Notlongnow - diary of a past self sabotager - no more though!

[notlongnow]

so have come on here as a bit of light relief - not sure that I deserve it really but its just too tempting to catch up. Having to catch up on water as I havent had enough this morning.

Just had an invite for friends 25th wedding anniversary on 16th June - night after one of my 2 social engagements whilst on CD - my immediate reaction is "Im not going to go" as I know it will be 2 nights off plan and I know that is dangerous for me. Will have to see how I feel later - half of me thinks will be nice etc etc for my friend but I know when the time comes I wont want to go - not only because of CD but also we dont know that many of her friends and so it is always more of a struggle without copious amounts of alcohol - not thought to be recommended on CD - haha!! Whats also funny is when faced with a date of some function or anohter I immediately work out in my head what weight I should be on that date!!! Presuming it all drops off according to plan and I dont face pizzagate!!!!

 

[notlongnow]

Why am I finding it harder to stick to the last couple of days???

Off to book club tonight so will have my shake just before going so I don't get tempted by the nibbles, cheese and puds that will be on offer.

I declined my friend's offer to come pick me up so I could drink so that's one side of it dealt with.

Am sure i'll be fine as I'm better with others around just find myself thinking of eating and being tempted more this week!!!

 

[therealbbe]

so have come on here as a bit of light relief - not sure that I deserve it really but its just too tempting to catch up. Having to catch up on water as I havent had enough this morning.

Just had an invite for friends 25th wedding anniversary on 16th June - night after one of my 2 social engagements whilst on CD - my immediate reaction is "Im not going to go" as I know it will be 2 nights off plan and I know that is dangerous for me. Will have to see how I feel later - half of me thinks will be nice etc etc for my friend but I know when the time comes I wont want to go - not only because of CD but also we dont know that many of her friends and so it is always more of a struggle without copious amounts of alcohol - not thought to be recommended on CD - haha!! Whats also funny is when faced with a date of some function or anohter I immediately work out in my head what weight I should be on that date!!! Presuming it all drops off according to plan and I dont face pizzagate!!!!

Yeah pizzagate is a no no hahahahah xxxx

 

[therealbbe]

Why am I finding it harder to stick to the last couple of days???

Off to book club tonight so will have my shake just before going so I don't get tempted by the nibbles, cheese and puds that will be on offer.

I declined my friend's offer to come pick me up so I could drink so that's one side of it dealt with.

Am sure i'll be fine as I'm better with others around just find myself thinking of eating and being tempted more this week!!!

Hey we all have days like that arggggg nightmare. Nice on getting out of having to drink yeah def drive yaself so much easier. Have a lovely time at your book club what you all havin to read??? Xxxx

 

[notlongnow]

God it was deadly dull this time round called Netherland - was a real struggle to get through. I will be mentioning mr grey tonight & see if anyone has read them - much more interesting!!

 

[Zest for Life]

Yeah pizzagate is a no no hahahahah xxxx

Te me about it!!! Lol x

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[Zest for Life]

God it was deadly dull this time round called Netherland - was a real struggle to get through. I will be mentioning mr grey tonight & see if anyone has read them - much more interesting!!

Really lol id love to be in the pub when you discuss mr grey.
Who chooses what to read? You should put in a grey trilogy request, that will liven it up a bit xxx

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[therealbbe]

God it was deadly dull this time round called Netherland - was a real struggle to get through. I will be mentioning mr grey tonight & see if anyone has read them - much more interesting!!

Yeah def let me know what they say heheheheh xxx

 

[therealbbe]

Te me about it!!! Lol x

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Hehehhehehhehe if we talk about it it will never happen xxxxx

 

[notlongnow]

Couple of them quite straight so I'll see how it goes!!

We take it in turns to bring 3-4 books than vote and the most popular wins! Only meet every couple of months to make it manageable. Quite a mix in the group 3-4 of them I'm really friendly with & a couple who are bit straight & a bit intellectual for me!!! Started years ago as all kids were in primary school together so it's nice social as apart from 2-3 don't see the others apart from here as all kids at different schools now.

Must go - will report if I brave enough to bring a bit of S&m into the conversation!!!!!

 

[therealbbe]

Couple of them quite straight so I'll see how it goes!!

We take it in turns to bring 3-4 books than vote and the most popular wins! Only meet every couple of months to make it manageable. Quite a mix in the group 3-4 of them I'm really friendly with & a couple who are bit straight & a bit intellectual for me!!! Started years ago as all kids were in primary school together so it's nice social as apart from 2-3 don't see the others apart from here as all kids at different schools now.

Must go - will report if I brave enough to bring a bit of S&m into the conversation!!!!!

Hahahahah have lovely evening sweetie xxxx

 

[Rkmriddell]

so have come on here as a bit of light relief - not sure that I deserve it really but its just too tempting to catch up. Having to catch up on water as I havent had enough this morning.

Just had an invite for friends 25th wedding anniversary on 16th June - night after one of my 2 social engagements whilst on CD - my immediate reaction is "Im not going to go" as I know it will be 2 nights off plan and I know that is dangerous for me. Will have to see how I feel later - half of me thinks will be nice etc etc for my friend but I know when the time comes I wont want to go - not only because of CD but also we dont know that many of her friends and so it is always more of a struggle without copious amounts of alcohol - not thought to be recommended on CD - haha!! Whats also funny is when faced with a date of some function or anohter I immediately work out in my head what weight I should be on that date!!! Presuming it all drops off according to plan and I dont face pizzagate!!!!

Tbh hun she probably won't even notice shell be that busy talking with everyone else. I'd RSVP yes then throw a sickie save offending anyone? Lol that's a great way to look at it, will really keep you motivated x

 

[Rkmriddell]

Why am I finding it harder to stick to the last couple of days???

Off to book club tonight so will have my shake just before going so I don't get tempted by the nibbles, cheese and puds that will be on offer.

I declined my friend's offer to come pick me up so I could drink so that's one side of it dealt with.

Am sure i'll be fine as I'm better with others around just find myself thinking of eating and being tempted more this week!!!

I've been the same last couple of days. Just our minds playing tricks on us. But we're in control not the other way round! I Know you're gonna be fine

What book you reading? Love that you're part of a book club x

 

[Rkmriddell]

God it was deadly dull this time round called Netherland - was a real struggle to get through. I will be mentioning mr grey tonight & see if anyone has read them - much more interesting!!

definitely more fun than anything called Netherland. You wouldn't recommend that one then eh c

 

[Rkmriddell]

Couple of them quite straight so I'll see how it goes!!

We take it in turns to bring 3-4 books than vote and the most popular wins! Only meet every couple of months to make it manageable. Quite a mix in the group 3-4 of them I'm really friendly with & a couple who are bit straight & a bit intellectual for me!!! Started years ago as all kids were in primary school together so it's nice social as apart from 2-3 don't see the others apart from here as all kids at different schools now.

Must go - will report if I brave enough to bring a bit of S&m into the conversation!!!!!

I would love to be a fly on the wall haha x

 

[Zest for Life]

Have a good evening xxx

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[notlongnow]

definitely more fun than anything called Netherland. You wouldn't recommend that one then eh c

No most definitely not - it was deadly dull!!! Well I failed - before you jump to conclusions not on the food/drink front - I resisted everything despite my friend next to me eating and wafting Pringles breath at me followed by cheese breath followed by brownies & caramel shortbread breath at me - yes she is still alive but only just!!!!

No I failed on the mr grey front - I did mention it and the intellectual one gave me such a look "well I've heard what kind of book THAT is" - I nearly burst out laughing like the naughty schoolgirl that I am but apart from sayi'ng I had read books 1&2 didn't go into more details. The same intellectual (boring) one did say I saw it on the shelve and had t really realised what I was looking at - I did feel like saying (oh FFS lighten up a bit!!!) but luckily I hadn't been drinking so was well behaved !!!

Its my turn to take the book choices - so any suggestions please - who thinks I should just offer smutty ones!!!!!

 

[Zest for Life]

No most definitely not - it was deadly dull!!! Well I failed - before you jump to conclusions not on the food/drink front - I resisted everything despite my friend next to me eating and wafting Pringles breath at me followed by cheese breath followed by brownies & caramel shortbread breath at me - yes she is still alive but only just!!!!

No I failed on the mr grey front - I did mention it and the intellectual one gave me such a look "well I've heard what kind of book THAT is" - I nearly burst out laughing like the naughty schoolgirl that I am but apart from sayi'ng I had read books 1&2 didn't go into more details. The same intellectual (boring) one did say I saw it on the shelve and had t really realised what I was looking at - I did feel like saying (oh FFS lighten up a bit!!!) but luckily I hadn't been drinking so was well behaved !!!

Its my turn to take the book choices - so any suggestions please - who thinks I should just offer smutty ones!!!!!

Naughty naughty !!!
You should tell her you have your own erotica tips n teasers section on minimins and it is causing quite a stir!
Well done resisting the food and drink, your doing bloody brilliant!

Your turn to choose, have you any ideas what your going to pick? I guess mr grey is out of the picture now.?
Does el James have anymore books?
Or maybe a good old gang land book by martins cole would wake them up a little
Xxx

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[Zest for Life]

Oh and good morning btw xxx

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[therealbbe]

No most definitely not - it was deadly dull!!! Well I failed - before you jump to conclusions not on the food/drink front - I resisted everything despite my friend next to me eating and wafting Pringles breath at me followed by cheese breath followed by brownies & caramel shortbread breath at me - yes she is still alive but only just!!!!

No I failed on the mr grey front - I did mention it and the intellectual one gave me such a look "well I've heard what kind of book THAT is" - I nearly burst out laughing like the naughty schoolgirl that I am but apart from sayi'ng I had read books 1&2 didn't go into more details. The same intellectual (boring) one did say I saw it on the shelve and had t really realised what I was looking at - I did feel like saying (oh FFS lighten up a bit!!!) but luckily I hadn't been drinking so was well behaved !!!

Its my turn to take the book choices - so any suggestions please - who thinks I should just offer smutty ones!!!!!

Yes def why not and are they really smutty i have read then all only had sample but from the sample it is actually a story and not just naughty heheheheh. Xxx