his reply "you could be studying" ?!?!?! :argh:

I know everyone wants me to do well but seriously I also need downtime. Especially when stressed

Yet another rant over lol, enjoy Sims

I work in numbers. I know that you have to be focused or it's no good. Have many days were I just can't zone myself in enough to get anything done. Have a chilling weekend, on bex's orders lol. X

 

[snowwhite85]

Ha ha, y thank you Mother has dragged me to the bingo and forced wine, Malibu and archers down my neck so far. Love my mother Amd the prospect of winning money is always nice I really am lucky to have so many lovely ppl around me

 

[Rkmriddell]

Ha ha, y thank you Mother has dragged me to the bingo and forced wine, Malibu and archers down my neck so far. Love my mother Amd the prospect of winning money is always nice I really am lucky to have so many lovely ppl around me

Will cross my fingers for you then lol x

 

[snowwhite85]

Okay, so last night I have no idea how many syns I had. Started at bingo at 6:30 and strolled in with the mother about 2 this morning after karaoke at the local pub. And I have decided, after a few weeks of deliberation, that my new weigh in day is a saturday. Looks like Sunday is now going to be my regular day off so if there's a day I'm going to socialise etc Sat will be it. Will be nice to see where I am beforehand so...........starting afresh. Starting again today with my weekly syns and a weight of (must be the dehydration)
9 stone 8!!!!!!!!!! Omg.
No idea what I'm eating today as yet. Was opening evening last night at the bingo (well taken over by Gala) so lots of free food, icecream, sweeties, choccies and wine. So I'm thinking it might be a water day today, till the party tonight at least starting afresh with a clean slate.
Wish me luck

 

[Rkmriddell]

Okay, so last night I have no idea how many syns I had. Started at bingo at 6:30 and strolled in with the mother about 2 this morning after karaoke at the local pub. And I have decided, after a few weeks of deliberation, that my new weigh in day is a saturday. Looks like Sunday is now going to be my regular day off so if there's a day I'm going to socialise etc Sat will be it. Will be nice to see where I am beforehand so...........starting afresh. Starting again today with my weekly syns and a weight of (must be the dehydration)
9 stone 8!!!!!!!!!! Omg.
No idea what I'm eating today as yet. Was opening evening last night at the bingo (well taken over by Gala) so lots of free food, icecream, sweeties, choccies and wine. So I'm thinking it might be a water day today, till the party tonight at least starting afresh with a clean slate.
Wish me luck

Whoop!! Check you out with 9st 8 missy. Dehydration or not nice to see it sounds like you had a great night. Good luck staying on plan till your party xxx

 

[snowwhite85]

Okay so yesterday was yet another wipe out. Hungover so just wanted to eat bad food :-( Haven't counted syns but back on plan today. Yesterday I had donut, cupcake, happy meal, curry chips and fried rice, a creme egg, and crisps with dip :O But I did stick to my low alcohol wine and make it last all night Meant to be at a christening tonight but will see what happens.

Today's green day

Weetabix (hexb) with half a sugar (.5 syn) and milk (hexa)
Mugshot
Banana
Lamb (hexb) with carrots, peas, cauliflower. SW roasties and parsnips and cabbage.
1 Oreo (2.5 syns)

3 syns

If I go to the christening I will try to stick to soft drinks

Hope the few days off haven't ruined my chances but at least I'm back on it. Only 8 lbs to go now!!!!

 

[Rkmriddell]

Okay so yesterday was yet another wipe out. Hungover so just wanted to eat bad food :-( Haven't counted syns but back on plan today. Yesterday I had donut, cupcake, happy meal, curry chips and fried rice, a creme egg, and crisps with dip :O But I did stuck to my low alcohol wine and make it last all night Meant to be at a christening tonight but will see what happens.

Today's green day

Weetabix (hexb) with half a sugar (.5 syn) and milk (hexa)
Mugshot
Banana and 2 clementines
Lamb (hexb) with carrots, peas, smash and cabbage. OH is making the Sunday dinner so may end up with other things I don't know about, wait and see.

If I go to the christening I will try to stick to soft drinks

Hope the few days off haven't ruined my chances but at least I'm back on it. Only 8 lbs to go now!!!!

Ouch. That's a lot of junk normal Saturday for me when I'm off plan lol. Mmm roast lamb. Haven't had that in ages. Sounds gorgeous.

Enjoy the christening if you go, Gonna take the kids out today I think x

 

[snowwhite85]

I know. It's horrendous. My mam works for Greggs and brought loads of treats round Friday so I couldn't resist. It could have been worse: at least I had a happy meal and not a large big mac meal. Also I could only eat half my Chinese cos appetite has shrank: once upon a time I would have eaten the whole portion and then prawn crackers as well!
Where you taking the kids then? I'm off to work till 12, then study till 3, gym till 5, home, tea, christening? Trying to persuade OH that we don't have to go. I like my Sunday evenings in front of the TV

 

[Rkmriddell]

I know. It's horrendous. My mam works for Greggs and brought loads of treats round Friday so I couldn't resist. It could have been worse: at least I had a happy meal and not a large big mac meal. Also I could only eat half my Chinese cos appetite has shrank: once upon a time I would have eaten the whole portion and then prawn crackers as well!
Where you taking the kids then? I'm off to work till 12, then study till 3, gym till 5, home, tea, christening? Trying to persuade OH that we don't have to go. I like my Sunday evenings in front of the TV

Oooo I love gregge. Yum Yums are my favourite lol.

Not sure yet, maybe the wacky or something, see what sort of mood they're in later. They're in full blown play fight mode at the moment, sigh! Was supposed to be going to hatton country world but hubby wanted to do next week instead as he was out last night and so will be hanging. Your day sounds good, maybe you could just pop along briefly? I've also got to fit in the ironing at some point, yawn!

 

[snowwhite85]

At least the kids are enjoying themselves you'll have your hands full taking care of the OH won't u?
I have a massive pile of ironing to do too. Hence y I can't really be bothered with the christening Plus we're both up at 6, and out almost 12 hrs tomorrow so would be nice to catch up on some sleep before the rat race starts again we shall see. If he wants to go I'll do my duty and go with. Cos I'm lovely like that

I love the wacky, but too big to go on things now, sob. Lol. They should make a grown ups one